Ignore me
I am too blind
To see
What you mean
When you say,
"I don't want to see you anymore."

Ignore me
I am too deaf to hear
Your voice in the crowd
I can't even control my tears
When you shout out loud,
"I don't want to see you anymore"

Ignore me
I am too clingy
I don't know
When you don't want to see me
Because you're being polite,
So just don't talk to me.

Ignore me,
I don't deserve anything,
I don't deserve to get fake love
I don't deserve these useless white wings,
I am satan,
I don't deserve any kind of love.

It's not as if I am the sun
Without which the day is just as dark
I am not the needle which ****** your emotions
Without which you're just as empty
I am not your heart
Even though you say I am
I am not that thin brittle air you breathe
Maybe you don't know -yet- but I do clearly,
You wouldn't even notice
When I'm nowhere to be seen
You wouldn't even notice
That I have ever been,
You wouldn't even notice.

The urge to make
Pretty patterns with ink
On the delicate peice of paper, wanting emotions
Making a small blot at the end of my confession,
Sinking all my life's recessions
Thinking all the time I didn't do my work with precession
And left everything just to decorate a small peice of paper with agression.

All these little letters mean a lot
But they are a patch in my life
Just like the unwanted ink blots,
They won't wash away
And if they do,
The patterns would merge with the cleanliness
Moving on to the gutter's way.

My words are my life
My soul doesn't matter as much
For if I give up my soul, these rife
Words would thrive
At some corner of this huge universe
Just as small as a seed of sand,
They'll live forever
Even as little ink blots,
Someone would someday discover
There tiny dots
I am not the one who cares if
He reads it or throws it away
But mark my words as I say
My letters are alive
And in someone's heart these blots will forever stay.

How could everything be alright?

Life is scattered

Life is hard

It punches you on the face

With the utmost grace

It rips your heart away

Marking several traces

Of your pain.



It's hard to breathe

Even if it takes a second

It takes my soul

To fulfill my body's greed

To live

When I want to stop living.



All these scars aren't here for nothing

The kisses of blades,

With the redness blushing,

Opens my soul for a moment

But then that moment is soon replaced,

With the outburst of tears,

The heavy weight in me making some place

To bug me again

And again my heart is empty,

As if it was always a void

Just like my entwined mind.



Don't you see I pretend?

I pretend because impression matters

No one likes a sad person who tends

To make others sadder

I pretend because that's what I'm best at

I can be me

But if I continue my 'only me' chat

Then you'll probably see

The person in me.



I talk less

Because silence hides all flaws

It's a drape to hide all the mess,

The mind thinks about all the time making petty laws,

Of living the life

Which can't be applied or shared

But I would in future do everything

Adventurous I thought of if I dared

But there's no way I'll share

My life's not an open book

I won't let my thoughts lie bear.



Nothing's alright,

You already know

Just somehow dodge the questions

And try to show

Your happiness which is completely lost

Your smile which don't make your eyes crinkle

Your laughter which is deep in your heart scattered and tossed

Around the cruel sadness which gulped it down

Show your dull eyes as if they are shimmery

Just wait for that time

When you have your victory

Over the people talking who leave you at last

Like you're an old and dying tree

Which looks completely green

But is dark and weak from inside

Making you the best queen

For faking that happiness in you

Never died.

Just another daylight
Is what my eyes crave to see
Even though I ate poison
So that it could **** me
Just another daylight
Is all I want to see.

One can't get away
From the hold of one's life
You're bound to it on the surface
With the roots of your living
Stubborn to never forgiving
The ones who have tied you there
But when the last breath you breathe
You realise
Just another daylight is all you want to see.

One ounce of sunlight
To warm up the skin
One ray of the heat
To burn all the sins
Just another daylight is important for me
Just another daylight is all I want to see.

Breathing in the last time,
The last is the most special,
I don't want to die in darkness,
The way I lived my life
One second of happiness
Is all I need
Just another daylight is all I want to see.

Just one word from your beautiful lips
Could make my day
Just one smile, just one glimpse
Could make me gay
Somehow, oh lord, I am attracted
God knows if you get to know would you be repelled?
Or would you disappear from to a far away land?

I am a beast
And I know how bad a I am for you
Yet to make you smile is the least
I can do to make my dreams come true
I haven't changed yet
But soon will
If you don't go away
If you stand here still
Just see me smile as you do,
It's an addicting pill.


