Girl, I need one hundred percent
I'm not gonna be second best
Girl, I need one hundred percent
Don't wanna be the broken hearted again
Girl, can you give me one hundred percent?
Or do we need this right here to end
One hundred percent
I need it
I need one hundred percent
I need one hundred percent

Girl, I won't let you
Just become words on a page
Something I express when I hit the stage
I'm done with breakup songs
Been writing them far too long
I need a girl who's gonna give there all
I need a girl
in which I can place my trust
Know they'll protect this tender heart
No more looking for love in the wrong places
No more being trapped in friend zone spaces

Girl, I need one hundred percent
I'm not gonna be second best
Girl, I need one hundred percent
Don't wanna be the broken hearted again
Girl, can you give me one hundred percent?
Or do we need this right here to end
One hundred percent
I need it
I need one hundred percent
I need one hundred percent

Tell me if we need to break it off
Tell me am I wasting my time
Are all these just throwaway lines
Are you lying behind those bright eyes
Am I suspecting something
Or is this tingling feeling nothing
Can't see between the lines
To read the signs
Tell me I just need to know cuz

Girl, I need one hundred percent
I'm not gonna be second best
Girl, I need one hundred percent
Don't wanna be the broken hearted again
Girl, can you give me one hundred percent?
Or do we need this right here to end
One hundred percent
I need it
I need one hundred percent
I need one hundred percent

Somethings stirring inside
Why doesn't this feel right
I have a sickening feeling
Something feels off
Something aches inside my brain
Is my intuition latching onto something
I couldn't see
Is there a hidden message
On your lips
(Didn't read it)
Didn't see it
Come on baby
Make me believe it
I need to know cuz
I gotta feeling we aren't okay
And you know what they say

Girl, I need one hundred percent
I'm not gonna be second best
Girl, I need one hundred percent
Don't wanna be the broken hearted again
Girl, can you give me one hundred percent?
Or do we need this right here to end
One hundred percent
I need it
I need one hundred percent
I need one hundred percent

©2018 Written By Benji James

One day you'll realise
All these lyrics were about you
In fact, I think you're smart enough
To figure out
What they've been all about
Doesn't take a genius to figure it out
You left me in a pool of doubt
Questioning myself why and how
Could I ever let it come to that
Letting you go was the biggest mistake
That I've ever made
And I didn't do it just once but twice
Why did we have to suffer the price
In my head none of this **** makes sense
In time you'll come to see
I was only telling you the truth
It was always gonna be me for you.
And the love that I had for you was real
Whether you choose to believe it or not
That choice is yours, in the end
But for me, none of this went according to plan
And I spent the time
To try and deal with all the pain
That's messed with my brain
And now I'm just trying
To make this right
Can't you understand it
From my side
I wanted you to be
The other part of my life
But it was him who won you, not me
And look what happened in the end
I told you he would **** with you again
I told you to trust me
I tried to be there
I tried to defend your heart
honestly, you didn't really care
Or believe in anything I said
And now I'll leave the rest in your hands
To choose what we should be
I wanted you to know
What is on my mind
And this is the way I can do it right
I want us to still be friends
Maybe more
That choice is yours
Because I'm not sure
what you think anymore
You haven't been making this easy lately
But I can't blame you
I think I've hurt you real bad
But you hurt me to
I just hope you understand
I'll always be there to stand by you
No matter what happens
I love you till death do us part
Girl you've always got a place in my heart

©2017 Written By Benji James

Loaded, up on pills
Feel fake, don't feel real 
Think they found my Achilles heel
My weaknesses are drowning me out 
My secrets have started coming out
I'm so dosed up 
Can't tell the difference
Between reality and make believe
That has me questioning 
What I'm doing to myself 
Why can't I put these pills 
back on the shelf?
Why am I destroying myself
And everything I stood for
Maybe it's cuz of 
what burns me at the core
Maybe it's the reason I'm still sore
The reason I still feel torn
Pop another pill 
so I can't feel a thing
Numb the pain 
Crumble each part of me away
The past locked in my head 
How the **** am I not dead?
So much blood I've bled 
But razors aren't enough 
To rip my skin in half 
Make sure it scars 
To remind me of all the hurt
I've caused
To remind me of the fall
How do I even come back 
from this at all?

©2017 Written By Benji James

I wanna use your heart
Like an acoustic guitar
Let all the emotion pour out
And turn it into sound
Tell me all about
The troubles in your head
That keep you awake so late
While lying in your bed
Tell me about
The nightmares you dread
Tell me what hurts
That has been said
I'm here to serve and protect
And there is one thing
I must confess
I cleaned you up
When you were a mess
I've seen you at your worst
And at your best.

I love you
I love you
I love you
I wanna take you away
Let's get out of this place
Take my hand, pack your things
And will run away
Will go somewhere
Where we can be together forever

I can see your soul
Behind your eyes
I can see the truth
Behind your lies
I can feel the hurt
Behind your smile
I know you want me to stay
Longer than a while
I know you want me
to hold you tight for the whole night
I can see the tears you want to cry
Go ahead let it out,
I'm here with you right now
I can see you want me in your eyes
I can feel the love you hold inside
(YEAH)

I love you
I love you
I love you
I wanna take you away
Let's get out of this place
Take my hand, pack your things
And will run away
Will go somewhere
Where we can be together forever

Don't pull away
Find your way in to me
Just take a look and you will see
How much you really mean
I've been your strength
Through the fall
The demons
We fought them all
I've been there
Every time you called
Now take a chance
Let's make this change
It a decision we both have to make
Don't let me fade
Don't let me down
Because I always want you around
I need you here
You need me to
Don't let these thoughts
Escape from you
Cuz I can see
that you love me
And you know
that I will always be
The one for you

I love you
I love you
I love you
I wanna take you away
Let's get out of this place
Take my hand, pack your things
And will run away
Will go somewhere
Where we can be together forever

©2018 Written By Benji James

I wanna use your heart
Like an acoustic guitar
Let all the emotion pour out
And turn it into sound
Tell me all about
The troubles in your head
That keep you awake so late
While lying in your bed
Tell me about
The nightmares you dread
Tell me what hurts
That has been said
I'm here to serve and protect
And there is one thing
I must confess
I cleaned you up
When you were a mess
I've seen you at your worst
And at your best.

I love you
I love you
I love you
I wanna take you away
Let's get out of this place
Take my hand, pack your things
And will run away
Will go somewhere
Where we can be together forever

I can see your soul
Behind your eyes
I can see the truth
Behind your lies
I can feel the hurt
Behind your smile
I know you want me to stay
Longer than a while
I know you want me
to hold you tight for the whole night
I can see the tears you want to cry
Go ahead let it out,
I'm here with you right now
I can see you want me in your eyes
I can feel the love you hold inside
(YEAH)

I love you
I love you
I love you
I wanna take you away
Let's get out of this place
Take my hand, pack your things
And will run away
Will go somewhere
Where we can be together forever

Don't pull away
Find your way in to me
Just take a look and you will see
How much you really mean
I've been your strength
Through the fall
The demons
We fought them all
I've been there
Every time you called
Now take a chance
Let's make this change
It a decision we both have to make
Don't let me fade
Don't let me down
Because I always want you around
I need you here
You need me to
Don't let these thoughts
Escape from you
Cuz I can see
that you love me
And you know
that I will always be
The one for you

I love you
I love you
I love you
I wanna take you away
Let's get out of this place
Take my hand, pack your things
And will run away
Will go somewhere
Where we can be together forever

©2017 Written By Benji James

After dark, we come out to play
into the park for some fun and games
beneath the shining night sky
we'll lay on the grass
talking to friends about our lives
the memories that we all shared
and about the times we really cared

After hours is when the party begins
will start by drinking
underneath these lit up buildings
until we start dancing in the moonlight
come over here and we'll slow dance
in this modern romance
to the songs that play on the car radio
and when our eyes meet, I'm gonna kiss you

Come one, come all, to this lovers affair
where we'll all be kissing in the night atmosphere
I'll hold your hand until the night ends
Lover this is our chance
We are all alone now
We can start making out
Into the dark of the night
I'll rip off your dress
and we can make love
start out slow, until it gets rough
The body heat will keep us warm
do you feel my heart beating next to yours
underneath the starry sky will make love
I'll be with you until the sun comes up

After hours is when the party begins
will start by drinking
underneath these lit up buildings
until we start dancing in the moonlight
come over here and we'll slow dance
in this modern romance
to the songs that play on the car radio
and when our eyes meet, I'm gonna kiss you

There was a girl standing by the fountain
Thought to myself I'd want to kiss this girl
When I walked over she smiled and slurred
come back to my apartment, it's after hours
We could do so much like kiss and hug
she starts rubbin'
I stroke her hair
rest my hands on the back of her neck
kiss her until we fall onto the bed
She's taking off my shirt  and jeans
I'm slowly undoing her dress
you can already guess the rest
We'll get together and have ***

After hours is when the party begins
will start by drinking
underneath these lit up buildings
until we start dancing in the moonlight
come over here and we'll slow dance
in this modern romance
to the songs that play on the car radio
and when our eyes meet, I'm gonna kiss you

©2017 Written By Benji James

He lays awake all night
She's just a silhouette in his mind
He pictures everything she does
While he's lying in the dark alone
Separated, two different people
But I still think of you
Every single night
Take all the pills
Swallow them down
Close your eyes
In nightmares, he will drown
Be careful what you wish for
Cuz what goes around
Always comes back around
And he thought a different town
Would stop him from thinking about you
Now I just can't hold my ground
Baby your taking me down, down, down
My heart still pounds, it pounds
Love is lost, you can't be found
Drinking just doesn't fix
The emptiness
In the pit of my stomach
I'm numb I feel nothing
There's only one healing tonic
Your love is all I want
Just give me what you got
Because your everything I'm not
Your love is all I want

©2017 Written By Benji James

I've been looking for a girl
Just like you
All of my life
All of my life
(Can I)
Can I write your name
On my heart tonight
I've been looking for a girl
Just like you
All of my life
(All of my life)

Another sweet goodnight
Another sweet gesture
Always so kind
Always running through my mind
Sweet talks, Longs walks
Your hand in mine
Don't want to let go for a long time
Can we, can we
just breathe
Let me take a moment
Cuz I see, I see
Just how beautiful you are
And I know, I know
This love could take us so far
This love could take us so far

I've been looking for a girl
Just like you
All of my life
All of my life
(Can I)
Can I write your name
On my heart tonight
I've been looking for a girl
Just like you
All of my life
(All of my life)

Can't help but look in your eyes
I feel a great feeling growing
And this deep conversation
Just keeps on flowing
So comfortable with you
With you, nothing I wouldn't do
All I need, is you and I
All I want, is you at my side
All I've got, is love for you
Crushing so long, on you
I couldn't tell ya
You leave me speechless
Too shy, to even comment
On all your perfect features
So I, guess that's why
I wrote it in a letter
Ever since then
This just keeps getting better

