Sleep my dear
Cause the demons are near
No they can't touch you
But they'll hurt you just the same
No you're not to blame
You're just caught up in this wicked game
Like all of us
Oh, like all of us

But be strong, love
Just give your all
That's enough
Stay alive
and that's enough
You got your role I got mine
And I've got to stay tough
For the both of us
For the both of us
I hope that'll be enough

don't you dare think i didn't try my best
if you want we can put that to the test
i'm running out of options, help me out
i'm about to leave, never be found
i know the worst is yet to come
and when it does it won't be fun
so farewell in advance
don't hold my hand, not again

don't run too fast, just wait your turn
don't fly too far, you might get burned
no going back, you can't return

i think there's something wrong with the air
i guess that's how it is when you're not there
a toast to all the words i've never said
if i'm being honest. how worse can it get
but i never learn, i fanned the flames
i sat and burned, it's all the same
i shouldn't care that you're out there
with somebody else, cause that's unfair
need nobody else, just myself, nothing to share

i ran too fast, i lost my turn
i flew too far, and now i'm burned
i can't go back, i can't return

I feel like I've already peaked
And I still haven't found that fire I seek
Something that inspires and takes me higher
If I could see myself now, I'd call me a liar
I don't understand, am I not doing what I can
Is there more and is it just out of my hands
I'm clueless and useless
I feel like I always knew this
I'm not new to it, the disappointment
Too annoyed to feel resentment
At the end of the day, it's just me and the voice in my head
And it'll always say that I'm better off dead

I can't look
Don't force me to see
An open book
But I don't wanna be free

I'm holding myself back
By being hung up on my past
All my regrets are making me forget
About all the people I wouldn't have met
The things I wouldn't have seen
The person I wouldn't have been
I would never be the same
Without that bittersweet pain
It makes me crazy, it keeps me sane
It comes back every time I ride the train
It always rains before the rainbow, I'm sure
But is it a good enough cure
It's not a disability just my mentality
Every time I try I'm reminded by gravity
That I can't be the best version of me
If I can't let the old one go and be free

I want to look
I want to see
I've opened the book
Now I wanna be free

a picture perfect dreamscape
somewhere for me to escape
away from the daily nightmares
where there's no one to care

i'll dream about a garden
maybe i'll play a martian
it's like i'm back with my toys
but i'm no longer a boy

i wish i could let myself grow
but i'm too scared to let myself go
dangling on a cliff without a rope
is this how it feels to lose all hope

the world in my head is infinite
but i know that i'm still limited
by my own demons, i'm hesitating
we're all wearing makeup
but mine is flaking
frankly i'm shaking
cause maybe i don't wanna wake up

and after all this time
can my life finally be mine
i've missed all the ******* signs
i'm surprised i haven't been left behind

so here i stand with you
the one part i could never lose
is it me or you that's hanging on
some day it'll all be gone
and i'll be alone again
and we'll go back
to where it all began

i've been watching the clock tick
for who knows how long
why do i feel so weak
like everything here is wrong
this feeling of unease
just won't let me be
it won't let me fall asleep
it's getting hard to see
but still i'm wide awake
wondering how long it'll take
to clear my head of these thoughts
until i can untie my mental knot
so while i stare at this frozen clock
my way to rest will remain blocked

Call me when you're awake
Cause I can't stand when you're away
You've become a part of me
That I wake up just to see
Is it meant to be?
I dunno, you tell me

It's still so unclear
How I should appear
Am I coming on too strong
Did I do something wrong
I can't shake them off
Those lingering thoughts

I wish I knew better
What to do about you
Two of us together
Would be a dream come true
Don't you think so?
For now I don't know

Wait wait and waiting
All hope seems like they're fading
It's just me and the night
And this thought wondering why
All through the night
All through the night