I don't know how to encounter your thoughts
I wish I could read minds
But if it was possible for everyone to feel these hots
In me, then I would have killed myself
If you hadn't accepted me.

I am no princess of this kingdom you belong to
I am no Queen beside the throne you hang on to
A mere beggar, you call me that
Only begging for your smile full of love, for the fact
If even if you throw me out of your kingdom
I won't be cross because a beast knows her appearance
Your beauty is what I would forever hum
Just for once give me clearance
If you feel the same magic or not
Or if this spell hasn't reached you yet
I would go away on the boat
To a voyage for myself I long ago set.

Your approval will reverse my travel
Say hi or goodbye
Let these twisted secret feelings in our hearts unravel
Just for once, be my guide.

The world is a messed up place.

If you find me laughing
Then know I'm sad
My laughter is an illusion
As I've always hidden the sadness I've had
Inside my heart.

If you find me smiling,
Then know I'm depressed
That I just want you to see me happy
That I just want you know
That my life is not that gloomy.

If you see me cry,
Then know that I want to
Express my emotions to you
How I feel every time
And then burst it all out for once in a while.

If you even understand me
Then talk to me like you did
The first day we met
When you hid
Your true self so that you don't get
People running away from you.

If you see my eyes crinkle
Then know that I'm really happy
Like I was a few weeks back
When you didn't show your true self
When you didn't lack
The potential to be a true friend.

All I want to say is
If you meet me again,
It would be a bliss
That you know me better.

'Let me tell you a thing or two,' he said.

She clutched his hand
The other clutched her breast.
She heaved and wheezed
As the universe dropped on her chest,
Waiting for the last words
She would hear.

His lips were devine as they recited a sermon-
How good she is,
How the world needs her-
She watched his perfect eyes
Delve into her depths, see through her.
He acknowledged her beauty,
She didn't hear.

She was deaf for those words
Her beauty, nonexistent,
Her intellect, negligible,
Every word he spoke about her
Was Unintelligible.

All she mumbled with the life left in her:
'How did I deserve you, oh, heaven?'

It was the witch

Who didn't know magic

Her spells rebound

Struck her heart

Tears, gloom all around,

No where to restart.



It was the ghost

Who knew the way to light

And though he wandered clueless

Without any delight,

Had a heart of a firefly

But no one to rely.



When the dark and the light

Merge with an ease

Of water paints

Where there's melancholy,

There's mutual empathy and love,

There's a new creation of hope,

It's all over above.

Purple thoughts of sprinting mind
Beautiful, loving, a shade of pink
Wandering, stressing out too much
The thoughts blotting my mind like a permanent ink
I want to say it to him
But I don't know how to think
Of something to spread smile across that face from grim
I don't know how to speak out my heart
I don't know if I do then would we be apart
Or closer than I never thought?

I want to burst out those words
In a simple manner
But simple seems more difficult
Difficult which makes me less saner.

So soon I would
Flush out those feelings
Into a void
A
   N
D
     I
WOULD
     FEEL  
   LONELY
TO
     BE
ALIVE,
Bury the thoughts and revive my sadness
Like I did it yesterday.

I have been a lonely cloud,
Floating around at one place,
Looking down at the solitute ground,
Looking for a familiar face.

All countanances for me are strange
Leave me here and all I do is stare
All the bare ground is filled up with remorseful beings
And I am one of them floating up in the air
I am one of them but lonely and shy

I blush safron when the sun embraces me with its beams
I rain when my emotions are stored so much in me
That once in a while I have to let it all out.

I am so far away and beyond everyone's reach,
Just like the core of the earth they walk on
I am no different from it,
It's just that don't *look up at me.

I am a lonely cloud
And I want to stay away
I want to follow the winds
I want to travel and sway
I want to be a part of another world
Where there's anywhere to stay
A place where I'll have my say.

Once.
It happened
I felt bad about it
But then washed that memory away.

Twice.
It happened,
A silly mistake
But then the weight built up on me
Still I didn't feel or see
And walked on the same path.

Thrice.
It happened again
My eyes slightly opened
But they were in deep meditation
For the wrong choice of words
That I still didn't realise.

Then the world collapsed beside me
And my eyes were half open
They were blurred up
So much by tears
That the crooked world in front me
Appeared to be straight.

