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Nov 2015 · 852
Fibers
ARI Nov 2015
I still have the picture in my head
Of that Sunday morning
I found your hanging body
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Ever softly, as if  to say
I'd missed my chance to save you
By only a heart beat

This nightmare can't be true
There's no way that was you
With a rope wrapped tightly around
The throat I use to kiss
Those fibers robbing the color
From my favorite lips.

-ARI
For those who've lost a loved one to suicide
Nov 2015 · 962
Dear Momma
ARI Nov 2015
Dear Momma,
The monster got me.
He dug his nails
Into my bones.
I swear every
Time I cried
He rejoiced
My tortured groans.

I fought hard,
Momma. I swear I did.
I gave up everything
Ive ever had to give.
He took my hair;
My piece of mind.
Yet still he wouldn't
Let me live.

But there's one thing
He'll never have, momma
No matter the pain
Or immeasurable weight
Of this hellish trauma.
He'll never have my soul
For your love for me
Is far too great.

They said I was special
Called me brave and strong.
Claimed me a warrior;
They've never been more wrong.
For I was but a child
Too afraid to turn around.
They'll never know that truth
For my heartbeat's 'ever gone.

-ARI
Oct 2015 · 525
R.f.D
ARI Oct 2015
I was but
A girl, momma
Only seven candles
On my cake.
Though my eyes
Are 'ever closed
My rainbow soul
Shall never break.

-ARI
Childhood cancer is not rare.
Oct 2015 · 677
Lust
ARI Oct 2015
Ribbons of desire
Wrapped around her wrists
When He claimed to love her
With all his promises.

Little did she know
Inch by silken inch
Those ribbons transferred poison
Her soul; forever His.

-ARI
Oct 2015 · 450
Scars
ARI Oct 2015
I told you that you gave me scars
And the look upon your face
Was that of deep despair.
Your eyes met mine and I watched
As pain and guilt filled them
I couldn't help but smile.

For scars are what we receive
When damage to our bodies heal
And the pain we felt starts to leave.
I had many open wounds
Across my tattered soul and heart
I could barely manage to breathe.

But you wound your arms lovingly Around my waist and you held
My shattered soul together.
Your kiss upon my once shy cheek
Seeped deeply into my aching chest
As the salve my burnt heart needed.

You gave me angelic scars of which
Are the product of your touch
Weaving together my brokenness.
The scars you gave me
Have made me whole in every way
I love our intricate scars.

-ARI
Oct 2015 · 582
Cold
ARI Oct 2015
As I placed my hand
Upon your naked chest
The heat of your skin
Seeped into my fingers.

I had said, "You are so warm
And I am quite cold."
I quickly realized, no truer words
Have ever been spoken.

I wish your warmth
Could heal my soul
But I have been frozen
Far too long; I can't be saved.

-ARI
Oct 2015 · 375
One in The Same
ARI Oct 2015
There's a little boy
Drawing in his room
Momma comes and sees
A vibrant ocean blue

He says mom would you like to know
Why this painting is my life
And why this image in my head
Haunts me every night?

When you look at the ocean
You only take the time to see
What's on the surface
You don't know what lurks beneath

You see blue skies and birds
Hugging the salty water
You don't see the shark below
Devouring someone's daughter

And over in that corner
A ship has sunken down
It took a family with it
All the children drowned

But over on that beach
So many people play
They won't acknowledge the danger
For that would ruin their day

I feel much like the ocean
People only come when all is calm
But when everything is upside down
Suddenly they're gone.

Doctors post videos of me laughing
And photos full of smiles
But when I need the cure
There's silence stretched for miles.

They say I am a warrior
They call me brave and strong
But for this I've had no training
They've never been more wrong.

-ARI
Oct 2015 · 588
Ink Blots
ARI Oct 2015
Youve asked me
To describe her
For you say you want
To understand her.

But all I can say
Is  that she
Is simply a poet
With a shattered pen.

Life's ink has stained
Her slender fingers
Dark blots cover her paper
But still she writes.

You cannot understand
Illegible scrawls
Scattered across
Once clean paper.

To you it seems as if
She's finally gone mad
Perhaps she has
Always been mad.

But she is brilliant
For she has hidden
Her broken pieces
Beneath those ink blots.