I've been looking for a girl
Just like you
All of my life
All of my life
(Can I)
Can I write your name
On my heart tonight
I've been looking for a girl
Just like you
All of my life
(All of my life)

I've been looking for a line
That could describe
Exactly how I feel
This still feels surreal
And I'm trying so hard
Not to make mistakes
That'll push you away
So far, so good
Taking it slow
Making the most
Of every moment
Photographic memories
And I love how you keep telling me
Corny little lines,
Every single time
Igniting butterflies
Your voice, your laugh
Only makes me adore you more
I need this in my life
All of the time
Nobody makes me smile
The way you do
Nobody else compares with you

I've been looking for a girl
Just like you
All of my life
All of my life
(Can I)
Can I write your name
On my heart tonight
I've been looking for a girl
Just like you
All of my life
(All of my life)

I think I'm in love
Just can't get enough
I think I'm in love
Looking for a sign
In the stars above
I'm in love
Can't get enough
In love
With you, it's you
I can't get enough
Of your love

I've been looking for a girl
Just like you
All of my life
All of my life
(Can I)
Can I write your name
On my heart tonight
I've been looking for a girl
Just like you
All of my life
(All of my life)

©2019 Written By Benji James

What’s this feeling, you’re stealing
I know why you’re heavy breathing
It’s from all this ****** teasing
I know why I’ve got you screaming
It’s from the ****** I’m giving
Let your body rock with me
Talk to me baby
With your hips and the way they work
Take my breath away
With the way you ****
And I can’t help but feel flushed
The way you’re making my heart rush
Don’t stop now, can’t get enough

Take it to the floor oh oh
Too hot to control oh no
Working me out
In all the right ways
All these vibes
Make me feel like
I wanna go all night
Take it to the bed oh yes
Between these sheets
We can drown
In a passionate sea
Love flowing through
You and me chemically

Girls in stilettos oh, oh
Dress around her waist
Every inch of skin a new taste
Not a moment goes to waste
Pleasuring you, that’s my place
Lips on lips, face to face
Don’t want to escape
Your eyes gaze
Take me to outta space
With your loving
I’m something you crave to take
And you’re the drug I need
To fix this addiction
Yeah get the stress out of my system
Like that cheeky smile, you’re giving

Take it to the floor oh oh
Too hot to control oh no
Working me out
In all the right ways
All these vibes
Make me feel like
I wanna go all night
Take it to the bed oh yes
Between these sheets
We can drown
In a passionate sea
Love flowing through
You and me chemically

It’s getting steamy
Sugar rush is high
Take it to the table
Take it to the couch
I’ll take you anywhere
You want to do it, babe
I need all of you
Yeah you hear what I’m saying
No games here, not playing
All of you is all I want
So baby give me
All that you’ve got
Too much is never enough
Keep it coming, girl
You’re fire, I like the scent
There is no regret
I like the way our time gets spent
Yeah you get me off
In all the ways you know how
And that’s why I’m climaxing now

Take it to the floor oh oh
Too hot to control oh no
Working me out
In all the right ways
All these vibes
Make me feel like
I wanna go all night
Take it to the bed oh yes
Between these sheets
We can drown
In a passionate sea
Love flowing through
You and me chemically

©2018 Written By Benji James

I ain't no superhero
looking for a fight to win
But I'll try to ease your suffering
I ain't no superhero
flying around town
looking for problems
to take on
But I'll try to ease your suffering

It's all the little things
that makes you complete
It's all the little things
that make ends meet
It's all the little things
(Yeah, Yeah)

Can I take your pain away?
Can I take your pain away?
Hold on hope, hold on hope
why my heart bleeds for you.
All that I can do
is take this pain from you.
Oh give me the time
give me some light
to show you everything
is going to be alright

It's all the little things
that makes you complete
It's all the little things
that make ends meet
It's all the little things
(Yeah, Yeah)

Let the glitter cease the skies
while we watch the sunrise
so put your hand in mine
move closer to me,
while we make a sweet memory.
Sweetheart I'll never let you fall apart,
Sweetheart I'll never let you fall apart.
And we will live this life
Until we reach the end of time.
Will let the glitter cease the skies
while we watch the sunrise

It's all the little things
that makes you complete
It's all the little things
that make ends meet
It's all the little things
(Yeah, Yeah)

No regrets, so reach out your hands
we have no regrets
so reach out your hands
Oh come on, come and grab on
We will pick ourselves back up
every time we fall down
I ain't no superhero flying around town
So baby come on, reach out your arms
And I'll take you by the hand
as we try to make all the little things
make ends meet
I'll try and ease your suffering

It's all the little things
that makes you complete
It's all the little things
that make ends meet
It's all the little things
(Yeah, Yeah)

©2017 Written By Benji James

Went through so much together
Until you hurt me so much
Had to leave you
Before there was nothing left of us
Day by day, things got worse
Friendzoned from mistakes I made
Not saying I didn't deserve it, still hurts
Can't say, you aren't always on my mind
Everything that could have been
Now a distant memory
Didn't want me in all the ways I wanted you
After everything I said
After all the assumptions that ****** with my head
Even after all of that, Even after hitting rock bottom
Still, want you, Still, need you
I was better when I was with you

Even after all the ways
you broke my heart
I'm still in love with you
You're everything I see
You're everything I dreamed
Even after all the ways
You shattered my soul
I'm still in love with you
And I hope you understand
I still want to be your man
I still want you to be my world
I still want you to be my girl

And maybe this all falls on deaf ears
And maybe you'll never read this
Put it in a letter, just so you know
All that you mean to me
Maybe one day, you will see
I was sincere in these words I wrote
Maybe one day, you will see
You should have been with me
There's nothing I wouldn't do for you
There's no distance that could stop me
From making it to you
Even if you're sent to heaven
I'll follow you there
Hell couldn't hold me back
If I was what you wanted
I'd be there
With you is where I want to be

Even after all the ways
you broke my heart
I'm still in love with you
You're everything I see
You're everything I dreamed
Even after all the ways
You shattered my soul
I'm still in love with you
And I hope you understand
I still want to be your man
I still want you to be my world
I still want you to be my girl

And I'll never live down
The hurt that I caused
And I was stupid
For letting go
Of the one girl, I truly loved
And they said to have faith in
“Gods plans”
But, I questioned his plans
With the way we ended
All I'm left with now is what “ifs”
and a longing for your touch and kiss
And I hunger for your graceful gaze
And the way you light up my face
I miss us and the way we talked
I miss everything we were
But most of all I miss you

Even after all the ways
you broke my heart
I'm still in love with you
You're everything I see
You're everything I dreamed
Even after all the ways
You shattered my soul
I'm still in love with you
And I hope you understand
I still want to be your man
I still want you to be my world
I still want you to be my girl

©2018 Written By Benji James

So many of you on here are such talented writers,
I love reading what you guys and girls publish, some you can emotionally connect with, others just wow you with such phrases and imaginative writing styles...There is so much talent on here it is truly a wonderful community to be apart of, I don't think I have ever felt anymore accepted by any community the way I have been by this one, And all of you inspire me whether it be in your writing, comments and or just general conversations we may have, keep doing what you do best and keep those thoughts flowing and keep capturing all of our imaginations, and to those of you I haven't followed or read yet.
I'm looking very much forward to hopefully reading your stuff in the near future.

Love and Peace Benji James

Hello, Hellopoetry...
It's been a while
Since I posted last
Don't worry
I haven't been sitting on my '***'
I've just been busy pouring 'Love'
and 'Light' back into my 'Life'
I've been doing things I dream about
Beneath these stars,
Hope glistens in the distance.
I may not have had much time
To write new lines
This is just to check in
So you know I'm alright.
I really miss you guys!
Your comments and love
Refuelled my fire
It made me determined
to aim 'Higher'
I've been doing things
I never thought I'd do.
And Hellopoetry it's all because of you...
This community binds
together through the darkest times
I urge you, Don't ever give up
on whatever it is you love.
For if you give up, you'll find
In the back of your mind
A regret that never fades.
With a little nudge and push
I found some new motivation
To retry and build a new creation.

Crushed to the core
sinking like an Anker
To the floor
Pull me from the depths
Drowning in the wreckage
Of a wounded heart
feel the blood from a punctured lung
Tears, Screams all around
Drifting in the water below
Breathing in water through your nose
But when you rise
You rose to fill every expectation
Everybody has an expiration date
this time I’m not gonna fight
to find a way out
Cuz I’m tired of being a fighter
Yeah hold up a lighter
in loving memory
of everything we shared
They gave me more than I could bare
and now there is no flare
to light the skies
God gave me hope, gave me strength to carry on
But you can only keep going on for so long
It was in the way she talked
And in the way she walked
That the poisonous fumes
From the scent of her perfume
Stunned and trapped me in your love
Got tricked into a trap
I’ll never escape from
Take a flying leap of faith
Into the ocean and rocks below
See if I can overcome the pain
The pain of the day she walked away
Swallow all my pride
learned everything from a beating heart
that shined so brightly in the dark
Nobody likes to be alone and apart
Yeah lock my love in your mind
Know that what was mine
you've inherited all of the stars tonight
because without you they just won’t shine
That means I’ll be walking blind
so light up everything we have inside
I’ll be your angel wings in flight
I’ll take you flying through the skies
yeah baby blue eyes
I called her baby blue eyes.

©2019 Written By Benji James

I know inside your heart is breaking
your whole body feels like it’s aching
Inside your soul, it’s shaking
Your breath of air feels like it’s fading
you didn't expect this situation
but in the dark, there is always light
You’ll find happiness on the other side

Hey there angel eyes
everything is gonna be alright
Take my hand hold it tight
I will see you through the hardest times
Hey there angel eyes
Everything is gonna be just fine

Trying to fight another scar
Just don’t give up
You won’t lose out in love
I promise you there is someone
It feels like there’s no end
To this corner bend
you’ll find somebody at the end
Waiting for you to come to them

Hey there angel eyes
everything is gonna be alright
Take my hand hold it tight
I will see you through the hardest times
Hey there angel eyes
Everything is gonna be just fine

It feels like your trying to fly
With broken wings
There is a way to mend everything
Don’t let go, never give up
Put some armour around your heart
you’ll find a way to make the pain fade
Keep on walking don’t be afraid
Love always finds a way

Hey there angel eyes
everything is gonna be alright
Take my hand hold it tight
I will see you through the hardest times
Hey there angel eyes
Everything is gonna be just fine.

