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oni Feb 2016
you are as
shallow
as the
shot glass
you fill
time after time

you would think
that all of that
liquid
would contribute
to some
depth

but instead
all youve gained
is a headache
and some words
you shouldnt have
said
oni Dec 2014
even though the
tide
comes back
to kiss the
sand,
the sun
rises
every morning
to find that
the moon
is already
gone
oni Apr 2017
if everyone likes you,
then you arent living.
oni Sep 2017
hyper awareness

fingertips crackle with
electricity

my spine
is a lightning rod

eagerly consuming
every stroke of your fingers

body thrumming
with electricity

mind power
shifting into
maximum overdrive
oni Apr 2017
i saw you in a photograph
smiling like someone trying to be happy
i am not sorry for you
oni Nov 2015
she would give her life
for the smallest of these creatures -
a flightless butterfly,
a lame bird,
a mute hound

she waters the withering
and mends the broken,
but she is
dying
all the same
oni Jan 2017
all this time
i blamed myself
for being
purple
when you thought
i should be
red
because it went better
with my eyes

now i am
a shade of
blue -

neither my
original self
nor
what you want

and blue is the color
of depression.
oni Apr 2017
adapt
like a bird
building a nest
out of discarded newspaper

a small animal's bones
restructuring
readjusting
around the plastic rings
that once held soda cans

learn to stay put
if you were meant to fly
but find yourself
caged

adapt
change your body chemistry
alter your consciousness
to fit in
where you were not made to
oni Sep 2015
cold hands
around my throat
dragging me under

i hold my breath
and clench my sheets
as if they were
an anchor

but when the wave hits
i am always swept away
how to explain mental illness
oni Mar 2017
i am a butterfly
you wanted nothing more
than to watch me fly
but you loved my wings
so much
that you clipped them
oni Nov 2014
we fell
into darkness
but at least we fell
together

because when we
are together
our light shines
brighter
than any
darkness
can put out
oni Oct 2015
it was a
goodbye
that made my
capillaries
explode

it made
my heart valve
backflow

and my ribcage
crack

they say that
internal bleeding
is fatal

and i guess
i am now
a part of the
statistic
that agrees
with that
*mortal kombat voice*
oni Feb 2015
maybe
it is time
to
cut you
off,
even if
it means
cutting off
a piece
of myself
oni Feb 2017
i find myself feeling
so small
so insignificant
at the worst times

like when
your hand is in mine
and your fingers can traverse
such a large expanse

while i can barely
manage to hold on
to anything
for too long

and even when
i find my grip
the other side
lets go
oni Jan 2015
i never asked you
to start a war
for me
but you could
at least
be my shield
when my walls
come crashing down
oni Apr 2015
bandages
dont do
much
for a
wound
aside from
hiding
them
oni Aug 2015
youve taken my place
in the back of his mustang,
but i hope you find
a strand of my hair
on the floorboards
oni Aug 2015
i think to myself
as if you could read my mind

but you barely understood
the words i spoke

so why would you
understand my thoughts?
oni Oct 2015
all of these drugs in my system
all of these holes and blisters
you said that i was made of the sun -
but what do you know of light,
you creature of darkness?
oni Jan 2017
i have come to accept
that i am always
full
of love
of hate
of anger
of pain

i am never
half way

i can never
meet you
in the middle

if you pick me up
and make me spill
i am not sorry
oni Oct 2015
all the cards
i have been dealt
are jokers -
its a wonder
i havent gone
all-in
oni Apr 2015
today,
i wish
i was
dead.

i want
to roam
the
world
as a
shadow,
seeing
the pain
but not
feeling
it.
oni Dec 2014
if feelings are not
physical things,
how do they
hurt you
so much?
oni Mar 2015
maybe
it is time
to bite
the hand
that feeds me
because
it is feeding me
poison.
oni Sep 2017
they say that good things
come with time

but with you
time is an illusion
and every day spent
building up to this point
means nothing

because all i know
in this moment
is you
standing before me
oni Jan 2017
you have given me
so much love
that my two arms
cannot carry it

so i have grown
stronger
to be able to
bear it all
oni Jun 2017
you learned what happiness is
because you learned what love isnt
oni Nov 2015
laying in the leaves
on the forest floor
outside of a
suburban neighborhood

