here i sit watching watching you make new friends whether or not they're good for you i sit here watching you make one bad decision after another but i don't say much in fear of upsetting you in fear of drifting farther away from you in fear of you going off and informing people of my worrying here i sit watching you tell people things that weren't yours to tell watching you drift farther away from your innocence farther away from your true relationships farther away from me here i sit while you yell at me while you tell me to not worry while you tell me you "love me" while you tell me that you will be okay while you cry to me while you vent to me while you tell me you don't care while you laugh at me for caring while you tell me you hate him but then tell me you miss him while you tell me that i need to care once i say im done caring here i sit crying crying because of how much pain this is causing me crying because i can't do anything crying because you are fine with this crying because you are fine with them crying because im tired of feeling this way crying because what happened to always? what happened to ill never leave you ill always love you i would never do that just one more trust me i would never lie to you im sorry i should've listened to you you're my only true best friend you're my person here i sit exhausted from the mental pain being forced into feeling numb because im tired of feeling missing what we had what we should've still had now what you tell me we still have ... but we both know that we don't
im scared im scared that one day our long embraces will evolve to just a faint smile im scared that one day we will merely wave when we see each other im scared that one day we wont even wave we might just glance at each other not so long ago, we spent every waking minute together not so long ago, i laid in your bed and laughed all night with you not so long ago, we dreaded for the time i had to go home not so long ago, we told everything to each other not so long ago, we always had something to talk about not so long ago, we would go on long walks just because not so long ago, we would sneak off at 2 AM to watch the stars not so long ago, we laid on my shed roof in the middle of the night just to watch the sky and talk not so long ago, we laid on your kitchen floor rolling in laughter not so long ago, we cried in each others arms not so long ago, we composed hilarious songs in your room just to belt them out so that your dad would hear how dumb we were not so long ago, we laid together and watched the fault in our stars not so long ago we say but it seems so long ago it seems like a distant memory
ughh i miss you these are the last words i messaged you what i wanted to say was i miss how you used to be i meant to say i miss how we were i meant to say i miss how much you used to care i wanted to say i miss the old you because i do but she's long gone i miss her
I am the nothingness that engulfs a dying star, I am one third of a negatively charged down quark. I am the rage that sparks Zeus's lightning bolt, I am the constant difference between fission and fusion. I am that transient sigh between two zeptoseconds, so insignificant I have no essence.
I am that pestilent cosmic conundrum of how to prove string theory, I am that inevitable faux pas; who mimics a rotten black cherry. I am the rip in the fabric of space and time, I transcend the unknown. I am nothing but a forsaken speck of dust existing in a parallel multi-dimension of possibilities, waiting to be reclaimed by the nebula that I once called home.
She is the light that brought life to the Garden of Eden, She is the beating heart of a neutron star. She is the gravity to my anti-gravity, She breathes the cosmos into reality. Her elegant essence evokes my euphoric entity from oblivion. She is the astronomically accurate measurement of the companionship between space, gravity and time.
She is the; Sanctuary of my heart, the Archangel who guards my soul, the Neutron that forged my being, and the Andromeda who owns my love.
He had proposed me openly on the road, I used to ignore thinking him a crazy lover. One day even slapped after getting irritated, But he was really crazy, Painted me also in his colour of love.
Started a new life with him and fought to the whole family, At first he was addicted by me then alcohol was intoxicating. And one day, he went very far,left me alone Months passed,couldn't forget. Also couldn't give place to someone in this rude life.
He has returned to my threshold once again This is his desire to make a place again in my life