A deep conversation with heaven
Unspoken words and sorrows
Emanate from my fountain pen
Igniting my creative flows

-talking to the moon about you

Isang gabi ika'y narinig
hikbi **** ni isa'y walang nakaririnig
tila luha mo'y di nila batid
bawat pag susumamo'y tainga nila'y nakapinid

bawat umaga mo'y kawalan ng pag-asa
kitilin sariling buhay lagi mo nang panata
paanong nangyari ika'y nakaalpas
sa mga mata ng mga mapanirang nilalang

sinong lumapastangan sa bata **** isip?
sinong lumason, dahilan ng iyong paghihirap?
sinong may pakana? isigaw mo at ituro!
ilantad at iluluklok sa trono ng kamatayan!

maghanda sila sapagkat araw nila'y darating na
mapapawi na rin yaring luha sa iyong mga mata
pagbabayaran ang pagka ganid sa mura **** katawan
itatarak ang kutsilyo ng kasamaan, pabalik sa lugar
na kanilang pinagmulan.

In the depths of my soul, a question does arise.
When will I cease to weave verses about your guise?
For with every breath, your essence fills my pen,
And my words dance in rhythm, again and again.

She told something funny
You both smile so wide like ours
You look happier
You look her in the eye
As if she is the sweetest thing
you ever know, right at that moment
I know you deserve someone new
You look happier
You pinch the tip of her nose
And kiss her forehead
You are so deeply inlove
aren't you?
You look happier
Spending your life
Falling deeper inlove with her
You look happier
I'm happy too, seeing you smile
But during those time
I'm watching you from a far
As my tears falling freely on the ground
As I watched you falling to her
As my world fall apart
The man I love
Married a girl, and he's not mine anymore
While me
Dancing alone in silence
At the backyard where we first met
Those brown eyes, those boyish smile,
Those eyes that penetrate my soul
Those lips that never lies
The one who I cherished the most
Is the one who
Broke his own promises
I was happier when I'm with you
But the key word for us is
"Was"
Realization that we can't be together
That I can't be her
That you and I is over

Slow kisses turn into dust
It should be me, the one you praised
The one you kiss and the one you marry
I miss you so much, and even we're not
Together I still want you back
I want to hold you
But I can't
I'm dying
Not having you here
I can't move on
Sorry

They are guilty of perfidy.
That cause madness and melancholy
Cause I am a dancing aphrodite
In the dark full of fright

they called me *****... a crack *****
a woman who engages in promiscuous ****** *******
I don't want it but the situation does
it feels so uncanny so shameful but so peace.

I am a dancing Aphrodite
they praised me when I'm dance
flesh and bones for how I sold
to rag and use to waste and to unfold

The untold story behind my curves
behind the red lipstick and thick eyelashes, behind the beauty that radiates not from the outside but from within.

As bitter brew meets parted lips, do tears accompany my sips?
In shadows cast by memories, do cries echo through the eclipse?

With every whispered plea for closure, does anguish tighten its grip?
Why did you choose her over us, leaving love's vessel to slowly rip?

In this café of shattered dreams, do my heart's cries reach your ears?
Or are they lost in the cacophony of our unspoken fears?

As bitter brew meets parted lips, do you taste the salt of my tears?
Or have you moved on, leaving me to drown in love's endless spheres?

As the inclement weather crash all over the city,
I discovered the untitled disc of a lost movie
I turn the t.v on and saw the family
Gaining something in return called ‘sympathy’

Surreptitious pictures of the impecunious
Propitious time for those opulent
Impudent behavior, Gratuitous violence
Amorphous hope and lucid nightmares

Misery, anguish, sorrow and pain
Hapless child hold tight to God
Pathetic story will end soon
as the morning sun dissipate the fog

Worry less, pristine day will come to heal your soul and broken heart

In whispers soft, apologies are spun,  
Like magic spells beneath the sun,  
Yet hollow echoes fill the air,  
For they can't heal the wounds laid bare.  

You say "sorry" without feeling deep,  
Unaware of the scars you reap,  
No effort made for reconciliation's start,  
Leaving shattered pieces of a broken heart.  

How can you act as if nothing's amiss,  
Sending messages with a careless kiss?  
Can't you see the effort I've bestowed,  
While you turn the blame, letting falsehoods grow?  

