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1.7k · Feb 2018
my first crush
yellow-thoughts Feb 2018
my first love, as i want to say
but then i wasn't old enough
to even know what love is
so my first crush
wasn't something special nor romanic
it was a boy to whom every girl was crushing
it's what i told everybody
but in reality
from time being i have always
liked boys who were not like the others
to whom none were crushing on
'cause it made me feel special
i've always been selfish
...
/M.A./
1.2k · Feb 2018
unfair
yellow-thoughts Feb 2018
what did you do to me
you showed me world i didn't want
and now i want all of it
it's unfair you know
leaving me here by my self
...
/M.A./
1.0k · Dec 2017
what did or did not happen
yellow-thoughts Dec 2017
to be honest
everything happened too slow
and too fast at the same time
i didn't understand what
did or did not happen

what did you wanted
to fall in love or brake me
to kiss or argue
to know me or know yourself

you said that you're selfish
i think you said so many things
at the same ******* time
so don't say i didn't understand you
because at the beginning you didn't let me speak
and in the end
i understood that the beginning
already was the end

but still i'm so sorry
for everything
I did or did not do
and for everything
what did or did not happen...
i'm in love with him, but he probably doesn't know and i't fine with me.
907 · Aug 2018
no sugar
yellow-thoughts Aug 2018
You can't add sugar to my personality
boy i'm not as easy as coffee or tea
today i'm sweet as honey
tomorrow i can be sour as lemon
so choose your words wisely
903 · Dec 2017
irONy
yellow-thoughts Dec 2017
you know what's so ironic?

I love this planet...

but in this place i can't
imagine myself being happy.
what should I do with my life lol?
878 · Jan 2018
blond
yellow-thoughts Jan 2018
hi, i'm blonde now.

and everyone loves it so much
but why?
why you people like this simple color
it's so boring and plain
ohhhh i hate it so much

it remainds me of perfection
it's just like BARBIE
that freaking doll
and you all like it
and i'm starting to hate
you all for that!
like what color should i get next? >.<
727 · Jan 2018
.emptiness.
yellow-thoughts Jan 2018
..
sometimes emptiness is so heavy
you feel nothing while feeling everything
it's a wild ride in empty dessert
it's hot while you're shivering
it's wet while there aren't any water
like having wings while you can't fly
like swimming in the air and drowning
when you know everything and can't say anything
..
/M.A./
717 · Nov 2019
still you
yellow-thoughts Nov 2019
why░did░you░turn░around

when░i░was░right░ahead

ohhhh
closeness░­is░said░to░kill
whoever░is░not░in░love
ohhhh
it's░so░unfair░
the░­only░thing░i░asked
was░being░next░to░you
found some drafts :////
716 · Jul 2018
cherries
yellow-thoughts Jul 2018
cherry on the top
is like special price
like something more then you deserved

but what if there is nothing
where to put that cherry
then it isn't special
then it's just a cherry

same with people
if they have good personalities
then cherry on top is that they are beautiful

but if they are only beautiful
then its like a simple cherry
nothing special. . .

but to know- i don't like cherries
707 · Feb 2018
save us
yellow-thoughts Feb 2018
is there something wrong?
i have so many words
but i can't find the right ones
which would save us
why are you depending on me?
...
/M.A./
676 · Feb 2018
mINd gaMEs
yellow-thoughts Feb 2018
time have already passed
new friends came and went
flowers bloomed and died
sun and rain danced

but my mind have
its own rules
it plays memories
about you repeatedly

my mind doesn't care
that i don't like this game
it's like hide and seek
where it seem that i can't win
...
/M.A./
i'm feeling really hopeless today .. >.>
663 · Jan 2018
breathe life
yellow-thoughts Jan 2018
breath in,
breath in so much air that it hurts
that your lungs hurt
and now keep breathing in
stop, wait
and let it all out

this action represents life
how?

we can take, take, and take
but sooner or later
we have to let it go
there is no chose
in any directions

/M.A./
595 · Jul 2019
ɪᴍᴘᴏꜱꜱɪʙʟᴇ
yellow-thoughts Jul 2019
ʏᴏᴜ ᴅᴏ ᴀʟʟ ɪᴍᴘᴏꜱꜱɪʙʟᴇ
'ᴄᴀᴜꜱᴇ ᴍʏ ʙᴏɴᴇꜱ ᴀʀᴇ ʙʟᴜꜱʜɪɴɢ
ʙʟᴏᴏᴅ ᴄᴇʟʟꜱ ᴅᴀɴᴄɪɴɢ
ᴇʏᴇꜱ ꜱɪɴɢɪɴɢ

