(To my other half  who calls me his Light)

Let me  shower you with rays
Of the sunshine on my face
Then we will both sing and dance
Let us not waste time but enjoy this chance

Forget the past and look at me
There is sunshine, can't you see?
My smile's the one that keeps your day
The one full of joy while gloom's fleeting away

I am your light, I am your love
My love for you is as white as dove
Together we will face a brand new day
With this love in our hearts that will forever stay...

It's not your big body that I ached to see
but the company that you bring to me

It cannot be the lust that most human feel
but a deeper longing that only you could heal

It's not about your face that I want to kiss
but your eyes that see my soul that I really miss

It's not about your arms as my pillows at night
but the comfort you bring when you're visible at my sight

It's not only your hug that I really long
but the half of my heart where these emotions belong

It's not only the word that I want to hear
but the warmth of your touch so I'll never fear

It's not anything physical and material, my man
but something rooted from heart, something spiritual

It's not anything that this world can give
but it is your love, only with you I want to live!

What is love without having sacrifice?
What is sacrifice without a true devotion?
Is there a devotion that is forced by men?
Does sacrifice mean a forced obligation?

We often seek devotion from other hearts
We often ask for sacrifices but then we assess
We often force others to love and care
Yet we often think more but we feel less.

Do we really see ourselves from the mirror?
We are created to become creators-
of a brighter sky and a calmer sea
of a softer beeeze and a greener pasture.

Everyone has his legacy, everyone has a dream
Everyone wants both the sun and the rain
Everyone wants to smile, to laugh and to grin
Everyone wants to move on from too much pain.

Then let each other live freely and try to understand
So we can tell the world how we love and care
How do we sacrifice and show our devotion
How we live our life that is really fair!

I walked and ran
In crowded place
I stopped and gazed
At solemn face

I saw your tears
I felt your pain
It crushed my heart-
For what you gain

You looked at me
Then our eyes met
You asked for help
Without regret

You said you need
Is not my mind
But heart that sees
What's hard to find

So I answered
Your breaking call
To help you stand
And not to fall

But as I see
Inside your heart
The pain and gloom
Tear me apart

I sworn to Him
To be your guide
To help you through
And not to hide

To my surprise
You made me see
The light in you
Shining on me

We are the same
I realized
Some good things kept
Be recognized

An angel dear
You are to me
Now I do feel
Now I can see

So let us soar
And go somewhere
Let's spread the light
And goodness there

This is our goal
We have to face
Let's share the love
And be amazed!

I have only three wishes
On my special day-
    Good health for us
    Peace of mind
    And be with you
Wishing for a new life
Starting tomorrow
New day, new beginning
With you,
My love

I  write because I want to shout

And yet I cannot speak

I want to tell some things in me

But I feel I am weak



I write because I want to open

To make all things so clear

I do not know if one will find

The same sounds that I hear



I write because I want to share

The gift that now I keep

To some it maybe ordinary

But  to others it  could be steep



I want to write, I want to shout

I want to open and share

I want to reveal, I want to help

To show that I love and care…

Don't make me feel you knew me well
Like you have searched my soul
I'll show you that I've seen your face
Though thick veil covers it whole

Don't tell me I am important
For I am used of being ignored
Your sweet words sound like nothing
But songs that just make me bored!

A day without your words
Is a day without a smile
A day without reason
To enjoy life even for a while

A day without your touch
Is a day that's not inspiring
A day so full of questions
If life is really worth living

A day without your kiss
Is a day so full of sadness
A day spent in worries,
In doubts, regrets and madness

A day without you, dear
Is a day I don't want to see
For all this time you're only one
The only precious man for me.

You say you love me
But your deeds tell me you don't
So it is fair and just
Release me now
And I swear
We will both live in serenity

For I don't want to grow old
Hating you
For keeping me
In your cage of lies

This world isn't yours
Nor his
This is for everyone
For all of us
Speak your words
Show your ways
But never hurt a heart

Yes, we are free
We have rights
But we have roles to perform
We are in one house
We are a family
We are equal
No status
No gender
No race

We are in a free world
That needs only love...

