I'll remember the All Stars
Covered in mud from our roaming
Through summer festival love;
And starry skies above
As we wondered through the night
Until the Sun kissed us;
The rocking of bodies,
Beneath blankets of darkness,
Our skin shimmering
In the moonlight.
I'll remember that.

But the dreams changed & faded
As the world turned
A new sun rose:
Fuelling my heart with desires,
Passions of bigger things.
I grew wings and
I flew to meet the horizon.
But you, you wouldn't see me
As I went into the light.
And so, your world became dark.
I left you there. I left your heart.

I could only carry one.
I was only strong for one.
I'd hoped you'd grow with me.
But you couldn't see.
You couldn't breathe
The bigger dreams in.
The things I chose
For me. For my destiny.
You needed to fumble through more muddy fields,
Dream beneath the same stars longer.
I left you there.
Because I cared too much.
And we'd started to tear.
The seams ripping open.
Breaking us was more than I could bare.
So I left you there. I left you.

You rebel
Unconventional to your own standards
Of what being means.
Because its the only freedom
You can believe
When you're binding yourself
By all the rules
And guilt
Given to you by society,
Religion, elders and facts.
Where's the questioning,
Where's the daring to be,
The test in your own limits
And the push against your own conformity that you refuse to see.
Where is the open mind
You claim you have?
Who are you without it all?
Who are you without you?
Can you push the boundaries
To greet yourself on the edge of reason,
To love yourself on the cusp of unconditional adorations.
Can you?

You bring all of yourself
To the spaces between
Our light and dark.
But you never explore
All the hope I've saved
For you in my heart.
You don't know
What I need
What makes me bleed,
Makes me shiver,
Makes me dream.
You don't touch
The darkest parts of me.
The places were my light lies,
In greatest pleasure.
Your would-be-delights,
If only you'd see.

How do we know
The reasons for coming here?
What if we feel too little,
About things much bigger than us?
And maybe I led you here,
Where you don’t want to be.
Maybe there is a hole
So dark inside of me.
What if you see, what if you see….

But there are a thousand beats
Out there in the city’s heart,
Out there in the oceans crash,
In the silence of your eyes.
In the sound of this dark.

So maybe we’ll just be here,
In the darkness that we share,
Safe from the light
That can expose the feelings,
Smaller than us, but bigger than this.
The things of indifference,
That we wrap into our embrace,
As we undress the souls within,
Because something is better than nothing.

And what if you see,
What if you come to know me,
And in that you learn,
Of all the things that make me burn.
Or what if you don’t see,
What if you can’t find me in me…

And if I am wrong,
If I have brought you here
Into the space laden with grit,
Then we can have tonight,
Before we kiss beneath the sunlight,
One last touch as we separate.

Nobody wants a body
When given so easily.
Nobody trusts
In lust.
He will fail to see
What is dormant
In the soul and heart
Of the hands that touch
And the mouth that kisses.
And the advantage lies
In his taking.
While she is overlooked
Because society says something else.
And the rules were broken,
Just like her heart will be.
Because he can’t choose her.
He can only have her.

The shadows of time move over us
Like clouds rushing in to storm.
The water becomes irresolutely churned
Taking our souls with it
All the way out to sea,
Away from everything we can predict.

And while we are drifting, weathering the storm
The motion surges our intuitions
And we lose the premonitions of why we came here.

Through the eruption of thunder
Our voices are lost and we’re not listening.
In the snapping of lightening
We are blinded to the truth in each other.
So we rely on the unknown movements
As we try to manoeuvre the sails of our ship.

But there is no knowing if we can survive this.
It’s real but we thought it was a game.
And the heart beats in fear now
Rather than with the survival of adrenalin and exaltation.

I was waiting for a sign of the truth.
I was holding my breath,
Until I heard you whisper
A long stretch of undeserving silence.
Then I curled myself up again.
I decided to love just the rain.
The rain cannot dull my fire.
It is a love I can embrace
Without waiting for a whisper of the truth.
A silence I can understand without wondering...

So much choice
So much time
So many miles apart
So much non-commitment.
Anxious and dysfunctional.
A side-ways game
Of friendship cover-ups.
Keeping your options open,
Playing your cards close.
Thinking I can't see your moves,
As you pull back and forth,
Hot and cold.
Then assuming what you will
About my words and indiscretions.
And all the insecurities
Triggering your actions
Are my fault.
I left you unable to judge
My heart and soul.
I left you unable to identify
My purity of intent.
I left you questioning
My cards.
And you failed to ask,
Because your ego chains you with fear.
So we’ll lose at this.
Two disappointed hearts.

