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531 · Feb 2016
Loyal Pain
Annie McLaughlin Feb 2016
I will be back tomorrow night
I will come bearing more gifts*

the next night, insomnia visited once again, as promised
and brought the gifts of
freshened tears and quickened heartbeat,
racing mind,
cold blood,
shattered heart pieces.
because sometimes the hurt and the pain are more constant and trustworthy than the humans.
527 · Sep 2015
She Is
Annie McLaughlin Sep 2015
She is the girl
Sitting in the corner
Alone, afraid
Observing the happy people.
She is the girl
Buried nose deep in the book
With a ****** name
And a tragic backstory.
She is the girl
That goes home every day
And cries in her bedroom
And cries in the shower
And cries at supper
And smiles to her mother
And smiles to her father
And smiles to her friends
And wears mismatched clothes
Because she likes to express her emotions
Without pulling up her long sleeves.
She is the girl
That nobody noticed.
She is the girl
That noticed everybody.
526 · Oct 2015
"Nothing Hates U"
Annie McLaughlin Oct 2015
I wish to stop feeling like I am nothing
Because feeling like I am nothing
Only leads to doing nothing
Even where there is not nothing
To do
And feeling like I am nothing
Only causes everyone else
To view me as nothing
So maybe the only way to stop feeling like nothing
Is to become nothing
For those days, like today, when I feel completely and utterly worthless...
524 · Dec 2015
Hell Floods Over
Annie McLaughlin Dec 2015
This one's for all the ****** angels
Bearer of knives and guns
I know you didn't use to think this way
You were just like one of us
522 · Jan 2016
Taste
Annie McLaughlin Jan 2016
I stole a bottle of beer from the fridge
I chugged about half the bottle
but I didn't like the taste
so I threw it out the window
and then I threw myself out as well
and I went to pick up the leaking bottle
and I drank it still, even though I didn't like the taste
and I fell asleep in the cold, and I think I cried
and tears made their way down my cheek and into my parted lips
and I didn't like the taste
but I continued crying, anyways
and in the morning my brother handed me some medicine
that he promised would make my head feel better
so I took it from him and swallowed
but I didn't like the taste
so I went and found another beer in the fridge
to down the medicine with
and even though I didn't like the taste
I got used to it.
518 · Apr 2016
voice of anxiety
Annie McLaughlin Apr 2016
my, my, unharmed skin
what, what should I do to you?
Not only only happy dreams come true
Blood, blood, blood, blood does, too
piece of, of paper
what should I - I write on you?
maybe of he who loves me,
who?
untouched-touched bare skin
what shall I clothe you wi-th?
none will look - look either way
new, new, new life born. . .
what should make of, of you?
criti - criti - criticism will still come
my, my, my, my unharmed skin
forgive me for using - using these past tense
wrote this in class today.
513 · Sep 2015
In My Eyes, You Can See
Annie McLaughlin Sep 2015
In my eyes, you can see
The prettiest girl
Laughing so happily as her dad lifts his whole world
He whispers in her ear, "I won't ever hurt you"
In my eyes, the most beautiful memory I knew

In my eyes, you can see
The most frightened girl
Shaking so violently as her dad harms his whole world
He whispers in her ear, "I didn't mean to hurt you"
In my eyes, the most scariest memory I knew

In my eyes, you can see
The saddest girl
Crying uncontrollably as her dad leaves his whole world
She whispers in his ear, "Now you've hurt me"
In my eyes, the most tragic memory

In my eyes, you can see
The loneliest girl
Breathing so heavily as she harms her own world
She whispers to herself, "I didn't mean to bleed"
In my eyes, the most painful memory

