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Matthew Harlovic May 2016
You said you were scared to lose me.
Perhaps the reason is because all of your
close friends have left except for me.
When I asked you why you were scared,
you said you are scared to lose me because
you love me. I love you too, but know this
love is not fear, and fear is not love.  

© Matthew Harlovic
Matthew Harlovic Feb 2015
You told me that if you drink
before 10 A.M. you were a pirate
not an alcoholic.
But pirates don’t drive,
they sail.
They smoothly sail.
And as the Captain,
abiding by the code,
you went down with your ship
but then again,
you washed up in a jail cell.

© Matthew Harlovic
Don't drink and drive, kids.
Matthew Harlovic Feb 2016
I flatlined in the flatlands.

© Matthew Harlovic
See Edwin Abbott's novel Flatlands for reference.
Matthew Harlovic Jun 2015
The pipes froze as the toilet overflowed
with pangs of guilt and bile bitten clothes.
She tried to dispose of what she ate
from breakfast to lunch to her snacks after eight.
From dieting to shame, infatuation came,
from the overwhelming pain of being herself.
Scared to ask for help, she took matters to her hands.
One to hold her hair, the other to her thyroid gland.

© Matthew Harlovic
I know it brings back bad memories and I'm sorry.
Matthew Harlovic Jun 2014
Forgive me Lord for I have sinned,
I have taken your name in vain
and then abused that vanity to
raise my own name.
In spite of the green-thumbed
that wander your garden,
I tried to gather as much fruit
as my arms could carry before
Jacob’s ladder gave out to my weight.
But knowledge is a burden that even
Atlas can’t get a grasp of.
Forgive me Lord for I have sinned,
For I’ve fallen to the seven wonders of
this world that you didn’t warn this sheep of.

© Matthew Harlovic
Matthew Harlovic Oct 2014
On the paint chipped pavement we went over the rules:
NO cherry bombs, NO bobbling,
NO lower-ballers, spin-tops,
chalk walkers, twenty fingers,
and especially NO  skyscrapers.
So for a few minutes we played as raw as apple skin knees,
it was the roughest, toughest, hard-nosed game
of four square any fourth grader has ever seen.
But it was all over when someone crossed the line.
There was fussing, cussing, and an accusation of the mustnt’s.
Eyebrows adjacent, we argued and clawed like kilkenny cats,
we were breaking rules, we crossed the chalk.
We took sides and worst of all,
the one crucial act that we regret,
we slammed the ball down.
It towered overhead like window washers
and landed on the school’s roof.
We stopped arguing. Nobody won that day.  

© Matthew Harlovic
Matthew Harlovic Oct 2014
One for the man bunkered down in the trenches
sent in by his country as a henchman.
He's laying in the mud, praying for safety,
losing less blood than what's shed daily.
In this hazy hell, a drug buzz is needed.
Morphine seeps in, easing the beaten.
And in no man's land, a man cries for mercy
but his cries are cut off by the hands of Murphy.
Early in the morning, he packs his bags.
Rucksack on his back, heading back to base camp.
There's a damper in the room, sunken like the marsh.
Friends have fallen, it's clearly marked.
And his heart aches but they can't be dead.
Nah, he sees them every time he lays down his head.
From time to time, he jolts up out of breath,
but he never felt more alive, when he was close to death.

It's not a sob story, no it's just old glory

Two for the man bunkered down by the park bench,
clutching a cup, praying for penance.
He's laying on cement, waiting for change,
and trying to stay dry from the god-**** rain.
In this day and age, a drug buzz is needed.
Morphine tabs, tap in the defeated.
Lungs splitting, teeth gritting, he's wishing for mercy.
Two times the dose, he curses out Murphy.
Early in the morning he packs his bags.
Rucksack on his back, he heads back to PADs.
He grabs a tray, sits alone, and says grace
because there's no space open for the "nutcase".
Arm's race to golden gates, he dragged a debt.
He carried his country as heavy as regret.
He carries his friends, they dangle from his neck.
But the thing about memories is that you can't forget.

It's not a sob story, it's just old glory

© Matthew Harlovic
This is a hip hop song that I wrote and soon will be releasing on soundcloud.com/outtatune-1 You could argue that hip hop isn't poetry or you can read the story I wrote. For clarification, this story is about two different lives of the same man. The first, is of his time on the frontline. The second, is his time as a homeless Vietnam war veteran.
Matthew Harlovic Apr 2016
You were always on the tip of your toes,
balancing on thin air,
positioning your center
of mass directly over the
base of your support circle,
edging your way from point
A to point B as you objectified
the manner of manipulation,
and yet I still managed to fall for you.
And you, *you were always on the tip of my tongue
,
but when you asked if
I would be there for you
if and when you fall,
I lost my footing.
For the reason that
you meant it in a way that
would associate me as a form of webbing,
a safety net per se and I watched you
walk on thin air for years, but I will not
wait for you to fall because I’m here for you
as a friend, not a cobweb.