Put me on your boat Mr Pirate man
And sail me away to the edge.
And if we fall off at the sunset
I promise I won't be upset.

I'm sure we'd land in the stars
And cruise along molten black waves,
Under the light of our lady Moon
Each swell rolling us into our dreams.

Just be sure Mr Pirate man
That you've courage enough for adventure
And passion a'plenty for the timeless
The unknowns and my own zest for living.

Because I'm sorry Mr Pirate man
I cannot tolerate bland crusades
And frivolous words lost to the winds.
The fiery within needs no fear, only honesty.
For I am free to drift like the currents,
So don't hold onto me
Just sail with me to the beyond.

The reality you feel
Is the illusion your insecurities have fed you.
The observations made become your assumptions
That destroy the beauty of the unknown.
The words you choke on
Distort truth to lies.

Then your silence feeds your fears
Until your heart begins to fill with doubt.
The possibilities dissipitate
Sabotaged any friendship, any hope, any adventure, any future.
Convinced by the anxiety that warps your mind,
You close yourself.

There's no way back through the twisted silence and physical separation.

Ruined.

I see you on the middle line
between the sun and moon.
You can't decide to cross into time
Or give yourself more room.
But the days are moving through us now,
And I feel a change coming soon:
The horizon between light and dark,
The stay-or-go wars within the heart.

You took my sails and filled them with the air of your words,
Guided them through my darkness with the light in your eyes,
And gave my journey momentum with the current of your voice.
The course traversing through entire ocean-filled universes.
Breathless.
Hopeful.
Silent.

I see your smile fluttering between leaves
Shimmering like bejewelled sunshine;
Binding my reality into a daze,
A world covered in dreams.

I lie curled among the flowers,
Dancing in the breeze that whispers
Of trails, dirt and flying clouds,
Racing towards beckoning mountains.

A rush of sea air rolling over me
Beating my heart like a drum;
Pumping energy from ocean depths
Into my soul as it grows wings.

Elevated from the earth into the sky,
I tear the grass from its roots.
Bringing a piece of this world
Into the ocean's Map of Stars.
The darker days have finally
Washed away from me:
Pulled by the moon,
And, the light and love of you.

Yes. No. Maybe. The height of a giraffe. The colour of sunsets. Thunder clouds in a clear sky. Gods in Beasts. Purple rain and Orange blueberries. Silhouetted trees. Murmmering leaves. Moon washed. Recycling unused wood. Unrequited. The illusion of what's not there. 15mm too small or too thick? The lash of a tongue. Screamed. Steam off of snow. Risen and succulent. Smooth. Bubbles in a Jacuzzi. A desert lagoon. The silence of a fire. Freefalling palpitations. Wreckless. Wide open. The youth in a wrinkle. Or a wrinkle in youth. The sound of a supernova. Dancing lights of the aurora. The space between. And the between spaces. Timeless. Wanton. Brazen. Broken. So empty its spilling over, and all consuming. Indistinguishable. Unseen depths. Fathomless. Shallow ripples. Waves upon waves. Status without face. Stolen. A mirror without reflection. Sunbeam skin kisses. Captured. Lingering breeze. Static glances. Sleep's rise and fall. Temporary Life. Lent not Given. You. Me. Them. Nothing. Breathless.

We played the rhythms of our talks
like candle-lit shadows on these walls.
All through the starry skies,
we raised our laughter to soar up high;
The closeness of your skin crawled under my desire,
where we held each other,
warmed by our lonely inner fires.
Displaced.

But, brightened by the light of day,
I found your voice drifting away.
You rolled yourself up behind a smile,
kissing my shoulder, lingering a while.
Misplaced.

Then you traced the contours of my life,
and left without saying goodbye.
The windows pouring the sunlight in,
leaving me wallowing in the scent of your skin.
Erased.

Sometimes, being with you is like
air below the water, suffocating my soul.
You shake my bones against my skin,
And you turn my silence into a scream.
Begging for my tender touch, to light
this darkness of your empty nights.

There is an aching in my being,
When I see the look in your eyes.
If you were conscious,
there could be
so much more joy here.