In my eyes, you can't see
The brokenhearted girl
Lying so still as she leaves this cold world
She whispers to herself, "You will stop hurting"
In my eyes, the last memory I knew
506 · Jan 2016
timeline
Annie McLaughlin Jan 2016
delightful*                                                      (pleasing, full of delight)
dreamy                                                ­         (peaceful, abstracted from reality)
demure                                                ­         (reserved, modest)
distant                                                ­           (seperated in space/mind)
delirious                                                ­        (not able to think or speak clearly)
dangerous                                             ­        (able or likely to cause injury, pain, harm, etc)
daunting                                                  ­     (tending to make people afraid or less confident )
destructive                                                    (causing a very large amount of damage)
decrepit                                               ­          (weak/fragile, not strong enough)

dead                                                ­            (my father/heart/hope)
This is the timeline. The timeline I wanted to avoid.
506 · Dec 2015
Inside
Annie McLaughlin Dec 2015
I heard photographs show who you really are inside
And maybe that is why
You say you're ugly every time
504 · Apr 2016
Elsewhere
Annie McLaughlin Apr 2016
I understand this is hard for you
A woman whom could not govern her own
So as to reside in a greater power
In which this hope has rescued you
I understand your concern
That I will have no such one to place my blame on
But oh, you must see
That much more profound happiness
May very well be found elsewhere
In a world that which does not provide
Such an easy excuse to these troubles
You must understand, simply as I do,
That one or both are wrong,
So that these endless quarrels are useless
Let me believe in my logic and you in your fairytales
And fulfill your hunger for strife
Elsewhere
You might get it. You might not. That's okay.
502 · Mar 2016
hated
Annie McLaughlin Mar 2016
I hate these words repeating in my head
I hate these rhymes my brain has been fed
I hate this feeling of not feeling my feelings
I hate this part when it's too late to hang from the ceiling
I hate the guilt that I guiltily push down
I hate it when all I can think of is the same old noun
I hate my hate towards hateful beings
I hate the ****** melody my mouth sings
I hate that I have no say at this point
I hate my heart breaking, worse than breaking of joints
I hate this room and this house and this neighborhood
I hate these things that everyone should
Love and adore but somehow I can't
I hate when I become to the shrinking size of an ant
I hate this verse that I'm making
When I stand up in class and recieve laughs at my voice shaking
I hate my complaints and I hate my emotionless emotions emotionally seeping out of my motionless skin
I hate this I hate that I hate you
I hate that I'm lying right now just to pull me through
so many words in my head... i don't know how to describe them
495 · Feb 2016
Hair
Annie McLaughlin Feb 2016
In Sunday school they taught me
that each and every hair
represents God's creation.

In Elementary school they taught me
that each and every hair
could be trimmed unevenly by rusty pink scissors.

In Middle school they taught me
that each and every hair
need be pulled back properly during gym class if seen as a disturbance.

In High school they taught me
that each and every hair
should be blue or green or purple, just anything but ordinary.

In Beauty school they taught me
that each and every hair
make all the difference, and what you become of them is a masterpiece.

At Graduates school they taught me
that each and every hair
represents the stress that you carry day by day.

After school they taught me
that each and every hair
Is useless as it adds to the problems you already carry.
481 · Nov 2016
that feeling in the morning
Annie McLaughlin Nov 2016
Oh my God, that feeling
Do You feel it too?  
On my hands I'm kneeling
I see the ghost of you

And sometime in the morning
With the sun just hanging up
I see your spirit's touring
The town that we grew up

When my tears are slowing
And drying on my face
Is when the wind be blowing
And wipes your ghost away

Have you any feeling?  
Any pain at all?  
Hung up on the ceiling
Sorrowed as I call
Annie McLaughlin Sep 2015
My dear, it isn't all gore and blood in the real world
Not only knives and guns hidden under the pillow
Not only crying kids
And crying moms
And whimpering dogs cause they know something's wrong
Somewhere there's happy people
And hugs for free
Don't have to bundle up to hide what's underneath
Cause darling, there's nothing under their long sleeves
I'll try to find that place
But wish me luck, cause I haven't had none
I'll be running through the backyards
Rooting for your freedom
477 · Jan 2016
It's Okay to Not be Okay
Annie McLaughlin Jan 2016
You think                                        the clothes that I wear define who I am?
You think                                        that all I amount to is a simple word - emo, goth, scene
You think                                        that there is something wrong with not being okay?