If you truly want
To understand her mind
I suggest you start reading
In between the lines.


-ARI
Oct 2015 · 710
Sister
ARI Oct 2015
Loving her was like
Dying every morning.

You never really  
Lived, for her
Sadness 'ever grew as  
Depression's immortal vines    
Painfully crushed your bones.

Thoughts of suicide poison
Hearts of defeated sisters
Hurting far too much to pray.

-ARI
Oct 2015 · 2.0k
Red
ARI Oct 2015
Red
It took me five years
To find red lipstick wearing courage

It took you five days
To steal it


-ARI
Sep 2015 · 342
Reasons
ARI Sep 2015
You look at me
As if Im already broken
Soon Im going to shatter

For I can not seem to explain
The reasons for the demons
Knocking on my door.

-ARI
Sep 2015 · 966
Angel Eyes
ARI Sep 2015
From the innocence
That she portrays
You'd never guess
She'd seen such days
Of drugs and *****
And easy lays

You'd never guess
Upon her cheeks
Once lived the tears
That always wreaked
With self disgust
At its highest peak

You'd never know
Upon her thighs
Is where shes written
All her lies
And in those scars
Her hatred hides

-ARI
Sep 2015 · 797
Untitled Melody
ARI Sep 2015
You were the tune
That played in my head
For hours at a time

You were the song
Without a name;
Not knowing, drove me crazy

You were the beat
Id tap with my hand
While gently nodding my head

You were the notes
Sewn into my beating heart
With the vibrant threads of eternity

Then you kissed me
You truly loved me
Now my melody has an everlasting name

-ARI
Sep 2015 · 400
Ana
ARI Sep 2015
Ana
Hush!
Don't make a sound
Shes coming
Can you hear her?

No!
Don't open your eyes!
If you see her
She will never leave.

Stop!
No!
Please, child
Don't listen to her!

Shes lying!
Beauty is not kind
Beauty is not caring
Beauty only wants your soul!

She will scrape her eyes
From the top of your head
to the tips of your toes
and she will laugh

She will mock you!
She will make you
Wish for a death so cruel.
She will make you hate yourself!

You will be glued
Helplessly weighing yourself
Begging God to take away
Just five more pounds

Then one day
Beauty will leave you
Crumpled up on the bathroom floor
Barely a breath inside your lungs

As her hateful eyes turn to walk away
The last sight you will ever see
Will be the broken spine
Of the demon named Ana.

-ARI
I wish I could have saved you
But couldn't even save myself.

Ana- Anorexia
Sep 2015 · 401
K.H.
ARI Sep 2015
I wish I could hold her shaking limbs
Tightly in my arms.

I wish I could make her forget
The scale inside her head.

I wish I could take away
The scars she placed upon her flesh.

I wish I could wipe away
Self-hate pouring from her soul.

-ARI
Sep 2015 · 412
Demons and Razors
ARI Sep 2015
The razor
Oh God, that razor!
I swear it lived inside her flesh!
I couldn't make it disappear.

Her cries,
Like acid being poured into my ears
I couldn't stand it!
Her pain destroyed me.

Bony fingers
Always gripping my wrists
I swear her trembling touch
****** away my aching soul.

Help me!
"Please help me understand!"
But she wouldn't
Because she was unable to.

That razor,
Oh God, that razor!
It became my friend that night
Because finally I understood.

Bony fingers,
Resting in my weary hands
I blame myself for her starvation
For I had nothing left to give.

-ARI
Sep 2015 · 725
A Penny For Your Thoughts
ARI Sep 2015
Every penny looks the same
When you find it on the street.
Scratches cover its surface;
Unknown junk makes it unclean.

I wonder who was the first to use it
I wonder whose hands had held it close
I wonder where that one penny has traveled
I wonder who let it go.

Every beggar looks the same
When you find them on the street.
Scratches cover their surface;
Unknown junk makes them unclean.

I wonder who was the first to meet him
I wonder whose hands had held her close.
I wonder where that beggar traveled
I wonder who let them go.

Every girl looks the same
When you find her on the street.
Scratches cover her surface;
Unknown hands make her unclean.

