If fear is only in the mind,
would you help me wash away my doubts.
I can feel myself falling deeper,
still unsure of where you're at.

I didn't think it was possible to feel this safe with someone,
allowing myself to be vulnerable.
I constantly put up a front,
but somehow, you see right through the mask.

You begin to heal my wounds,
ugly scars you did not create.
You bring me a sense of security,
I've only ever found within myself.
Hoping these feelings are reciprocated,
so one day I can begin to love you.

A poet never really stops writing,
only sometimes, we lose the strength to write it all down.

But when we write,
we spill our hearts upon the pages.
Every ink filled line,
giving full access to our minds,
for whoever dares to read them.

I apologize for the tears and blood stains,
sometimes my pen reveals too much.
As I close my eyes,
and my hand glides across the page,
my soul speaks to me in the best possible way.

You are a piece of art,
crafted with the most valuable materials.
A sword forged from perfection,
with blood stained tears;
from the times you had to stab your own heart.

I'll become the blacksmith,
crafting over dents to help you become whole again.
Using my own veins,
to stitch together every open wound,
you've left untouched.

Your eyes are so intense,
their stare forces one foot in front of the other.
I still remember the feel of your chest against my cheek,
and the different patterns of your heartbeat.

Everytime you kissed me I could feel your soul,
and taste the faint hint of your last cigarette lingering on your lips.
But you let fear tear us apart,
because you lost control of your heart.

Sadistic minds think alike,
our bodies create a work of art.
While my ******* side,
gives you full control of my body.

Your deep moans and rapid breathing,
feeding my darkest desires.
I'm trusting you with my life,
as your grip around my neck tightens.

You use my body for your pleasure,
while your hands forget to be gentle.
Leaving marks across my pale skin,
as a reminder of the night you owned me.

He's disappointed in her,
she's falling even deeper.
He witnesses the side effects,
of her new dangerous addiction.

His eyes filled with concern,
he pleaded with her to stop.
He doesn't understand her pain,
and slowly they drift apart.

She still feels broken,
from when he destroyed her heart.
She tries numbing the pain,
with such a short-lived high.


But her heart wants only thing,
and she can't bare to worry him.
Even though he's the cause of this nightmare,
she'll never let him go.

Is a heart ever truly locked away,
or can it slip through walls just waiting for someone worth taking a chance for.
Risking exposure to the type of pain that most of us were wired to run away from.
Now some of us,
we’re a lot more ****** up in the head.

We see the heartache before it comes;
but the sweet rush of ectasy from holding the right person’s hand,
is always worth the torment that follows.

Leaving us broken and scared,
because we still haven’t fully grasped what are minds our capable of doing to our bodies.

For every petal that falls,
She loses a piece of her soul.
But she continues to smile,
Even though she'll never be whole.

He'll pick away at her flower,
As she avoids the abyss.
But she'll risk it all,
Just for a kiss.

Her heart is now bare,
No longer protected.
But he leaves her in tears,
Just as she suspected.

I forgot that it stung,
Silver against my skin.
But the tickle up my nose,
Makes me feel okay again.

My heart is still bleeding,
Unsuccessful with moving on.
Thinking of you under the night sky,
Staring blissfully until dawn.

Don't be scared, Love;
show me your scars.
Give me a piece of your soul,
and maybe a glimpse of your mind.

I could show you beauty,
without a field of flowers.
And an amazing high,
without the foul aftertaste.

Just let me in,
let me feel your pain.
I'll touch your soul,
and make you go insane.

Just a piece of metal,
That's stained with red and white.
Leading me to sweet pain,
And such a lovely high.

Flawless drops of red escaping,
While this addictive white dust is introduced to my brain.
My mind feels so beautiful,
And my whole body trembles.
Thinking of the taste of your neck,
While shivers run down my spine.

The bitter taste in my throat,
Masking the emotions I suppress.
Feelings of you keep swelling up,
So I do another line to tame them.
Your charming smile vanishing,
Replaced with lustful eyes.
Calming down my heart,
And filling up my mind.

Innocence is no friend of mine,
My thoughts leading me to a darker time.
Dreaming of a pain, the kind worth begging for.

I've surrendered to your lips,
Soft and sweet, your addicting kiss.
Fantasizing, about you pulling on my hips.
Trapped in your tantalizing gaze

Sweet loss of breath, from your hand around my neck.
Lust in my eyes, as you ****** between my thighs.
My legs twitching, gripping you tightly.
Fading away into sweet insanity.

Falling for you is like stepping off a cliff with my eyes closed.
I can't see the drop,
But deep down I know it's there.
If only I'd open my eyes,
To see if you're down there waiting for me,
But the fear of rejection keeps me cautious.