I think                                              that you do not understand
                                                         what it is like
                                                         to have your whole entire existence
                                                         on this earth
                                                         defined
                                                         by one
                                                         word
Can we not just love what we love and do what we do without being picked out and stereotyped?
476 · Sep 2018
11
Annie McLaughlin Sep 2018
11
11 months
that's all I could do
I tried for so long
I tried just for you

11 months clean
but today we start over
tomorrow is day one
I'm just growing older

11 months
but tonight my thighs sting
I took to them with a blade
as sharp as my ring

11 months
I kept searching for a reason not to
tonight I fought hard
but my blood was long overdue
11 months clean, but tonight I broke that streak.
Annie McLaughlin Mar 2018
Dear Dad,
I'm writing to you because I don't know if you love me anymore.
Well, how could you love me when you're gone?
I just mean that if you were still here,
I don't think you'd be proud of me.
I didn't get to know you well enough
To learn your views on
atheism,
*** before marriage,
Speeding,
Marijuana,
Underage drinking,
Traspessing,
Self harm,
Stealing,
Lying,
Sleeping around,
Or cursing
...
But from what I gathered from those less than 13 years I had with you,
I don't think you'd be proud.

I just want you to know that even if you would hate me now,
I still love you.
I'm still your little girl
I'm still me, daddy.

I hope you don't get mad if I carry your picture with me
While walking down the aisle
Because you always told me how you couldn't wait
To walk with me.
I hope you don't get mad
If I post a picture of you
Every year or so
Just saying that I miss you.
Because I do, I really do.
I hope you don't get mad that I still talk about you, and cry about you.
I hope you don't get mad that I pretend that you would accept me if you were here.

Even if you don't like me now,
I love you.
Annie McLaughlin Feb 2016
And now I understand why my mother stopped having fun,
Why my math teacher works double jobs,
Why the girl I met in eighth grade dropped out after a week of high school,
Why my aunts and uncles pleaded me to enjoy what I had while I had it,
Why my mother and father always fought over bills and credit cards,
Why my father eventually just decided to ***** it,
***** the girl at work,
***** over his children,
And ***** over his chances.
I understand why the people on the street corner
Are always on the street corner.
It's not about dreams, about want, about passion.
Nobody cares if you don't want to be a doctor, or a scientist, or a manager, or a lawyer, or a ****** fry cook for the majority of your life.
Nobody cares if you like music, or drawing, or taking pictures, or posing pictures, or doing what you love.
Today is about money
And surviving
And buying things
And raising your kids on enough money
So that they can raise their kids on enough money
To raise your great great grandkids on enough money
Because today
That is all that really matters.
***** your dreams
(just like my father ******* over his children)
Because unless you catch luck
Your dreams will lead you nowhere.
It's all about money
It's all about ******* money
So don't count on that road trip after high school,
Don't count on making it out of college without debt,
In fact, don't even count on making it into college.
That dream can die, too.
It's hard to have dreams and to stand out and to live life in general. It seems as if all that really matters anymore is money, and if that is the case, we are *******.
Annie McLaughlin Mar 2016
break in*
fingertips imprinted onto the glass of the cold window
legs shake as I balance on the bricks
inside I catch a glimpse of my own shadow
but I can't stop now, my watch still ticks

the dead of night is wide awake
staring at my unrecognizable clone on the wall
is this really where I belong?
I step inside before I fall

maybe I should just go back from where I came
it's quiet in here
and this has always been a risky game
I come in peace to invade the premises
before I get caught, I get one last good luck kiss

from the raindrops that now patter against the desk
leaking through the open gap in the wall
if not for the circumstance, would appear quite picturesque
my shadow still wavers, slim and tall

now this is it
I lay down on the stranger's bed
pealing the sickly drenched clothes from my skin
as the wind gushes past my head
where do I belong?
where do I go?
what am I doing here, for how long?
when can I come home?
Some things in life seem too real to just be a coincidence.
458 · Jan 2016
Process of Damnation
Annie McLaughlin Jan 2016
It started out with the handheld scissors
that were once used
to rip the tag off my pretty pink ballerina dress