"Wait for me", she said to him
"I will wait for you, baby", he answered

And they keep on waiting
Trusting the love
Keeping faith on God
No distance
No time
Nothing
Nothing can stop them
Nothing can change their hearts

One day, all dreams will come true
She is for him
He is for her
God made them feel
What is destiny

You don't miss me, do you?
Maybe you don't
'Cause if you do
I  can see you now
Hear your voice
Hug you
Kiss you
Sit on your lap
Cuddle me like  a baby
For you said I am your baby girl

Where are you?
You know I missed you so much
I love you no matter what
I was waiting yesterday
I am waiting now
And I will still be waiting
For you to come home...

Why do we cry?
Why are we hurt?
Why do we fail?
Why do we stumble?
Why do we love?

When we love, we cry
When we love, we are hurt
When we love, we also fail
When we love, we stumble
When we love, we ask questions
Again and again
But still we love

I hear your song echo in the midst of the  night
With my bare feet, I walk in the dark
Just to see you, the voice that I hear
Never care of the risks I have to bear.


Your voice guides me where I should go
The echoes are the trails and now I can see you
You tell me some stories which makes me ponder
I laugh at every humorous word while we chatter.


Who shall forget you as my caring guide?
You lead me into my world, now I don’t have to hide
For I am now complete, an artist of my kind
Your song pushes me up to take pleasure of my mind.

Give me a river of tears
But I will still love
I will always believe
I will still dream
Our dreams
This is me
This is my heart
This is how I love

I come into a place
where everything is floating
It is a dark place for me,
nothing will pass into my liking

The houses are haunted
and thorns are everywhere
It is like a dangerous forest,
all paths lead to nowhere

At first I am scared
and I want to run away
Creatures have different languages,
I don't understand what they say

Everyone seems grinning
Like they want to tear me apart
What else would I think and do
If I feel they would break my heart?

But I have nowhere to go
so I decided to take the risks
I am scared but there's little courage
I am gripping with my fists

With the flicker of hope I wander
to study the mysterious place
Bit by bit I learn something,
enough to cope within each phase

Until I find little creatures
that thriving on a haunted tree
When I stop nearer to them,
they seem so scared, so afraid of me

I feel that sadness, I am bothered,
why they're afraid, I'm just harmless
My little hands could do nothing,
I just want to watch them exist

But  suddenly one of them comes
closer and flies in front of me
I realize it want to be handled
so I open my hand and let it be

It settles down on my open hand
while I walk around, it is my light
And I'm thankful for the little lamp
now I have lessen my fright

A little light that gives me hope
it makes me strong and lessens my load
That tomorrow I can find the way
to get out of this darkest road...

You said "Faith, Not Fear"
And I always believe in you
And I believe in God
And his faithful love
My love, nothing can change us
Nothing can lead us
to separate directions
We will chase our dreams
We will fly together
to face our future
That will be ours
You and I
Yes, you and I
Only you and I
Forever...

My heart shouts
My heart sings
Everytime you call me that-
       your baby girl
How I love to see us
Smiling with each other
While I am sitting on your lap
Or when you cuddle me
Or when I sleep while your arms are my pillows
In the morning, we walk hand in hand
Then watch the sunrise
Then you say I am your light
Sweet love! I don't want to wake up anymore
From this precious dream
My sweetheart,
I am your baby girl.

The time-
   their worst enemy
How could they keep on talking
While they cannot hear each other?
The space-
    seems cooperative, but not to them
It goes with time
So they always feel this way
He is near but far
But oftentimes far but near
They have to thank the hearts
For keeping them beside each other
Waiting is what they always do
Time is naughty
Space is silly
Near but far
Far but near
They will wait for their right time
They will wait for this space to become narrow
Until they find each other
In each others' arm

And yes, I won't be afraid anymore
      Of the ghosts and the demons
      Of thorns and blades
      Of fires and stones
      Of poisons
      Of death

Me amor
I will love you 'til the end
And if this lifetime is not enough
I will still plea for another lifetime
Just to be with you

Faith is our only weapon
Fear is our enemy
But nothing will beat us
If we have faith
In God and in our love.