Your words, a dagger, twist and turn,  
Making me believe it's my fault to learn.  
But if your heart lies elsewhere, let it be known,  
So I can find my place, no longer alone.  

If it's her you seek, then set me free,  
From this tangled web of deceit, let me flee.  
For I deserve truth, not shadows cast,  
Release me now, let go at last.

Painful words ignites the soul
Don't take it back 'cause it's sore
Eating me up on my very core
Its already leave scars that you can't cure

Emotions and fears, lullaby with tears
Singing out loud with all of my peers
Dancing all night shouting it cheers!
Tonight I will drink till his memories fades!

Cheers!

Rising like a smoke
You make me so addicted
Under your spell I feel so Intoxicated

You make me so high
As the moan escaped from my lips
The linger of your touch
That shakes me within

The warmth of your skin
Your body against mine
The sparkle in your eyes
That set me on fire

Tell me lies
As my feelings flies
Tell me truth
Cause it hurts so good

Why your lips taste so sweet
And yet it tell me just to quit
Why you act so malevolent
When all I can do is benevolent

You kiss me under the pouring rain
It's so romantic and yet I'm in vain
It's like killing myself in mercy name
Cause I'm hoping for your love that
You didn't give back.

I was sitting with this paradox thing
I just love you and nothing left
Just me and the broken glass of faith
With so much you and less of me

He is just a Left Over
By someone who vows him forever
Someone to feel gratifying affection for
By all means and by all forms

He was hurt before I knew him
His eyes was like a rain
A fine misty rain
Pouring my heart with this afflicted pain

Then we meet halfway
I was broken and devastated
He was lonely and busted
That day we called each other
“The Left-over”

A Thing that remains after something is ended

I act like I don't know nothing
That you never owe me anything
My love for you is so undying
That I almost forgot that
I'm already dying

Last breathe, you leave me
Last tears, you break me
Last hope, you killed it
Last chance, you played it

I have carried my own cross
By loving you with those applause
Letting myself involved
With all the lies you sold

Noxious body under distortion
Innocence got stolen without his permission
Immoral act and dangerous weapon
The killer of our younger generation

His story denigrates by the hypocrites
Atrocious crime of the reprobates
Who ended his life with pernicious gun
Followed by their vicious, facetious laugh

They shot him dead straight to his head
Penetrate his brain that’s how it ends
Goodbye my friend ‘till we meet again

See you at the other side~

Jealous

I know they're just a friend
And I know that they don't mean much to you
But what should I do?
I'm afraid of losing you

You promised that I'm always yours
That you'll be here when I need you the most
But the coldness of your voice
Makes me this paranoid

Now answer me
Should I be jealous of them?
Or keep the faith into you?

Stop wasting your precious time
Stalking someone you can't have

You turn my whole world in spiral form,
crazy yet so fine and unbelievable
You lighten up the mood in every
obstacle ‘you know?
That makes me trembled in happiness
and joy

Don't kiss me with lying lips
I might fall and die from it
Don't look me in the eye and say you will,
will wait for me till death cause I know you never will

Don't dive my core nor explore in deep
You are my ideal boy but you can't keep
Can't keep all the promises where is your faith?
I shouted your name until It turns into hate

You lose the battlefield
that sunk into deep and shallow pace
now we sat like strangers did
as we unclasped our hands and forget how it feels.

goodbye for now 'till we meet again
or just simply let go and don't comeback
or break my heart  once again

Starring at the night sky
I realized how much you mean to me
you held my hand and intertwined it
and whispered "how I wish to stay longer"

I started to cry
"It's about time my love" you said
as you tried to reached for my other hand
"can't promise to stay with you forever"

"you suffered a lot" you stated
I stared at you, wiping your tears you mumbled
"Please let me go and search for another"
I cried even more....

Realizing that anytime now
you will leave me, but you may rest
"you suffered a lot too" I answered
"this is just a cancer" you chuckled

I woke up the next day and call your name out
my tears fall freely on the ground
You're not here anymore
and I won't see you anymore

I've tried so hard to ignore the pain
but here I am again
Longing for the wonderful day
to see you once again.

Why holding onto someone
Who doesn't appreciate you?

You use me
without knowing
that I was used to
being used.