I then picked out
the sharp edges of glass
that blanketed the photograph
keeping my dearest father alive

The tacks on my walls
from the silly band posters had worked for a while

Until it became no other obligation
than the razor
that was once sold in the store
of a lady who had no idea in the slightest
that she was selling a young girl
a ****** weapon.
455 · Sep 2015
The Day I Hid The Sun
Annie McLaughlin Sep 2015
It was sunny all day till I came home
I set down my bag and felt so alone
So I tore out my heart and gave the remaining to you
Well you tore them to pieces
Your love had a twist
You would keep loving me
As long as I didn't find out this
Thing that kind, maybe kinda, really bothered me
You broke my heart, we fell apart
It all happened so suddenly
The day I hid the sun
"Nobody puts Baby in a corner"
447 · Sep 2015
A Bag of Blackened Coal
Annie McLaughlin Sep 2015
He carries his earnings
Slung over his shoulder
In a bag of blackened coal

At night if you listen
He quite often talks
To a woman he used to know

"Kapi Kapi
Come back to me
Kapi Kapi
Come take me home
Kapi Kapi
Don't you neglect
To bury me in a bag
Of blackened coal"
443 · Apr 2016
recognizing broken things
Annie McLaughlin Apr 2016
it hurts
is it supposed to hurt ?
                 if you knew what i've been doing
                 you would not say "i love you"
                                                       each time failing
                                                       has lowered my confidence another tries worth
                                                                                                                          why is this pain
                                                                                                                          so relieving ?
i fail even at harming myself
441 · Jan 2016
I Kissed A Boy
Annie McLaughlin Jan 2016
I kissed a boy
who's mother beat him
and who went home at night to his little baby sister
and prayed that she would never end up with a guy like him

I kissed a boy
who's mother neglects him
and spends all his time
wishing and waiting for what could have been

I kissed a boy
who's mother just let him
do whatever he wants to women,
because that is what his father believed also

I kissed a man
who's mother respects him
and who treats a lady with care and gratitude
putting her own needs before his own

The first boy I kissed,
he touched me when I said no

The second boy I kissed,
he lied and broke me whole

The last boy I kissed,
was nearly twice my height and age

The first man I kissed,
he loved me for every page

Now if this doesn't tell you
the love of a mother,
I am not quite sure what will.
Just because you
got treated like a *****
doesn't mean your son
should treat women as that still.
The same with fathers. Growing up, boy or girl, lacking a parent, or just not being treated correctly, can affect your whole aspect on life. Parents are important, whether you know it now or not.
Annie McLaughlin Jan 2016
God,
(I'm not praying, I'm mourning)
It is exactly 1:04 in the morning
and 37 seconds
and I can't even ******* sleep
and there is no one that I can talk to who understands me
because the people that do,
stopped caring when I started trying. . .
I'm writing this here on this piece of paper or computer screen
(whichever you choose)
because I ******* miss you.
And I know that you would yell at me if you heard that word
come out of my mouth
but I would rather you yell
than not say nothing at all. . .
****, ****, ******
You're still not yelling so that means you must
really be gone. . .
It's 1:09 now, dad
and 17 seconds
and I have school tomorrow
but I can't sleep because you always ******* haunt my thoughts
and I used to think that I wanted to **** myself
because I thought I could be with you when I die
cause you said we could meet again in heaven,
you remember that, right?
Sure you do, that was one of your
last ****** days on this earth
But now that I don't believe in heaven
or hell
or maybe even God,
what have I got to die for?
In fact, what the hell do I even have to live for?
You're so ******* gone and
it ******* hurts
and maybe it makes me a ****** poet to write
so many curse words in a poem.
You would scold me if you read this.
But you can't read this,
and you're not scolding me
and you're not even ******* here anymore.
You're just gone,
and *God,