I don't know how much longer I can keep this up.
I'm trying so hard to contain my pain,
But the darkness still surrounds me.
Soon I'll be happy and free,
But for now you're my only escape.
And when I crave the sharp end of the blade on my skin,
I replaced it with the image of your lips there instead.

This is too good to be true,
Just break my heart already.
Everything about you,
Makes my heart feel steady.

You've become my greatest fear,
Even though I know you mean no harm.
So wrapped in you dear,
With nothing around me but your arm.

I never meant to care this much,
But somehow you caught me off guard.
I can't resist the feel of your touch;
I tried not to fall, but it was way too hard.

Each sweet little kiss drawing me deeper into you.
I can see it in your eyes,
You feel the same way I do.

So just stitch your heart with mine,
And finally, they'll align.
We'll commit the greatest crime,
Our love concurring even time.

I don't think I'll make it through this time around.
I can already feel the walls of my heart breaking down.
It's my own fault for getting attached to you.
I should of known it was to good to be true.

Clinching my fist,
On the verge of tears.
Trying everything I can,
To shake these fears.
I need to be numb,
I'll take any pill.
Anything that will help,
I just don't want to feel.

Hoping I'll awake,
And it'll all just be a dream.
So I can escape from this nightmare,
And diminish my hearts scream.

She tried too hard,
And ended up with a broken heart.
He tricked her love,
and she slowly fell apart.

She gave him too much,
He breathed it all in.
She was so mesmerized,
By his stupid little grin.

I'll eventually move on,
Because I've always been tough.
Even if my love,
Will never be enough.

Your lips brush against mine,
At first soft and sweetly.
But as you lean in closer,
Your kiss grows even deeper.

You explore my body,
Like a lost island you've been searching for.
My eyes giving you permission,
Whispering it's all yours.

Your hands strip away my insecurities,
Replacing them with your warmth.
Close enough to feel the beating of your heart,
It's speaking softly with mine.

No fear or pain when we're gently pressed together.
Our bodies reminding us of the real meaning of love.

And as we lay side by side,
Drifting to sleep.
Your arms wrap around me,
In the soft place I can be.

There's something missing in my life.
I can feel the overpowering ache in my chest.
Numbing only around you,
But I long for so much more.
Your smile warms my heart,
And your hands heal my scars.
Your lips kiss my soul,
And speak with it so calmly.
Taking away my pain,
Giving me more than I've hoped for.
Your perfection is calling my name,
And luring me in deeper.
I never lasted a chance,
I was gone from that first smile.
And that very first kiss,
Swept me too far off my feet.
But your arms are my safe haven,
And I'll sleep in them every night.

To be kissed by your lips,
Every day and night
As I open my eyes
And as I fall asleep;
Is something I crave.

To lay in your arms,
On bright sunny days,
And even the stormiest of nights;
Is something I dream of.

But as sceptic as I am,
I truly believe;
That one of these days,
You'll belong to me.

How can I be so oblivious.
Every word you try to speak to my head,
Only goes through to my heart.
Your arms make me feel so safe,
But they scares me even more.
My lips have become addicted to your kiss,
And I fear to one day feel their withdraw.
But I can't stop myself from falling,
I can only hope you'll stick around to catch me.

I don't just want to feel your lips against mine;
     I want your tongue teasing me,
     Your teeth biting me,
     And your breath warming me.

I don't just want your fingers to please me;
     I want one enterwined with mine,
     While the other leaves fingerprints all over me,
     Searching for the sea.

I don't just want your body pressed with mine,
     I want your hips moving slowly with me,
     I want to be handled so roughly there's left over
     evidence the next morning,
     I want to fight for control til I'm pinned to the
     bed and left at your mercy.

There is no one way I imagine ******* you.
But each one will leave us exhausted and satisfied,
And I don't plan on being very patient.

Show me the truth that hides deep inside,
Lost within your intriguing eyes.
I want to see your darkness,
And understand the reason for your pain.
Because I can't seem to keep these feelings restrained.

I'm lost in myself,
Too broken and used.
I'll never let myself get to close to you.

Everything about you is way too perfect,
And each little flaw only makes you more worth it.

I'm torn between the two,
Because I know that you're no good.
But it feels like you might just make me stay;
Because somehow you've sparked an uneven beat,
And my heart isn't exactly sure how to react.

So if you're really trying to make me fall,
Than first understand that I won't change at all.
My personality is unique,
I don't expect you to understand me.

But just as I can be sweet,
I can impersonate the devil;
All while falling madly in love with you.

Your eyes are so soft and caring;
Your voice is so calm and soothing;
Your hands are gentle, yet so rough;
And your heart is so kind, yet so cold.

