amidst the rain
rain in eyes
eyes all red
red like fire
fire in heart
heart with pain
pain of love
love for you
you and I
I for you

You beat within me
but whenever
you beat that much
I die pretty much

In the cascade of my feelings,

a steep precipice separated the ways

disconnecting every bit from you

left me waiting on the long days

There was a rain of tears with smiles,
and a breeze of warmth under a cold sky.
A fluffiest cloud running over the fences,
and a pair of plants sitting on the benches.
Birds walking down by river lanes,
and cats flying by the window panes.
A rhyming words out of the barking dog,
like a song sung by the beautiful rug.

I dive into myself
to hide away from this world,
but the deeper I go,
the more I am near to you.

Flowers dancing with wind,
made me remember
you were not a dream
yet, still, i am a dreamer
not true with my mind
but pure at my heart

I quietly slide in my own skin
when my eagerness starts to grow

From the departure of all worries
Refreshing beams from a source
In a new way with a bloom
Every passing moment is with this
No more troubles and no more pain
Destined for this path only to gain
Sailing through the winds on this thread
Hiking through the perils of this world
It's a relationship with your friends
Passage and shelter, from all trends

IS IT A HAVEN OF BLISS?
OR IS IT A DEATH KISS?
IS IT A BLITHESOME GAMUT OF LIFE
OR A GLIMPSE NOW OUT OF SIGHT
IS IT A SPARK IN THE AIR
OR IS IT A JOLT FOR WHICH YOU CAN'T DARE
IS IT A SPLASH SPREADING AROUND
OR THE MITES PRESENT ON THE GROUND
R THESE GLORIOUS MOMENTS OF THE PAST
OR THE DREADFUL DREAMS WHICH AWAY WE CAN'T CAST
WHAT IS THIS WALKING IN MY MIND?
WHAT IS THIS YET I AM UNABLE TO FIND?

written by samreena lodhi

HEART IS TOO SMALL
CAN HOLD MANY THINGS
DEEPLY PENETRATED
MANY THINGS, MANY THINGS.
WHICH OUR MIND ALWAYS FORGET,
IT NEVER EVER DOES;
WHICH OUR MIND FAILS TO ACCEPT,
IT SO ALWAYS DOES.
HEART IS TOO SMALL
CAN HOLD MANY THINGS.
PEOPLE NEVER LOOKS
AT HEART AND SOUL
NEVER THINKS, ABOUT THE ROLE.
NEVER THINKS, WHAT WE ARE.

In the slumber
he walked
tugged
at the heartstrings
with joyance
but
another day
Dreaming

SO QUEIT AND DEEP,
NOTHING BAD THAT IN CREEPS;
EVERYTHING Z HUMBLE AND IN PEACE.
CALMNESS AND GLOW SPARKLES EVERYWHERE.
PEOPLE DO WHATEVER THEY DARE,
SO THEY MAY SHIMMER IN HEAVEN.
NEVER, THERE! THEY ARE DRENCHED IN RUES.
THERE,
A BOUNDARY OF SMILES, AS A CIRCLE;
BOBS UP AND DOWN WITH JOYS ALL AROUND.

My stomach hurts a lot,
when i worry the most...

i meant, never to say,
but i said the worst...

i hurt you more,
when, bitter words, i say...

i do not know,
what to do or how to repair!

the broken thread,
that still is here and there.

Concealed in my diary
in the form of words
my emotions explode
inklings of events
predicaments conjectured
or  sighs of contentment
vaguely interpreted
lights my soul
stagnant but painful
glorious yet tearful

the deeper, I went
the darker, it grew
a lonely place, your heart
made me lost in you.

I wish there was a magical ground
   where centaurs would heal
   and to protect the land
   some giants to surround
   Thestrals as a traveling mean
   Golems to follow my command
   sphinxes to fulfill my demand
   some sylphs gatherings
   and mermaids to fill the air
   with their melodious voice
   unicorns with their freedoms
   to bring the brightness to this world

under my feets the frozen grass,
i walked bare footed but got a scar.

i stopped and looked at it
but then i started walking again.

That scar bled myself away;
i kept walking and didn't stopped.

As, that way was towards my destiny.
Many walls i crossed and left behind.

Many broken wishes were left behind,
to gain something, i have to try.

To do what i was here to do,
to become "me", ' i have to do',
'what i am destined to do'.

'me, me and me is not the dream'
'to be me is what i want to be! '

Concealed in my diary
in the form of words
my emotions explode
inklings of events
predicaments conjectured
or  sighs of contentment
vaguely interpreted
lights my soul
stagnant but painful
glorious yet tearful

silence will be best for me,
no attachments,
no atonements,
no enchantments,
no blandishments,
no chastisements.

and that is all!