I need you to hug me and tell me it's all okay
and call me your little girl one last time
and let me see you ******* wasted
off your knockers one last time
and let me come home to find you broke into our house again
and let me listen to you yell at my mother
once more. . .
God, maybe this makes me a bad person
but I would take anything just to have you back.
I ******* miss you. . .
and no matter how hard I try
I can not put down in words the immense
seering pain that I have felt.
It's 1:17 a.m
and who ******* cares about the seconds.
I'm sorry... this isn't poetic or pretty... its just truth and ugly.
437 · Feb 2016
we all have one
Annie McLaughlin Feb 2016
Addiction comes in all shapes and sizes
Forms and figures
Good and bad
Costly or breakable
Addictions can either **** you,
**** those around you,
Or **** the dark.
Addictions are sometimes all that we have.
Addictions can save,
Or addictions can be bad.
I write a lot about this topic, but that is just simply because this is what I know.
424 · Feb 2016
Mirror Games
Annie McLaughlin Feb 2016
That one is either rolling a cigarette between her teeth
or picking out this morning's rushed breakfast keish.
That man is either yelling lyrics to an upbeat rap melody
or scolding his young child, with his back to me.
That mom is either arguing with a voice on her earpiece
or the little girl, defeated, with her head in her knees.

I would tell that lady that her teeth look fine,
or that cigarettes ****, but she might respond with I don't mind
I would tell that man that he's good at what he does,
or he shouldn't yell at his kid, we all know that's not love
I would ask of the mother to pay more attention to her girl,
or maybe a bit less if that's what's making her hurl.

I wonder if anyone plays this game with me
when all you can do is wonder when all you can do is see.
I wonder what they think and if to them I seem okay
I don't mean to intrude, I just fasten my seatbelt and play.
When you can't help but observe the life outside of your sideview mirrors, and sometimes it leaves you wondering.
421 · Dec 2016
this is where she lay
Annie McLaughlin Dec 2016
There's a cross on the corner of the highway
Standing tall in front of the rest station lot
There's a man that comes and visits and he stays all day
His hands wiping desperately at his tears distraught
This cross was not here yesterday
Oh look what the cold weather has brought
A few years ago, actually, I saw this happen, and it brought me to tears, and I was not able to forget about it. It's crazy. How one day they're there, and the next they're not.
418 · Mar 2016
Dear Father
Annie McLaughlin Mar 2016
It makes me feel stupid. I feel wasted and tricked. I haven't been able to acknowledge the reality of this situation... It's sick and it's twisted, this truth I have kept inside. "Do you miss your dad?" He asks. "I don't know." but he takes it as a yes, and I don't know how to explain... That I wasted all my years, my time, my tears, on this... This father. If you had seen my sobbing mother, her bloodshot eyes and pained figure, you would understand. But you didn't. You wouldn't understand. My mother never cried in front of me before until she spoke of my father. I then understood how she could stop loving such a man. My father, he hurt her. More than any man could. He hurt me and my brothers and I am still feeling that pain to this day. My father, he was a cruel man. Selfish and destructive. My father, whom I once loved and labeled as my hero, I am now trying not to despise. My father... I can not begin to explain what he did or how... I can not begin to explain him or what all he put me through... My father, he made me into who I am today. And for that I will forever hold against him.
417 · Mar 2016
driving while crying
Annie McLaughlin Mar 2016
goodbye kiss - don't call it that
i know it's true, but don't call it that
you hugged me for an extended amount of time
like it was the last
it might be true, but don't think like that
walking away, i forced myself not to look back
like it was the last time i would be seeing you
it just might be, but we don't know that