But we're not liberated
by youth and hope.
You're ******* on ideas,
and I'm tied to my heart.
You can't see past my eyes,
The chambers I keep hidden.

My heart drums to the rhythm
Of your lonely, hurting desires.
You're craving love.
My heart's only drug:
Falling always for the broken one.

But I can't fix you.
I am not your exception.
Though I feel everything all at once,
with emotions not at all small,
I cannot bring comfort to your inner war.

I'm waiting in the open
with the wind
in the silence
of the roaring ocean,
and the light of the night.
My inner heart
burns with its truth;
in a fire too hot to touch
without engulfing every inch
of soul, mind, heart and skin.
My eyes reveal
I've stood here
a million years
waiting out the cold winters
bearing the summer heat,
with my roots sinking deep.
And I'll wait for you,
until the fires
in my soul consume me;
the ocean rises up
to release me
into the deepest love:
An unpredictable one.

I can't feel
When you feel nothing.
And the cycle is vicious
Because we can't see past
All our demons,
All our fears,
All our past loves.

I got a little impatient
When you arrived silent
In the dead of the night
To tell me I've been
On your mind,
Dancing behind your eyes,
Present in your desires.

I know I'll be in trouble
When my heart opens,
Because you feel nothing,
And I'm a vessel
Carrying your smile,
Carrying my love,
Carrying all our lust.

I'll lose no tears
This time I bury
All the powers of heart
Beneath the ocean,
Beneath our laughs,
Keeping us souls apart.

You can't handle me.
And my heart's cracks
Must never be seen.
You'd pour into them
Your needs and wants,
Your love and torments.

There was a walk I took
When I was younger,
And love held my hand.
Crossing the Pyrenees barefoot and carefree,
I felt everything.  
But your eyes were empty.

I remember when the rain came.
All the pain I carried,
Fell away behind me.
My footprints heartshaped in the mud,
Soaking deep into my soul.
You walked without a trace.

Something told me this was it.
I had dreams
Wider than the sky.
And you closed your heart
To all my love.
While I tried to fly,
You kept walking.
You kept walking;
That's all you could do.

So, oh I took that flight across the seven seas.
Hungry,  I ate the world up.
I took my love with me.
You kept walking.
You kept walking.
That's all you knew how to do.

A journey into the light and darkness.
And I'm just beginning, baby.
Somewhere out there
I'll live my dreams.

I've been where you are
In the darkness
Filled with night lights
Sweet liquors and scents
That dull the ache
Distracting you from your heart:
The heart that you hate
For loving someone far from reach.

I've felt the agonies
Of misunderstandings
When my words could not be heard,
And my soul remained unseen
Because I was drowning
In my own lies and stories:
Falling from my own heights,
A million miles above the crowds.

I've walked this path
That you're dragging yourself on.
I've held the hand
Of self-betrayal in a dark room
And wondered if I'd make it:
Til morning... til the light came.
I've been the one screaming,
Everyone thinking I'm laughing;
I've been the broken one.

I can't march my ***** boots
To your hanging tree.
The ground opens up
Exploding all over me.
In the blackened soil
I find your decaying bones
Buried beneath the pieces of your hurt.

I can't tear my liquid eyes
From your screaming face.
It's the way I looked
When they walked in to say
That your hands are cold
And the breath dead upon your lips.
My life stopped  with this deadly agony.

I can't forget your laugh
How it wrapped around my soul.
The way our arms
Opened up our hearts
In the quiet, whispered hours
Talking of our dreams.
And all the places we had yet to see.

I can't rewind to before your hopeless state
Or the day you returned
With all your strength cut from your face.
You turned from me
Like I was diseased.
And told of my stupidity:
Loving you is a waste
Because you were the tainted enemy.

I can't forget the pain in your eyes
The world so lost.
All our dreams slowly died.
You walked across the lawn
As I melted down and cried.
Then hung yourself
In a tall tree where you could touch the sky.

I can't return to your hanging tree.
The ground out there
Is waiting to **** me.
But you said "Be great,
Be everything you dream. "
So here I am
Living dreams my heart knows are real.

I miss you
But I know
You feel little
About the years
We shared together.
Even my friendship
Seems incapable
Of moving you.

Maybe you're empty
A lonely soul,
Whose heart stills
For no person.
So there are
No vibrations either
That shake you
Into missing someone.