i am partially high
and closing my eyes
to avoid the brightness
of the sunlight

for what does the
sun mean
if the leaves still fall,
and what purpose
do my feelings serve
if you do not
feel the same
anymore

i thought that maybe
drugs
alcohol
tears
blood
would finally
pack up the last
few pieces
i had left of you
and sweep them
away
like the leaves
i am cradled by
as the oncoming
breeze
of fall
descends upon
the trees

but the high
makes me feel
lower,
and the buzz
just rattles
the crude stitches
i had hand-sewn
onto my heart

i am drowning
in what is left
of you,
even though it is
only a puddle

i am only
awake
enough to feel
the pain

i drunkenly mutter
i loosely scream
i silently cry

no matter
what state
i am in,
whether i am
solid
liquid
wasted
trashed

there is
still
enough of you
left in me
to make
summer
freeze over
and my
heart
stop
with the sudden
change
in temperature
oni Aug 2017
though i have tried,
i cannot break open my soul
and share it with you
because there is nothing left
to break
oni Apr 2022
i would pour the stars from my irises
if it meant that you could see me
the way that i see you

the words used to flow
so freely from my brain

but then i grew older
the sky became
darker
the galaxy faded
like the peeling bumper stickers on my car

i forgot
what the milky way looked like from here

even if you cannot see me
i am shining
even if i am only an ember
i am reignited

the constellations have been restored
as i look at you
but i am
faded
to you
as the world once was
to me
oni Oct 2016
hello heart-eyed doe,
tripping over your delicate feet
following the warm promise
of spring

hello heart-eyed doe,
don't let your spirit go
while you're out searching
for your love
i am in love again.
oni Aug 2015
i feel so
heavy

every thought
is another
weight
on my shoulders

it is only a
matter
of time

before i am
pushed
down
into the
darkness
oni Feb 2017
when your heart is heavy,
you cannot just empty it -
and even if you could,
who would want an empty heart?
oni Jul 2015
lips curved
upward
in a small
crescent,
smiling at
the tears
pricking
the corners
of my eyes

these words
can only
cover
so much
distance
and make up for
so much time
oni Nov 2014
i want to
hold on
but when i
gave you
all of me
i gave you
my hands
too
oni Jul 2015
i think too much
about things i shouldnt think about,
but its the saddest memories
that make me feel alive
oni Apr 2015
the
pain
is how
i know
i love him
oni Nov 2014
hush, little baby
dont fade away
i will be back
again someday

hush, little baby
dont you cry
i will be here
when you fall
before you fly

please, little baby
dont fade away
i still love you
forever and always
I
oni Feb 2015
I
love me for who i am
love the pen marks
on my hands
love the scars
along my thighs
love me for who i am
oni Nov 2017
i place
a blank mask
over my face
and hand you
a pen

am i pretty now?
oni Oct 2014
who are you
but a few molecules
of the universe
stitched together

what is your voice
bur a single vibration
lost within the echoes
of a thousand more

you tell me that i matter,
that i am different,
that i am special,

but what am i
but a single
strand
of endless DNA
that could still function
after the death
of my chromosomes
oni May 2017
it is hard
to tell yourself
that the worst days
are behind you

when you feel like
you are still
living through them

the question is no longer
"when will i be happy?"
but rather
"will i ever be happy?"
oni Feb 2015
what use is a
body
that is on
fire

what use is a
mind
whose only
wish
is to
consume
oni Jan 2016
if pretending
that i dont love you
is the only way
to stay close to you,
i swear i will do it
a million times over
oni May 2017
that* (pronoun)
\ˈthat, thət\

used by the misunderstanding to describe the depth of thought and/or emotion experienced by the reader upon reading poetry that has been ripped directly from the author's soul
oni Nov 2017
i watch you
fall at the feet
of those
who will never
know your name

im here
im real
i love you
and you
are distracted
oni Oct 2015
they all frequent the same places
and maintain the same postures

they use the same spoons
and adore the same sounds

they smoke the same cigarettes
and poison themselves
with the same brand
of alcohol
oni Nov 2014
and as much as i want
to say
that no one will ever
love you
as much as
i do,
someone might

but i can promise you
that no one will
ever
love you
the way
that i do

so please
remember
that
oni Aug 2015
you are standing
right in front of me

but your gaze
shows that you are
honestly
thousands of miles away

like the rings of
saturn
you spin in endless
circles

and catch up to me
every so often
but then continue on
within your orbit
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