I want to take away your pain,
While you stumble around for away to destroy mine.
You're playing with my heart without even meaning to.

Your smile pinches my heart,
And my tongue craves a taste from your lips.
And when I feel your skin against mine,
I imagine even more of it in my head.

Not yet,
It's still too soon.
I'd prefer for my heart to start right in my chest.
It craves to be mended,
Each shattered little piece.
No longer broken,
And finally set free.

But imprisoned by fear,
It cages itself.
Leaving the key,
Only eighty beats from its hell.
For any heartbreaker to stumble upon;
Without noticing the true power,
My heart can commend.

How long can I keep this up.
Pretending that I don't want more for us.
My heart just feels so lonely.
Each day I lose more faith in myself.
I wouldn't get to close to you,
But I can't deny how much I want to.
Your smile melts my soul,
And I can't seem to rid you from my heart.
I'll feel your kiss once again,
And when our lips meet our bodies will join.
Each deep little desire you crave with come true with me.
No judgments between us once the lights are turned low.

This pain is so unbearable,
I'm writing on my skin.
My whole arm feels numb,
I didn't think it'd get this bad again.
I'm painting with my wrist,
In only the color red.
Because each deep little thought,
Can only come out unsaid.

My mind is so twisted,
I'm mixing lies with facts.
I'm not sure who to trust.
My heart or my head.
They're spinning me around,
As if it's life or death.
Each direction will cause pain,
But somehow,
One will still bring something to gain.

It taste even sweeter when the blood is running down my arm.
Every sip I take,
I welcome the blade more.
I've missed this pain,
The familiar touch so welcoming.
Comforting me like an old friend.
I won't neglect you anymore,
Because giving in has such a sweeter taste.

No one gives me the pleasure you do.
So close to insanity,
But I cut the demons away.
Drowning away the emptiness that keeps dragging me down.
The darkness becomes stronger everyday,
consuming the very essence of my mind,
While I slowly drift away.

I can't stand to become that person again.
I can be strong as long as I keep this blade close to my skin.
Locking away each deep little thought.
Accidentally remembering the ones I forgot.

The darkness is a consuming the very essence of my mind.
Searching for the light, but I'm becoming more blind.
Coming to terms with who I crave to become.
Stripping away any remaining innocence, immorality impossible to overcome.

Never fall in love,
Unless you're strong enough to do with pain.
Matters of the heart,
Bring you nothing to gain.
Except torment each day.
Slowly, I'm moving further away.

My heart can't cope with this,
I'm finding it hard to forget.
Staring into the shadows,
Visualizing your silhouette.

I feel drawn to you,
As if we both swallowed a piece of a magnet heart.
But we're too close on opposite sides,
So the force pulls us further apart.

You've turned the hands of my heart,
Now is taking is slowing down.
But I'll have to pick myself back up,
After you leave me to drown.

The anticipation is killing me,
Just tell me how he feels.
My heart is literally aching,
This pain is too unreal.
I feel my chest caving in,
I can't handle these insecurities.
I keep forgetting what I told myself,
Especially about all my priorities.

I thought I hid my heart away,
But somehow I found the key.
It's spinning over my head,
It won't stop teasing me.
Pointing in each direction,
Not showing me a clear path.
But I'm too scared to move,
And deal with the aftermath.

So I'll press pause on my heart,
We can talk another day.
And hopefully you'll tell me how you feel,
Before my feelings fade away.

It feels like my head is at war with my heart.
Thoughts roaming free,
While feelings imprisoned in my chest.
Contained in a cell surrounded by pain,
pinned to the ground being abused and tamed.

Driven' insane by the memory of your kiss,
Because I know I'll try to keep myself from the sweet taste of your lips.
Your fingerprints left behind on my skin,
from a crime that we couldn't find the time to fully commit.

When your hand parted with mine,
My fingers had never felt so lonely.
As if you dug up some hidden pain I repressed without any remorse.

Too many secrets shared while we were dazed,
Hoping you'll forget mine,
But each word of yours I seared in my brain.

I'm really scared to fall,
I can't sense the traps anymore.
You just seem to be fooling me a little to well.
The way everything about you,
Keeps pulling me in more.

I don't want to give into my feelings for you,
But perfection is rare;
And I can see it on you
So I'll bat my eyelashes,
And take things slow.

But I can't make any promises,
Because if you get to close;
I'll forget about being shy,
And lose all control.

Dark shadows creeping behind me,
Leaving scratches on my back.
Cold fingers on my shoulders,
Pinning me against the sink.
Forcing me to watch in the mirror,
While they steal my dignity.
Each movement bring closer,
To the brink of suicide.