©2017 Written By Benji James

It's been a while since I've felt your taste
I wanna drown in your beauty and grace
Your trust in me is never misplaced
I'm here in the dark of the night
I'm here for all the hardest times
Me and you together it's the perfect crime
Just give me a little bit more of your time

In the hands of Angels
The melody flows
In the hands of Angels
The light grows (It grows)
Your love shows (It shows)
In the hands of angels

Comets fly through the skies
In a passion of fire
It burns a flame of desire
Just like the moon
Your eyes glow brighter
(And brighter)
When I see the sparkle in your eyes
It takes me higher (And higher)

In the hands of Angels
The melody flows
In the hands of Angels
The lights grows (It grows)
Your love shows (It shows)
In the hands of angels

I feel you at the end of my finger tips
I feel the press of your lips
I feel the attraction in your kiss
The flutter in your heart
When it beats
Oh girl you're seducing me
The power you have is enchanting baby
There is magic in the air
There is magnetic connection between us pair
Oh girl I cant help but stop and stare

In the hands of Angels
The melody flows
In the hands of Angels
The lights grows (It grows)
Your love shows (It shows)
In the hands of angels

Your magnetic attraction
Gives me that animal reaction
Your such a distraction
I want that infectious affection
All of her love and attention.

©2017 Written By Benji James

Driving down the freeway
Looking at the stars
Wondering how far you are
I've been spending all of my time
Looking for a girl
Who'll fill in my life
And my heart it only beats for one
I'm still looking
still, can't find the one

I've been searching far and wide
Don't know where it is she hides
Not sure why this flame keeps dying
I set my heart alight
Why does the fire keep fading

I don't want to spend
Another night alone
I can't hold myself together
On my own
I need a girl
Who can hold me tight
I need a girl
Who can light up my skies
No, I don't want to spend
Another night alone
Won't hold myself together
On my own

Cruising through the street
Looking for a sign
Looking for a sign
Of a girl who will just be mine
And I keep walking up mountains
Looking at the views
Hoping soon that I'll find you
And I've been going to all of these places
Hoping soon a girl will fill these spaces

I've been searching far and wide
Don't know where it is she hides
Not sure why this flame keeps dying
I set my heart alight
Why does the fire keep fading

I don't want to spend
Another night alone
I can't hold myself together
On my own
I need a girl
Who can hold me tight
I need a girl
Who can light up my skies
No, I don't want to spend
Another night alone
Won't hold myself together
On my own

Laying in my bed
It's pitch black
Have we ever even met
I'm thinking of places
Where I might find you
Maybe I should just stop searching
Maybe this is fruitless
Maybe everybody thinks I'm just stupid
All I know is I can't find Cupid
And my heart is slowing to a calm pace
That's when I drift off to sleep

I've been searching far and wide
Don't know where it is she hides
Not sure why this flame keeps dying
I set my heart alight
Why does the fire keep fading

I don't want to spend
Another night alone
I can't hold myself together
On my own
I need a girl
Who can hold me tight
I need a girl
Who can light up my skies
No, I don't want to spend
Another night alone
Won't hold myself together
On my own

Tell me am I dreaming
I can hear a voice
Off in the distance
Sounds so sweet
That's when I turn around
And I see you
I think I'm melting
You said I can love you
My heart starts racing
She goes in for the kiss
That's when I wake up
And now my head won't stop thinking
Who was the girl in my dream?
Who was that girl I've just seen?

I've been searching far and wide
Don't know where it is she hides
Not sure why this flame keeps dying
I set my heart alight
Why does the fire keep fading

I don't want to spend
Another night alone
I can't hold myself together
On my own
I need a girl
Who can hold me tight
I need a girl
Who can light up my skies
No, I don't want to spend
Another night alone
Won't hold myself together
On my own

©2017 Written By Benji James

I'm going to write this one in blood
Just so you know it's straight from my heart
Where should I begin, where do I start?
Let me fill a new page with art
This was written in the dark
By the candlelight spark
****** ink spilt across the page
With all these things
That I just have to say
It all comes bursting out my chest
Just so you know I mean what it is that's said
So that this can all heal and mend

I'm sorry for the way
I let you down
In your emotions
I let you drown
I'm sorry for not speaking out
When you clearly needed sound
Someone to just say it's all gonna be okay
I just looked the other way
Only cared about me
And now that thought plagues my conscience
I'm sorry that I am stuck in selfish ways
Only thinking of my own feelings
And not much of yours
I'm sorry that I couldn't save you in ways that you had pictured
You thought that I'd be different
I let you walk that lonely road
Ignorant to your hurt
Our lives drifted in different directions
Now you're somewhere out there
beyond my detection
Just hope these sorries find their way to you

I'm going to write this one in blood
Just so you know it's straight from my heart
Where should I begin, where do I start?
Let me fill a new page with art
This was written in the dark
By the candlelight spark
****** ink spilt across the page
With all these things
That I just have to say
It all comes bursting out my chest
Just so you know I mean what it is that's said
So that this can all heal and mend

I'm an ocean of emotions
When we hit rough seas
That's when you don't see
The best parts of me
I'm sorry in my anger
I can get violent
Sometimes I just can't stay silent
I lose control when this rage stays caged
And that is one of my greatest flaws
Hurt people that mean so much to me
Out of anger and stupidity
I'm sorry for the bruises and marks
I'm sorry for all the hurting parts
I'm sorry for the damaged soul
I'm sorry I lost control of my thoughts
Let rage overpower,
still, decisions made in moments of regret
These are moments that weren't my best
Maybe that's why they say rage is blind
Cuz we don't see in those moments
What we become, It's only after it is done

I'm going to write this one in blood
Just so you know it's straight from my heart
Where should I begin, where do I start?
Let me fill a new page with art
This was written in the dark
By the candlelight spark
****** ink spilt across the page
With all these things
That I just have to say
It all comes bursting out my chest
Just so you know I mean what it is that's said
So that this can all heal and mend

I'm sorry for all the missed signs
and all of the misinterpreted lines
I'm sorry to those that I've offended
I'm sorry to those I couldn't connect with
I'm sorry that sometimes I struggle to find the line
I cross that thing a lot of the time
I'm sorry for the worries
I'm sorry for the tears
I'm sorry for filling you with fears
I'm sorry for the times I just couldn't bring myself to write
I'm sorry for all the failed lines
And mediocre rhymes
I'm sorry this took me a long time

I'm going to write this one in blood
Just so you know it's straight from my heart
Where should I begin, where do I start?
Let me fill a new page with art
This was written in the dark
By the candlelight spark
****** ink spilt across the page
With all these things
That I just have to say
It all comes bursting out my chest
Just so you know I mean what it is that's said
So that this can all heal and mend

Dear me, are you listening...
Most of all I'm sorry to you
And for all the things I've put myself through
I'm sorry for tearing myself apart for art
I'm sorry for holding out air from my lungs
I'm sorry for all the times that I've looked in the mirror
Only to call me ugly, a monster, a freak
Frequent hate to which most can relate
I'm sorry for all the self-loathing
I'm sorry for the sleepless nights
And the endless fights inside my own mind
I'm sorry for saying, I'll never be enough
I'm sorry for not being able to let myself love

I'm going to write this one in blood
Just so you know it's straight from my heart
Where should I begin, where do I start?
Let me fill a new page with art
This was written in the dark
By the candlelight spark
****** ink spilt across the page
With all these things
That I just have to say
It all comes bursting out my chest
Just so you know I mean what it is that's said
So that this can all heal and mend

I'm sorry to the girls
Who wanted my love
I couldn't return the love they gave
Cuz I didn't feel the same way
I'm sorry to the friends that I cut off
I only did what I thought was best
I'm sorry that this life of mine is still a mess
I'm sorry to the girls that I hurt with words
Out of jealousy or rejection
I'm sorry for the lyrics that I wrote about you
May have been something said that hurt
I'm sorry I take so long to learn

I'm going to write this one in blood
Just so you know it's straight from my heart
Where should I begin, where do I start?
Let me fill a new page with art
This was written in the dark
By the candlelight spark
****** ink spilt across the page
With all these things
That I just have to say
It all comes bursting out my chest
Just so you know I mean what it is that's said
So that this can all heal and mend

I'm sorry that in my weakness I want to die
I'm sorry that I struggle with this life
I'm sorry for all the crazy things that cross my mind
I'm sorry for all the broken promises
I'm sorry I haven't achieved any of my dreams
I'm sorry that I'm inconsistent
I'm sorry that I claim I'm a victim
I'm sorry for the times I don't accept the blame
I'm sorry for the jokes I made that were lame
I'm sorry that this song is full of sorries
I'm sorry to all those people I've wronged
I'm sorry to myself for never feeling real love
I'm sorry for having no faith in a god above

I'm going to write this one in blood
Just so you know it's straight from my heart
Where should I begin, where do I start?
Let me fill a new page with art
This was written in the dark
By the candlelight spark
****** ink spilt across the page
With all these things
That I just have to say
It all comes bursting out my chest
Just so you know I mean what it is that's said
So that this can all heal and mend

©2018 Written By Benji James

2017 and I'm still writing
2017 and still no one likes me
Let me take you back to 2011
Back to when lyrics were
Jumping out of me
Like visual scenes
Back when I was an emotional mess
Where every song ends
With me dead
Remember
The razor blade cuts
All of  them scars
All that blood
I called Art

I've been looking around
And nothing has changed
I'm still the mess that was made
I still crave that attention
I still end my nights in depression

I'm still looking for something
That can save my life
Keep failing at everything that I try
Sometimes it's an effort to even smile
At least I can admit it
At least I know I'm like this

Doctors keep prescribing me pills
With this, I can't even deal
Drug addict
I just won't be
They get poured down the drain
My soul is damaged
Beyond repair
In a pitch black room
You'll find me there

I've been looking around
And nothing has changed
I'm still the mess that was made
I still crave that attention
I still end my nights in depression

I'm still looking for something
That can save my life
Keep failing at everything that I try
Sometimes it's an effort to even smile
At least I can admit it
At least I know I'm like this

Happy go lucky
That's supposed to be me?
Guess you just don't really know me
And all the things
that run through my mind
Every single night
I'm lost in life
And I can't seem to find
A map that shows me the right direction
They said life's all about perception
And my perspective
Is that I'm just dead and floating

I've been looking around
And nothing has changed
I'm still the mess that was made
I still crave that attention
I still end my nights in depression

I'm still looking for something
That can save my life
Keep failing at everything that I try
Sometimes it's an effort to even smile
At least I can admit it
At least I know I'm like this

©2017 Written By Benji James

Just a glimpse of you
Has awoken these emotions
Are now floating
In my subconscious mind
Bringing imagery before my eyes
I remember back to when
Once we walked these streets
Hand in hand
Talked about absolutely everything
I had so much love and admiration
For you
Never would have thought
Things would have ended
The way they did
Then again I was a naive kid

Once we were so close
Now everything  feels...Awkward
Whenever I see you...awkward
Whenever I hear you...awkward
How did it ever come to this
Thought you and I
Were destined to be together forever
Alas all I am left with now
Is awkward feelings and a silent mouth

It’s been years since we last talked
I cut you off after being rejected
More because of the silent treatment
I was receiving
I poured my heart and soul into you
You couldn’t even give me a yes or no
And maybe I’m still bitter
But can you really blame me
After all that time
I was there for you
Through every heartbreak
I was the one who wiped those tears away
You couldn’t even take the time to reply to me

Once we were so close
Now everything  feels...Awkward
Whenever I see you...awkward
Whenever I hear you...awkward
How did it ever come to this
Thought you and I
Were destined to be together forever
Alas all I am left with now
Is awkward feelings and a silent mouth