i sat and cried on the steering wheel
until i realized people were giving me funny looks
and looks of concern
i screamed to myself, don't cry like that
so i drove and my eyes teared up
and i didn't exactly care if i got in a wreck
as long as it could take away the pain
on the inside
but he still needs you, don't drive like that

then i drove and i drove
and i played the same two songs on repeat
and people still gave me funny looks
i know i'm crying, don't stare like that
and then i finally stopped crying
at least on the outside
and i went outside and smiled at strangers
but it wasn't real, don't live like that
414 · Sep 2015
Acting Dead
Annie McLaughlin Sep 2015
Now tell me if I did anything
Now tell me, didn't I do everything?
And tell me when I started turning blue instead of red
What's with my heart and soul and mind
They're all acting dead
Annie McLaughlin Mar 2016
Your desperate tears mean nothing to him
For all he knows, the second they are wiped away
You go back to your happy whim
Your damaged eyes amount to little
For all he knows, the second they are hid away
You're no longer feeling brittle
Annie McLaughlin Apr 2016
some nights I want to stop trying
*shh, as soon as you stop crying
397 · Dec 2015
I've Written A Few
Annie McLaughlin Dec 2015
Why is it
that writing
suicide notes
has become
easier
than
apologies
395 · Mar 2016
relate to
Annie McLaughlin Mar 2016
Repeat this song in my head
Just before I go to bed
This is why I haven't bled
This is why I am not dead
Just these simple words been said
Take away my need for meds
Repeat this song in my head
Just before I go to bed.
394 · Mar 2016
everything is okay
Annie McLaughlin Mar 2016
There isnt much to say
My mind refuses to think at this time of day
My hand refuse to move in that form or way
My lungs refuse to breathe, held up with clay
My heart it will not beat, it simply lay
I dont have words to say
Until you cross my mind at break of day
Until you caress my hand in that certain way
Until your lungs clear mine, free of their clay
My heart can not not beat how you and I lay
394 · Dec 2015
The Last 3 a.m
Annie McLaughlin Dec 2015
This is
the last 3 a.m
of 2015*

2014 - 3 a.m
laying in bed
next to a man
who claimed to love me
and lied.

2013 - 3 a.m
laying my head
on the cold tombstone
of the man
who was supposed to be there
all my life.

2010 - 3 a.m
laying my mom's head
onto the pillow
because she was too drunk
to do it herself
and daddy didn't come home.

2009 - 3 a.m
finding a bullet
full of lead
and wondering if that
was the reason
the yelling had stopped
in my parent's bedroom.

2007 - 3 a.m
sleeping well fed
in a warm and comfy bed
as my parents kissed in the living room
and they were happy
and so was I.

2015 - 3 a.m
downing the meds
the doctor prescribed
to numb away the pain
- but, surprise
it didn't succeed
cause just as well
I can't stand to breathe.

*This is
the last
3 a.m
In a nutshell.
393 · Jan 2016
46 Stories Up
Annie McLaughlin Jan 2016
46 stories up
two halls down
fifth door on the left
through the sitting room,
the kitchen,
second bedroom door
past the twin sized mattress
and posters of drugged up bands
pull back the curtains gently
unlatch the balcony door
step outside and try to catch ---
oops, too late
I jumped.
Annie McLaughlin May 2016
Here's a fact.
Here's the truth.
Here's my heart surrendered
At the thought of never knowing you again.
Here's the fact.
Here's a truth.
Here are my arms abandoned
With the feel of never touching you again.
Hear this fact.
Hear my truth.
Absorb my bleeding tongue
As it has let these gory words flow through.
Hear my heart.
Hear my cry
As I recognize my last,
My forever last living glimpse of you.
coming to know reality
391 · Mar 2016
darling
Annie McLaughlin Mar 2016
Oh darling don't be scared to say exactly how you feel
At least we know your heart and mind and broken soul are real
Oh darling don't be scared to show your insecurities
Maybe then someone will know they don't do as they please
Oh darling sing as soft you want, reach only who you will
It's just fine to stand aback and stare the windowsill
Oh darling don't be scared to cry in front of those who care
Maybe then they'll realize hurt and always will be there
Oh darling I just ask of you to be kind to your own
I would've held you further from the blade if I had known
391 · Sep 2015
The Beginning of the End
Annie McLaughlin Sep 2015
There are kids that don't have a dad
A girl that feels too **** fat
There's a man who just lost his job
Some have gone without food to eat
There's a boy who watched his sister die
Mom's and daddy's getting into fights
There's a girl who's only hope relies
On a man who walked out of her life

