you see the world
through a broken lense
if you gave me the chance,
i would've picked each star
from the velvet sky
to put you together again.

in the darkness
my heart calls for you
your face,
is forever the first i see
when i close my eyes
and let the shadows take over.

during those twilight hours
the moon gazed upon us
and blushed,
not knowing
where you ended
and i began.

we crashed into each other
like a perfect storm
but they say lightning
never strikes twice,
maybe that's why
i find it impossible to let you go.

my love for you
is still seething
from it's violent birth
you lit a fire in me,
and now i live
with an eternal burning
longing to be taken alive.

under the moonlight
you kept close to me
becoming my shadow
under a velvet sky,
your body screaming
for the touch of my fingertips.
in the darkness i lie,
i still hear your ragged breaths
the feeling of your sweat
travelling down
the arch in my back
haunting me like a phantom
you are my ghost in the night.

they say with lovers time stands still,
i didn't fully understand until one rainy morning in paris. you'd let me wander aimlessly around my favourite bookstore for hours, smiling sweetly at my excitement even though you hadn't read the prose. you escaped into the morning air, i walked out of the doorway to find you and the hands of time silenced. there you were, tucked underneath the dew; the crimson morning sun lighting you up. you were deep in conversation with a lone artist, mesmerized by her work. the watercolours dancing in your eyes. i thought you looked so beautiful, that the notre dame behind you dwarfed in comparison. in that second i knew i would spend forever trying to keep that look in your eyes.

lazily we walk
hand in hand
the golden sun streaming
through the trees
your kisses sweeter
than honeysuckle
the hazy scent of
lilac blossoms filling the air
bees join us
the flowers are singing
immersed in the beauty of our love.

my soul
remembered you
and that isn't
easy to forget.

i crave a love
that is other worldly,
extraterrestrial
you are the cosmos
i long to explore.

i wish you gave me
just a little more time
to be in love with you.

each beat of my heart
is for you alone
i see nothing else,
but the shape of your hands
and heaven in your eyes.

eden is hands
covered in ink stains
from my soul escaping
onto the pages
of tattered notebooks,
listening to the rain
fall softly on the window
like a lover's kiss
upon my shoulder
while the amber haze
of candlelight
burns slowly,
gently dancing
in golden celebration
across the darkness
just like the flames
that swallow me at your touch.

and i know
when winter takes over my soul,
your name will be the last word
my heart skips a beat for.

in you i saw forever,
in me you seen an escape.

you make me ungodly
i crave you above all else
like nosferatu
confined to an eternal bloodlust,
hungry for your love.

in the darkness
your ghost finds me
the memories leave me aching.
the moon was the only witness
to our midnight worship
the stars burned with longing.
teeth bared, nails dragging,
your moans becoming
my personal symphony
each beat of my heart,
yearning for your love.
now my skin is still on fire
from a blanket of kisses
bright enough
to make the night sky herself
weep with envy.

just like sunflowers
contort themselves
to face the sun
perhaps i am capable of the same,
stretching myself
to feel your presence
your soul sustaining me
like the flowers feed the bees.

show me
your favourite books
and read me the poetry
that moves you
after dark
make me playlists
and tell me the secrets
that only the moon knows
let me love
the very corners of your soul
and give you mine in return
i want to know
only all of you
or nothing at all
show me what lies
in the shadows
and let me fight off your fears
i long to tie my heart to yours.

despite it all
we effortlessly end up
drawn together again
your soul pulling me in
my bones still remembering
how your touch felt
on those velvet nights
you light up my existence
and swim beneath my skin
my blood is yours.

at our first hello
i seen it;
a memory flashing
from an ancient time.
you had held my heart before
wild hair dancing in the wind,
you had watched me burn.
just like the sweet notes
that poured from your fingertips
caressing the keys
had haunted my dreams,
those same fingers would
send my body into chaos.
you were my muse
in every incarnation
and i yours,
destined to never be strangers
our hearts never our own.

when our eyes met
i could feel magic in the air,
just like hearing clair de lune
for the first time
you reminded me
of winter snowfall
with a wildness
that made me feel at home
your eyes burning with promise,
my heart burned too.

before you
i didn't know
what fireworks felt like,
you set me ablaze
and it terrified me
now everything
dulls in comparison,
and all i have left
are memories
that tear through my bones.

underneath the gloomy morning dew
i would sit and dream of you
the bleeding hearts
would bloom and dance,
in remembrance of our wilting romance.

