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Sugat na nagnanaknak Balat na inaagnas Nauubos na dugo Sinisipsip ng linta
Prutas na nabubulok Nabubulok ang lamang loob Malansang amoy na umaalingasaw Uod na lumalamon sa laman Tahimik na pumapatay Ngumunguya ng palihim Sinisira ang malusog na anyo Ang anyo ng huwad na katotohanan
Nakasusuklam, nakasusuya Nakasusuka, mapait na lasa sa labi Ngunit walang luhang itatangis Hindi maghihinagpis Hahayaang mabulok Hahayaang mamatay
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a plumage of anxiety
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(C) 2022 Trigger warning: non-suicidal self injury. PLEASE DO NOT READ IF YOU ARE NOT IN A SAFE HEADSPACE. THIS PIECE DOES NOT PROMOTE SELF INJURY. IT'S AN EXPRESSION OF HOW IT FEELS. I AM NOT BY ANY MEANS PERSUADING ANY READERS OF ANY DEMOGRAPHIC TO ENGAGE IN THIS BEHAVIOUR.
she is lost but she does not crave to be found. her world went quiet but she accepted it cause in some sick and destructive way it brought her peace and she felt safe in her own madness. And although her days are full of tears and anguish... she cant picture herself ever getting out of this labyrinth of suffering she trapped herself in. this is her silent punishment.
I need you to walk away, to forget about me, be happy. I'll live with this pain each day but I won't let it ever break me. My love is my own mistake. Don't be sad for me, please, forget me. "Go back to him, now!" I ache... "I'm in anguish, with you!" Be happy... I need you to walk away. I need you...
about loving a man who is happy with another, sending away but not able to let go
I'm not who I was never have I been who I am My love and admiration twist I have no confidence because I am cognitively dissonant raised with values too extreme for humanity not able to shake free of them I've done terrible things, too few I regret and even those still echo desire in the depths of me but I'm not going to allow myself to wake in this darkness not going to be complacent pain follows change, but so too does joy I'm not yet free, not yet me I don't know if I can break free but I do know I'm not done yet
growing up in a strict religious household with puritanical extremes of what is acceptable behavior and zero tolerance for worldly desires has hurt me and my ability to be a person capable of love. I'm flawed and i am trying to find beauty in myself, but I don't know if I'm strong enough.