(the light at the end of the tunnel was somebody else's iPhone)
39 • Speaking the language of the ocean as an Opening Statement oath
38 • house where gathering on lunch tables is the validation of love I've been taught everything but home
37 • I'm less of a city than id like to be I’m
more categorized i never asked to
36 • It's raining and Thunder storm never fitted my skin this completely
35 • yes I'm using too many personification because you know what, The sky is the only one took me in its basement when gods condemn me and my family turned my bedroom to a storage room-
34 • no You can't be as dead as a poet lost herself trying not to pull the trigger every time her hands stopped writing
33 • I wore the moon as a guilt dress and called it mine. when gravity traumatized the earth; it never was okay not to maintain your skin
32 • love shouldn't be this futile mathematical formula, it was either give it all your cosmos or leave its atoms be.
31 • The worst case scenario saying that you cared
30 • Blaming your sign or your daddy issues doesn't facilitate you a permission to justify yourself. domestic violence is never a family matter
29 • Using metaphors like translating love confessions to French, and addressing the lavender's scent on someone else’s sweater. facing the music and call it by its first name was never an option, securing your handful of cards, clenching them tightly in your fist and never on the dinner table is all your upbringing taught you.
28 • promising not to repeat your parents mistakes only to become one with every time you improvise your toxic behaviors, your mood swings, and hunted past lives on people believed in you that you cast away 'till they walk out of you heathens
27• she didn't.
27 • She kisses you homes and family members and your childhood playground ‘til your lungs is overflowing with fireflies and graduates
26• you say “thank you” she said “it’s the god work at best” and man if getting her god's approval is such a tired game
25• I prayed for him 5 times a day, it’s been 5 years and he never answered me back
25 • Contradictions never made sense
24 • I hate the lake and i hate the house and I'm never in between?
23 • Leaving parts of you every time you leave her bedsheets is not a love story
20 • Fights and Interfering ihate-iloveyous like they were the same thing
19 • Trapped inside a voicemail
and made up tweets on happy endings and cursive curses,
this is not supposed to rhyme.
18 • Turning kitchen into dance floor half past eight AM —her legs move to the music and her body hits you like a soft iceberg before its shape fit into yours now I don't know about you but I'm singing a holy ******* hallelujah on that ****
17• Using the same words fighting on who came up with it first
16 • If religion were to transform into human figure: sun lays inside her mouth, lavenders roots inside her ribcage both beautiful and suffocating.
- Moving the weather in reverse she reinvents clouds so catastrophic and put rain into being; that, my friend is the only miraculous evident i'll ever worship. You see, the sun bends every time she shake the sky graceless only then she smiles and only then, atheism was irrelevant
15 • Love letters on cold rooms, Empty tea cups, crossed calendar, fake engagement rings and lovers who never came back
14 • tic-tocks, January 12 stuck on 3 minutes phone call ******* I'm doing it again !
13 • I'll seal my will to the seven seas and go down with the ship hopping you're the sailor
12• judging the book by the way it let's you go doesn't let their parents reject you little less
11• too many boarders in our town yet you come up with creative way to make death prouder than your dad ever will
10 • Matching cuts, different motives, Immortalize me a kiss and i'll pretend I'd refuse
9 • Turning heart into cereal box and Oreos and chew on them like love taught you
8• Ran out of blocks to architect so i run on empty vows on strangers lips that fades by the time sunlight knocks on the window
7• she texts you, then she texts you not.
she tweets your slangs and quote your favorite song lyrics and you Turn her notifications to on off on off on off on on on on !
6 • Too many plans too little swimming pools.
5 • turns out placing rings on people's finger doesn't help you keep them
4 • Blackhole inside a blackhole inside a tunnel you wish it was more physically harmful than soul abusing i thought I've known better
3 • breaking your surface to one and your heart for two Making love to visual screens and screenshots it's not supposed to make sense, but you probably know what i mean
2 • Wearing funeral black since last Thursday noon and Sunday morning seeing you wearing the same breaks my heart.
1 • Remember when I counted down til the day i meet you when we started texting, isn't it ironic now that I'm counting our poem down to an end , I'd laugh but I missed the punchline since that 12th of January