I take a jagged breath. Eyes closed. Facing the wall. I squeeze tighter. "If you ignore it, it should go away". My mattress shaking violently, like a earthquake is splitting the ground beneath me, threatening to drag me in. Another jagged breath. It begins to rain. My pillow, now a desolate pool of ocean water, polluted by my thoughts. I bury my nose deep between the eyes of sadness living in my bedroom. "If you ignore it, it will surely go away". My mantra. A hiccup from unsteady gasps. The lights are not flickering, that's you shaking again. I hope sometimes it would stop So I try to ignore it But deep down inside I know if I didn't storm I would never be exausted enough for my brain to welcome sleep.
I am unsteady Unable to cope with these thoughts With each new trouble I'm never ready Unprepared for what life has thrown Feeling as if I could choke On these memories I own I'm not worthy of what is good But not deserving of the evils If I could erase the past I would And still I can't forget what I should
i should be in a war i should be fighting for my own freedom the mind is not a joke its difficult to control i feel like crying but whats the use we are all in a journey the destination we all know about it just do not take me yet let me breath for a while let me laugh like my friends i deserve it, this is not the end yet telling me about how life is useless will not help i need to be normal the mind is not a joke
Dear parents, Am I myself today? I must know Because some days I can feel I am,
You to hold me close,
I'm feel ing
Shoutout to God for the amazing parents I have! I may not always think that, and I still may not agree with what they say, but honestly they're wonderful. And I'm so thankful for their encouragement and their councel and their patience. Thank you guys. And thank You, God!