It hurts me
To misunderstand you
And your soul.
Did I fail
In all these years
To move you
To challenge you
To awaken love
As you did
Deep in my being.

It's like the cold
Creeping in
When you have no where to go for warmth.
So I comfort the ice, freezing my heart.
And I hope it'll stop the beating
That seems only to hurt me more
Now that you've left me:
With only this silence
And these breathless-missing-you-tears.

Sometimes we can stroke the scars
that are left across our hearts;
And we can smile
at the memory of something
that once broke us;
Because now we're standing tall.

There is a choice in our darkness,
to rip our hearts out
so we never have to face what we feel.
Or we can allow our misery
to swallow us with waves of emotion.
Either choice cripples us.

But there is a choice
to seek beauty
no matter how small;
And to celebrate it every day
with love, with passion, with hope.
The choice to be courageous,
In a fragile moment of our existence.
A decision to survive
what appears to be killing us.

I lie awake
Because now the world is still
And my heart can think.
My mind can breathe.
In this moment I am free.

As my dreaming eyes close,
I see visions of you.
I hear words and a voice.
My heart stretches,
And I can reach you.

I pull you into me,
Into my darkness here,
To whisper to you
About all my dreams,
And the places I want to be.

As I lie here quietly
I know, wherever I go,
It is in these dreaming hours
That I feel you.
And my heart holds you.
My heart holds you.
And you are with me.

There is a place where I grew
Into a girl with an unsteady heart.
It is green and small and unsafe.
There are trees and a wide blue ocean,
And the sky is expansive beyond comprehension.
Here I saw the night sky dancing,
From a rooftop height,
As though in the palm of my hand.
With fingers splayed like moon beams,
I reached up to pick my dreams.

And that girl grew into a woman
With a passion and fiery for the truth.
But sorrow and deceit ate my soul,
So I learnt to persist and nurture trust:
Intuition became the only companion in the darkness.

So the woman in me grew into a tree.
With roots in African soils
And boughs in expansive skies.
The leaves took flight and my heart followed
Around the world to find perspective,
To live difficult dreams
In an unsteady world,
Where home is a lonelier place sometimes.
But the sun shines and the tree is tall,
From the love given and received.

The tree is strong,
With roots that burrow deep,
A wizened old soul and
A drumming heart full and resilient,
Seeking a place to call its own.

I'm standing on top  of the world,
staring down at the millions of lives,
Wondering....
Where do you play out your life?
Do you feel the universe move beneath you?
And if at night, do you reach out for me,
looking at the stars and dreaming
of the love and limitless possibilities
that could pass between us in this world.
Like breathing lungs.
Like beating hearts.
Like whispering lips,
sharing untold secrets.

Assume nothing.
Trust timing.
Remain open.
Build bridges.
Hurt no one.
Respect.
Smile.
Say Yes.
Expect Nothing.

Our sleeping thoughts reflect
our awakened minds.
The madness we hide from
Rolls like a cinema reel
behind resting eyes.
A movie of our lives
In distorted forms.

26 Dec. 2015

Chaos humdrum of roaring engines.
The lost siren between concrete slabs
Ricocheting its scream throughout
the hallway streets,
already echoing with horns and yells.

Sleepless and ever burning,
the city lurches on
in agonizing sounds
muffled between high rise pristine glass
and shanty shacks painted with dust.

The frantic commotion of agonized madness,
In zigzag traffic and potholed roads.
The stop and start of hustle and frustration
Rises and falls like a dancing dust storm.

Everything present in a quieter world
is lost in the struggle of city life.
There's no peace or silence here.
Just constant exhaustion in the luminescent roar of human chaos.

26 Dec. 2015

I look at me staring back,
A reflection of emotions storming through my past.
There's an empty space deep inside,
Where even demons fear to hide.

I walk through corridors in my mind,
Darkened by the silence of my movie reel memories.
Dragging my hand along the walls
Unable to find an unlocked door.

The stuttering images in my dreams,
Vivid in nightmarish Technicolor
Flashing like disco-tech
Before my bleeding eyes.
Knowing I can never unsee
All the pain in my muted cries.