We’d been through a lot of up and downs
We always managed to come back around
But I stopped all of that
When you couldn’t take the time to
Write me back
I was done playing second best
Watching you date every other man
Still don’t regret that decision
I can’t help but think of you
Because when all is said and done
Still have love for you,
Even though you broke my heart
Just another song
now this is all you are

Once we were so close
Now everything  feels...Awkward
Whenever I see you...awkward
Whenever I hear you...awkward
How did it ever come to this
Thought you and I
Were destined to be together forever
Alas all I am left with now
Is awkward feelings and a silent mouth

©2018 Written By Benji James

She's like a disease
Just breathe it in
He is infected
With the girl
of his dream
s
Inject me with your love

I'm inspired by your lust

Baby, we can make a memory

In the backseat of my car

Still trying to figure you out
Not sure where your head
Is at right now
You take me by surprise every day
Maybe that how I fall in love with you
In all these different ways
I've been looking around
For just one girl
One who can brighten up my world
I've been looking high
I've been looking low
Where she is
I thought I'd never know

I can hear a voice
calling my name
Far in the distance
Can't show resistance
Need to go with this
All these emotions
Are shaking my soul
But if I don't go
I'll never know

Tell me, girl, can you see
I can love you beautifully
Tell me are we meant to be
(Can you feel it)
This chemistry
(Can you feel it)
Beating in your heart
(I can feel it)
Building up inside
(Ignite these butterflies)
Got you on my mind
Tell me can you see
I can love you beautifully

Show me all the things
You are hiding inside
If you're ready
I'm ready
for our two worlds to collide
Gotta know I'm always on your side
Through any hard times
Got your hand in mine
Gotta see I'm here
for the rest of our lives
Gotta see I'll hold you
Because this feels right

I can hear a voice
calling my name
Far in the distance
Can't show resistance
Need to go with this
All these emotions
Are shaking my soul
But if I don't go
I'll never know

Tell me, girl, can you see
I can love you beautifully
Tell me are we meant to be
(Can you feel it)
This chemistry
(Can you feel it)
Beating in your heart
(I can feel it)
Building up inside
(Ignite these butterflies)
Got you on my mind
Tell me can you see
I can love you beautifully

Girl hold on
We gotta stay strong
Keep you on your feet
That's the way it's gonna be
Because I need someone
who can stand by me
I've seen your strength
And your passion
And that's something I just got to have
And you got the kind of lips
I just want to lay there and kiss
From sunset to sunrise
Dawn till dusk
I could just do it that much
Think you're my fire in the dark
Won't let this burnout
We can make it I have no doubt

I can hear a voice
calling my name
Far in the distance
Can't show resistance
Need to go with this
All these emotions
Are shaking my soul
But if I don't go
I'll never know

Tell me, girl, can you see
I can love you beautifully
Tell me are we meant to be
(Can you feel it)
This chemistry
(Can you feel it)
Beating in your heart
(I can feel it)
Building up inside
(Ignite these butterflies)
Got you on my mind
Tell me can you see
I can love you beautifully

©2017 Written By Benji James

If she's my beauty
Then I'm her beast
This time this ones for keeps
While losers weep
She is always on my mind
I hardly sleep

But when I do
She is in my dreams

Uh, where did this girl come from?

I've never been this captivated

This has to be fate 

Cuz she's made me wait
But now that she's seen my patience

She wants to make complete relations

And I'm completely ready for this situation.

She feels like her world, is broken
She's always felt she's been, outspoken
She's trying to send the signs
To say she's not alright
No one can see her pain
(Behind mascara eyes)
No one knows the battle she fights inside
(Behind mascara eyes)
And no one looks beyond her smile
They would see she is crying on the inside
(Behind mascara eyes)
Can you feel the hurt deep down?
You're trying to keep strong.
You're trying to hold the faith
But with every hit
Another part of you breaks.

Yeah you feel like fading
Skies are turning grey
And the sun has been blocked out
by the cold hard rain
But after the darkness
There is a new dawn
There are bluer skies,
On the other side of this storm
Come on your gonna get through it
You know that you can do it
We are gonna get through it.

Situations arise,
and you feel like your life
is like a runaway train.
And you're never gonna catch up
with yourself again.
You've felt the doubt,
Like you're trapped in a hole,
And you can't get out.
You thought you were grown up,
but you haven't done that much.
And sometimes it feels like
you're not good enough,
so you feel like giving up.

Yeah you feel like fading
Skies are turning grey
And the sun has been blocked out
by the cold hard rain
But after the darkness
There is a new dawn
There are bluer skies,
On the other side of this storm
Come on your gonna get through it
You know that you can do it
We are gonna get through it.

You've been cut down to size,
way too many times.
You've thrown your heart out on the line,
only to get rejected or denied.
They say it's all a part of life.
You wish upon stars every night,
holding on to hope,
that it can only get better
You're looking for that smile
you haven't felt in a while
that one true happiness
you felt as a child.

Yeah you feel like fading
Skies are turning grey
And the sun has been blocked out
by the cold hard rain
But after the darkness
There is a new dawn
There are bluer skies,
On the other side of this storm
Come on your gonna get through it
You know that you can do it
We are gonna get through it.

©2017 Written By Benji James

She feels like her world is broken
She's always felt she's been outspoken
She's trying to send the signs
To say she's not alright
No one can see her pain
(Behind mascara eyes)
No one knows the battle she fights inside
(Behind mascara eyes)
And no one looks beyond her smile
They would see she is crying
On the inside
(Behind mascara eyes)
Can you feel the hurt deep down?
Your trying to keep strong
Your trying to hold the faith
But with every hit
Another part of you breaks

Yeah you feel like fading
Skies are turning grey
And the suns been blocked out
by the cold hard rain
But after the darkness
There is a new dawn
There are bluer skies
On the other side of this storm
Come on your gonna get through it
You know that you can do it
We are gonna get through it.

Situations a rise
And you feel like your life
Is like a runaway train
And your never gonna catch up
With yourself again
You've felt the doubt
Like your trapped in a hole
And you can't get out
You thought you were grown up
But you haven't done that much
And sometimes it feels like your not good enough
So you feel like giving up

Yeah you feel like fading
Skies are turning grey
And the suns been blocked out
by the cold hard rain
But after the darkness
There is a new dawn
There are bluer skies
On the other side of this storm
Come on your gonna get through it
You know that you can do it
We are gonna get through it.

You've been cut down to size
Way to many times
You've thrown your heart out on the line
Only to get rejected or denied
They say it's all apart of life
You wish upon stars every night
Holding on hope that it can
only get better
Your looking for that smile
You haven't felt in a while
That one true happiness
That you felt as a child

Yeah you feel like fading
Skies are turning grey
And the suns been blocked out
by the cold hard rain
But after the darkness
There is a new dawn
There are bluer skies
On the other side of this storm
Come on your gonna get through it
You know that you can do it
We are gonna get through it.

©2018 Written By Benji James

Remember when life was perfect?
Nah life has never been perfect
Yeah but at least I'm making it worth it
So stop taking everything so seriously
I find it hard to believe
That everything should be done so irrationally
I've been unintentionally
Influencing the wrong kind of idea's
But maybe lately I've been thinking about changing
My philosophy and possibly
I think that this could be it
The reason for life is to live
Not to stand or just sit
Don't worry about the future
Your in the here and now
Do something every moment
That will make yourself proud
Lets start living life out loud
Come on just shout it out
Standing tall, Standing proud
Never backing down
Never drowning in the crowd
Standing out
Each individually crowned
The Kings and Queens
Of our own scenes
That’s just the way our story reads
It’s what I choose to believe.

This could be the night I overdose
In my mind, I've never been this close
Setting fire to everything I own
Tearing up the clothes
I've never felt so much desire
To drown in the flames of the fire
angels can't take me higher
There are no heroes left for hire
Don't tell me you love me your a liar
Here the battles of the choir
As I lay down my rights
Take these wings
Because I fear the fall
In the middle of flight
I'd rather stay planted on the ground
Blend into the blackness of the night
I'd rather fade into the midst of time
Return to dust beneath the raging sun
Cuz I know I can never be someone

©2017 Written By Benji James

Just when they think
I have nothing left to say
I come out with lyrics
The very next day
You'll never hold me down

I'll just keep dropping these ******* down

You'd better hold on

Because I'm just getting started 

By the time I finish
you'll be 
Dearly departed, deeply missed

Nah I'm just kidding,

You may think that you're the best,
But I've had better baby

Guess what...?
You're never going to break me
You aren't my savior
You aren't my queen
Better read between the lines
You mean nothing to me
And I'm not joking
I won't let you see me fall
I'll just get back up
Make you look like a fool
Oh girl don't keep coming around
Trying to say I'm still your man
Shouldn't have played all these games with me
All these games of hide and seek
Who'd you think you were playing with
Kept my guard up
So you wouldn't break my heart
Oh girl don't keep coming round
There's no love left to be found
Eh, eh
You can't take my breath away
You can't bring me down oh no
Your just gonna hurt yourself in the end
You may think the story just began
But you won't find your happy ending here
Think I've made that crystal clear
So stop following me
Like a lost puppy
I ain't falling for those innocent eyes
You've got no innocence left inside
So take it from me.
You ain't seen the best in me

Do you remember the time
You committed that crime
You took what was mine
Thought you were a sign
To become the good in my life
Instead, you torment my mind
How did I become so blind
To everything you hide
Deep behind those dark eyes
You were never going to be mine
Together I thought we would shine
But instead, I got bind
To the hate that you gave
And now I'm a slave
You anticipate every move that I make
Now it's the choices I made
That is controlling my fate
It's the love that you take
But all that you gave was fake
And I hate everything you do and say
Because with my heart you play
And that is not fair to me
Cuz I gave all I could
If I could trust you I would
But I don't know if I should
All I saw in you was so good
But you mistreated my trust
You caused such a rush
I've spilt so much blood
Thinking it could gain your love
Instead, it got tough
And the road became rough
Wasn't strong enough
To overcome your touch
I wanted so much
But you threw it all back in my face
My faith in you was misplaced
Should have tried to escape
Your lovesick game
You've drowned me in my shame
But I'm the only one to blame
Because I should never have played
Into your hands
But all this has given me a plan
To take all that I am
To become a better man.

©2017 Written By Benji James

Promised myself
I wouldn't let you
Become just words on a page
Guess that this means
You went and broke my heart
Better Jot down all you've done
Let you know what I've become
You went away for like five days
Then you never replied to me again?
So this is what the games become
Ignoring me, is that how you treat everyone?