But I've been here before,
This isn't the first time.
So I close my eyes,
Trying my best not to memorize.
Because this pain is too familiar.

The only pain I feel,
Is from the wound in my chest;
Left behind by your double edged dagger.

But my self inflicted scars,
Are deeper than the ones you've caused.
Because my skin is much stronger,
Than the barrier protecting my mind.

Sometimes I fall,
Sometimes I break;
Hidden up my sleeves,
Are my mistakes.

When I numb the pain,
With scars that take too long to fade;
I remember your lips,
They felt so great.

But baby,
So does his blade.

If your smile doesn't leave me breathless;
If the glimmer in your eyes,
Doesn't quicken the beat in my heart;
Than my feelings for you aren't real enough.

When our fingertips brush against each other,
I'll feel my chest tighten;
If  you're the one my mind is always on.

When we're alone in a room,
My mind will wonder;
About more than our playful jokes against each other.

Truth is,
There's something here.
But I'd prefer,
To continue to fall;
Than become a victim,
To that stupid grin.

I would've made you fall in love,
you wouldn't of been able to help yourself.
You would've been caught by my smile,
every time your eyes glimpsed my way.
It'd feel as if your body couldn't function,
without the sweet taste of my lips.
Your hands would suffer withdraws,
when they moved away from my skin.
But drugs can be harmful,
with an addiction as strong as me.
So I'm glad you got away when you did,
because otherwise,
you would've never been free.

But aren't we more,
than just scattered pieces upon the floor.
Broken and bent out of shape,
as if all of our mistakes are recorded on tape.

Cold fingers grasping my heart,
tearing us further and further apart.
Wondering if I'll ever again be whole,
slashing deeper and deeper into my soul.

And the only thing I've been able to obtain,
is this horrible agonizing pain.
While the worst thing that's making me so stressed,
is having to pretend I'm not overwhelmingly depressed.

I want to travel to a different town,
I'm not ready to be tied down.
But I can see the surrounding art,
From the darkness inside my heart.
And the loneliness is overwhelming,
Causing my chest to keep straining.
I was hoping since you went away,
It was keep these feelings at bay.
But I keep painting pictures in my head,
Especially when I'm lonely in my bed.

I've never felt your touch on my skin,
But my body craves it as if without conversion it'll collapse.

Your lips have never brushed against mine,
But I can imagine the taste,
Sweetly sublime.

I couldn't stop staring that night,
You were so close,
I should have leaned in.

The way you looked in my eyes,
I was so distracted by your voice,
Transporting my heart into yours.

I couldn't think straight,
Looking back now,
I see my mistake.

I should of pulled you close,
Creating music with our lips,
Our bodies finishing the lyrics.

I can't find one imperfection when I'm looking at you.
From the sound of your laugh,
To the gap between your teeth.
The way your smile makes me feel,
As if there's no one else for me but you.

I can't perceive any flaws in who you are.
In my eyes,
I don't see any reason for your insecurities.
Your mind is beautiful,
Just like your deep brown eyes.

I can't see how anyone could break your heart.
The way you care so much,
Even when the feeling isn't reciprocated.
So much emotion in your heart,
Begging to be set free.

I can't imagine how breathtaking it feels,
To be held by you.
To inspire your mind,
And capture your love.
Breaking the chains from your heart,
Keeping it safe in my arms,

I can't believe in these feelings,
Because my hearts been aching,
And it's all because of you.

I'll take your darkness,
I'll take your pain.
Replace it with love,
not hiding any shame.
I'll trust you with my heart,
put my life in your hands.
And one day we'll be more,
than just great friends.
But I have no patience,
so this has to end.
I can't even speak to you,
because every single time;
I forget what we are,
and just want you to be mine.

You're beautiful,
just like a poisonous flower.
So my eyes betray me,
and I crave just a taste.
I reach out for the brightest berry,
and you wrap me in your arms.
Deceptively sweet,
growing with each dose I intake.
But I consume too much of you,
and I overdose;
falling victim to a beautiful death.

Place your hand on my heart,
Can you feel my pain.
My darkness is overwhelming,
But you scare it all away.

You're cutting into my circulation,
And stealing away my oxygen.
You brought me comfort,
I assumed you'd always be near.

I let myself get too close,
I should have been more careful.
But I let you sneak up on me,
And time wasn't on my side.

But when I look at you,
I see past your eyes.
And though they're dark and beautiful,
I also find beauty in your mind.

I know your heart's been scarred before,
And you may be scared to let me stich it back together.
But I know how to use a needle,
Because I've had to mend my own a time or two.

So hand me a piece of thread,
And I'll use it on us both.
And I promise I won't let it break,
Because I've tied yours with mine.