I wonder who was the first to hurt her
I wonder whose arms had held her close
I wonder if that girl would travel
I wonder why she doesn’t go.

-ARI
Sep 2015 · 495
Time Does Not Exist
ARI Sep 2015
The morning came
But I knew not
For still I laid
Smiling in your arms.

Hours trailed by
But we knew not
For time was just
A thing we spoke not of.

Soon midnight came
But I knew not
For still you cradled me
As we danced nakedly in love.

-ARI
Aug 2015 · 513
Appetite
ARI Aug 2015
I'm sorry
My appetite
Is quite often not present.

I'm sorry
I can't
Eat four meals each day.

I'm sorry
You feel
As if you are responsible.

I'm sorry
You're stuck
With a girl like me.

-ARI
Aug 2015 · 821
Girls "Like Her"
ARI Aug 2015
Little girl
With long blonde hair
And big bright baby blues.
Perfect teeth
And a tiny waist;
Girls like her "never lose".

Lonely girl
With frizzy brown hair
And eyes with muddy irises.
Freckled face
And too large hips
Girls like her "nobody misses".

Little girl
With a stylish mommy
And a very wealthy daddy.
Endless toys
And posh private schools
Girls like that; "life's easy".

Little Girl
With no known daddy
And mommy who always lies.
Little food
And a ***** home
Girls like that "never survive".

-ARI
Jul 2015 · 415
November
ARI Jul 2015
Ive thought of you often
This past month
Often lost inside my head.

Ive thought of your dark brown eyes
Made up of
Mischief and practical jokes.

Ive thought of you laughing
Sometimes at me
Although usually, we laughed together.

Ive thought about all of us
Four best friends
Loud, young, and inseparable.

You were the big brother
Of us all
By blood for them; by heart for me.

We use to dream of
Being forever invincible
Until that one November day.

I Imagine what your face looked like
When you realized
Your car was no longer safe.

I will always remember the looks
Upon theirs faces
When that doctor told us to say goodbye.

November 23rd became the day
Four became three
As the innocence was bled from our hearts.

Sometimes I wish I could forget
Youre now gone
But I don't want to forget you.

-ARI
Jul 2015 · 427
Falling
ARI Jul 2015
She was in love with falling
So sweetly into his smile

She was in love with falling
So deeply into his arms.

She was in love with falling
happily into his bed.

She learned to hate falling
When he said goodbye.

Because falling has a different meaning
When no one is there to catch you.

-ARI
For my darling friend who fell and never learned how to get back up.
Jul 2015 · 1.5k
The Homeless
ARI Jul 2015
From mothers arms and fathers feet
To shaking hands and ***** streets.

From sweet smiles and tender kisses
To a lost little child no one misses.

From overalls and teddy bears
To daytime tears and nighttime scares.

From bubble bathes and lullabies
To scarred up skin and lifeless eyes.

From parks filled with plastic slides
To a box with nails stuck in its sides.

-ARI
Jul 2015 · 318
Lies
ARI Jul 2015
Hush.
Dont speak,
For their mouths
Repeat all words
Their ever listening ears can pick up.
Sadly they are not always truth speakers
People get hurt
From lies spread.
Watch your
tongue.
Jul 2015 · 342
More Than Just a Toy
ARI Jul 2015
Broken doll
With tarnished eyes
And limbs all bent
In different directions

Broken bear
With ears torn
And button eyes
Gone and forgotten

Rocking chair
With chipped paint
And both arms
Lost to splinters

Your life
Came from
A loving maker
Who shared you with a child

A child
Who's warmth
And laughter grew
Because their growing hearts had you.

-ARI
Jul 2015 · 698
A Childs Death
ARI Jul 2015
Help
The kids
Theyre dying;
Their minds breaking.
For theres not enough laughter in the world.

-ARI
Jul 2015 · 455
You Came Along
ARI Jul 2015
I hated to be touched.
I could not stand the feel
Of another's hand against my skin.

I hated company.
For I was too afraid
Of what others were capable of.

I hated to be loved.
I never did believe
Those three little words too often said.

I hated myself.
For I found no worth;only anger
Trapped inside my ever open eyes.

But then,

You came along.

Now I love to be touched.
Only by your loving hand
Often stroking my rosy cheeks.