© Matthew Harlovic
Matthew Harlovic Aug 2016
to think you led me
down the garden path
is rather hard to fathom,
yet we masked our passion
with the passing seasons.

© Matthew Harlovic
where am i?
Matthew Harlovic Sep 2017
i thought we had a gas
but you were right
we had a blast.

© Matthew Harlovic
kaboom.
Matthew Harlovic Oct 2014
castor and pollux
the twins from the milky way
argue in my head.

© Matthew Harlovic
Matthew Harlovic Oct 2014
Gender give-or-take
is socially constructed
by social exchange

© Matthew Harlovic
Matthew Harlovic Jun 2017
to the one who knows or examines his existence
explain the relativity of time and distance
from the instance of creation;
the expansion of self
to the bold bearing of a life lived well.
now picture the presence of a proclaimed faith
through the face of a Galilean reference frame
but refrain from the mention of preconceived notions
which pertain to gnomon-wise motion.

© Matthew Harlovic
Matthew Harlovic May 2015
You are a galaxy.*
From the way gravity pulls your lips
back into a smile when you laugh
to your *stellar remnants
of Vegas.
I thought it would take parsecs
for two distant galaxies to even come
into visual morphology with one another
but we collided into an elliptical love
that is practically observable
throughout the universe.
And as we fall farther into space,
we grow closer together because galaxies
are gravitationally bound to one another.

© Matthew Harlovic
This one goes out to the one I love. Happy Anniversary, sweetheart.
Matthew Harlovic Jun 2015
My half-life reflects
my active light, I’m as bright
as my afterlife.

© Matthew Harlovic
Matthew Harlovic May 2020
Ebb and flow, stepping stones
Learning how to "let it go"
All a part of how we grow
The feeling is incredible
Once you finally let it in
It becomes your medicine
A daily dose of hanging loose
Is something that I recommend

Used to be a pessimist
And my own nemesis
I know it sounds repetitive
But I focused on the negatives
Now when I reminisce
I think what was the benefit?
Well the answer is darkness
Comes before the exodus

© Matthew Harlovic
Matthew Harlovic Mar 2015
I hope that you will live happily ever after me.

© Matthew Harlovic
Matthew Harlovic Oct 2014
Please* beat my heart up
                                              *AGAIN

        ­                                                          until the *beating stops




© Matthew Harlovic
Matthew Harlovic Nov 2017
a child becomes an early heir
when a husband hates himself.
she sits alone blinded by despair,
wishing it was someone else.

© Matthew Harlovic
Matthew Harlovic May 2016
The last time you called me,
you asked how I was holding up.
I said I was fine, but I should
have told you to read my page.
Since you dumped me, my thoughts
ended up here. I wish you would
scroll through my poetry, starting
with the ones in February because
perhaps then you would understand
how I was holding up.

© Matthew Harlovic
Matthew Harlovic Nov 2014
Many* couples have a *honeymoon but few get to it.

© Matthew Harlovic
Matthew Harlovic Sep 2016
i thought the sun rose
and fell on your horizon,
i followed you like a shadow
but i wish i opened my eyelids
a bit wider so i could have seen
how much time i wasted
waiting for the ends to justify the means.
i loved you with every fibre of my being,
you kissed me like a guillotine
and i felt my breath fleeing.
i tasted truth on your sugar-coated tongue
and yet i should’ve noted how you eat your young.
you beat my gums with cheap talk
and sleepwalk about a bed of nails.
you raised questions so i read the braille
and i was amazed by the minor details you failed
to acknowledge let alone unveil.
yet you’ve shown a new face,
i’ve grown ail of your grace
and how you can encase
your faith by nailing it in place
but with love like a wraith,
you've always found a way
to circumvent the rays
and shine on my darkest days.

© Matthew Harlovic
Matthew Harlovic Aug 2016
i wonder if you
are teaching me
a thing or two
about values or
how human nature
abhors a vacuum.

© Matthew Harlovic
Matthew Harlovic Oct 2014
We* are all human
Why should we fight for power
when it kills us now?