ʏᴏᴜ ᴡᴀɴɴᴀ ᴛᴇʟʟ ᴍᴇ ''ɪ ʟᴏᴠᴇ ʏᴏᴜ''
ᴅᴏɴ'ᴛ ꜱᴀʏ ᴛʜᴇ ɪᴍᴘᴏꜱꜱɪʙʟᴇ ʙᴏʏ
563 · Mar 2018
yellow
yellow-thoughts Mar 2018
i'm painting my nails yellow from now on
i need this refreshing color in my life
i need sunlight and warmth
but in the same time it's so pathetic
like if my nail color could change anything
but still, call me stupid, but i will do this
...
/M.A./
553 · Jan 2018
Ohhhhh..
yellow-thoughts Jan 2018
ohh darlin' waiting is hurtful i know
but why you didn't wait just a little longer
..
ohh we could have been so much more
that what we had even wasn't a thing
..
ohh this after taste is killing me
i wasn't ready for you but i let you in
..
ohh but you didn't wait
you wanted all at the same time
..
ohh what have we both done?
i really didn't understand...
532 · Dec 2017
good memory
yellow-thoughts Dec 2017
its great to have good memory they say...
but is it?

with time i would forget you they say...
but would i?

having good memory is great
but there is a cost

i'm trying to forget you
but it will be an eternity..
im sorry about my english...
514 · Aug 2018
internet
yellow-thoughts Aug 2018
when your internet connection is slow
for a split second you realize
that this wireless world controls you
but next moment you keep scrolling your feed
and in the next split second forgot about it...
forgot how time consuming and deadly is this addiction...
503 · Jan 2019
who in the end
yellow-thoughts Jan 2019
I left you or you left me
who really knows
everything was so tangled
I slipped out and run away
sorry wouldn't be enough
but who knows, who cares
I'm putting blame on you
cause that's what I have learned
to never blame ourselves
but others
so who in the end
deserves that apology?

                                                [M.A.]
i have been through some stuff, but in the end, im back, hope you will get my poems... :)
496 · Jul 2018
easy but not easy
yellow-thoughts Jul 2018
sometimes i'm so unbelievably sorry
about things i can't put in the words

they say it's easy to express your emotions
i'ts easy to say what on your mind
and what's bothering you

but is it really so EASY?

that's why i'm so sorry
about... things... with no words....
everything is so easy
and not so easy in the same time...
493 · Jan 2018
negatively positive..
yellow-thoughts Jan 2018
BE HAPPY. HAPPINESS IS A CHOSE. THINKING HAPPY THOUGHTS HELPS YOU TO BE POSITIVE. positive. negative. pluses and minuses. bad and good. positive positiveness. smiling, joking, laughing. SMILE! BE YOURSELF. so if I like crying.. NO! STOP DON"T SAY THAT. wait what? BE POSITIVE! so being yourself isn't positive? NO NOT LIKE THAT! so like what? FIRST OF ALL SMILE. but smiling isn't my thing.. WE CAN"T BE FRIENDS. why? NEGATIVENESS ISN'T MY THING. so negatively positive. i like that!
463 · Dec 2017
ALMOST
yellow-thoughts Dec 2017
i really didn't believe that "almost" was possible...
i strongly believed that everything
either happened or didn't happen
and then everything was black or white
i guess there wasn't in between.

you showed my a new world
and i'm not thanking you
because now it's all messed up
there are rainbows and colors in between colors
and i didn't ask for that!

i thought that
yeahh everything would be okay
because you would be here to show me around
but there were one problem
you were the definitions of "almost".
almost is the saddest word...
i guess
451 · Aug 2018
*
yellow-thoughts Aug 2018
*
even with moon dust in her pockets
she couldn't catch his glance
so she turned back
to magic where she came from
...
446 · Jan 2018
new wORld
yellow-thoughts Jan 2018
why can't we buy and sell emotions?
let's make a new world where we could?
shall we?

i would sell my joy i guess
it's really annoying i can't stand it
because it's comes and goes when it pleases

and i would buy trust
because it would be pleasing
to count on someone

what would you sell or buy?
anger, fear, shame, envy or sadness?
courage, confidence, patience, kindness or love?

join me in this mystery..