Better sell this
To Tay Swift
Make sure that it
Becomes number one hit
Won't slit
(Won't slit)
My wrists
(My wrists)
Over a selfish *****
Really thought that you
were better than this
Yeah better than this

Excuse me miss
Why couldn't you give
Me just a small hint
Of what it was you wanted
Why'd I have to guess
Make me go jumping
through all these hoops
Just for you
I changed my whole life for you
Now can't even get a word out of you
Who the **** was I kidding?
What the hell was I thinking?
Thinking somebody like you
Could ever like somebody like me
But what hurts the most
is that you made me believe
You trusted me,
My heart has been crushed
And it hurts so much
Never wanted my love

Better sell this
To Tay Swift
Make sure that it
Becomes number one hit
Won't slit
(Won't slit)
My wrists
(My wrists)
Over a selfish *****
Really thought that you
were better than this
Yeah better than this

Message after message
Call after call
Check my phone
Still no reply,
Lay awake, all night
Wondering where and how you are
Making all these wishes on stars
Got me praying that you're okay
Then I find out,
you never planned
To talk to me again
Didn't trust me enough
To tell me your real name
Guess everything you felt
Guess everything you said
Was all fake, was it all fake
Can't tell what is make believe
And what is real
And in my confusion
Can't find a conclusion
No, there's just no solution

Better sell this
To Tay Swift
Make sure that it
Becomes number one hit
Won't slit
(Won't slit)
My wrists
(My wrists)
Over a selfish *****
Really thought that you
were better than this
Yeah better than this

©2017 Written By Benji James

VERSE ONE
Can’t seem to forget,
everywhere that I went wrong
Trying to keep all these emotions pushed down.
It seems I’m reminiscing of you now
Try to stay strong every day
Try not to let these thoughts
get the better of me
These days, All I can do
is look at you from a distance
and I feel the hurt in you
Every time you look my way
There is so much I want to say
Just wish I could find the courage to speak
All of these words, held here in my mind

PRE CHORUS
Hands are shaking
All these doubtful thoughts
build up within me
Can’t even look you in the eyes
without pain growing more inside
Every mistake that I made
Is something I wish I could change
Night after night, day after day,
I wish things hadn’t of ended this way

CHORUS
You’re my biggest regret
There’s a whole lot of things
I wish I never did,
There’s a whole lot of words
I wish I never said
You’re my biggest regret
All of this I’ll never forget
Tried to forgive me
for all that I did
but it’s just something
I’ll never be able to live with
You’re my biggest regret
I’ll never forget, No I’ll never forget

VERSE TWO
I’ve always had a gift
for making a mess
And after I was done
that’s all that was left.
I’m trying to make amends
Always try to be
The best person I can be
Always try to see
the brighter side of life
Can’t seem to find
A way out this time
Consumed by late night thoughts of you
Reminding myself, Everywhere I went wrong
What could have been
Guess we’ll never know
Now we’ll never see
Just what we could have been

PRE CHORUS
Hands are shaking
All these doubtful thoughts
build up within me
Can’t even look you in the eyes
without pain growing more inside
Every mistake that I made
Is something I wish I could change
Night after night, day after day,
I wish things hadn’t of ended this way

CHORUS
You’re my biggest regret
There’s a whole lot of things
I wish I never did,
There’s a whole lot of words
I wish I never said
You’re my biggest regret
All of this I’ll never forget
Tried to forgive me
for all that I did
but it’s just something
I’ll never be able to live with
You’re my biggest regret
I’ll never forget, No I’ll never forget

VERSE THREE
One day, I hope you’ll see
just what you meant to me
maybe next time around
I might just get it right
Still looking for answers in the stars above
still trying to understand this love
Still stuck on you girl
Always running through my mind
Maybe I can find that inner peace
Deep inside of me
Maybe one day, I’ll heal all this hurt
Until then I'm trapped within conscience lines
Reminding myself of all the times
I failed you, yeah let you down
never let that rest,
Of all the mistakes I’ve made
Yours were the best
I’ll never let that rest

PRE CHORUS
Hands are shaking
All these doubtful thoughts
build up within me
Can’t even look you in the eyes
without pain growing more inside
Every mistake that I made
Is something I wish I could change
Night after night, day after day,
I wish things hadn’t of ended this way

You’re my biggest regret
There’s a whole lot of things
I wish I never did,
There’s a whole lot of words
I wish I never said
You’re my biggest regret
All of this I’ll never forget
Tried to forgive me
for all that I did
but it’s just something
I’ll never be able to live with
You’re my biggest regret
I’ll never forget, No I’ll never forget

©2017 Written By Benji James

I've lost all sense of concentration
I'll never reach my destination
How can so much devastation
Be caused by such a beautiful creation
So here it is, here is the situation

I'm the one everyone's supposed to rely on

I'm supposed to be bullet proof

But there are so many wounds

From all these penetrated blades

And I'm losing myself 

They call me mental case

I'm supposed to be the one who's brave

But I need someone here, I need you to stay

Because I've started to lose my way

I don't wanna fall, I wanna be okay

But these antibiotics just won't kick in

So won't you take my hand?

I've never wanted to be the trend

Right now I just need a friend

That can really understand 

All that I am

And give me all that they can

Before I crash from going too fast round the bend 

Reckless is an understatement 

Compared to where I'm at now

And the only one who can save me is too far away 

Maybe she's the reason 

My mind is playing these games

And all this thinking is hurting my brain

Ever since we met

Ever since she left

I've never been the same 

Isn't it a shame

I'm never gonna be the same

Isn't it a shame

That you are the one to blame.

©2017 Written By Benji James

My nights consist of falling apart
On a daily basis
That’s according to my thesis
On my own self evaluations
Keep getting caught in bad situations
This is an invitation
To not feel okay
Sometimes you just need to cry
Let it all out
In a form of sentences
Trying to express your emotion
What’s holding you down promoted
To this cause I am devoted
Left vulnerable and open

Bleeding and broken

©2018 Written By Benji James

VERSE ONE
She's bleeding from her lip
From every time he hit
Can't believe that she
Just turned up on my doorstep
Looking like this
And all that I can think
Is how much I want to **** him
Better help her in
Come on let's get you cleaned up
Tell me what happened
Tell me everything he did
Firstly let me clean the bloodstains
from beneath your lips
Wipe the smudged mascara
from beneath your eyes
Seeing you hurt like this
Hurts me deep inside
Gotta be strong for you
Make sure you're comforted
Reassure you everything is gonna be alright
Meanwhile, body temperatures raising
As anger boils deep within
All these thoughts come flooding in

PRE CHORUS
I'm not sure I can keep
All of this rage caged
Killer instincts kicking in
And all I want is revenge on him
For treating you like this
Gotta stay calm,
Keep this girls mind at ease
Help her rest and heal
And as I wipe the blood from your lips
ever so gently
As I wipe the tears from your eyes
You look deep into mine
with every ounce of strength,
she had left she said
please don't go after him
even after all he did

CHORUS
And as she takes my hand she says
You're different
All I need is for you to be there
I just need someone who really cares
Someone to wipe away these tears
You're the one guy who tames my fears
I don't need any more protection
then you already give
And I don't want you to end up like him
Even though the love I have for him
Runs deep, I see his faults
But I know his needs
And he is such a big part of my heart
His my addiction, my drug
Don't expect you to understand
I see the mess this is, I can't stop my love for him

VERSE TWO
All these words, I soak them in
All these thoughts
are running up and down my mind
How could she not let me step in
This hurting could stop right here
I'm giving her everything,
She just wants me to sit back
Watch from the sidelines
While she takes on this fight
Why won't she let me stand at her side?
And all of this confusion envelops in me
I'm losing focus, Push this to the back of my head
Need to take care of her here and now
Because she needs you here most
I carry her into the bed tuck her in
As I crash back on the couch
All of the things she said to me replay

PRE CHORUS
I'm not sure I can keep
All of this rage caged
Killer instincts kicking in
And all I want is revenge on him
For treating you like this
Gotta stay calm,
Keep this girls mind at ease
Help her rest and heal
And as I wipe the blood from your lips
ever so gently
As I wipe the tears from your eyes
You look deep into mine
with every ounce of strength,
she had left she said
please don't go after him
even after all he did

CHORUS
And as she takes my hand she says
You're different
All I need is for you to be there
I just need someone who really cares
Someone to wipe away these tears
You're the one guy who tames my fears
I don't need any more protection
then you already give
And I don't want you to end up like him
Even though the love I have for him
Runs deep, I see his faults
But I know his needs
And he is such a big part of my heart
His my addiction, my drug
Don't expect you to understand
I see the mess this is, I can't stop my love for him

VERSE THREE
As I wake the next morn
I go to the bedroom to check on her
I see an empty bed well made
on the bedside desk, a neat note laid
Saying thank you for everything you did
Repairing and mending me back to health
I couldn't have a better friend
Sorry I left before you awoke
Just had to get home
Just want you to know
I'm thankful and grateful for all that you are
You'll always be the brightest shining star
Guiding and watching me from afar
And as cheesy as it sounds
It brings a smile to my face
And for a slight moment concern leaves my conscience
But I hold out hope everything is gonna be okay
That's when images of last night run before my eyes

PRE CHORUS
I'm not sure I can keep
All of this rage caged
Killer instincts kicking in
And all I want is revenge on him
For treating you like this
Gotta stay calm,
Keep this girls mind at ease
Help her rest and heal
And as I wipe the blood from your lips
ever so gently
As I wipe the tears from your eyes
You look deep into mine
with every ounce of strength,
she had left she said
please don't go after him
even after all he did

CHORUS
And as she takes my hand she says
You're different
All I need is for you to be there
I just need someone who really cares
Someone to wipe away these tears
You're the one guy who tames my fears
I don't need any more protection
then you already give
And I don't want you to end up like him
Even though the love I have for him
Runs deep, I see his faults
But I know his needs
And he is such a big part of my heart
His my addiction, my drug
Don't expect you to understand
I see the mess this is, I can't stop my love for him

VERSE FOUR
Another night, another microwave meal
It's been a while since she last came over
Must be working out,
the counselling must be helping them now
And for once in my life I'm relieved
Knowing she's happy calms my mind
I watch the clock tick time passes by
through montaged scenes
This feels like a happy ending to this story
And photographs of you and I
Are packed in a box
I only open it up from time to time
Childhood memories captured in polaroid frames
I like reminiscing about all those good times
Everything was different then
Together just you and I
Hanging every day and every night
until you moved on with your life
that is just a perfect memory captured in my mind

PRE CHORUS
All of this rage is caged
Calm and content I've stayed
The revenge I wanted on him
Has been forgotten
Even after all he did
I'm calm, breathing and relaxed
My minds at ease
We're both rested and healed
The bloodstained cloths
that cleansed your lips are cleaned
ever so gently you're easing my emotions
As I wipe the tears from my eyes
I think of the way you always look into mine
with every ounce of strength,
You've made me a better man
She was right in what she said
even after all he did

CHORUS
Still feel the tender touch of your hand
And I remember every word she said
You're different
All I need is for you to be there
I just need someone who really cares
Someone to wipe away these tears
You're the one guy who tames my fears
I don't need any more protection
then you already give
And I don't want you to end up like him
Even though the love I have for him
Runs deep, I see his faults
But I know his needs
And he is such a big part of my heart
His my addiction, my drug
Don't expect you to understand
I see the mess this is, I can't stop my love for him
And all I can think is how lucky he is
To have a girl like you