Then the end came
And the world was gulped down
By the mysterious darkness
Created on my own.
I slowly drowned
And my eyes opened
I saw it all clearly
But it was too late
I saw it clearly
But now I am a clean slate.

Let me write a sad limerick
Pouring out emotions from a skin so thick
Inking the pale page of no memories
Let me blow on it some gusty breeze
Let me write a sad limerick.

Let me write a sad limerick
Of my well being which sounds so sick
Hours of speculation make me famished
But I can't eat, my hunger has vanished
Let me write a sad limerick.

Let me write a sad limerick
I have a wall around built from dark brick
The trapped painful lonesome feelings
Tear me more, less healing
Let me write a sad limerick.

Let me write a sad limerick
You make me sadder you unhelpful *****
Leave my life, don't you see
There is no one that you can change me?
Let me write a sad limerick.

Let me write a sad limerick
Sick and tired of my mind's tricks
I want revenge then I'll be free
If I make him bleed I won't disagree
Let me now stop this limerick.

when it's dark enough
for the stars to be invisible
and my eyes still open wide
don't shut, don't dream
i feel like i'm falling
in the bottomless pit
where the darkness embraces me
and i can't tear out of it
but shiver uncontrollably
unstoppable, i look for the sharp
edge of the frindly enemy
in the drawer
inside the cupboard,
and I know, it's my short term memory,
Cannot find it,
panic,
heavy breaths,
anger,
tears,
anguish,
unlucky for the day,
unlucky, no scars,
yet.

I can overload the already built occupation with more competition and make a tower out of it,
in which my work would be only a brick,
Although cemented in the walls but invisible amongst the other bricks.
I don't want to be a brick,
I want to be creator of the tower,
Who will always remain at the base and remembered to the unending apex.

Every night,
I pray to God,
Even though I am an atheist,
To erase my memory
So I don't
Feel the pain, the anguish
That I get whenever I realise
That you could never feel
The same about me.

I guess my future is oxymoron
Happy, lively, and slowly going on,
Not too fast, not slow
A bitter sweet symphony of, "Move on and go".

Just a little soft on the insides
And ******* outside
That's I want to be
You don't come and I'll be gone
I won't wait,
Yes, I'll be the exact oxymoron.

I'll be strong enough to fight
Not like now when that I am quiet
I'll open the mouth out wide
Someday you'll see the difference
You'll compare
It'll be the oxymoron of my present versus future
My shoulders will bear.

All the North-South feelings
Will go away
The whole confused person you see today
Will disappear into a void
And appear as hard-core asteroid
Burning fire more than ice
Melting water to suffice
The rage of my now would soon be gone
Making my present-future and oxymoron.

Moving here and moving there
Moving a million miles
With eyes red, eyes dead
Tapping a million times.

It's no teleport, no  airplane,
No magical ride
Instead of walking out the doors
In the pixels we confide.

Aimless tip-tap like water drops
Ticking as sound of time
Punching letters, beating keys,
Trying to make a rime.

Lovely surfs, lovely speed,
Not so lovely is sleep,
When the ghost of eyes
Stuck in the mist of lies
Screen to screen takes a leap.

Pixels here, pixels there,
Pixels all around,
Life here, life there,
Real life all gone.

There thou go
With thy words so sweet
Oh I swear to thee
You make my heart beat.

Oh, poetry, what art thou?
Art thou mine inner soul
Art thou this air I breathe
Art thou mine internal whole?

Oh, poetry where thou live?
Come hither thee
Cans't thou be a little hearty to give
Thy name, thy soul,
Oh, you make me whole.

Lovely poetry,
Pity this misfortunate lover
Your beauty I love to see
Don't vacant this lonely  heart
Paint thy words on these throbbing veins
Flow thy letters in this blood
Oh it won't pain.

Beloved poetry,
My heart thee hold
Beloved poetry,
Be my whole world.

I see a sky full of rainbows
I feel their warmth,
Their vibrant colours tingling my skin
Though they are so far away.


I long to touch them,
Feel them under my grasp
I can’t wait to embrace them
As they hold me, our souls clasp.

Through this distance I see a world of joy
A world of colours, vibrant and lovely
My rainbow is such a beautiful boy.

The spectrum envelopes me in its comfort
It gives me the strength to keep moving
Gives me hope of a magical future
Where our love sparkles, never ending.

Falling in love, a pain
Wanting to love, a pain
Being in love, a pain
So I run.