I'm not asleep but not entirely awake
But what difference does it make
Whether you're drunk or you're sober
Doesn't change the fact it's over
I turned to my right hoping to see you under the covers
But you weren't there
Right, you were never there
Not anymore
I guess it's fair, but I just can't bear
Losing you so suddenly
I can't sleep
And I need you here with me
Be there for me
Even if I was never there for you

I guess that's true
And I'm sorry for that
You never realized what you had
Until it's gone just like that

And now you're gone gone gone away
Even before I got to say
That I love you, baby
And it's driving me crazy
All these regrets
Why can't I forget
It's messing with my head
Why is life always so cruel
Especially to angels like you
But there's nothing I can do

I wonder who I would have been
If things had gone differently
If I had taken a left instead of right
And hadn't wasted all those nights

A dead end at every turn
But if I go back I will burn
I know there's a way to escape
But do I really have what it takes

If I fall again, it might be the end
All the what if's and the back then's
My mistakes are digging my grave
Just waiting for me to die in this cave

I have to get out, one way or another
Crawl back up or die in the gutter
Can't fix my wrongs, but I need to move on
Or it'll be too late and I'll already be gone

Sometimes at night I wonder when I'm gone
Will you all remember me or move on
All that matters in the end is my legacy
Let's just hope this story won't end up a tragedy
One word two words
Couple more then it turns into a chapter
Turn the next page comes another
The story of my life is simple
Just like any other

But is that all that is though
Can I accept it as it is though
If I write these words down will anyone know
Who will I be remembered as
A great man, a father, or just some *******
Will I be able to live up to my dreams
Or will it be lost to the past

Past, present, future
It is this thought that we nurture
That's just our nature
Against all the naysayers
Telling us to grow up
We hope that one day we'd blow up
And touch the sky
Hoping life would give us wings to fly
But I still don't know why

I once thought all it took was happy thoughts
But no matter how hard I fought
I couldn't make these voices stop
Sowing doubts in my head
Saying my life will be a flop

Don't know who to trust
Don't know what to do
Don't know how to get through this
I'm screaming at the top of my lungs
Throwing up my fists in the air
As if to fight an enemy that's not there
But I know exactly where he is
The enemy's inside
And that's the best place to hide

Is this the best of the worst times
So many choices
Yet I made all the wrong ones
Can't stop all the voices
One of these days I'll burn
Could be tomorrow
Could even be today
It's just fate

Fate's a ***** sometimes
Messes with you like a witch sometimes
Never gives you what you wanted
Only gives you what you needed
They said
But I don't even know what I need or want
I just wanna stay in bed
Can't move my legs
Can't be bothered to
So is this what it's come to
Are you gonna leave me too

I'm half dead half alive
Wrist is on the edge of a knife
One inch between life and death
One step before falling in the depth
I'm such a ******* mess right now
I hope you don't think I meant it
And I'm sorry for making you worry
Just forget what I said
and leave me be

Look you in the eye
Tell a perfect lie
I'm not feeling blue
I just feel like the sky
Empty and open, with my arms I'm hoping
Sometimes I wish you'd notice
I know that it's hopeless
Why do I do this
I feel so useless
Put my heart on my sleeve
Just leave it out to bleed
I wish I knew how to let go
If I knew what I know now
It would've been better from the get-go
Let's go, what's the problem?
Can't tell, there's a lot of 'em
So afraid of what's at the end
that I never try again
I can't be more than just a friend
I'll just stop at that I guess

what am i trying to say
what am i trying to do
why am i here today
pouring myself out to you

i guess i don't need a reason
needed someone to listen
even if it's out of season
that's not the way i am leaning

i've had enough of my thoughts
wish i could be a robot
something that can shutdown
and will never frown

but that's not very healthy
in any case it's not stealthy
i tried to sneak around the issue
leave it in my rear view

but the reflection's still there
and sometimes i'm still scared
afraid of something real here
never given a real cheer

another beer, drown the fears
liquid courage with no tears
ain't no purpose here
i know that is clear