The pain from the fickleness of your heart,
The hurt from your unwillingness
To be stronger, to try, to admit...
To walk beside my darkness...
Is greater than any knowledge
Of the comfort and laughter
You have in the scent and skin
Of someone else's voice, body, soul.*



The truth in your heart,
Is more valuable
Than the protection you think a lie gives
my heart.
I always feel the truth.
It vibrates, moving like kinetic energy,
Across the universe.
In my dreams
I see it as it is.
A lie is the greatest damage.
Every time.

There are days when the world,
Slips beneath your feet
Taking you down
Into the darkness:
An ocean of your tears.

A million spaces between us,
A million unknown voids
You won't talk about them.
But every move you make,
Vibrates back to my dreams.
And every lie you told,
I can see and feel across the seas.
I'm the only one who knows;
Left with these searing truths,
My mind wakes up screaming.

There are days the world
crashes around my silent agony.
Taking me down
To the depths of an ocean
Where all my heartache collects.

You walked away again,
Leaving me with ideas of you.
A feeling that your heart
never wanted me.
Despite all your tears,
And the words you swore were true,
The actions taken
Tell a thousand different stories of you.

Sleepless hours of destruction
in my shattering heart.
Tormented by visions of you
Holding someone else,
on the other side of this falling world:
A place I'll never be.
It's here you've left me.

The world as we know it
Has ended for us.
I've forgotten how it feels
To be chosen through love,
To be someone's only one.
Despite the fears.
Despite the unknown.
And it's tearing me apart.


Truth in actions is the only thing that saves us. So we fall apart, to the depths of our heartache, broken and destroyed, unwilling to breathe, but we stand up again and live out our truth: I deserve. That is the truth.

Sometimes the sway feels like marching
Marching like I’m dreaming
While sleeping with the wind
Upon a sailing, swaying sea.

                                                  These dreams carried me here
                                                  Fleets of souls past
                                                  Lost in my sail boats

These dreams become my home
Because the horizon is gone
And the sun is night,
The moon and stars my life, my love.

I may not know where I’m going
But I feel this forward rise and fall
And the march in my heart
Drums with a knowing beat, beat, beat.

Success swims beneath these bodies of water
The air stirs my hair and soul
Lifting me above unknowns
To a place, I’m taking myself, really slowly.

Through the sluice and trickle
upon my glassy world view,
I stare like the dead,
while waiting for you.

Though I see the storm,
My heart rages in its thunder,
Knowing you'll creep in soon,
Obliterating this nightmare wonder.

Unlike this thrashing rain,
slicing up my window pane,
I've seen the beds you've lain
in my jagged dreams:
where my spirit walks free
chasing my heart's silent screams;
connected to yours
like a ball and chain.

I sailed you out.

In my rickety boat.

To the center of my lake:
the deepest, darkest waters.

And there,
I let you dive
into my silent depths.

Sinking into the unknowns,
while I awaited your return.

The days squeeze
all the air from lungs,
all the blood from veins;
Freezing the warmth
that beats within.

Until silence
curls

around crying lips,
in the dead hours after midnight.

Jumping fences, cozzie on,
towel for a cape:
dives, strokes, somersaults;
doing the pool waltz.
Slurping wormy guavas;
Spinning monkey swings,
Your stories giving me wings:
You said I could fly,
If I Believe,
If I have Faith,
in the Unseen.

Ice-cream seconds, cakes, fizzy drinks;
A shake of the biscuit tin:
"one for each hand, maybe two"
Sugar, your only sin.
Paint. Wood. Leather.
Freshly cut grass.
A pun or ten,
just for fun:
Always the teasing jester.

A dreamer.
Deep talks under sprawling trees.
Hours upon your knees:
in play, in prayer, in Earth's work.
A giver to the faithless, hopeless, unheard.
A believer in love, truth and His word.

What a human.
What a man.
What a legend of my heart.
Gone but never far apart:
I still hear you laugh,
at peace now with your man, God.

I touched the curving lines
of your smiling eyes;
traveling to the moments
where you have been.
In every brush of skin
and breath taken in,
I can feel your worlds
shift like seasons:
As you make your way
Towards me.

And in the deepest silence,
beneath the widest skies,
those who've passed come to sit beside us,
blanketing our hearts in the love they left inside us. ♥

There's a whole ocean stretched out,
Blue and deep between our bodies.
But our hearts have always been,
Clasped by time in the same vault.

And I want you,
Like we've never been before.
We've never talked about it,
Our stolen time.

I'm stuck in this anticipation,
Thoughts of you wrapped around me.
The waiting is an unbearable pain,
Reminding me of life without you.

