No, I am not alone
I turn to the sky
and glisten with the same stars
that touch the whole world
and I am not tired
My face is hidden in shadows
covered in blood, sweet
and tears as well
but I am alive.
I feel the gravel beneath
and between my bare toes
That prickling fire air
only sparks me more
Everything is heightened
in my scope of mind
and screaming with life
I know it deep down
like a charge through my bones
and remember that I used to feel alone
but now I look up into
her eyes, the universe
and know it was never true
I run past the illuminated windows
of lives people have built
for themselves
and even feel connected
to what they represent
I make my decision and begin to fly
the distance from lonely
growing inside
My roots are unwinding
and finally
ripping free
from all the cages
I made throughout my years
I take the forest path
in the comfort of dark
so that I can be alone
but won't have to feel alone.
I sit among the towering old trees and
I breathe
a deep gulp of the universe
It is calm and eccentric
and everything at once
It breathes
I breathe
and I am not alone
not ever
wherever we are
we are not
alone.

At the midnight split
I admit all I wanted
were her taken lips.

I want to see you wrap yourself

in all that you've become

And tightly now, for your end
          
has just begun.

Hold on, little one

Your tender bones are shaking

Fragile things do break

I crunch out poems...
Stick them to my fingertips...
Gasp them in my sleep.

When you set me free
From all you'd shoved my face,
That's when I loved you

Life, scare me away
Sadness, carry me away
Death, show me the way

Maybe we could've done something to save us
You and I
Maybe we could have broken the casts
If only we had tried
Maybe these walls would have crumbled
And bended to our will
Or maybe we would have loved each more
With no more spaces to fill
Maybe if I had saved you first
You could have been there too
To help me scrape off my rust
And look all shiny new
But maybe I'm just one of those
Rare cases where
Nurture beats nature to a pulp
And I'm left lying
In the dust.


-e.r.n.

When will time form me
stronger than I used to be,
better than I am?

Capture this in sight,
Bend and break it 'til it's right,
Shape it into light.

I'm on the brink now
I promise I won't explode
But you should know
That the promises I make
Always dance around the truth
Not quite touching
You

So if you see me
At the edge of this
Just know I won't return
In a while
I need some time
Away from this
Mess


-e.r.n.

My thoughts are overflowing
  Bursting at the seams
They're filling up the spaces
  Where nothing's what it seems

My thoughts mix into puddles
  Turning murky brown
I try to communicate them
  But they're all watered down

My thoughts crumble like castles
  At the tip of my tongue
They're falling back down my throat
  And scratching up my lungs

My thoughts are oozing out my pores
  And dripping on your skin
But when I try to say those words
  
  I can't even begin


-e.r.n.