whatever needs done
i hope i figure it out
i'm the only one
who can hear my shout

if i need to take walks
or someone to talk
it's a part of a plan
for now, just what i can

this isn't a letter
it's a manifesto
to someday feel better
without too much hassle

this is not a revolution
just my resolutions
things i need to sort out
now that i've got my words down

little by little
i think everything changes
little by little
i won't be the same

How many years has it been?
How many do I have left?
How many people have I seen
and how many friends have I kept?
I forgot most of them, the good and the bad
Wish I made more memories, cause these don't really last
All the time that's passed was spent looking back
I think I'm just afraid of always going off track

I don't know what I want, I don't know what I like
These days I can't tell what I want out of life
I wake up, I eat and then I sleep again
It keeps on repeating until it all ends
Is this meant to be? Is this it for me?
Am I really giving up so easily?

Being afraid of what I can't see
Being afraid of what hasn't happened
Being afraid that my seatbelts aren't fastened
A car crash in slow motion
Retired with no promotion
Even now, I lost touch with my emotions

I know that this is killing me
But I can't always let my feelings free
If I could stop time, what would I do?
I'd think more about what I should do
But I'd be here all day, just cut the crap
I don't have the stamina to run all these laps

I can't afford mishaps cause I know I can't go back
I only have a knife and I'm supposed to cut my own path
I wish I had a map. I wish I knew where to go
I wish this **** GPS worked off road
Pedal to the metal or take it slow
Either way, I have to continue the show

to love, to lie
it's something so complicated
to live, to die
is it so bad to be fabricated

spent most my life looking for something real
didn't stop to think about how i should feel
love seemed to be a goal, not something to enjoy
always felt like a kid begging for a toy
now that i know what that is, i can't live without
and the moment i do, i just want to shout
all my issues ended in piles of tissue
wasted along with the nights where i miss you

my phone keeps sending reminders
and i didn't even set my alarms
almost forgot about my blinders
they feel just like my arms
i'm living through the storm
so why does it feel like the calm

the part of me that knows i'm wrong
keeps convincing me that i'm right
i think that stops me from moving on
and spend more nights without the lights
i guess that's alright
i'll just stay out of sight

pride, the nemesis of love
and the thought that it's never enough
nothing is too much, everything's too little
shines like diamonds but oh so brittle

walking slowly down my memory lane
funny how these streets stay the same
yet they feel completely different
like there's a little thing missing
something's off, i can't tell but i know
somewhere there's a huge gaping hole
inside my soul? i suppose
cut off too many things just to be safe
now i don't know where's my own place
a place to call home, contacts on my phone
all those things would make me feel less alone
or maybe not, just a thought
am i really happy with what i got
i can't tell what they are
a new house, a car
they won't get me very far
if i'm stuck in my own head
and i can't get out of bed
like a record on loop
i'm standing still but still i move
i'm ahead but i can't improve
i know i need something. i know it's true
and maybe that something could be you

There's this nagging feeling
Deep in my bones
Keep checking my phone
Hoping you'd reply

Do you love me
Or do you love him
Well at this point
my chances are looking slim

Can you stop leading me on
Don't do this to my heart
Just one word and I'm gone
So give me an answer, yes or no
I just want to know

i'm writing this down so i won't forget
so that this hobby won't be a cause of regret
what am i doing this for? what's the bottom line?
is it to settle a score or just to waste time
am i writing for myself or somebody else
not really, i'm just writing to write
my mind feels better when there's a bit of light
and i really just want to create
at least then i won't procrastinate
that's not a promise i can keep
but this is one seed i'll be sure to reap
and if i am known for this that's a bonus
we're all trying to curb our loneliness
so i guess that's where my goal is
trying to stop myself from being complacent
in the end, that's my mission statement

Since when did this whole thing begin?
I think I'm playing a game that I can't win
Who fell for whom first?
Who will say those final words?