Loving an outcaste, a shame
Helping an outcaste, a shame
Being an outcaste, a shame
So I hide.

Doing something for ourselves, selfishness
Staying happy for ourselves, selfishness
Raising voice for ourselves, selfishness
So I stay quite.

Every day, every second,
Every moment,
I try shutting you out of my mind.

But, every day, every second,
Every moment,
I see you when I shut my eyes.

So, every day, every second,
Every moment,
You shut me behind these mirrors
Of faithful reflection.

And, every day every second,
Every moment,
I shut myself behind these bars,
Resisting myself from reaching you

An hour before midnight
On the night of 1930
Fire blazed in hearts to fight
For their Independence
And to attain their rights.

Yes, it was the night of 1930
And in the cold winds of 26th Jan
They declared to fight for our freedom
And they had a simple plan.

They promised to give Swaraj
To all of their natives
Something that was just a mirage
Until it really happened.

Yes, India got freedom
On 15th August, 1947
That was when they decided
To transform India into heaven.

They completed our Constitution
On 26th November 1949
And they had their contribution
In their hands but that date wasn't fine
To enact the book of laws.

To pay respect
To our fighters
The law was finally enacted
And was papered a bit nifty
On January 26th 1950.

(The End)

[Note: Happy Republic Day!!!]

There are times when someone else's  words
Feel just as familiar as if they were your own
That you can't help falling in love with it
Happy to know
You're not all alone.

I don't have

a heartless soul,

a fearless mind,

But there's something

Which will always be mine.


Locked up in a dark place

Deep inside

The labyrinth of my mind

There lies my secret

And you have forever been blind

Not to see what I hide.


I blind you more

With my secret illusions

But my heart gets sore

Because it's my delusion

That I will be content

By hiding everything.


The letters of secrets

Fly out of the box

Hovering over my head

Hovering around me

Burying me deep into the ground.


I took hold of my secrets

But now it takes hold of me

And climbs on my back

To stay forever with me.



Your eyes delve into mine,

Finding answers ,

My secret is my history

Implanted in my heart

I'm sorry I can't tell you

Something which is beloved to me.



But sometimes

Wounds are opened again

And it starts to bleed out

The poisonous blood that didn't drain

Out of your soul,

Trapped inside,

Gulping all your tranquility.



I have to be rigid,

But it's hard

I have to be strong,

But I'm not

I have to keep a secret,

But I'm not God.



There's no point in hiding now

I give all my secrets

And you give all your love

Or else I would be buried beneath

Under all the secrets

That I've always kept with me.



But it's time now

To give up all I had,

To give up my history

And to solve the mystery

Which entangled your mind



Now the answers are with you

The answer is my secret

Which I just told you.

She was a missile
Dropped from the outer space
****** into the black hole
Into a parallel universe
And as she landed in my arms
It was all meant to be
She was here meant to make this universe happy.

The sparkle of her eyes
Showed the thrill of the skies
The starburst, the planets collide
The world I waited to see
The world she wanted to show me
A world of ecstasy.

She ran through the fields
I tried to hold her leash
But she freed herself and ran further
But looked back to see me
On the ground, all cut and bruised
Because of her energetic force,
She ran back and kissed all my tears
And we ran together in the fields of
Flowers that bloomed as she ran through
All the flowers bloomed in the barren land
Her happiness was contagious.

Her little tail wagged as I played along
And her tiny paws scratched my skin red
But those scars are all I had
Of her to remember her
Not a picture nor a painting to show
The love she engraved in my soul

She was a missile
Gliding through the winds
Taking you along in her adventures
Taking you along with her alluring smile
That others fail to see in her creature
We are odd to think we're not animals
Cause she wasn't any animal too
She was just another soul
A soul that mingles with the winds
makes the air laugh so much
It's difficult to breathe.

She was a missile
And she burst as fast as
She landed here
In my arms
And exploded bringing the sparkling tears that were
The starburst, the planets colliding
The world that I knew someday I'd see
The world she showed to me
The dreary universe she left in glee.

She is wizzing through the skies now
Among the burning stars
She is a shooting star now
Ready to enter another universe
Look out for her, the brightest one she'll be
The one that'll make you smile, she'll be,
She is there to make your wishes true.

She is a missile
She'll catch your eye
The shiniest one in the sky
It is all meant to be
She is there to make another universe happy.