VERSE FIVE
As I sit on my couch watching tv
It's been months since she last seen me
When I hear a soft knock at the door
I open it up to see you sitting on the pavement
outside of my front door
she is leaning against the brick wall
Head in her hands, crying
Tears constantly streaming down her cheeks
Bruised arms, black eyes
She looked at me and said
I'm bleeding from my lip
From when he hit
That sentence just tore me to bits
Gotta be strong, Take care of her first
Then I'll hunt him down and make him hurt
Shes covered in scratches, puffy eyes
He really lost control this time
And I'm about to lose mine
I pick her up and bring her in
Pull out the first aid kit,
A warm washer to clean her up
Every dab soft and tender to the touch
I won't hurt you like him ever
I'm the one who will make this all better

PRE CHORUS
I'm not sure I can keep
All of this rage caged
Killer instincts kicking in
And all I want is revenge on him
For treating you like this
Gotta stay calm,
Keep this girls mind at ease
Help her rest and heal
And as I wipe the blood from your lips
ever so gently
As I wipe the tears from your eyes
You look deep into mine
with every ounce of strength,
she had left she said
please don't go after him
even after all he did

CHORUS
And as she takes my hand she says
You're different
All I need is for you to be there
I just need someone who really cares
Someone to wipe away these tears
You're the one guy who tames my fears
I don't need any more protection
then you already give
And I don't want you to end up like him
Even though the love I have for him
Runs deep, I see his faults
But I know his needs
And he is such a big part of my heart
His my addiction, my drug
Don't expect you to understand
I see the mess this is, I can't stop my love for him

VERSE SIX
That time those words don't cut it
Now the hunters become the hunted
I tuck her into bed to sleep
stay with her until she falls into dreams
I watch her smile and breathe as she lays peacefully asleep
I go around to her house just when he walks out
I strike him hard and fast, I made him bleed so much blood
All the pain he put her through I made sure he felt that too
I couldn't keep that rage caged
had to let it out and get revenge
One day she will understand
I did what was best for her
I won't ever let her hurt
He got a few shots in
But nothing compared to what I did to him
Stitches in my hand and brow
I left him hospitalised
I'll never forget the look she gave
when she found out

PRE CHORUS
I tried to explain
I couldn't keep this rage caged
Killer instincts kicked in
And I got my revenge on him
For treating you like this
Didn't stay calm
Didn't keep her mind at ease
Help her rest and heal
I wiped the blood from her lips
I wiped the tears from your eyes
What he did to you killed me inside
with every ounce of strength,
And everything I am
I went after him
after all, he did

CHORUS
This time she didn't take my hand
And I knew I wasn't going to be a fan
of what she had to say
I regret putting my trust and faith in you
You aren't different
All I needed was for you to be there
I just needed someone who really cared
Someone to wipe away these tears
You were the one guy who tamed my fears
I didn't need any more protection
that you hadn't already given
I didn't want you to be like him
Violence never solved anything
I was ready to leave him for you
You went against everything I said
My love and admiration for you ran deep,
I see your faults
I know your needs
But now you have betrayed me
You were such a big part of my heart
You could have been my addiction, my drug
I was hoping you would listen and understand
Not go after him like you did
I can see the mess this is, my hearts been shattered
Beyond repair, I never want to see you again
Those lines run on repeat through my head.

©2018 Written By Benji James

VERSE ONE
She's bleeding from her lip
From every time he hit
Can't believe that she
Just turned up on my doorstep
Looking like this
And all that I can think
Is how much I want to **** him
Better help her in
Come on let's get you cleaned up
Tell me what happened
Tell me everything he did
Firstly let me clean the bloodstains
from beneath your lips
Wipe the smudged mascara
from beneath your eyes
Seeing you hurt like this
Hurts me deep inside
Gotta be strong for you
Make sure you're comforted
Reassure you everything is gonna be alright
Meanwhile, body temperatures raising
As anger boils deep within
All these thoughts come flooding in

PRE CHORUS
I'm not sure I can keep
All of this rage caged
Killer instincts kicking in
And all I want is revenge on him
For treating you like this
Gotta stay calm,
Keep this girls mind at ease
Help her rest and heal
And as I wipe the blood from your lips
ever so gently
As I wipe the tears from your eyes
You look deep into mine
with every ounce of strength,
she had left she said
please don't go after him
even after all he did

CHORUS
And as she takes my hand she says
You're different
All I need is for you to be there
I just need someone who really cares
Someone to wipe away these tears
You're the one guy who tames my fears
I don't need any more protection
then you already give
And I don't want you to end up like him
Even though the love I have for him
Runs deep, I see his faults
But I know his needs
And he is such a big part of my heart
His my addiction, my drug
Don't expect you to understand
I see the mess this is, I can't stop my love for him

VERSE TWO
All these words, I soak them in
All these thoughts
are running up and down my mind
How could she not let me step in
This hurting could stop right here
I'm giving her everything,
She just wants me to sit back
Watch from the sidelines
While she takes on this fight
Why won't she let me stand at her side?
And all of this confusion envelops in me
I'm losing focus, Push this to the back of my head
Need to take care of her here and now
Because she needs you here most
I carry her into the bed tuck her in
As I crash back on the couch
All of the things she said to me replay

PRE CHORUS
I'm not sure I can keep
All of this rage caged
Killer instincts kicking in
And all I want is revenge on him
For treating you like this
Gotta stay calm,
Keep this girls mind at ease
Help her rest and heal
And as I wipe the blood from your lips
ever so gently
As I wipe the tears from your eyes
You look deep into mine
with every ounce of strength,
she had left she said
please don't go after him
even after all he did

CHORUS
And as she takes my hand she says
You're different
All I need is for you to be there
I just need someone who really cares
Someone to wipe away these tears
You're the one guy who tames my fears
I don't need any more protection
then you already give
And I don't want you to end up like him
Even though the love I have for him
Runs deep, I see his faults
But I know his needs
And he is such a big part of my heart
His my addiction, my drug
Don't expect you to understand
I see the mess this is, I can't stop my love for him

VERSE THREE
As I wake the next morn
I go to the bedroom to check on her
I see an empty bed well made
on the bedside desk, a neat note laid
Saying thank you for everything you did
Repairing and mending me back to health
I couldn't have a better friend
Sorry I left before you awoke
Just had to get home
Just want you to know
I'm thankful and grateful for all that you are
You'll always be the brightest shining star
Guiding and watching me from afar
And as cheesy as it sounds
It brings a smile to my face
And for a slight moment concern leaves my conscience
But I hold out hope everything is gonna be okay
That's when images of last night run before my eyes

PRE CHORUS
I'm not sure I can keep
All of this rage caged
Killer instincts kicking in
And all I want is revenge on him
For treating you like this
Gotta stay calm,
Keep this girls mind at ease
Help her rest and heal
And as I wipe the blood from your lips
ever so gently
As I wipe the tears from your eyes
You look deep into mine
with every ounce of strength,
she had left she said
please don't go after him
even after all he did

CHORUS
And as she takes my hand she says
You're different
All I need is for you to be there
I just need someone who really cares
Someone to wipe away these tears
You're the one guy who tames my fears
I don't need any more protection
then you already give
And I don't want you to end up like him
Even though the love I have for him
Runs deep, I see his faults
But I know his needs
And he is such a big part of my heart
His my addiction, my drug
Don't expect you to understand
I see the mess this is, I can't stop my love for him

VERSE FOUR
Another night, another microwave meal
It's been a while since she last came over
Must be working out,
the counselling must be helping them now
And for once in my life I'm relieved
Knowing she's happy calms my mind
I watch the clock tick time passes by
through montaged scenes
This feels like a happy ending to this story
And photographs of you and I
Are packed in a box
I only open it up from time to time
Childhood memories captured in polaroid frames
I like reminiscing about all those good times
Everything was different then
Together just you and I
Hanging every day and every night
until you moved on with your life
that is just a perfect memory captured in my mind

PRE CHORUS
All of this rage is caged
Calm and content I've stayed
The revenge I wanted on him
Has been forgotten
Even after all he did
I'm calm, breathing and relaxed
My minds at ease
We're both rested and healed
The bloodstained cloths
that cleansed your lips are cleaned
ever so gently you're easing my emotions
As I wipe the tears from my eyes
I think of the way you always look into mine
with every ounce of strength,
You've made me a better man
She was right in what she said
even after all he did

CHORUS
Still feel the tender touch of your hand
And I remember every word she said
You're different
All I need is for you to be there
I just need someone who really cares
Someone to wipe away these tears
You're the one guy who tames my fears
I don't need any more protection
then you already give
And I don't want you to end up like him
Even though the love I have for him
Runs deep, I see his faults
But I know his needs
And he is such a big part of my heart
His my addiction, my drug
Don't expect you to understand
I see the mess this is, I can't stop my love for him
And all I can think is how lucky he is
To have a girl like you

VERSE FIVE
As I sit on my couch watching tv
It's been months since she last seen me
When I hear a soft knock at the door
I open it up to see you sitting on the pavement
outside of my front door
she is leaning against the brick wall
Head in her hands, crying
Tears constantly streaming down her cheeks
Bruised arms, black eyes
She looked at me and said
I'm bleeding from my lip
From when he hit
That sentence just tore me to bits
Gotta be strong, Take care of her first
Then I'll hunt him down and make him hurt
Shes covered in scratches, puffy eyes
He really lost control this time
And I'm about to lose mine
I pick her up and bring her in
Pull out the first aid kit,
A warm washer to clean her up
Every dab soft and tender to the touch
I won't hurt you like him ever
I'm the one who will make this all better

PRE CHORUS
I'm not sure I can keep
All of this rage caged
Killer instincts kicking in
And all I want is revenge on him
For treating you like this
Gotta stay calm,
Keep this girls mind at ease
Help her rest and heal
And as I wipe the blood from your lips
ever so gently
As I wipe the tears from your eyes
You look deep into mine
with every ounce of strength,
she had left she said
please don't go after him
even after all he did

CHORUS
And as she takes my hand she says
You're different
All I need is for you to be there
I just need someone who really cares
Someone to wipe away these tears
You're the one guy who tames my fears
I don't need any more protection
then you already give
And I don't want you to end up like him
Even though the love I have for him
Runs deep, I see his faults
But I know his needs
And he is such a big part of my heart
His my addiction, my drug
Don't expect you to understand
I see the mess this is, I can't stop my love for him

VERSE SIX
That time those words don't cut it
Now the hunters become the hunted
I tuck her into bed to sleep
stay with her until she falls into dreams
I watch her smile and breathe as she lays peacefully asleep
I go around to her house just when he walks out
I strike him hard and fast, I made him bleed so much blood
All the pain he put her through I made sure he felt that too
I couldn't keep that rage caged
had to let it out and get revenge
One day she will understand
I did what was best for her
I won't ever let her hurt
He got a few shots in
But nothing compared to what I did to him
Stitches in my hand and brow
I left him hospitalised
I'll never forget the look she gave
when she found out

PRE CHORUS
I tried to explain
I couldn't keep this rage caged
Killer instincts kicked in
And I got my revenge on him
For treating you like this
Didn't stay calm
Didn't keep her mind at ease
Help her rest and heal
I wiped the blood from her lips
I wiped the tears from your eyes
What he did to you killed me inside
with every ounce of strength,
And everything I am
I went after him
after all, he did

CHORUS
This time she didn't take my hand
And I knew I wasn't going to be a fan
of what she had to say
I regret putting my trust and faith in you
You aren't different
All I needed was for you to be there
I just needed someone who really cared
Someone to wipe away these tears
You were the one guy who tamed my fears
I didn't need any more protection
that you hadn't already given
I didn't want you to be like him
Violence never solved anything
I was ready to leave him for you
You went against everything I said
My love and admiration for you ran deep,
I see your faults
I know your needs
But now you have betrayed me
You were such a big part of my heart
You could have been my addiction, my drug
I was hoping you would listen and understand
Not go after him like you did
I can see the mess this is, my hearts been shattered
Beyond repair, I never want to see you again
Those lines run on repeat through my head.