It is not easy to swim in the sea
I have to go with the waves
But find something to hold on

It is not easy to fly in the sky
I have to go with the wind
But still need to care for my wings

It is not easy to just follow with the flow
I have to listen and then I have to feel
I have to see like I have to consider

It is not easy to be a human
I want to be good
But it is not just about me

Life is like that
We cannot hold all what we want
But the truth is we were given what we need

Life is learning
To live what we need to be
And not always the way we want it to be

Life is a continuous study
An unending way of learning
For to live is to learn who we are
And who we should be...

What's the point?
She has been honest...
But have you trusted?

He's playing tricks once more
A magician-
He never failed to make
A riddle in a day

While I continue my quest...
Oh, how I love to solve puzzles!

(A response poem to Neil Aranda's "Weeds")

I was once a plant, a kind of my own
Oh, a plant that was not eagerly sown
And from that infertile soil, I have grown
Like a **** in wilderness, just unknown.

My ancestors treat me like I'm nothing
Nobody cares if I have done something
But still I don't want to stop believing
Persist to live through hoping and dreaming.

And then they call me as a wild flower
Condemn me like I'm a serial killer
They provoke each other as believer
Each one must be an active decrier.

But one day, my kind will be recognized
As that one good plant, a kind which is nice
From this barren land, I promise, I'll rise
And I'll be that strong, one day I'll be wise...

I have a writer's block
I cannot write quality poems
At the moment
But still I want to write
What I feel ...

Because my heart
Has endless stories to tell
About this magical feeling
Between you and I

You said you are a fool
And I'm just a woman in love
But dear, I will claim
To be a fool in love
Is the best thing I could be
It is the best feeling-
To be in love...

With you.

Praying
          wishing
                    hoping
                            dreaming


                              Crying
                           thinking
                      considering
                           believing


Standing
moving
deciding
fighting


                                Waiting
                        trusting
                loving
          living.

A distant cry
Such wounded knee
A searching soul
It's breaking me

A fading voice
Such broken heart
A shattered dream
Tears me apart

I'm not surprised
To hear that call
That distant cry
Your broken soul

Such aching days
Can you forget?
How would you live
Without regret?

You have to start
It's not the end
Move on and live
Forgive to mend

New hope is there
Just let it be
You will succeed
Go and you'll see

Forget the past
It's hard to do
But God is there
He'll guide you through.

I am but now a young adult
And may you please consider this
I do not  want for an applause
Or recognition to be pleased

I am here at this stage
I'm at the middle of my life
So I just wish my future days
Won't be that sad nor full of strife

The only thing that could help me
Keep away from all the pressures
Is this feeling that I am free-
Freedom in words and in gestures

Have you considered to speak your mind
To tell those things you really feel?
Or you just sit down in one corner
Then cry alone, nothing could heal?

Oh youth, please do remember this
The only thing I could tell you
You have this big chance to be happy
There are much things that you can do

Your hands are skilled in making things
They almost beg, hear when they call
The crafts that only you could make
Now is the time to show them all

Your words that long hidden inside
Could be the best song or story
Or they could be the finest poem
Let them be heard, let the world see

If you can paint, just paint it all
If you can sing, just sing it out
If you can write, just write the words
No matter what, feel free to shout

Life is too short to **** yourself
By doing things you do not want
Or just to grow old with much regrets
That in the end you'll make a rant

Always remember that time's a gem
You should not waste, you should not stop
While still young, go for your dreams
Express yourself and reach the top!

I woke up this morning
I felt like singing

With love and faith
No sorrow, no hate

No pressure, no tear
No stress, no fear

No Why or How
To Him I bow

I must confess
I am so blessed!

