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The betrayal
You’ll never see it coming
And it all started with laughter,
Conversations, games and
A bottle
with no trace of taste
Undetected, I swallowed the lot
And I remember the smirk faces
As I down each droplet of what
looked to be innocent soda
And my mind had lost its way
But found it back to remember...

This part,
where you were
Kneeling over my numb body
and a feeling of pain
As you push yourself up against me
And that’s when I felt cold.

I froze
With my eyes wide open
My mind blank with no thought
My body in a state of shock
And my eyes pooling with water
As all the strength in me drained
I couldn’t believe it,
You never asked.

My tongue forgot how to speak
My voice didn’t exist
And my muscles had no life
As you moan under your breath
In repeated motion
And your body is sprinting
To reach the finish.

For months, I've laid on the same couch
Every single day doing nothing but
Crunched up in shame
Feeling guilty and bad for myself
Like I did something wrong
Hid my tears from the people that pass me
Crying from the trauma
And every time I look at that spot
On the couch I once laid with all that shame,
I can see the print my body left—a dent
of my crunched up body, cushions wet with tears
And I’ll remember it.

You were my friend
And I thought you would protect me
But instead you scarred me
And now I trust no one.

And to you,
I was no longer a person.
i trusted you to protect me but instead you took something from me
Empire Apr 12
Sobriety is overrated
I like it when my head spins
I like a little loss of control
I like intoxication
Your words stirred something deep inside me
like a ***** martini sipped with thirsty lips
my body intoxicated by the very suggestion of you.
Empire Jan 4
HahahahHa I’m finally drunk
Like really really drunk
And I don’t wanna sleep
Cause I feel really really nice
And as soon as I sleep
I give it all up
I’m not ready for that
I’ve only had a few hours of this bliss
Mitch Prax Nov 2019
I don't know how much
you had to drink but I know
you were completely out of your senses.
I couldn't quite make out the words,
but I guess even then,
it felt good to hear some affection.
Oh, how terse the mind is deceived
so easily by the false mask
of a bottle of ***.
Empire Nov 2019
I’d never been drunk before
But six drinks in
I’m certain
I don’t want to be sober
Cause sober...
Sober’s all those things...
Pain and grief and... sadness
Sober is depression
Everything is so good now
Don’t take this from me
I’m happy
Finally
Ahaha I’m intoxicated lolol
Jaxey Aug 2019
"I love you"
Only fell from your lips
When you were intoxicated
So I slipped a bit of *****
In your drink every night
Pretending it was me
You were drunk on
Please love me
faith Aug 2019
addicted to clon
addicted to nicotine
addicted to flexeril
addicted to you
addicted to self harm
addicted to restricting
addicted to being intoxicated
8 - 22 - 19
Lee Aaun Jun 2019
“ Don't get intoxicated by others poison.
You got your own aura to get drunk on.”

© Lee Aaun
Ava Courtney May 2019
But baby u don’t know how to love when you’re sober.
And your too high to realize that i see the smile that your faking.
For your “I love yous” only feel real when your mind doesn’t function on its own, your intoxicated by drugs and i'm intoxicated by you. Your drunk off ***** and tequila shots and I’m drunk off of your love. I'm amazed at how meaningful your words sound when u cant think straight. How you look at me with those drunk eyes as i look at you with my sobering eyes hoping that you won't drink enough to make you forget my name. Because baby i could drink three bottles to try and forget you but the only thing I forget, is my name not yours and how u keep hurting me. Our memories are so deep and so livid that even when the mind gets manipulated and intoxicated, ours overpower them every time.
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