Playing a game of chicken with our hearts
When mine stops, you're the jump-start
On our marks, get set, go
but everything else seems to move so slow

I don't want to see you in my rear-view
I wanna ride shotgun with no one but you
I'm in no hurry to reach the finish line
But know that my endgame is to make you mine

All the thinking, all the dreaming I have ever done
The person on my mind is you. You're the only one
I don't wanna go too fast and lose my self control
But I just can't escape your grip around my soul

sometimes i sit there and stare at a wall
thinking if all of this matters at all
trying and failing, losing, prevailing
shutting out the wailing inside my head
making sure that i'm alive and not dead
where did it go wrong?
why is it that you're gone?
come to think of it, we were a pretty bad couple
a couple of bad choices, didn't hear each other's voices
wanted more than we could give
and once we're done we couldn't forgive
thought i knew what i needed
thought it was true
but the right answer was never you

Is that what you think
Is that how you feel?
I can't believe what I'm hearing
Is this even real?

So we don't talk anymore
what was all of it for
We don't love anymore
You kicked me out the door
There's nothing left
Not even a soft and gentle look
I'm gone from your life
That was all it took

Is he better than me
Does his kiss feel sweeter than mine
Do the memories of his face
keep you up at night
Guess that's how you feel
I just hope you'll be alright

Been reflecting some things
Been affected by feelings
I came out wiser
But sadly not smarter
I'll always make the same mistakes
At least now my heart won't break
Not as much as it used to
Now I'm watching out for you too
I wish I could be a better person
I know that I'm flawed
I can't cut off my yearning
Sometimes I want it all
Didn't share, didn't care
and it left me with no one there
Learned it the hard way
By being a runaway
Now hopefully I'll be the reason
That you're gonna stay
And through all the seasons
We either change, or stay the same
Leaves turning gold, I'm getting old
And all the walls start to grow some mold
I'll always look back and remember
When we were together, and try to be better
So goodbye and farewell
To the guy you knew that came from hell

call me up when you're feeling down
sometimes it's hard to feel the ground
sometimes it's hard to make a sound
even when there's no one around

seems like i'm just moving along
convincing myself that nothing's wrong
then i look back and wish things were different
i always keep a certain emotional distance
always jumping between several distractions
while all the plans i made never gained traction

why does it feel good to be lazy
why is doing nothing so easy
i might have something to say
but i'm not gonna do it today

it's a vicious cycle, it never stops
it just keeps on going until i drop
the brake's cut, the pedal's floored
and frankly i'm just feeling bored
i should be my own savior
but i'm always saving it for later

maybe it's time to stop pretending
and admit that this problem's never-ending
the sooner i realize, the better
i can't blame the weather forever

guess i'll see you when i fall asleep
i hope the sea i'm diving is not so deep
i feel like i'm wasting time, counting the days
instead of just saying what i gotta say
there's always tomorrow. that's what i thought
i guess i forgot how little time i've got
so day by day, you drifted further away
and i never realized 'till you're replaced by the waves

now i'm singing my ocean blues
it's not the same without you
i'm so sick of radio tunes
so i hung up my phone
left it at dial tone
better to be alone
out of sight, out of mind
'till the end of time
so don't worry, i'm fine

every now and then i think about myself
about who i should become, do i need help?
every night i feel like i should start again
but each day feels like it would never end
when everything else falls apart
i'll just retreat inside my heart
and push you all away
one day, i'll be okay
i'll be okay

ain't no apologies can ever make this right
i know a part of me is costing my sleep at night
but when i hide my face they never see me frown
and if i look away they'll never bring me down

not looking forward to it
but it's some progress i guess
not that i'm bored of this yet
but i wish that i could forget

so am i the villain in your fairy tale
not even close to winning when our mates are stale
and if i break that mask will i see through you
and if your friends were asked would they say it's true too

