Amber 3d

Your voice used to warm my heart.
The sound takes me back,
All the way back to the start.

When my body was brand new,
Freshly developed,
I truly could not see through,
Others' facades.
I always let them have their way.

I said no,
And you pressed on,
Hearing me,
But not paying much attention,
To my pleas.

Other protests went unheard,
Never escaped my mouth,
The lines were always blurred.

I thought I was loved,
But that was untrue.
I was being shoved,
Into a small dark place.
A place where you could do,
All you desired to.

I let you have me,
Before I knew who I was.

The hardest question I ask myself is, why?
I am uncertain of why I ask myself, why?

I am looking for answers, unknown answers that I can't have and cannot be found.

Please don't ask me, why?
I can't give you uncertain answers,
or words that I can't speak.

It is not even found behind my tongue.
It is not even hidden inside my head.

Please don't ask me, why?
I don't even know, I am tired to know why.

How will I know the answers?
If my feelings are uncertain, my mind is gone, my heart is cold, words are unknown.

I am lost.

a Nov 5

The darker days edge closer,
earlier each evening the shadows chase
all home to the hearth.
Yet here I am.
Cold and wandering,
home against my back.
Uncertain in both direction and thought
Chilled to the bone I trudge.

Only one can warm my chills.

I am not afraid of the shadows.
I am certain in one.
In the stillness they roar.

On my return I bypass the bypass,
biding my time,
Not quite ready to return to
Reality?

Babe Sep 20

I blame Diana, the hunt, the game.
He was a fool for her wily ways.
I blame the girl, the victor of the tale.
She gets the spoils, I only fail.

He says he needs time.
But time doesn't wait.

Just a thought (hello, I'm back)
LLI Sep 12

Just say the word and I'll stop
Just say the word and I'll be yours forever
Your choice
Your call

I'll be silently waiting for you
Tunde Lakanu Sep 11

Won't you wander to unknowns where places don't appear?
Won't you rekindle our extremes?
Won't you rub on splinters the buloke smooths out?
Won't you change thoughts that reappear?

Won't you wander to unknowns where places don't appear?
Won't you hear the voice you sought true?
Won't you fly back down in silence?
Won't you climb the light that creeps through?

Won't you wander to unknowns where places don't appear?
Won't you blow out the candle before wax melts?
Won't you feel chills when our skin lays bare?
Won't you hold on to my bones that lay still?

Won't I wander to unknowns where places don't appear?
Won't I feel anything before roads become clear?
Won't I end from bloom fields?
Won't I hold this candle while my skin heals?

sophia Aug 11

the longing never
felt more unreal
when the stars
kept me awake,
uncertain, unsure.. but
but somehow
my heartstrings
just lead back to
him, never out of love
tangled in the pieces
of home

Aleah Jul 29

So purely obscure,
My longing stays,
Hidden from you,
I meet your gaze,
And I am frozen in place,
My thoughts lead me astray,
I try to find the words,
That are locked away,
There are no truths,
In the things I say,
I am always uncertain,
And you look the other way.

It makes me sink
that we have come this far
and I am still unsure of
how you’d remember me?

Would you flinch
when picking out china patterns?

Would your heart stutter
when choosing nameplate designs?

Would your heart place you in conflict
when doing things without the partner
you had dreamt of such minutes with?

Would your mind need to be calmed
if it arose at the mention of my name
or would it skip your attention
without needing to dismiss it as a coincidence?

When I speak of all things certain,
I don’t speak of us

Thus, I am sunk wondering how you’d remember me
Thus, I am sunk pondering how I don’t have a choice

I’d wish, though, you don’t have a choice either
that I always emerge a feeling hard to suppress.

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