©2018 Written By Benji James

What happens when you've made,
All the mistakes you can make?
What happens when that part of you
That holds you up breaks?
What does it take
to make that part of you,
that you hate,
how do you make that fade?

Bless your soul
Your a rolling stone
Travelling down this,
long hard road
You use your inner strength
Yeah we got faith
We all know our
Trust in love
Is never misplaced

I've been killing off the demons
in my dreams
But they somehow come back
And grab a hold on me
How can I erase that pain?
How can I escape that fate?
When it's so deeply encrypted, into my brain?
Have you seen the strain I face?
Have you been to this place?
You know the part of you,
that you can't escape
There must be a way to clean the slate
Grab yourself an empty plate
So that you can start again
Or at least that's something I can dream

Bless your soul
Your a rolling stone
Travelling down this,
long hard road
You use your inner strength
Yeah we got faith
We all know our
Trust in love
Is never misplaced

I've seen the dark
Where red eyes linger
I've seen the fire
That burns away
the core of your soul
How can you come back from that all
We've all been low and knee deep
In the quicksand of life, it seems
But this is what happens
when you're buried six feet deep
And you're trying to get out
But you can't breathe
You've tried to use others
To get you out
But there only seems,
to be one way now
You need to dig your way out
Of this underground

Bless your soul
Your a rolling stone
Travelling down this,
long hard road
You use your inner strength
Yeah we got faith
We all know our
Trust in love
Is never misplaced

©2017 Written By Benji James

He's lurking in the shadows
with bloodshot eyes
A smell of bicardi and wine
I'll put down the knife
When these images
Stop playing on my mind

No, no I'm not afraid to die
I'm on the road to hell
But I don't care, OH!
Smoke another cigarette
And kiss your lips
Back to the room
And it's time for *** OH!
This is my escape
This is how I deal
To make believe these issues aren't real, OH!

You don't know
What the hell I've seen
And you ain't been
To the places, I've seen
You ain't heard the screams
You ain't see it every night in your dreams
The violence, the anger
Blood is running down these curbs
Insanity in motion please observe

No, no I'm not afraid to die
I'm on the road to hell
But I don't care, OH!
Smoke another cigarette
And kiss your lips
Back to the room
And it's time for *** OH!
This is my escape
This is how I deal
To make believe these issues aren't real, OH!

Let me paint a picture, clear
Place my voice inside of your ear
Hear the whispers that I call
For what you thought you know
You never knew at all
And there are voices carries within the winds
And demons have been asked to spread their wings
Eerie vibes are running down your spine
You try to dissect the world line by line

No, no I'm not afraid to die
I'm on the road to hell
But I don't care, OH!
Smoke another cigarette
And kiss your lips
Back to the room
And it's time for *** OH!
This is my escape
This is how I deal
To make believe these issues aren't real, OH!

©2018 Written By Benji James

You killed me with your silence
The hurts become more violent
I took the fall harder than I thought
I'm not the same person I was before
You took the best part of me

And broke it down

Scattered it into a million pieces now

I'm soulless, crazy, lost and confused 

I don't know where, or who to turn too

Oh when did I lose track?

Why the hell didn't you come back?

This torture has gone on long enough

Without you the seas became rough

I've never been that tough 

When you were gone
I thought It was just your bluff

I can't take no more, that's enough 

I'm better off dead

Blood stains in red 

Of all the lies I've been fed 

Yours were the best

When It hit, it hit hard like cement

That your never coming back again

I'm better off dead

In blood stains of red

All the tears we've shed 

Secrets and regrets I've kept

Is nothing compared to what she did

I'm better off dead 

In blood stains of red

©2017 Written By Benji James

Crushed to the core,
sinking like an anchor,
To the floor.
Pull me from the depths,
drowning in the wreckage,
of a wounded heart.
Feel the blood from a punctured lung,
tears, screams all around,
drifting in the water below.
Breathing in water through your nose,
but when you rise,
you rose to fill every expectation.
Everybody has an expiration date,
this time I’m not gunna fight,
to find a way out,
cuz I’m tired of being a fighter,
Yeah hold up a lighter.
In loving memory,
of everything we shared,
they gave me more, than I could bare.
And now there is no flare,
to light the skies.
God gave me hope, gave me strength, to carry on.
But you can only keep going, on for so long.
It was in the way she talked,
and in the way she walked,
that the poisonous fumes,
from the scent of her perfume,
Stunned and trapped me in your love.
Got tricked, into a trap,
I’ll never escape from.
Take a flying leap of faith,
Into the ocean and rocks below,
See if I can overcome the pain,
The pain of the day, she walked away.
Swallow all my pride,
learned everything from a beating heart,
that shined so brightly in the dark.
Nobody likes to be alone and apart,
yeah lock my love in your mind,
know that what was mine,
you’ve inherited all of the stars tonight.
Because without you, they just won’t shine.
That means I’ll be walking blind,
so light up everything we have inside,
I’ll be your angel wings in flight,
I’ll take you flying through the skies,
yeah baby blue eyes,
I called her baby blue eyes.

©2017 Written By Benji James

Late night sneak outs
******* makeout
Parties, drinking
Speaking without thinking
To young to even give a ****

Please baby
Take this heart
Break it in half
and we will
never be apart

Mascara's running down
your cheeks
Tears start gushing
I'll come running
Your saviour in armour
I'll make it all go away

Please baby
Take this heart
Break it in half
and we will
never be apart

Lovers, friendships
Aren't easily formed
But you and me
have an unbreakable bond

Please baby
Take this heart
Break it in half
and we will
never be apart

It's so hard to look away
When you are watching me
Your new dress
Has me intrigued
And your hair
swaying gently in the wind

Please baby
Take this heart
Break it in half
and we will
never be apart

©2018 Written By Benji James

Stop breaking my heart
(Benji) Uh huh (Yeah)
Baby, you better stop playing with my heart
I'm tired of trying to play this part
I want you so bad
At the same time, I hate you.
Hate how you're playing these games
But I am so addicted to this pain
I love you, then I don't
Sometimes I think of letting you go
But I'm so caught up
In all that you are
I can't give up
Not sure...if this is love
or lust.
All I know is,
I love all the feelings
You're giving me
But you hardly even notice me
So I'm trying to get your attention
with all my affection
And it's essential
You and I have so much potential...Baby.

I'm walking down a road
(I'll never win)
Fighting for somebody that
couldn't care less about me
It ain't fair, but I guess that's me
cursed to never have the ones
I love the most
Just so I can put all this pain
into words.
And I'm holding back my tears
As I try to tame all my fears
of losing you.

Baby, I can't mend this heart
so please don't break it
at least try to let me down gently
Because all I can do is think of you
and how there is no replacing what you mean to me
And the earth is spinning slowly
my mind can't comprehend leaving you
And I can't pretend I ain't in love with you
because it just isn't working
I'm not working for you either baby.

I'm walking down a road
(I'll never win)
Fighting for somebody that
couldn't care less about me
It ain't fair, but I guess that's me
cursed to never have the ones
I love the most
Just so I can put all this pain
into words.
And I'm holding back my tears
As I try to tame all my fears
of losing you.

Look me in the eye
tell me why, oh why
don't you want me in your life?
Is it because I am unattractive,  girl?
Is it because there are better people
in your world
I could treat you so good
But if it's because I'm not pleasing to the eye
If I got plastic surgery would you change your mind?
Although who am I kidding, you're so not worth it
But at the same time, I need you by my side
And I can't get you out of my head
And oh dear god...I wish you never left
Because I can't bear to see my heart break again
And I can't bear seeing you be played by all these men

I'm walking down a road
(I'll never win)
Fighting for somebody that
couldn't care less about me
It ain't fair, but I guess that's me
cursed to never have the ones
I love the most
Just so I can put all this pain
into words.
And I'm holding back my tears
As I try to tame all my fears
of losing you.

Oh baby don't break my heart
Let's run this back to the start
Because I want you in my life
Babe, I can picture you as my wife
I'm tired of fighting
There is no more room for crying and lying
Let me in, Give me a chance to prove
That I can be your man
So I can prove I mean every word,
I've said to you baby
Baby stop hating on me, Let me in
Baby lets lay down out guns
Let's take a moment
we can become one
Let's work it out
I've come too far
to give up on you now
and you're irreplaceable honey
oh so don't break my heart
be my shining star

I'm walking down a road
(I'll never win)
Fighting for somebody that
couldn't care less about me
It ain't fair, but I guess that's me
cursed to never have the ones
I love the most
Just so I can put all this pain
into words.
And I'm holding back my tears
As I try to tame all my fears
of losing you.

©2018 Written By Benji James

I'm here in Brisbane city
There are people passing by
I'm staring at the ceiling
I'm getting high on the drugs
Need another cigarette
to calm my nerves
The girls are putting on a show
here in Brisbane city
silhouettes of innocence
portrayed in plays on Broadway
there is so much left for me to say

These dead-end streets
are leading nowhere
Familiar faces in far-off places
My imagination
keeps on creating situations
that's no good for me
I'm supposed to be carefree
But lately, I haven't felt the same
as I used to be.

I want to create a memory
here is Brisbane city
I dialled your number
into my phone
I know you've been hanging on my call
you're a girl with attitude
There are so many things
I want to do with you
here in Brisbane city
Nothing comes easy
I'm learning to survive
with every minute I wait
and every breath I take
I know there's a better way

These dead-end streets
are leading nowhere
Familiar faces in far-off places
My imagination
keeps on creating situations
that's no good for me
I'm supposed to be carefree
But lately, I haven't felt the same
as I used to be.