Baby, let us sleep now
The world is so quiet
It offers perfect serenity
The bed is ready
The blanket wants to hug us
To bring us to our magical dreams

Let us dream tonight, baby
Let us dream our dreams together
Like it is for real
You and I
To be forever

Yes, let us dream our dreams
Where we are not separated
By time and space
Where we can hold each other
Feel the kisses, the hugs
The love that only our dreams
Could understand

Let us sleep, baby
Let us sleep tonight
Let us dream our dreams
And wake up one day
That the dream is not a dream
But the reality that will bring us
Together...

Forever.

My love, I still remember my pledge to you
That I will love you till the end
That you will be here forever in my heart
The color of my canvass
The notes of my songs
The lines and verses of my poems
The beauty of my photographs
The story of everything I do
because of you

I renew my vow
I recall my promises
Let us heal the wounds of our past
The times I attempted to forget you
The times I decided to leave you

Now is the realization, my love
I love you with all of my heart
You are everything that I do
You are the color to my world
My life won't be complete without you

Let us forget the past, my love
Hear my songs again
Stare at my photographs
Look at my paintings
Read my stories
Recite my poems

You are there...
In everything that I love to do, you are there
I can't hide the truth
You are  a part of my life
And I need you to be whole

I renew my vow
I'll be with you 'til the end,
       my beloved ART

Today is the perfect day, the finest day of my death
Holding a fine bouquet like this is the perfect wreath
Those eyes are watching me while I'm wearing this wedding dress
But the queen in their eyes, has these heart and mind in a mess.

I remember the last time that we talked to each other
When you gave me that call that I won't forget forever
I was trying to be strong but my eyes were full of tears
I tried to say these words though my heart was full of fears:

"My love, at this time, I won't ask so many things from you
You have done so much for me and you know it hurts me so
I can do nothing today but just to cry over you
You'll be alone and I'm here preparing to say "I do".

But I have a request my love, the  last favor I'll ask
Before the day of my wedding, please be there, please come so fast
Don't be late, be on time, I will wait for you 'til the last
When I give my vow to him, there won't be no time for us."

And now I am walking in this humble aisle of  my grave
I take the last glance at the door for a hope that I'll be saved
But no shadow of you there, now I have to face my death
I can hear my heart's mourning from the sound of the wedding bells.

Today is the perfect day, the finest day of my death
Holding a fine bouquet like this is the perfect wreath
As I have realized how fool I am, why I believed?
Today is the perfect day, let them watch my perfect death...

The day you came was the day I just died
My body was numb, I didn't try to hide
My eyes were blind, I just needed a guide
My broken world, a thousand tears I cried

The day you came, oh  I was born again
You helped me stand so I  danced in the rain
You made me free from this much aching chain
I thought I can't smile in this world of pain

But you were there like a strong, shining knight
You're that angel who took away my fright
No more darkest day, no more painful night
Now the black part's gone, you've painted it white

I promise, my love won't change anymore
It's only your heart, for life I adore
Just to love you, dear, there's none I ask for
I will love you until forevermore...

I fell
but you made me stand once more
I stopped
but you gave me reasons to move on
It's too long that this voice wasn't heard
but now I am singing again
I died
but you made me live again

Your love is magical
It brought me to a place I've never been
It made me stronger, bolder, eager
It made me believe the unbelievable
It made me dream again

Your love is my life
You are my everything.

There's a woman seeing much trouble
but she's always grateful of this life

She could be living in miseries and pain
but she never forgets to smile

She knows that life is a **** duplex
yes, she believes in life's duality

The yin and yang, the bad and good, black or  white
she could be sad or happy

But such reality of life, one cannot change
but understand and accept

For if she will live with objections
would it give her peace and won't regret?

Oh human, the war within oneself
must be treated with care so you'll understand

That life's gift after winning a battle
is best enjoyed when you don't always demand.

I met you in a place
Where I hid my sorrows
While searching for the rain-
       the other half of my soul

You were like a sun to me
Yet you helped me find the rain

And now I am dancing in the rain
I still remember you
But I have no choice but to smile
and look at you in my silence
Yes, I am so grateful
and I won't forget the times
that the sun shone on me
and gave me hope

Now I have the rain
But the memories
of a beautiful friendship-
           the flower and the sun
will be here forever
in one corner of my mind

Yes, I have the rain
And I love the rain
But I won't forget that
Once upon a time
The sun helped me find the rain.