So if you begin to think you got it bad

Just remember all the kids without a dad
Or the kids that make the girl feel way too fat
Just remember the man who took
His last breath of free air just trying to scavage
A meal for his daughters and wife
And the boy who wants so desperately to end his life
382 · Sep 2015
Tear Me Apart
Annie McLaughlin Sep 2015
He literally ripped out your heart
You trusted him with all you had
He's the reason for the tears on your pillowcase
The reason for the medical pills you take

Now you feel so alone
You have lost your home
Don't know where to go
He's all you've ever known

He connected my heart to the ground
I've lost so much sleep
I stay up too late
Can't sleep past eight
I curl into a ball
And I remember it all
As I shake and I tremble
Just as I got my life assembled
He just had to go and tear me apart

As everyone is laughing
You lay down your head
All you can do is remember the things you can't forget
I wish this desk could take me, **** me in
So I'd never have to feel this pain again
382 · Jan 2016
Annabell Hope
Annie McLaughlin Jan 2016
She calls to me beyond my future
She says "dad I miss you"
She holds an old family picture
And I love her ... and her mom too

I think about her day and night
Never be the same again
She voids the dark in all her light
I miss my daughter...my best friend

Annie is my one true love
I will love her like her dad
She is an angel from up above
And will give me my child
Im glad

Love
Took annies phone, left her a lil suprise, please like and veiw as much as possible xD
381 · Mar 2016
catastrophe
Annie McLaughlin Mar 2016
My mind is going crazy
Today it's sure not lazy
I try to block this noise
By strumming instruments and toys
But the more that I create
All the more of me I hate
I could point out countless flaws
But you just would not understand the cause
My mind is starting to scare me
All these visions that you can't see
My sickly sweet faked smile
Would fool anyone for miles
Today is just another day I'd like to be someone else
Today is just another day my breaking heart swells
381 · Mar 2016
thanks
Annie McLaughlin Mar 2016
Left alone
After you said you would never go
Thanks, I know how much I'm worth
Just a couple ******* hundred lies
Over cigarettes and other girls
Thanks for the reassurance
That my existence means absolutely no **** to you
Thanks for the inspiration
To do what I should have years ago
380 · Sep 2015
Lingering
Annie McLaughlin Sep 2015
In the air, cold as you
I can only see a half of the moon
And I laugh as I realize its leaving me, too
Cause you think that'll always be there
But you come home one day and
Where?

The snowflakes remind me of you
The bracelets, the things that they do
The flowers, colored so bright
Jeans the flavor of night

I heard you say you're gonna know
I'll come back with a different glow
Even though we said goodbye
I still feel words lingering in the air
With the hope that you'll catch them out there
379 · Mar 2018
1/5
Annie McLaughlin Mar 2018
1/5
they're calling
they're calling
answer them, ******

close your eyes
close your eyes
you'll be out of here soon

do it
just do it
it hurts more if you fight

lie to them
lie to them
they need to feel good

memories
memories
i'd erase if i could
376 · Feb 2016
power and weaponry
Annie McLaughlin Feb 2016
I think I enjoy driving
because I know that I am in control
over hurting or
sparing a life

and so far, I have chose spare
even after the rest chose *hurt
374 · Sep 2015
Save Someone
Annie McLaughlin Sep 2015
I lay in bed and cry all day
I don't know what to say
I just thought I should say something
I just thought I should save someone
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