Tears fell from the eyes,
and pain still rests in the hearts;
Blood shed from the bodies,
and voices arose from every soul;
people didn't get weak
and they moved for what they seek;
journey of thousand miles,
got completed on a single night;
the pain was a way to gain,
the Nation we call PAKISTAN.

by Samreena Lodhi

Don't dwell yourself
too much in the past
as there are some spells
you never can cast
some experiences
may leave you aghast
that you should have left
and stayed steadfast

Thoughts like clouds,
storming my mind.
Thunderstorms,
thunderbolts,
lightning and
heavy gushes of the words,
striking against the wall,
of my brain, like blind birds.

Here I stand,
no pen to write with,
no paper to write on.
Words will escape,
by penetrating in my soul.

My fear of losing my words,
stays by the side of my thoughts.
They can come at any time,
will shower like a rain in my mind,
or they can go at any time,
leaving me to think sublime.

Tried to tie the rain drops
when there was rain all around
In the chains of nature’s beauty
I tried to tie it up
Soaked in rain
feeling pretty much cold
heart bathed in love light
Shining brightly in the forest


playing with animals around me
in the puddles
splashing through them
i jumped over few branches
waiting for the sun
But you came right to me
like my light and the warmth.

S is for sincere, a model of truth.
A is for altruism, the unselfish you.
M is for melody, the song of life.
R is for radiant, it's your personality!
E is for excellence, your passion, your drive.
E is for electric, a sparkling trait!
N is for nice, need I say more?
A is for accomplished, in all that you do.

Shadows still linger in this bright light,
they thought well about where to hide,
broken hopes, shattered dreams, and shallow spirits,
are the foods that gives them strength to ride,
to ride in the shadows where darkness always rise.

Walking bare-footed on the grass,
She was thinking about her past.
While thinking, there was a glow in her eyes.
She was smiling but with wet eyes.
Her hair were scattered on her face,
Still she was glistening at her peak.
She was thinking about that love,
which was never in her fate.
She sighed and smiled,
but she cried after a while.
She cried and then she again smiled,
Looking at me while I watching her.
I was shocked at her on this act,
then i remembered her in my past.
She was there with me,
in every thick and thin on my path,
to remove every hindrance and my tears,
always to help me in my troubles.
She was the one who loved me always.
But I never realised this truth.
Lingering memory of her with her bright smile in my mind,
made me realise that I also love her.
The reason she cried, was me,
And the reason for her to smile was me again.

ONE DAY I SAW HER IN A NEARBY SHOP WITH HER MOTHER
SHE SEEMED TO ME 'DEPRESSED AND ALL ALONE'
SHE WAS PHYSICALLY PRESENT BUT MENTALLY WAS NOT
I FELT IN MY HEART THAT SOMETHING WITH HER WAS WRONG
SHE WAS NEVER LIKE THIS AS SHE NOW HAD BECOME
SHE WAS THE HAPPIEST ONE AMONG THOSE I EVER MET
BUT NOW THE QUESTION WAS, ' WHY HAD SHE BECOME LIKE THAT? '
'SHE WAS BROKEN', I THOUGHT, 'HER HEART WAS BROKEN'
AFTER THIS I ALSO BECOME DEPRESSED ONLY FOR HER
THEN I BEGAN TO FIND SOME ANSWERS ON MY OWN
AMONG THEM THE ONE WAS, 'WHY WAS SHE BROKEN? '
HOWEVER IT WAS DIFFICULT FOR ME TO FIND SUCH ANSWER
BUT I TRIED SO THAT CAN BRING HER BACK HER BRIGHT SMILE
I WENT TO SOME FRIENDS AND ASKED ABOUT HER
THEY TOLD ME THE REASON, ONCE SHE WAS FALLEN INTO LOVE'
'IN LOVE WITH SOMEONE, SHE THOUGHT WAS HER DOVE'
'BUT IN AN ACCIDENT HER LOVE WAS GONE FOREVER'
'AND WHEN SHE HEARD THIS NEWS ABOUT HIM'
SHE WAS ALL INA SHOCK, BROKEN WITHOUT A TEAR IN HER EYE'
SHE GOT DEPRESSED AND BECOME THE ONE WHO CAN NO LONGER BEAR'
THAT WAS ALL WHICH HAD MADE HER ALL BROKEN
THAT WAS THE REASON DUE TO WHICH SHE WAS BROKEN.

When silent words remains unspoken,
a feeling of sadness rises within me;
and anoesis descends within me,
that flows through me while i walk,
feelings of resentments towards such words,
like a tide tends to strike me.

Though I still walk,
i wobble but I still walk,
Out of breath, I sit down with agitation,
these words hit me hard,
on my soul and mind,
Trust and fear are crumbling me,
and there, all shaken up, I stand.
I stand to seek for the unspoken truth,
to hide all the feelings risen with silent words.