I love to be around people.
For you taught me how to find
Those you would never mean any harm.

Now I love to be loved.
For you taught me how to feel
All the good more than the bad.

Now I love myself.
For you taught me how to find my soul
Behind the darkened shards of broken glass.

I thought I wanted death.
Then you came along;
You taught me how to live




For you taught me how to breathe
Jul 2015 · 397
Please Child
ARI Jul 2015
Go
Run
Faster
Quickly
You
Must
Escape

Don't
look
Back
Never
Stop
Being
Afraid

For
Beauty's
Nothing
More
Than
Society's  
Torture

-ARI
Jul 2015 · 352
Insanity is Her Hell
ARI Jul 2015
Hair falling from her scalp
Like the fraid ends of a rope
Finally giving up.

Flesh peeling from her bones
Like a bright red apple
Being skinned.

Liquid pouring from her eyes
Like the angry summer clouds
Screaming for peace.

Fear twisting 'round her thoughts
Like rusted barbed wire "tattooed"
Inside a gnarled tree.

-ARI
Jun 2015 · 1.1k
I'm Sorry
ARI Jun 2015
I'm sorry my sweet darling
I should have held your hand
Pulled you close to me
And asked you for a dance.

-ARI
Apr 2015 · 1.2k
Beauty is The Beast
ARI Apr 2015
Beauty is the Beast
That creeps beneath my bed.
Weaving together nasty thoughts
To place inside my head.

Beauty is the beast
That wakes while Im asleep
Her red eyes 'ever beaming
Sharks teeth 'ever gleaming

Beauty is the beast
Burrowed in my bony chest
Cat claws scratching at my ribs
I swear beauty never rests

Beauty is the beast
That sings my soul to sleep
With the promise of her lullabies:
A little waist and perfect thighs

Beauty is the beast
Once creeping beneath my bed
'til beauty braided with the thoughts
Now waltzing in my head
-ARI
Apr 2015 · 3.5k
100, 200..
ARI Apr 2015
..300, 4..
I don't want to count
The calories anymore.

-ARI
Apr 2015 · 481
Poet
ARI Apr 2015
Everyone's a poet
Some simply have no clue,
But answer me one question;
What is a poet to you?

For me a Poet is a person,
a place, or thing;
To bring out such emotion
To make you cry or sing.

I know it may seem crazy,
But Darling look around;
A picture tells a story
Without a single sound.

A flower whispers truth
So softly in the ear
Of every child to close their eyes
So their hearts can hear.

A simple stone; grey and new
Could bring a proud man to his knees.
From his fathers name engraved;
Each letter tangled in his grief.

An unused baby blanket
Folded neatly in a woman's lap
Whispers what could've been
Of her child who will 'ever nap.

A sunrise over water
Rushing quickly past a bridge;
'Ever sings the tender stories
Of a young couple's marriage.

A man who neither speaks nor hears
Sits at home 'ever lonely,
But in a book upon his desk
He's etched vibrant sounds into his story.

You see, everyone's a poet
Some simply have no clue,
But answer me one question;
What is a poet to you?

-ARI
Apr 2015 · 2.6k
Shame
ARI Apr 2015
No one ever listened
To the words I had to say
Maybe when Im gone
They'll feel the words
Written by my shame

-ARI
Apr 2015 · 819
Gone
ARI Apr 2015
Today she fell
Out of our grasp
Into white
She now is dressed


Her father shakes
Her mother cries
Her brother learns
To hate goodbyes

Hold your sobs
Hold yourself
You must stay strong
For someone else

Close your eyes
Say not a word
Hope for peace
In their broken world

'Cause today she fell
Out of their grasp
Into white
She'll 'ever be dressed

Her father shakes
Her mother cries
Her brother now
Hates goodbyes

But he'll hold his sobs
He'll hold himself
He will stay strong
For everyone else

He'll close his eyes
Say not a word
Pray for peace
In his broken world

Because she fell
Out of his grasp
Her perfect heart
Locked in a casket

His father sleeps
His mother cries
Says shes fine
But he hears her lies

Now he holds his sobs
While he holds himself
He cant stay strong
For everyone else

Now he closes his eyes
He says not a word
He's lost hope for peace
In his broken world


Today he fell
Out of our grasp
Next to his sister
In a field of new grass

-ARI
Apr 2015 · 590
Living Lighthouse
ARI Apr 2015
Stand tall
When you're feeling low
Be a Beacon of light
For the broken souls

Be their strength
And give them hope
Together you will find
Your forever home

Hold them tightly
Keep them close
Let them know
They don’t have to be alone

-ARI
Apr 2015 · 613
Loved By A Poet
ARI Apr 2015
If a poet loves you,
Treasure every word
Of which falls from their dancing lips.