when you left
a part of me never recovered
no food could sustain me
the way your touch did
so nothing passed my lips,
i was left a ruin
standing but empty
forgotten and left to wither
shrinking smaller
with each sunset
but all people could tell me
was how good i looked.

since i was a child,
i've always loved endings the most;
the smell after a storm passes
and crimson sunsets
after a lazy summer day

but i was never ready
to say goodbye to you.

loving you
was like trying to love the rain
you made me feel alive
but i couldn't stop you
from slipping through my fingers.

the second you said
you didn't want to choose,
i knew you didn't
have enough faith in us to stay.

every time
i think i'm over you
you smile
and i relapse.

you succeeded where others failed
you undressed my mind first
now all my words are for you.

but what happens
when you find your soulmate
only it's simply not your time
life tears you apart
and before you know it,
days become years
that emptiness stays
knowing a piece of you
has been left behind
a phantom following you
reminding you of what you lost
what happens then?
how do we survive
knowing we've lost our very self?

worshipping you
is the only religion i know;
being alone with you
is the only heaven i want to be sent to.

maybe if i wrap our memories
in cellophane
they won't escape me
like you did.

i'll never understand
how you can both
light me up
brighter than the sun,
yet our memories
can still eat me
from the inside out
leaving me aching
like a black hole,
burning me completely.

you see my darkness as a burden;
he helped me wear it like a crown.

the worst part is,
you felt like coming home.

crimson hair on soft pillows
like flames on water
darkness felt like home to us,
spending each night
talking to the stars
your teeth tracing my veins
my touch
enough to contort you.
our nights became ritualistic
your pulse pushing out your skin
shadows finding shadows
your demons meeting mine,
the moon was burning
my heart on fire
you are my muse.

out of all of the ways to die,
you are my favourite.

loving you was such a rush
you swam through my veins
hitting me like ******,
now i'm in withdrawal

i can still feel you in my blood.

you've made me soft
that's what i'm told
took my sword and replaced it with roses,
showing me there's beauty
in being unguarded
now i stand in a blooming garden
flowers singing since i let you in.

i still ache from missing you.
the shape your mouth made
when you were unsure.
the blueness of your eyes
taking my breath away
each time they found mine.
you were beautiful like a natural disaster,
devastating but captivating.

our time was fleeting
but felt like an eternity.
as if each star in the cosmos aligned
to enable us to share
those twilight moments.
your teeth on my neck.
your warm breath in my ear.
our pleasures will never
be understood, only feared.
worshipping each other in the darkness
like pilgrims searching for god.
you were all i wanted to know,
happily spending forever locked
under soft duvets, sweat trickling
down the arch of your back
on those summer nights.

i miss the heaviness of your body
as you finally gave in to sleep,
knowing i'd chase away
those demons that controlled your dreams.
i still feel your hands in mine
like a phantom limb
soft but definitely writers hands,
creating beauty so naturally
the words would catch in my throat.

haunted by all i never said;

darling stay here please,
my heart beats for you alone
i can't bare to face the dark.

you have an addictive personality
that's what they say.
you threw your arms around me too fast
like a hurricane,
consuming me completely.
i don't doubt the sincerity
in those moments and whispers
too pure to be lies,
your sweetness like a cavity.
but now i see it for what it was
your latest fixation
simply a way to pass the time

i was just another habit to break.

i wonder if you still have the memory
of how it felt to possess me
or how sweet i tasted,
our bodies pushing against each other
screaming in your brain
burns of the third degree,
just like mine
a ghost in the background
taunting, yearning for ecstasy
bathing in endless torments
a martyr for your love.

and i wonder why you
let me continue
to fall, when
i'd already
hit the

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your love set me on fire,
his gives me wings.

so unexpectedly
you appeared
carefully picking me up
from all the shattered pieces
until i resembled
something
remotely human
you held me close
and kissed my scars
so softly
never once
questioning their existence
quietly accepting
the cage i had built
so desperately
around myself
until one day
without realising,
my home
was no longer a prison
but your arms.

lost are the nights
where i would breathe you in
feeling you slowly burn
as i held you close,
now all i can do is watch
as you fall back
into the void
i tried so helplessly
to save you from.

you wanted a match,
i gave you a wildfire.

i often wonder
if you still feel my kisses
burning your skin
terrified of the moment
where you no longer
remember how i taste
sweeter than honey
dripping down your fingertips.

i breathe you in
and just like that,
i'm intoxicated