On and Off
Lost and Found
In and Out

That's our love-
I found you
We celebrated with our feelings
Like it is forever

There's a time we say 'hello'
And then a moment we say 'goodbye'
But nothing is constant
Words change
Moods change
Except the names etched in our hearts
It will always be the same

I will always love you
I will always believe in you...

No matter what.

I've been dreaming of this since we met...

It is always a beautiful morning when we are together. We walk in a beach, hand-in-hand, while we tell each other some silly stories to make each other smile. Then in the afternoon, we watch the beauty of sunset while your head on my lap. I touch your face and comb your hair with my fingers. You tell me how beautiful I am to your eyes, then I just smile and give you a kiss on your forehead. You stand and carry me and swing me to the air while I shout your name and how I love you so. You then let me stand and hug me tight and say you love me too.

That story is always in my dreams and makes me cry because in my life I only have those dreams since I met you. So when you tolerate me in my fantasies, I think that I could be happy even for a while. Only to cry later when I'm done with my daydreaming. That's why I want to talk to you always because we don't know when will this last. You may find a girl, or I could find someone  like you who is willing to take me away from this kind of life. I always believe that God will help me to be free from this life, not in the way that He will take my life. I always pray for longer life because I want to feel how it is to be loved and taken cared of. In my whole life I have been that woman who's caring and loving to other people that I almost forget myself. I always believe that God loves me and He has a purpose in everything that is happening.

So you should not worry that you will lead me to a place where I can never be because I am used to failures and breaking. I believe I can still get at the finish line even if I'm full of bruises. I just don't know whose hands will hold me and will lead me to the finish line.

On their way to the park, they walk hand-in-hand
With the smiles on their face as they have now the band
People are looking, some are murmuring and frowning
As they see two people like morning and evening.

Why do these folks cannot see the light?
What's wrong with numbers- the age, weight or height?
If they have differences, should they care for those words
Or nothing but their hearts with common beats and chords?

Yet the woman smiles, she then hugs her man
She's not worried at all but now the proud woman
Why not? He's a gift, the most precious gem
What matters is the love that is real between them.

When you love someone,
You will always think
Of his happiness, not yours
Yet his happiness is also yours
And all things that would make him happy
Will make you happy, too.

When you love someone,
You will always hear
Your heart saying, "I love him.
I will do anything for him."
Even if some things would mean
Your own heartbreak...

Chain of gold we have
Locked our hearts and sealed as one
Our gem forever

Just like a caterpillar
She's gone through changes-
            those relevant  stages of her life
The process is long
And is full of pain
Until she becomes
A beautiful butterfly

I saw you there
Holding a precious gift -
The one I dreamed for so long
So I moved and made few steps
To be closer to you
While you smiled at me
And made a sign that
You want to give me the gift

I made another step
And another more steps
But still I can't reach you
And the gift you wanted to give me

You are there
Smiling at me
While holding the gift
And yes, I can feel it-
I can feel the air
I can feel a different breeze
While getting closer
And closer to you

I know I need more strength
And persistence
So that I can hold your gift
Someday, somehow.

I love the man, I always do
I never thought that he would go

I love the man, I always will
I will stay strong, I will stand still

I love the man, he is so smart
He won't retreat, he won't depart

I love the man, so real, so much
Until forever we're perfect match!

My love, I have come to this point
That I don't care for what they say
But to be with you and be yours
Until forever and a day

My forever light, I am yours
My heart, my soul, my mind
I dreamed to grow old with you
It is our love, our strongest bind

I completely give myself to you
I swear, my love, this pledge is true.

I will love you
With all my heart
With all my soul
With all I am

I am yours...

Until I die
Until my last breath
Today, forever and always
Until eternity.

Your words are my strength-
Now that I hear from you
Those words of doubt
And fear,
How could I be strong?

I feel so weak again...

I pluck the petals
He loves me; he loves me not
Time to walk away