I want to bear the mark of you
You can see the part of me
hidden under my tattoos
it ain't a pretty sight
when I breakdown (alright)
I didn't want you to see me cry
here in Brisbane city
There are so many things in this world
You've learned a million signs
about reading between the lines
and every time I looked into her eyes
I didn't think to see the signs
that you needed me in your life (alright)

These dead-end streets
are leading nowhere
Familiar faces in far-off places
My imagination
keeps on creating situations
that's no good for me
I'm supposed to be carefree
But lately, I haven't felt the same
as I used to be.

Now I'm sitting in an empty house
in Brisbane city
And I know where I went wrong
But I can't stand this feeling
of being alone (alone)
I can't stand this feeling
of being alone
And I know where I went wrong
But I'm sick of being alone
And I won't move on
You shouldn't leave me on my own
here in Brisbane city
Cakk you up to come around
so I'm not alone in this empty house
in Brisbane city

These dead-end streets
are leading nowhere
Familiar faces in far-off places
My imagination
keeps on creating situations
that's no good for me
I'm supposed to be carefree
But lately, I haven't felt the same
as I used to be.

The spotlight comes on
As I start singing into this microphone
The crowd starts to go wild
I'm drunk
Here in Brisbane city
and girl your wrong for all the right reasons
nobody has to be alone tonight
Because I need you all in my life
here in Brisbane city
Everyone starts singing along with me
here in Brisbane city
silhouettes of innocence
portrayed in plays on Broadway
there is nothing left for me to say
In Brisbane city
Here in Brisbane city

©2018 Written By Benji James

She's sitting alone in the dark tonight
You haven't seen all the tears she cried
You haven't seen all the wounds she hides
She keeps her deepest feelings inside

And she'd stand for him in the pouring rain

Just so, she could be in his arms again

If he left she'd never feel the same

He's the blood that flows through her veins

In her heart is the place he'll always remain

The girls trying to keep her, head held high
She's trying to hide her tears behind a smile
And every time he looks her way
She hangs on every breath he takes
She takes in every word he says
She tries so hard not to break away

She tries so hard to shelter her heart
The girls loved him from the start
She's afraid to let him see her flaws
She's not brave enough
To let him through her walls
The broken hearted girl stands tall
While she anticipates her next fall

This girl could cave in anytime
This girl feels invisible all the time
She's trying so hard to show him the sign
That she wants him by her side
And it's only a matter of time
Before she decides
Whether she'll stay his prisoner tonight
She'd give everything to break out of the chains
But she's still burning in the flames
And she still feels the shame
She feels part of the blame.

The girls trying to keep her, head held high
She's trying to hide her tears behind a smile
And every time he looks her way
She hangs on every breath he takes
She takes in every word he says
She tries so hard not to break away

She tries so hard to shelter her heart
The girls loved him from the start
She's afraid to let him see her flaws
She's not brave enough
To let him through her walls
The broken hearted girl stands tall
While she anticipates her next fall

Regrets we've all had a few
But the girl doesn't realise
The boy is hiding things from her to
She wants to make a change
He secretly calls out her name
The mascaras running beneath her eyes
She's wiped those tears a million times
But it's alright to cry
Over the boy too shy to give her his time
Over the boy who misses all the signs
Over the boy who can't see her dying inside

The girls trying to keep her, head held high
She's trying to hide her tears behind a smile
And every time he looks her way
She hangs on every breath he takes
She takes in every word he says
She tries so hard not to break away

She tries so hard to shelter her heart
The girls loved him from the start
She's afraid to let him see her flaws
She's not brave enough
To let him through her walls
The broken hearted girl stands tall
While she anticipates her next fall

©2017 Written By Benji James

She's sitting alone in the dark tonight
You haven't seen all the tears she cried
You haven't seen all the wounds she hides
She keeps her deepest feelings inside

And she'd stand for him in the pouring rain

Just so, she could be in his arms again

If he left she'd never feel the same

He's the blood that flows through her veins

In her heart is the place he'll always remain

The girls trying to keep her, head held high
She's trying to hide her tears behind a smile
And every time he looks her way
She hangs on every breath he takes
She takes in every word he says
She tries so hard not to break away

She tries so hard to shelter her heart
The girls loved him from the start
She's afraid to let him see her flaws
She's not brave enough
To let him through her walls
The broken hearted girl stands tall
While she anticipates her next fall

This girl could cave in anytime
This girl feels invisible all the time
She's trying so hard to show him the sign
That she wants him by her side
And it's only a matter of time
Before she decides
Whether she'll stay his prisoner tonight
She'd give everything to break out of the chains
But she's still burning in the flames
And she still feels the shame
She feels part of the blame.

The girls trying to keep her, head held high
She's trying to hide her tears behind a smile
And every time he looks her way
She hangs on every breath he takes
She takes in every word he says
She tries so hard not to break away

She tries so hard to shelter her heart
The girls loved him from the start
She's afraid to let him see her flaws
She's not brave enough
To let him through her walls
The broken hearted girl stands tall
While she anticipates her next fall

Regrets we've all had a few
But the girl doesn't realise
The boy is hiding things from her to
She wants to make a change
He secretly calls out her name
The mascaras running beneath her eyes
She's wiped those tears a million times
But it's alright to cry
Over the boy too shy to give her his time
Over the boy who misses all the signs
Over the boy who can't see her dying inside

The girls trying to keep her, head held high
She's trying to hide her tears behind a smile
And every time he looks her way
She hangs on every breath he takes
She takes in every word he says
She tries so hard not to break away

She tries so hard to shelter her heart
The girls loved him from the start
She's afraid to let him see her flaws
She's not brave enough
To let him through her walls
The broken hearted girl stands tall
While she anticipates her next fall

©2017 Written By Benji James

Hey bro, I got your back
Through thick and thin
Won't let any harm come to him
No matter what weapons they bring
The hate can never break the bond we have
We got a connection nobody else has
Same blood flows through our veins
Same creative forces in our brains
Never give up
Strive to be your best
You have a talent you're willing to share
You've got a knack for showing you care
Even with this sibling rivalry
Nothing can change the knowledge I've gained
From watching you grow into who you are today
And we may pick fights,
It's just brotherhood gets a little rough sometimes
But I know you will achieve great things
And I can't wait to see you living your dreams
All this faith in you I have
You've inspired me to be better
I need to set examples for my younger Brother
Need to get out and try and reach these dreams
Show him if you work hard enough for it
You can make it anywhere you want
Dedication can take you beyond the stars
A little blood, sweat and tears, can take you so far
No matter where it is we are
You’ll be always shining from afar
No matter what happens I got your back
Just hope you always remember that.

©2018 Written By Benji James

Look who just went
and broke my heart
All over again
Luckily this time I was prepared
Pen in hand, armours marked
But I'm not dead
Of all the lies
that I've been fed
I think yours have been the best
And I don't know what to believe
All those words that
come out of your mouth
I still can't ******* figure you out
There's no finding our way back
To what we were now

You can hit me with
I've never had you
But you've never had me too
So I'm giving my heart
To a girl that's just not you
Sick of having my heart
Thrown to the floor
This just ended like before
Except for this time
I'm the one walking
Out of that door, Yep!

Should mark my album with your name
Nah I'm just going to turn the page
You and I
Are never going to be the same
Don't come running back to me again
I'm a whole lot of over this
Nope you can't fix this
No, no girl, I don't want your kiss
You can't fix this,
You can't fix this

Ouch, ouch,
Wait, did you just say
I'm the one who doesn't care?
I'm pretty sure
I'm the only one
Of the two of us
Who even cared at all,
You were always looking for a way
To push me away
Then you'll realise what you did
And I'm always stupid and forgive
But this is it, I've had enough
Of this one-way street love

You can hit me with
I've never had you
But you've never had me too
So I'm giving my heart
To a girl that's just not you
Sick of having my heart
Thrown to the floor
This just ended like before
Except for this time
I'm the one walking
Out of that door, Yep!

Should mark my album with your name
Nah I'm just going to turn the page
You and I
Are never going to be the same
Don't come running back to me again
I'm a whole lot of over this
Nope you can't fix this
No, no girl, I don't want your kiss
You can't fix this,
You can't fix this

Been sitting here thinking
Maybe I'm wrong,
Just kidding, I'm not
Are you getting frustrated
With this whole situation?
Back and forth in your head
Can't make decisions all over again
I don't need you, I don't need this
All I need is a number one hit
And I really think
that this might be it
And I'm smiling through my teeth
Can you see, can you see me?
I'm not trying to attention seek
Oh stop it, please

You can hit me with
I've never had you
But you've never had me too
So I'm giving my heart
To a girl that's just not you
Sick of having my heart
Thrown to the floor
This just ended like before
Except for this time
I'm the one walking
Out of that door, Yep!

Should mark my album with your name
Nah I'm just going to turn the page
You and I
Are never going to be the same
Don't come running back to me again
I'm a whole lot of over this
Nope you can't fix this
No, no girl, I don't want your kiss
You can't fix this,
You can't fix this

©2017 Written By Benji James

It starts with
A cup of coffee
And a cigarette
Turn on the T.V.
To see the news
You gotta start work
in an hour or two
Remember back to
childhood memories
Back when you had
no enemies
the world was your whole playground
You dreamt things
that no one could
even think about

Life just can't get better
Words can't be words
Without the letters
Just give it a minute or two
Just think
Let it sink through

Now as I look, around
society has changed
Nothing is ever going
to be the same
People constantly changing
Calling names, Hurting, Judging
Tunes keep changing
Money goes
You're getting older
And everyone knows
You'll never be
who you used to be
The young, innocent and sweet.

Life just can't get better
Words can't be words
Without the letters
Just give it a minute or two
Just think
Let it sink through

You gave so much
Abd tried so hard
to make your life
a real big part
of the master plan
but nothing ever
goes your way
You're losing yourself
everyday
You live, You die
You fail, You try
You laugh, You Cry
You've been right
You've been wrong
But you never let go
of all those happy times
You're just thankful
You're still alive

Life just can't get better
Words can't be words
Without the letters
Just give it a minute or two
Just think
Let it sink through

©2018 Written By Benji James

What happened to the love there use to be
What happened to everything we shared
It seems as everything is,
Slipping away from me

Like the sand to the sea

Where did the good times go

The times you loved me for me

There was nobody else

Just you and me

One time, One place

I want you back baby

I can't go on alone
Why are you never picking up the phone
You never seem to be at home
Is there something your not telling me

Why has life gone so dull
It's like everything is a shade of grey
You know I want you in my life
There's so much I wanna say
But you need time alone

I can't go on alone
Why are you never picking up the phone
You never seem to be at home
Is there something your not telling me

There is nobody that makes me feel the way you do
It's as if the only person can be you
There are no words to describe how I feel
I just wish I could show you
If only you would answer my calls
I can't take this anymore

I can't go on alone
Why are you never picking up the phone
You never seem to be at home
Is there something your not telling me

You're the only one I care about
The only one I never doubt
Sure I can be emotional
But you know it is true
You are the only one
I want to spend eternity with
Why can't you admit the truth

I can't go on alone
Why are you never picking up the phone
You never seem to be at home
Is there something your not telling me

I can't go on alone
Oh No
I Can't do it alone

©2017 Written By Benji James