For they will be the one to engrave
Every syllable of your name
Into every crevice of their soul.

They will braid your everlasting joys and sorrows
Into beautiful intricate stanzas
Forever tattooed on their vibrant mind.

They will spend countless hours
Weaving together letters for the perfect "I love you"
Without ever using such words.

If a poet loves you;
You will be 'ever etched into their heart
By the ink of sweet eternity.

-ARI
Apr 2015 · 1.4k
Beauty
ARI Apr 2015
Small
Sweet girl
All alone
Holding herself
Pinching the extra fat upon her thighs
Five miles. No meals. hope one day she'll learn
Beauty cant be
weighed by a
Lifeless
Scale

-ARI
Apr 2015 · 558
Ink and Paper; A Poets Soul
ARI Apr 2015
A
Poet
Shows their soul
On inked paper
A love not often heard but always felt
Emotions bled from their heart to fingers
Sewing broken letters together; their
Words dance across
Worn paper
'Ever
True

-ARI
Mar 2015 · 740
I Was Afraid
ARI Mar 2015
I feared that I would want him.
I feared that I would need him.
I feared that I would love him.
And I do.

But I am not afraid anymore.

-ARI
Mar 2015 · 719
Stillborn
ARI Mar 2015
Sweet little heart;
a shiny new clock
that wouldn't start.

-ARI
Mar 2015 · 999
Living Chest
ARI Mar 2015
No eyes can see me
Though Im always there.
Forgotten and abused
But no one seems to care.

I feel like a human heart
Caged inside a living chest.
Ever beating; never freed;
No escape until my death.

-ARI
Mar 2015 · 3.0k
Whiskey;
ARI Mar 2015
My perfect lullaby
in liquid form.

-ARI
Mar 2015 · 625
Misused
ARI Mar 2015
My heart was a blank piece of paper
Crisp; clean; untouched
Waiting patiently to be trusted with beautiful words
Written by the warmest hands
Treasured forever like a sweet memory

But you came along and without permission
You wrote the harshest poetry
Cruel thoughts leaving imperfections
Scratches; scribbles; illegible rambles
Like too thick blankets suffocating me

Sadly I have learned
Few people believe in recycling.

-ARI
Mar 2015 · 453
Be Kind
ARI Mar 2015
Kiss
Pale scars
Now peaceful
Proof pain can heal
But be 'ever mindful; 'ever aware
For beneath those scars a harsh giant sleeps
Red eyes will gleam
Arms will bleed
Be kind,
Child

-ARI
Mar 2015 · 4.7k
Orphan
ARI Mar 2015
Child
Waiting
Eyes searching
Torn heart pleading
For a new family to take him home
A family with forever in mind
Another day
No one came
Please wait
Child

-ARI
Mar 2015 · 557
She Plays For Keeps
ARI Mar 2015
Breathe me in my dear
Her claws creeping down my throat
Ana's here to stay

-ARI
Mar 2015 · 14.6k
Anxiety
ARI Mar 2015
Anxiety
   Fear, uncomfortable
      Haunting, stalking, shaking
          Always following, mixing with every situation
       Laughing, dancing, loving
      Wonderful, desirable
 Excitement
Mar 2015 · 828
Save Me
ARI Mar 2015
Help
I scream
Hands shaking
I am broken
Laying on the floor cold and abandoned
I deserve this; I did it to myself
With blades to skin
Every wish
To be
Thin

-ARI
Mar 2015 · 727
A Mothers Plea
ARI Mar 2015
Innocent child
Pale skin and eyes glazed over
Cancer, let him go
Too many mothers, fathers, siblings, friends, and other loved ones are left alone to cry these words.
http://www.stillbrave.org/
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