"It feels so scary getting old"
Seems true.
It makes me weep to see the world
Without you.

Don’t let that black cloud
Rain on you.
Don’t let it soak
Your hair and cloak.

Sometimes it’s okay
To experience the drizzle,
Most often times,
No.

Don’t let that black cloud
Eat you up.
Don’t let it flood your mind
Of things that you can’t rewind.

That black cloud is inevitable,
Even I can’t stop the horrible
Droplets to land on my face.

Know that you can do something about it.
You can open your umbrella
Or wear your hat if you will.

Most importantly,
Remember that there will be a shining sun
After this terrible, terrible
Black cloud storm.

Count the days
Before it begins
The most sought-after event
That we all await

It's the first day of December
But it's not Christmas that I refer

Starting today,
Count all the days
When you give and give
Even to those who forget

Proven and tested,
It will return to you
It will be more than what they received
More than you asked and view

It hurts so much.

How could your words
Be so cruel,
Yet I still wait for it?

How can I love you
This much
When you can unlove me
Just like that?

I want to be as good as Taylor Swift
To write songs as sweet as you,
However I will always be Rihanna.
All I know is take care of you

It’s better to cover your ears.

It’s better to just close your eyes.

It’s better not to hold on to anyone.

It’s better if you will not feel any single
pain that I have been ignoring

this whole **** time.

I will never not be amazed
Of how magical it is
To love you.

Without a doubt
You are the one
Who keeps me coming
And coming
Until I reached it.

You keep me alive
You help me stand
You ******* guide me
Even without your knowledge

That is how
Powerful
You are
To me

I made this poem
(Or just a flowery letter)
To say
How madly in love I am
With you

I'm never ready
to take off and be with you
but I'm excited

You are my sunshine,
my raindrop and bright moonlight.
You keep me crazy.

I can't stare at your eyes
It pierce my heart
I do love you
But not like how you want me to

I keep thinking of you
I ******* do
But not because I need you
It's because I want you

I keep thinking of your lips
How they spit humorous words
And **** and nibble
The needy ******

Just like your hands,
I love how they roam around
How they go to places
That brings me to god-knows-where

I want you down there
You know how to kindle the fire inside me
Your fingers caressing the parts
That only you and I know

Grateful for this year
And it is because of you.
Merry Christmas, Love!

What should I do
Without you?
I can't focus
Nor blow a kiss

I can't cheer
I can't bear
I can't hear
I don't know how to fake

I love how you laugh
And I'm missing it now
I don't want you to
Evanesce

Evanesce
No I don't want you to
Evanesce
Unless,  I'm coming with you

What should I do now
Without you?
I can't make a move
Nor breathe

I feel like dying
I feel like sinking
Into a hole
That I know I can't escape

When she asked me,
“What triggers you?”
I couldn’t pick one.
Crap.

July 16 was a very normal day
Three years ago.
But then,
You left.

I wish I could tell you
all the things i want
without getting hurt
or crying

I wish I could express
how devastating it is
to hear those words
from you

I wish I could show you
all the scars i got
from the words
you threw at me

I can't escape

It was you
Who picked me up

It was you
Who gave me hope

You never let me
Feel unsafe

You never let me
Hunger
Of love and care.

You’re about to go
And I am feeling so low.
My head hurts,
My tears won’t slow.

I hope everything will be okay
As the two of you
Find your way
Together.

okay isn't my okay word.
happy isn't what i'm feeling.
sadness can't explain
how miserable i am.

i will never be okay.
i will never meet the end of that road called happiness.
i will never get to the amusement park where i used to hold you.
i will never be the same.

because you're not around,
you're not here.
you will never be around.
you're not here anymore.

I wonder how flowers bloom beautifully
Without someone taking care of it.

I think and think.

It startled me
That I never thought
Of the sun,
The rain,
Even the bees and the butterflies
Or the plants beside it.


And so I tell myself:
There are more people that can help
Bring out the best in you.
It may not be someone you expected it to be;

Hopefully,
Someone will give you
Light,
Health,
As well as richness.

Little flower,
Learn from the drought and the flood.

seeing you
reminds me of the phrase,
"life gets better"

not my brain