/M.A./
446 · Dec 2017
they don't notice
yellow-thoughts Dec 2017
they think that you are their friend
but are you?

yes, you are their friend
but they aren't your friends

how that's possible ?
maybe because they don't notice

they don't notice that
they are interrupting you all the time
that you don't finish your storys
that you are laying
and believe me you're bad at it

they even don't notice
that you're disappearing
that you're fading away
and that that you're hurt

such a good friends
but why?
why you are still their friend?

you're still hoping
you're such a stupid girl
but they don't notice even that
all they do is use u...
430 · Mar 2018
aging
yellow-thoughts Mar 2018
so magical and so scary
when time flies
and it doesn't think about you
it let's you decide
your own destiny
...
/M.A./
429 · Jan 2018
butterFLY
yellow-thoughts Jan 2018
butterfly you're not like the others
you're humble and earnest
you 're an ancient mystery
like the secret of beauty
and a light of hope
...
/M.A./
417 · Mar 2019
obsession
yellow-thoughts Mar 2019
I know im not special
just one more girl
whose obsessed with her feeling
about boy who doesn't care

but emotions are keeping all of us alive
it differs to which emotions we want to hold on
im not ashamed,

addicted to you - hurtful memories- sweet emotions-
and of course, in the end, addicted to the PAST

some of us are drowning everything in alcohol
but im drowning myself in memories
what is worse - you decide
but im obsessed over the past and future can't change that!
409 · Apr 2020
happy poetry
yellow-thoughts Apr 2020
when you're not heart broken
what's there to write about
probably i have to look for happy things
but finding feelings is little harder
than pouring unwanted love on the page
396 · Jan 2018
long poems
yellow-thoughts Jan 2018
hate is a strong word i guess
let's use "i don't like" instead
it's not a human or a thing
it's just..
my soul hates
khhm i'm sorry..
my soul doesn't like long poems
LONG POEMS

i'm wasting so much time
on useless thing already
that even now i'm not taking
that risk to read
a long poem
because what if it isn't good

i'm guessing there is just something wrong with me

/M.A./
but if i like the beginning then probably i would read it
375 · Mar 2018
words and juice
yellow-thoughts Mar 2018
i can't write when i should
my words don't like rules
they have their own sleep schedule
but ohhh when they want
to came and play i can't stop them
they are pouring out of me
like a juice out of those juice boxes
when you blow air in the straw
...
/M.A/
373 · Dec 2017
cOFFee
yellow-thoughts Dec 2017
my drug and addiction

i have to drink coffee
or else my head wants to explode
but like in medical terms
it's my pain killer

but in the same time
coffee makes my hands shaky
and heart too fast and
i want to do everything at once
and nothing at all

i really don't like coffe
it tastes like nothing
like burned sugar
and its blackness scares me

what should i do?
if i don't like my savior...
what's your relationship with coffee? xD
366 · Dec 2017
Promise
yellow-thoughts Dec 2017
Promise me something
It could be anything
Sweet, sad, dreamy or deadly
I really don't care
But then piece of you
Would be mine
I'm just me, but hi .
355 · Jan 2018
moON
yellow-thoughts Jan 2018
how you ever seen moon shining so bright
that it seem like, it's smiling?

i think it's smiling all the time
but we see it, only the times it's the brightest

because we don't notice the ordinary
..
so don't be ordinary/ normal, be your self..
349 · Feb 2018
fairies
yellow-thoughts Feb 2018
if you ask me- fairies are so tempting
i would want to be a part of their world
that dangerous beauty which fascinates
which makes you bleed from eyes
and in the same time makes you fall in love
their love is either cruel or real there's no in between
it sound scary, thrilling and captivating
i really want to change sides, please..
...
/M.A./
i have always loved stories about fairies..
346 · Jan 2018
delete button
yellow-thoughts Jan 2018
when ever i push delete button
i press it few more times
even there isn't anything to delete
'cause i'm hoping
it could delete
all my mistakes
my ****** up life mistakes
and maybe even my life
kgfokbpogjm
339 · Feb 2018
out of my head
yellow-thoughts Feb 2018
there is someone calling
my name in ocean
i can hear echos in the rivers..
someone's waving
by pushing clouds in the sky
right in the suns way..
someone's watching
i can feel that something is there
like an old memory...