And I want you,
An aching I can't bear anymore.
I've never told you before,
Time stolen from us.

There's no escape from this place,
Clinging with anxious suspense;
That every piece of life will fall,
Blocking the only way to your presence.

And I wanted you,
In a way we'd never been before.
We don't talk
About this stolen time
And the reason for your changed mind.

I don't think I can keep carrying on
Holding these feelings inside.
If I don't talk about it
My life will be your stolen time.

I hate the way,
                         I believed your promises.
I hate the way,
                        you led me to touch
the truth in the words you wrote.

I hate the way I opened
                         my curtains and doors,
letting in the sunshine of you;
breathing in the scent of you.

I hate the reasons
                         of things I don't know,
of things you didn't do,
that left me waiting.

I hate standing here.
Wave-after-wave hitting the shore.
Without sight of you,
                         anywhere on the horizon.

I hate that there's no way
to pull closed my doors.
And forget you.
                       Like you forgot me.

You fed my dreams, like a needle feeds my pain, through my broken veins:
A silver bullet to my heart, your lies ripping me apart.

When I turned, looking for your burned,
bruised, broken words, in a noisy world,
I found silent screams...
same as when I'm waking from bad dreams...

Except when I called for you, you ran.
And when I waited,
my patience lashed, ripping the seems of my skin;
until my love bled out, like it had never been.

                                       You just keep walking. I'll stay. Plant my skin. Water it with this blood. I'll grow. And, I'll love.
                                        Maybe someday you'll see me. And, maybe someday I won't feel, you.

Shutter my eyes on the frozen deserts
opening to swallow
all the memories you left inside:
a heart stripped of dreams,
by the pain of quicksilver moments
slipped past us in Time's disguise.

Interminable thoughts play-rewind-play-rewind
Of feelings dragging like anxiety:
We could be whole
if the world put us together with
Time, Love and impassioned Tethers.

Instead I'm trailing along
Dragging my iced feathers,
leaving two sets of footprints
upon the oceans and deserts of ice and shards.
Incapable of defrosting
These beating, screaming hearts.

Take my hand, walk into the darkness.
The place we know, is hidden.
And I want to share the unknown,
Tangled in your embrace.


Even if there are no answers,
At least we will be free.
At least we’ll have seen.
And our hearts will be beating.


Pull me in and I’ll stay.
There is no world other than this:
Sitting on these jetty stones,
Cooling against our bones.
The sun setting behind silhouette trees,
Mirrored water, a timeless love.
Our souls burning with emotion,
Warming the cooling world,
Safe in this place.

We have this place.

I love you, so silently
in my dreaming reverie:
a place you won't go.  
My heart, you can't know,
because the world
and our stories lie between.

I used to look at my walls,
thinking that was my writing.
But as time heals this heart
I see the words in your scrawl.

And when the monsters came
I thought it was my fault -
Like you said it was.
Me and my over-thinking, lingering.

But this darkness grows thin,
the truth seeps through,
like a weeping wound
from the folds of your heart.

All this time I was weak,
I tore myself apart.
Blind to the pieces
of your crumbling walls.

The monsters that come now,
Are from your Regrets
which haunt your soul,
staring through mirrored eyes.

Avoidance tears at our old wounds,
as you try to erase the intimacy shared.
Blanketing the memories in shadows,
so even the beauty twists into vulgarity.

I'm no good at this.
In your smile,
there's sunshine.
And I can't shake it.

I tried to hide.
And forget like you did.
But you don't live in my head:
Sunshine fills my dreams;
A smile in my silent nights.

Like snow flurries
Clinging to my warmth,
melting at my touch.
I can't reach you.

I can't shake it.
I can't break it.
Your ellipsis binds us.
Leaving me aching.

I tried to turn my back,
Like you did.
No distance, no time
silences these souls.
And I can't shake you,
Like you did me.

My Love fills your lungs,
like a crashing wave
swallowing the air from your life.

I'm the rocks around your legs,
betraying the lies:
dragging the truth with each step.

I'm the shadow in your darkness,
lurking with our pain.
My Loving your Tormentress.

I'm so sorry.

My hurt kills you slowly.
My heavy, iron heart
keeps us chained in the fire.

I've crawled across the ground,
my concrete body and my tears,
like guilt towards the water
where my love can slowly drown.