I tried placing my heart in your hands
But you ran out of space
I started Pressing the Escape Key
For you not to see
that you hurt me
As tears overflow my face
Not enough data in your storage (No space)
So you will probably never get this message
well since you won't get this message
I will admit
When it came to you I lacked the courage
To tell you that I _____ you

I crave all of you
Your beauty
Your ugly
Your insecurity
Your thoughts
Your body

most importantly your longevity...

Know that your written words echo in my soul
They touch my heart and never let go
Leaving fingerprints
evidence that you moved my heart and exposed my deepest emotions
Thank you for sharing your passion
Through your passion I found a voice in my silence, knowing that you have spoken
I need your words like a heartbeat
I pray to never stop breathing
as long as you keep writing

At first his hand prints were soft
Touching me gently, slowly and softly
Then his ego got fed
They became hard
Found strength to swing

My face the target
Swinging and swinging
He hit with a passion

I was his lover and his target
I forgave and he reloaded
Bullets in hands
Shot and my heart he destroyed

My inside pain became seen by many
Bruises and bumps, cut lips and black eyes
They asked why I never left
I told them he took something from me
He took my heart and left me feeling empty
To fill that void I replaced his love with my pain
Some called him an abuser
I called him my lover

To me it was all the same

Razor cuts deep
Blood pours slow
Leaking to fill up spaces
Inside his body it stayed in empty places
In so much pain
looking for something within to replace it

Taking deep breaths as he inhales
The devil smiles
As he welcomes him to hell
More cuts more pain
No substance within
Mind goes insane

As he feeds his body more pain
Cuts on his arm leaving history
Marking himself just to feel alive
While inside his soul is slowly dying

Yellow green cross
Cross yellow green
Green cross yellow

These words jell like melo
I knew an old fellow
Heart cold like ice
Dark inside and shallow

Goodbyes hurt
Hellos heal
Love burns
Pain kills
Your touch
gives me thrills

I touch you
to make sure this love is real
And my Fingers go numb

let me touch your soul

Read between these lines
To know that you are forever mine

Sad leafs fall
As heavy wind blows
Naked branches get exposed

Beautiful colors aluminate the sky
As they flirt with my eye


So I fall in love with fall
the colors, the smell, the wind

I just love it all

You lied to me
     To lay with me
              I gave you me
                          But you abandoned me

Closed me in a box you dug me six feet under
My soul left to wonder

I was a dream you turned into a nightmare
I thirst in pain, now I drown in my own tears
I gave you my fears
you turned around and sharpend your spears

You Couldn't love me
so you turned me into an unlovable being

Titled me
crazy,
obsessed,
dangerous,
insecure,
and insane

But yet you fear losing me
because I was the drug to your pain

She wanted more
          But
               He wasn't enough

He never felt complete
         because she wasn't
                                his other half

I don't want to be a place card in your book
I want to be a chapter
That makes you wonder
I want to be a chapter
That makes you go deeper
I want to be a chapter
That makes you feel blessed to be a lover

If love can heal
And pain can ****

What will it take to get over you

You better love her more than I love her
Heal all her scars
Speak to her insecurities
Be her security
Show her loyalty
Respect and honor who she wants to be

I raised her
now it's your turn to raise her beautiful gifts
Love them and cherish them
Embrace them and adore them

Love her and she will love you more
She will never let you go

Sad birds still sing
Sad lovers force smiles through pain
Those who are drowning still try to swim

Conditions, don't give us defenitions
We define conditions with our reactions

You can't control everything, but your reactions will always determine everything

Lie to me
Tell me that you love me

At least this way I know you are
Telling the truth

She was drown to superstars
Shiny cars
Fast lives Slow hearts, materialistic worshippers
Loud mouths, voice yelling hand clappers
Just to get a point a across

Attitude filled reality stars
She idolized, visualized and internalized
Their lifestyles

Just to end up losing her own identity

Consumed by what she idolized she forgot to open her eyes

Blinded by perception, while dying to gain acception

I wrote you a poem
But I ran out of words to describe your beauty
So this my love, is all I have to say

You are the greatest sight I have ever laid my eyes on..

To you my heart belongs

Lost in your eyes I was
when you echoed
Those three words
My bones shimmered
As my heart skipped a million beats
As it tried to match your pace
You broke every being of my insecurity
Forcing me to step out of my comfort zone
Just to echo the words
"I love you too"

Free your mind
Let your soul unwind
Smile, remember you are beautiful
Pick up your sorrow
leave that ground
Fly to higher emotions,
feel this glorious sensation

His biggest mistake is that he loved
his greatest choice is that he loved

She let him put his hands on her
She let him control her
She let him abuse her,
She let him misuse her, and mistreat her
She was too weak to say no to love  

So she took in all the pain while she died from within

Love me as bad as you want to breath
When I am weak I pray you keep me strong
Correct me when I am wrong
Real love is not perfect
It is broken pieces of glass molded together to make a vessel full of promises and wishes
My greatest wish is for you to never stop breathing

For as long as you breath
I know you will always love me

She wears mascara to hide her flaws
While her flaws find comfort in her empty soul
They fester inside and cut deep
She faces internal insecurity
Hating who she is supposed to be
Her inner beauty ugly as her attitude
Lacking the ability to show gratitude
Angry because it has never been appreciated
It's only been abused by men who left her feeling devestated
Heart broken and alone she found beauty in her mascara as it hid her ****** errors
At least it covered her deepest fears
Wiped her heaviest tears
Her mascara became a mask full of errors

Only true love would get her to take it off...

Dear Black girl
Your beauty is enough

Because you are a diamond in the rough

I hope
I hope you
I hope you know
I hope you know how
I hope you know how you
I hope you know how you make
I hope you know how you make me
I hope you know how you make me feel

Loved....

