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oni Nov 2017
a flicker
of recognition

a glance
into a sea of faces

a pair of eyes
that were once familiar

but the feeling is
different

the emotion is
heavy

i look away
ill
oni Feb 2015
ill
there is heat in my chest
and emptiness in my heart
that i cant fix
oni Dec 2014
honey, i dont play these games
my arms are too frail for tug-of-war

you made me an entire universe
but refused to live in it with me

so now i stare at the stars
and wonder which one is your spaceship
and wonder why you havent come to visit me

in this universe you made for me
in this universe you made for us
in this universe that is my prison
im an alien to my own planet,
oni Oct 2015
i cannot continue
to search
for someone to
hold
when i could
fill my hands
with all of the stars
of the galaxy above
oni Oct 2015
i did not
even know
that you could
love and hate
someone
at the same time,
even more so
did i not know
that i could feel
both emotions
so much
and so deeply -
together.
oni Nov 2014
and all the times
that you screamed
to the mirror
telling it
that it wasnt your fault
you still cant forgive yourself
even though
you did nothing wrong.
oni Apr 2017
you cant make me
undo what i did
and i cant make you
care again

so i will acknowledge the pain
and do my best
to pave a new road
oni Jul 2015
the reason
i cannot
let go
of the past
is because
you still linger
within it,

and your
touch
never fails to
draw me closer
oni Jan 2015
what is a human
but a cosmic spec
of semi-wanderlust
destroying the planet
because they believe
they rule it
while if the human race
ceased to exist
the world would
flourish
oni Dec 2014
and while time
does heal all wounds,
time does not
heal the scars
oni Apr 2015
how do you
bandage
the wound
if you
are not even
sure
where it is?
oni Oct 2015
nothing
in this world
is reliable -
rain stops,
the sun hides,
stars die,
and the moon
cannot stay
in one place

so why did i
ever
decide
to rely
on you?
oni Mar 2017
seven hundred and twenty nine feet below
a ferris wheel turns
shimmering in its slow white circles

a vision blurred
by hotel room windows
and sad thoughts
at 12:00 am
oni Dec 2014
i could've sworn
that the blood on my hands
was from killing my demons,
but when i woke up,
the scars were on my own throat
"I can't drown my demons, they know how to swim." - Can You Feel My Heart; Bring Me the Horizon
oni Apr 2017
sneaker imprints from crossing
newly shaven legs

rosy sunburn mixing with
a spattering of freckles

scraped knees from
a failed skateboard trick

wind tossed hair
summer heart
oni Feb 2015
i climbed upward
until i found
the world had been turned
upside down
and i was actually
digging down
IV
oni Apr 2015
IV
you should be
dehydrating
from the
sun,

not
tears
wasted on
those
who have
ceased
to care
oni Mar 2017
isnt it sad to realize
you can never honestly tell someone,
"i wont hurt you"
oni Aug 2015
a song at random
woke me up at 2 a.m.

a song that shuffled
all of the cards in my deck

and turned up face cards
with your picture on them
oni Aug 2015
all of these
masks
look down
on me,
and they
do not like
what they see

for what use
is a puppet
that broke free
of its strings
if it can
no longer stand?
oni Aug 2015
you never handled me with care,
so now my edges are sharp.

when you cut yourself,
*just know its your own fault.
oni Dec 2015
incisors
cutting
ripping
down to marrow

filled with the sun
and singing to the moon

a creature
of dark and light
oni Dec 2014
you always
tell me
to let go
of the past,
but what you
do not realize
is that
i already have;
i am just
waiting
for it
to let go
of me
oni Dec 2014
what is a
name
but another
label
to be
referred to
*as
oni Jan 2016
running your hardest
still doesnt mean
you wont slip and fall
inspired by the a day to remember song.
oni Mar 2015
and i was
helping him
breathe
while you
were attempting
to drown
him
oni Dec 2014
even the night
is not dark
as long as the moon
is in the sky
and this
is what you are
to me
oni Apr 2017
turn me off
and turn me on
like a wind up doll

who needs love
when you have
electricity

who needs to lie
about their feelings
when they are
made of stone
oni Apr 2017
but there are some
funny little things
that you probably shouldnt know
and i probably wouldnt tell you

like how i cant look at
sunflowers
because they really arent
happy

or how certain names seem
too heavy for me
to wrap my tongue around

there are some funny little things
that shouldnt matter
but somehow they do

like how my taste for rootbeer
turned sour
when a boy who loved rootbeer
broke my heart

or a certain song on my playlist
has gone silent for years
but still takes up 4 megabytes on my phone

there are some funny little things
that i hate to acknowledge
as important
because i dont want them to be

but yet
somehow
some way
they are too important
to let go of
oni Feb 2015
and the worst part
is having all of these
ideas
in your head
about how you
are going to
change
your life
but you barely
have the strength
to stand.
oni Apr 2015
you cannot
force air
into lungs
that have
long since
collapsed;

you cannot
smile
at the rain
if it has
always
blocked the
sun
oni Mar 2015
you only know
how to fight
when no one
else
is around
to make me
lose
oni Dec 2014
you are a
hidden oasis
and as i
pause
to drink,
i find that
you are
only an
illusion
oni Mar 2015
she stuck out
like crimson petals
in the snow
but continued
to dance
as the wind
blew
oni Jan 2018
fingers seeking
release
gutting desperately
only finding
emptiness
the ghost of someone elses hands
the memory of love
pain swells forward
turned off
oni Apr 2015
maybe
i care too
much
for putting
someone else's
life
before my own,
or maybe
i'm just
suicidal
oni May 2017
i am thankful
that i still have
my memories
because they were all
that you couldnt take
oni Apr 2022
i never kept a diary for long
because i always found myself
ripping out the pages
of the memories that i didnt want to remember.

if my life were a book
ideally
half of the pages would be missing.

if my memory were a song
the melody would be
scrambled
by boughts of abrupt silence.

my skin feels
chafed
by eraser marks
even though erasers do not work on human flesh.

my brain feels
scrambled
by a large black scribble
desperately trying to cover the things i dont want to remember.

i wish to function as a clock
with wind up hands
so that i can tell time where to go instead.

i am ripping out my intestines
like vcr tape.

why are the memories still playing?
oni Jul 2015
today
i realized
that every
wall
standing
in my
way
has your
name
carved
into it,
like
headstones
that refuse
to be
forgotten
oni Feb 2015
i can run
from you
but i cannot run
from myself
and you are
becoming
part of me
oni Dec 2014
i miss
the way
the base of his
neck
gets warm
when he
sweats
oni Jul 2015
they all called you
a demon
because of the
pain
you caused me,
but the pain
came out of
*love
oni May 2016
i am a human -
and sometimes,
that scares me
3:00 AM thoughts #1
oni Apr 2015
maybe
one day
we will
meet again

bumping
carts
at the
grocery store

or
walking
the dog
in the
park.

maybe
one day
we will be
okay
again,

hopefully.
oni Jan 2016
i know
what i should be saying -
something
along the lines of,
"how dare you
take advantage
of my heart".

but instead,
i find myself
pleading,
"please,
come back once more
and take
all i have left".
oni Jun 2015
we are covered
in scars
from internal
fistfights
that bled through
to the outside
oni Mar 2015
the pressure
from my heart
spreads through
my veins
and i sink
myself
by holding on
to this feeling
oni Oct 2019
and so ill let my feelings trail off
like a lukewarm ending
to what was meant to be a perfect fairytale
oni Aug 2015
you have all of me
and you will not
accept
what i have
given you,
but you will not
give it
back,
either
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