sometimes i think of paper
and i ask it a favor
show me what to do
i don't have a clue
a simple piece of paper
more reflective than a mirror
they ask me how i cope
i just show them my notes
paper is my mind
floating over time
jumping between rhymes
sometimes i'd lie
and say that i'm fine
but never to paper
it never says later
always in the now
that's what it's about

privacy is really a thing of history
nowadays it's all up there like a gallery
even when i'm alone there's always eyes
it's exhausting putting on such a disguise
when the lights are off and blinds are closed
it would be fine to be blind i suppose
glancing at my back like there's a ghost
staring at every single tweet i post
no such thing as being invisible
still just a student dodging the principal
some of you might say i'm just paranoid
nah i'm just worried about my word choice
twisted voices can make terrible noises
life is a bumpy ride and i'm getting nauseous

is there anything worse than losing yourself
i can think of many things stuck on the shelf
must be something else that slipped my mind
perhaps a feeling that someone left behind
i can't just pretend that it isn't there
i cannot see it so i shouldn't care
that sounds fair but i keep having nightmares
then it hit me, it was always right there
paranoid nostalgia just thinking about ya
now my voice is louder but it doesn't have the power
the power to lead me away from my misery

every time i wake up
it's like the day's been set
and there's no way to shake up
the way things go ahead

feels like i'm stuck in a mold
and all the options are gone
i have to either be gold
or just settle for bronze

is it better to be on a path
or to throw out the map
should i know where to go
or just dive in the snow

who i'm meant to be
and what i want to do
i wonder if i'm free
to change my point of view

I got skeletons in my closet
But you already knew that
Anybody else
would leave me just like that
But not you
Oh, but not you

What do you see in me
I have literally no redeeming qualities
Some might call me downright silly
But yet you stayed
Still you stayed

I really don't deserve you
Angel from above
Why are you blessing me
This pitiful idiot with your love
Your attention and your embrace
I can't live up to that
I really am just a ****
But you love me anyway
And I wouldn't have it any other way

i only did it because i should
a sacrifice for the greater good
but good is never enough
nothing is ever too much
there's always something more
there's always another door
another room with nothing
leaving me wanting something
anything to fill it up
but nothing is enough
a lot to give, nothing to get
always prone to loss and regret
regressing in the name of progress
nothing wrong with the current process
can't bear to glance at what's behind
yet it screams in my ears all the time

it's just another raincheck
just another delay
waiting for sunny days
it's just another raincheck
till the clouds go away
but they always seem to stay

how much longer can i wait
how much longer can you stay
another day is just another way
to say i'm not here today
missing out on what matters
just in case a storm gathers

i can't get out of here
until the weather's clear
an endless loop of waiting
being cooped up, delaying
nothing's ever changing
and it's still raining

the sandcastles we built
i imagine it still
on the beach, out of reach
are the things we never had
the present became the past
questions never asked
nothing left but the waves
why can't i look away

i gotta wake up soon
light shining in my room
but i don't see any rays
i just hear the pattering rain

when should we stop dreaming
the alarms have been ringing
everybody's in a hurry
everybody seems so worried

i know i made a promise
but if i'm being honest
everything's so fragile these days
everyone's got debts they can't repay

but i'll see you in america
one day when it's all better
when i make it i'll make up to you
as long as we believe the sky is blue

what is it that you see in me?
what's the secret that make your eyes gleam?
what's the tempo of my heartbeat
that makes you stomp your feet
makes you nod your head to the music
or did i confuse it with something else
it has nothing to do with me, just you and yourself
why can't i see what you see?
am i blind to the so called best part of me?
you say i'm talented, i got what it takes
but self doubt makes me feel like a fake
i paint the walls with my mistakes
yet you only see the wallpaper i replaced
apparently i gotta be transparent
my hesitance is inherent
so i put my defenses up
in front of crowds i tense up
now i gotta fess up
sometimes i'm fed up
i had enough of it
of people saying i'm good
when i feel the opposite
i promised to myself that i'll be confident
but i got a history of breaking promises
wrote my life-story but i can't seem to finish it
might die heroic or live villainous