For us, life holds;
countless enigmas,
uncertainty of existence,
certain exceptions,
bulks of expectations,
improbable concoctions,
perfect nothingness,
imperfect pains,
high level dreams.
But,
don't you think!
Brevity of human life,
ephemeral stay in this world,
is more simple and lucid.
Simplicity and Lucidity,
is all that life can give.

Stained souls with the hearts full of poisonous words,
once found on the large tilted ground of remnants;
Thoughtless minds! throbbing and thrusting others,
Trying to ascend but falling deep into the ditch they dug,
the darkest place where there buried fears were at peak.

I AM STANDING IN THE LIGHT
WITH THE DARKNESS ALL AROUND
I DON'T KNOW WHERE TO GO
I AM SCARED OF THIS DARK
IT SHOULD NOT CAPTURE ME
STILL HAVE A HOPE IN MY HEART
AS THERE IS NOWHERE TO GO
THERE IS NOWHERE TO HIDE
I AM STANDING ALL ALONE
IN THE LIGHT WITH DARKNESS ALL AROUND
NOWHERE IS ANY SIGN OF HELP
BUT HOPE IS STILL ALIVE
THAT A HAND WILL COME TO PICK ME UP
AS I AM STANDING ALL ALONE

Here, I am.
And now i feel,
I was invisible;
still can't be seen.
I was there,
when everyone walked
passed by me.

i was hurt, i felt alone.
there was no one by my side
no one who could listen to me
no one who could hear me

then you showed up
you lightened my path
you made me strong
you accepted me the way i am

may be i won't be able to say this again
may be i won't be here to say this to you

Thank you for your every word
Thak you for understanding me.

Sun is trying to peep through the clouds,
breeze is there, without making a sound;
There is light spreading all around,
but the rainy clouds will start to astound.
This nature spell will keep you bound,
so you better stay firm and not swound.

if you had heard my heart
you might have learned even more
words that my lips won't convey
you might have get with your heart
as heart has mind of its own
that beats more to say
for you to understand

Trust on the road,
walking by the riverside,
crossed some trees,
and sat on the pile of rocks.

He saw loyalty walking by,
and out of curiosity asked her,
what made you visit this site?
what made you to be here?

Loyalty replied
"no matter how i am crumbled or twisted,
my devotion won't ever wither away,
i came here to soothe my mind and soul,
not to let you alone and ever to troll"

Then the trust gave a smile,
mustered up his courage and said
"I am not fragile.
I lost my way in agitation.
I became a bait to misconception.
i was thinking as a broken trust,
where i should have followed Satisfaction."

Though Spring rang the bell;
But Summer has arrived.
Winter has departed
And Autumn is on leave.

Accept me the way i am,
or forget me for who i am.

Though for getting me,
you don't have to let me go.

And for forgetting me,
you have to let me go.

Just accept me the way i am,
or forget what matters, the most.

My heart being pressed,
my soul being crushed,
I am unable to breathe,
I am unable to stand,
what's happening to me!!!

Am I getting lost
or simply out of my mind?
what's rising within me?
a whirlwind of thoughts
or a whirlpool to drown me!!!

everything seems blue,
and i have no clue.
Can someone help me?
Can someone sort it out?
how to get these things out!!!

When I will be gone,
NEVER FORGET ME!
Always remember me,
keep me in your memories.
Always find me in your company.

When I will be gone,
NEVER let my trust beside,
NEVER let tears to come in your eye,
NEVER let yourself cry behind me.

When I will be gone,
Find me in your dreams,
where I always used to fly.
Search me in your smile,
Where I always used to pass.
But, please! Never! let yourself sigh.
When I will be gone.

not in trust,
not in loyalty,
not in honesty,
not in respect.

Nor a leader,
neither in courage.

May be i am Empathetic,
or i am intuitive.

i am creative,
i yearn for long life learning.
i am a good listener,
and i have patience.


But still where do "I" stand?

When no wind whirled,
Without whistles in the sky,
They fell down,
silently on the ground,
the withered leaves.

Just like promises,
Greenery fades away,
priorities shift,
and they still lay.

i wish, i had a lamp,
to brighten my pathway,
on a gloomy night.

i wish, i had a lamp,
to cross a bridge,
on a stormy night.

i wish, i had a lamp,
to be there by your side,
in the hardships of life.

I wish there was magic in life
a little spark from a wand
with some spells out of a mouth
for good ones specials around
for bad ones only the drought
a little bit of magic dust
raising you to infinite heights
some Alvens and Ashrays
to play with, in summers heat
salamanders creeping in hallway
helping to keep the house warm
some pixies for autumns and springs
making garlands to beautify everything

Same days but different year,
heavy souls and running tears;
wounded hearts with big fear,
of losing the ones who are dear.


by Samreena Lodhi

you'll find me worst than thee
worst than you can ever be
don't expect much from me
i won't be here so much free
i am bounded to one tree
where i used to fly with glee.