get out of my head
i know it's just my imagination
but you are to blame
...
/M.A./
i don't want to forget him, even if it was possible...
338 · Dec 2017
perfectiON
yellow-thoughts Dec 2017
they say i'm perfect
when i'm getting almost good grades
when i'm not speaking too much
or too little

they say i'm perfect
when i don't care what to wear
when i have messy hair
or messy handwriting

they say i'm perfect
when really i'm not..

they say i'm perfect
when it's perfect for them..
we humans are really messed up >.<
335 · Feb 2018
favORite
yellow-thoughts Feb 2018
i have always lied about my favorite color
i don't know why...

i'm saying it's blue, like sea and sky
but i have always loved white
i don't know why...

i love it's pureness
and white reminds me of possibilities
i don't know why...

the only thing i know for sure
i'm always striving for it..

/M.A./
327 · Jul 2018
dark love
yellow-thoughts Jul 2018
pull me in the darkness where stars are catching themselves
and give me light if your heart is still burning
and return to me the darkest shadows of the sun

while kissing you my thoughts get slow
promise to never let me go
because my demons are speaking about your hands

while you write my name on your palm
don't tell me your life story
because if i would have to hear your voice i would put a curse on myself

ill give you an advise - hold me with force
because when i see love, i usually run
i'm probably a bad influence

but i cant help my dark love
324 · Feb 2018
no reason at all
yellow-thoughts Feb 2018
i dragged you here
but i have no reasonable reason
just that- someone gave me your name
and i couldn't stop thinking about you
i should start thinking before i start doing something
now i don't know what to do
...
/M.A./
323 · Dec 2017
empty bag
yellow-thoughts Dec 2017
sometimes i'm feeling like a empty bag
yeahh sometimes people fill me
but it's not for long

because they all need their content back

and then i'm empty again
and again
...
I don't know why I'm still trusting some people,
like why everyone is using me?
321 · Dec 2017
dream REALm
yellow-thoughts Dec 2017
if i couldn't dream
then i couldn't breath
i just would't stand living.

when i'm go to sleep
i'm going to my world
there everything is better
more exiting more dramatized

this world is too plane for me
i can't stand this feeling of disappearing

in the dream realm
i'm feel more alive
then in the real world
...
dreams and dreaming is everything for me
311 · Aug 2018
wishing is dangerous
yellow-thoughts Aug 2018
wishing is dangerous..
if not for you then for me
once i wished for someone
who would save me
and one tipsy little thing
you saved me and then wanished

wishing is dangerous..
at least for me
you know why my wish came true
'cause i was saving all the wishing stars
but ohhh why i cant take my wish back

wishing is dangerous..
such a dangerous thing
but now i would wish
for someone to wish me
even if that would back fire me harsh

wishing is dangerous..
and so ******* wrong
310 · Dec 2017
how to end it all?
yellow-thoughts Dec 2017
have you ever thought
how would you want to die?

i have

burning to death
would be too noisy
too red i guess
and i don't like red

taking pills
would be too fast
and too painful i guess
i'm tired of pain

jumping of height
would be impossible in my town
and too fascinating
it would be like flying

but imagine drowning
i think it would be magical
water have always called me
time would stop
i wouldn't hear anything
and stop breathing
but i still would be there
in silence, in stillness,
in water, in calmness,
it would be like
a holidays for eternity
.........
i think about it too often i guess..
304 · Jan 2018
relationship
yellow-thoughts Jan 2018
controlling the speed is the key
not too fast or there will be a crash
an accident with broken heart..
nor too slow or nothing will move forward
no one likes traffic jams- that weird waiting part
...
/M.A./
301 · Feb 2018
winds path
yellow-thoughts Feb 2018
wind knocked on my window
like a traveler who overslept
he wanted to catch up
and asked about you
i gave him your number
i hope you don't mind..?
...
/M.A./
299 · Jan 2018
don't look
yellow-thoughts Jan 2018
you look into my eyes so easy
how the hell do you do that?
when you look so easily to me
i'm starting to think that
you did feel nothing for me

when ever i look into your eyes
even when i'm trying not to
i get shot with lightning
297 · Jan 2018
dRUNker
yellow-thoughts Jan 2018
i'm a drunker i guess
i'm in love with that feeling
when you feel your blood pumping
and then sorrow feels so good
too good to be true
...
mehh..
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