i can't hide, no more
i feel washed ashore
i wish i showed more
what is all this for

my head and my heart both ache
how many more pills can i take
is it all placebo in the end
can i become the hero again
or will i just go down a villain
and hate myself for my decisions
i can't be alone, yet i can't leave home
staring at these mold spots that have grown
even thinking makes me feel sick
sometimes i doubt i'll make it through the week
so many wrong things i can't pick one
i've been longing for just a ray of sun
happiness dies fast and regrets last
i even stopped caring about my eyebags
replaying those moments like they'll be different
and i keep asking myself what was missing

Why do we have to fight?
It's always one or the other
Always has to be wrong or right
It's such a shame to see us bicker

What was it for? Who started first?
I can't ignore that each time is worse
Lines getting blurry between banter and insults
Flying off the handle is more like an impulse

We can't see eye to eye
How can we compromise
It seems that you and I
Exist on parallel lines

Should this be the end
Have one final dance
And then it's never again

i was sitting in the dark
just waiting for a spark
scrolling through my phone
asking if there's someone home
it's real empty up there
it's all air down here
they don't care about fears
they just stay and chill
they just want a thrill

i've been losing my mind
i've been wasting my time
i've been lying for awhile
i've been faking several smiles
i've been worked up over nothing
i've been craving for some loving
but i know i'll never get it
i know i won't forget it
while i'm alive
while i survive

i was looking through my scrapbook
never really liked how my cap looked
the faces they have faded through the years
yet i can still hear my peers sneer
a disappointment and i know it
afraid of choices and i show it
i don't know how to be okay
what do you all want me to say
i know you're watching, watching
my ship's sinking and i'm the ******* captain
so hold on fellas and don't let go
it's about to be one hell of a show

i've been losing my mind
i've been wasting my time
i've been lying for awhile
i've been faking several smiles
i've been worked up over nothing
i've been craving for some loving
but i know i'll never get it
i know i won't forget it
while i'm alive
while i survive

i think it's fine
i just need 8 hours or 9
some shut-eye will do me good
but right now i don't think i would
got too much on my mind
but i'm fine

i've been losing my mind
i've been wasting my time
i've been lying for awhile
i've been faking several smiles
i've been worked up over nothing
i've been craving for some loving
but i know i'll never get it
i know i won't forget it
that's if i stay alive
that's if it's not a lie

I knew you so well, so well
Couldn't stop you before
I told you what I should tell
Trying to keep you out of my mind girl
But I'm in hell

I don't wanna cry
No more use in crying
Anymore
Wish I had the strength
Wish I had the strength
To knock on your door

Systematically destroying myself over something I didn't do
Mathematically doesn't make sense but what else can I do
You're through with me you're through with life
But I'm not through with you
Not then not now not ever
Thought you said we would be together
Forever
Guess that forever turned into never

thanks for the times that you spent with me
thanks for the smile that you never gave to anybody
i wish i could say what you needed to hear
cause you know i was always all ears
but things didn't go as planned
i wish i had taken your hand
and did all i could
i would, i should
but it's all over now
you're gone, to some far away town
somewhere i can't get to
worst part is i can't forget you
but i need to let you go
cause you of all people know
sometimes you just have to let it snow

something's not right
what happened last night
i can't recall your name
something's not fine
i don't know why
but i won't play your game

why are you so cryptic
don't you know i'll miss it
why you leaving hints babe
did you mean it this way

puzzle pieces everywhere
scattered pieces here and there
leaving all these breadcrumbs
all over this bedroom
no space in my headroom
assuming you exist still
assuming that it's all real
it's something i can go with
but now i can't control it
now it's out hand
i don't understand it
help me to expand it