She wrote a piece that shook my soul
Every word was as if she uttered my name
Feeling as if my heart was burning in flames
She told me a love like hers can never be tamed
Regret ran through my mind
as my soul felt empty,
it was her reality I was living
Now death comes to comfort me

Woke up to a dream filled with limitless emotions, she never sought revenge
But left my heart feeling strange
A love like hers can never be found
Till this day I search for a dream like love
And only find it in my dreams

That's why I now sleep more...

African soul child
Eating dust for dinner
Drinking ***** water
Poverty is your richness
Survival is your blessing
Too many deaths you witnessed
Torn between dying and living
Yet you still choose living
Breath air polluted with gas fumes
Big diamond digging machines
Repping your grounds for more minarals
Witnessed less births and more funerals
Oh African soul child

Rain drops dropping on your dry soul
Wet hands now clap of laughter
Low in self-steem now flying higher
Weak in imagination
scared to see a future without her
She is deeper than the ocean floor
You shallow as a river filled with rocks
Emotions fueld by your insecurities
Now you are scared to be
who you are supposed to be
Stagnate in progression so you regress
Take a million steps backwards
Scared to move forward
Fearing the future
lacking the idea of growth
That one knee will never see the floor
Because you can't see a future with her
But you hold on to her like ransome
While her next one is dying to find her
Leave her be so she can be
free to find her one true love
Her next one

I hope when I see you
You see you
Because if we are one
We become each other
Perfectly belt with flaws
Perfectly grown in love

Sometime love feels like...
uncomfortable feelings sitting in your stomach
Uneasy thoughts in your mind
Forcing you to hold on to painful thoughts
Of what it would be like to not be loved
Just sometimes love doesn't feel like love
It feels like darkness swarming your soul
Needles pearsing your heart
As your lovers fingertips squeeze out all emotions
Leaving you drained of all feelings
Sometimes just sometimes love does not feel like love

Oh mother land
How I miss you
You gave me life
And blessed me with culture
Baptized me in tradition
Nurtured me in love
Sweet Africa, sweet Africa
How I love you

Me and my poetry make love
And birth metaphors
We flirt with words and make new alphabets
Gambling on emotional expressions
While reaching written aspirations
we share sensation, desperation, dedication
While searching for deep emotional satisfaction  
sometimes we cry together
Other times we smile together
when it's all said and done we know we will die together
just me and my poetry....

Love me weak
Love me strong
Love me blind
Love me hurt
Love me ugly
Love me *****
Love me clean
Love me good
Love me bad
whatever you do don't stop loving me
Let this love be unconditional
Untouchable, untamable, uncontrollable and most importantly understandable

Just before the sun greets my black skin
I sit in silence and embrace the day
Searching for what's within
Before the madness begins
At this time my soul knocks on heavens gates
Thanking God for another day
Praying he protects my family and friends

A good cry changes lives
Simply letting out emotions
Instead of holding them in
And dying from within

Don't you know that
Festering souls hold on to solid emotions
While sinking in black holes
Fornacating with anger and birthing depression
Complex thoughts twist our brain cells
Forcing us to never excel out of emotional hell
Hiding behind our perception
We act like showing a sign of weakness is taboo
In a society where pain builds up to hurt you
Confused, misused and abused
we let our emotions stay locked in a room
and Pride is the locksmith

Let's
Make
Love
With
These
Words
Open Our hearts
And fly High like birds
But ground our emotions
Like the roots in which Mother Earth planted
Take a chance and make an alpha(bet)
It will take more than 26 letters
to show that we are lovers
Of all the words I could use to describe our love
I pick (serendipity)
because clearly we were meant to be
and it happened (unexpectedly)

Nothing hurts more than dreams that don't start
Memories that Don't end
Pain that wants to be friends
Lovers that always pretend
Opinions with no stand
Blind artists with with beautiful art
That they never get to see

While those who see never appreciate the beauty that's within

Sweaty p(a)lms
Perspiri(n)g pits
Pounding headache, comple(x) thoughts
Heart rac(i)ng at a fast pace
Eyes focus(e)d on burdens
Thoughts compe(t)ing to finish a pointless race
Empt(y) heart seeking comfort

Emotions fighting to be expressed
Mouth dry, stomach turning, soul burning
Pain left to explain what's happening within

Leaf color changes
Leave me Loving different strangers
Thunder in my soul
Heart filled with desire
Passion burning like a wild fire
unstoppable like the heart of a champion

Emotions lay at the end of empty liquor bottles
While Pain sits in the middle of his ****** filled syringe
The struggle of leaving love left a feeling so strenge

She drunk her way out of love
As he drugged his way out of love

Getting over love is painful
don't overdose while getting over something that wasn't meant to be
Forcing you to be who you not supposed to be

Remember that addicts were once lovers looking for a drug more powerful than love

I
Miss
       You
           Tonight
  And every second
             you are not in my
                                      Sight

I would rather feel something
than feel nothing at all
Because death comes for us all
And the first thing it takes away is our feelings
in our souls

It numbs our spines and takes away our senses
Forcing us to live life senseless
As it welcomes us with open arms

Sleeping with the enemy
          Her name is depression
                     With her there is no solution
                                She Leaves me feeling empty
Sad and lonely
While she molests my heart
Pain and sorrow she forces me to follow
I am a victim of my own insecurity
While falling for my own ambiguity
Not knowing how to feel, so this pain I swallow

Twisted tales
Slow summers
ugly snales
Fast winters
Thin bodies so frail
Stay covered under thick covers
Dream of nightmares comfort old lovers
Telling tales underneath bed covers
In those covers they become deeper lovers
9 months later birth another