the spring comes and the winter leaves
now i'm missing the fun i had with splinters and leaves
crazy how life goes so fast when you don't notice
and everything just slows down when you blow it
i know it's natural, it's okay to mess up
but i gotta fess up, i'll never make it to the best of
the greatest hits won't include me
no one will ever introduce me
you won't ever know the new me
because the version you see will die eventually
buried in a forest of words, six feet under
buried alive until another summer
never stopped to wonder where people go
never stopped to think if people know
if people grow, if people change
otherwise everything just looks the same
it's all so plain to me, somebody explain to me
how you can stay sane doing the mundane
it's all routine, we're all just moving
on and on, moving along, until our next favorite song

I think I missed my train
I must've overslept
Just waiting in the rain
Zero promises kept

From station to station
They all looked the same
From faces to faces
I lost track of names

I can't tell the time
What's wrong with my mind
Am I left behind
I thought I was fine

If nothing changes
Then is it me or you
To get to places
What will I have to do

start the day with a reminder
not to waste the remainder
opportunities come and go
some of them won't even show
how do you know which road to take
just try to make it for heaven's sake
workers on the grind
nothing but our lifelines
just trying to get by
that's just the life
no way up all the way down
feet planted deep in the ground
close your ears and say la la la
i don't need that brand new car
i just wanna pay my student loans
and hopefully not die alone

can you stop me from leaving
can you stop me from breaking
if you can that's good
cause i don't think i could
stop myself

i always flipped a coin to decide
it's like i don't even own my life
it's getting harder to decode my own mind
it'll take too long going by my own time

the risks or play it safe
the glue or let it break
can you help me out
it's so roundabout

should i have listened to my inner voice
the one that keeps yelling bad choice
and maybe i should have sacrificed
the things i could've done without in this life
but in this life, there's no easy goodbyes

can i stop being foolish
and try to be little bit selfish
when it's you i can't help it
but deep inside i'm glad
that i can't stop myself

There's no shortcut in this game
I want to make a move, but every time I do
You come out of the blue, always so brand new
I guess I'm trying to keep it tame
I don't need to guess the weather
Cause the less I know the better

Second guessing all my doubts
How many strikes until I'm out
Am I the only one this patient
Are you sick of all this waiting

I love and hate your poker face
I won't say it right away
I wish I could read your mind
But I hope you can't read mine

I'll try and try again
But every now and then
I find it hard to tame myself
I can only blame myself

i need to find some strength
to get through today
cause the more that i wait
i might make a mistake

cause everything happens for a reason
and flowers never bloom out of season
it never goes according to plan
with my feet still stuck in the sand

it's all just target practice
i miss and miss till i got it
i never really aimed correctly
but once in awhile i get lucky

most of the time i'm tired
of all these shots i've fired
and i don't have what's required
and the date has now expired

I was young, I was weak
And my future once looked bleak
I had no direction, no motive
Broken but no one noticed
But that changed with a look
When you glanced above from your book
I was hooked

Who could've known, even now when I've grown
That it would've been meant to be
Even the blind could've seen
What we had was real
And so I waited awhile, and you looked at me still
And so I waited no more, walked there and opened my mouth
I felt like I wanted to shout
From the top of my lungs, how's it going
My legs moved without knowing
My lips moved on their own

So we talked and we talked
Then we took a walk
It felt like a spark
Then we met again and again
Wasn't a matter of if but when
Then I showed you that ring
My heart could almost sing
And you said yes, as if I couldn't be more blessed
In the end, we tied the knot

At least that's how it would've been
You never looked at me
I never walked to you
There was nothing I could do
And at night I still dream
About what could've been

Or maybe it was nothing
To me it could've everything
At night I wonder
What would it be like
To be six feet under
Are there anything that lies yonder
I ponder

So many things I just can explain it
All this pain I can't contain it
As long as I can say I made it
Then that's enough for me
I don't need to know what's in store for me
You see
It's better being oblivious
Then knowing something this tedious