© Matthew Harlovic
Matthew Harlovic Mar 2014
He fiddled with the buckle on his belt
it was just a set of strings strapped to his spine
smeared with sunburnt wax
but he didn’t know any better
it was just a set of strings strapped to his spine
fashioned by his father’s fears
but he didn’t know any better
exodus was upon them
fashioned by his father’s fears
gravity pulled him down
exodus was upon them
his feet were like anchors
gravity pulled him down
down to the trident’s tides
his feet were like anchors
his wings were heavy
down to the trident’s tides
smeared with sunburnt wax
his wings were heavy
He fiddled with the buckle on his belt

© Matthew Harlovic
Matthew Harlovic Oct 2014
I could like myself as much as she loves me

© Matthew Harlovic
Matthew Harlovic Mar 2018
I’d like to say I’ll see you around
but I know it’s the not the truth.
My time is up. Thy divine I trust.
I lay to rest my woeful youth.

I’ve chosen you to follow through
with every single molecule
deliver the final blow
like Apollo Crews.

The hollow truth
will swallow you
like it did your ardent youth.
Though I’m starving too

I was guarding you
from the garden tomb.

I’m sorry darling,
but your youth must bloom.


© Matthew Harlovic
Matthew Harlovic Mar 2015
I've said, "I'm sorry."
More than I've said, "I love you."
I'm sorry for that.

© Matthew Harlovic
Matthew Harlovic Sep 2016
i fell short of breath
or it fell before me
as i explored your temple
and your décor is quite lovely.

© Matthew Harlovic
Matthew Harlovic Nov 2014
As horrid as it seems,
society cannot exist without inequality.

©  Matthew Harlovic
Matthew Harlovic Mar 2015
You use ink for your skin. I use ink for my notebooks.
But it seems to me that we have a common interest.

© Matthew Harlovic
Matthew Harlovic May 2015
Inviting security of the self,
invites insecurity within our lives.

© Matthew Harlovic
Matthew Harlovic Oct 2014
I am just so ******* tired
to finally be awake

© Matthew Harlovic
Matthew Harlovic Nov 2014
If independence is intended
for the masses is the Average Joe
as abnormal as the status quo?

© Matthew Harlovic
Matthew Harlovic Feb 2016
Hi. My name is Matt.
My brain is in a vat.
I exist in the eyes
of Schrödinger's cat.

© Matthew Harlovic
iou
Matthew Harlovic Oct 2016
iou
you cannot equate my fate
with the likes of yours,
you cannot narrate
what i might endure,
you cannot gestate
the weight, nor labor,
because it predates
the state of our nature
but moving forward is
predicated on behavior
so i'll be a good neighbor
and do you the favor.

© Matthew Harlovic
Matthew Harlovic May 2018
The lights in the room have dimmed and pearled.
She’s in the mood to read some Teasdale.
I ease the ailment then appease her needs.
I open the window to let in a breeze.

© Matthew Harlovic
Matthew Harlovic Oct 2016
i have not heard your variation
in quite a while nor have i seen
a laugh in your smile.

© Matthew Harlovic
Matthew Harlovic Feb 2016
To my bloomed beauty,
oh my flower in the sun,
you were my Janis.

© Matthew Harlovic
Matthew Harlovic Jul 2017
she stabbed a cig in her lips just to sip the smoke
as i tripped off the second hand secrecy she spoke
i was choked up. i couldn’t cough out a comeback
for comfort as she drew a new one from the pack.

those ivory black irises lacked pigment.
they looked as bleak as the stars in the distance
or was it just a figment of my inhibitions?
or some innocent incident that kicked in my skepticism?

in an instant my instincts clicked in again,
it was getting late so we made our way down the bend
and in the end, my intent was never met
but she did teach me something that I’ll never forget.

she said "a habit is a habit, somehow we gotta have it.
i know it may be tragic but somehow we gotta have it.
a habit is a habit, somehow we gotta have it
and someday we’ll drag it down to our caskets".

she tried to play a queen in a king’s reign
but you can’t share the wealth if you’re the one who pays.
we’re drawn by the waste, we’re taunted by the taste
but maybe someday you’ll get your life straight

and so we laid waste beneath the marble moon
as the tar tore off her taste buds as the ashes bloomed.
as her charcoal perfume loomed in the moonlight
as my hands laid on her waist, waiting for a goodnight kiss.

but with a bit of luck, i could’ve caught
a little more than smoke in my tear ducts.
aw shucks, i should’ve known a lot better.
she may have had a halo but her wings were severed

and never will i ever make the same mistake twice.
if you break my heart once, i’ll be gone by daylight.
i promise that you’ll wake up all alone tomorrow
and i know for sure you’ll light another Marlboro.

smothered by my sorrows, i know how it’s tragic
but a habit is a habit, somehow we gotta have it.
a habit is a habit, somehow we gotta have it
and someday we’ll drag it down to our caskets.

© Matthew Harlovic
I'm not your every-day, run of the mill rapper. I'm a story teller.
In essence, I think rap is rhythm AND poetry.
If you want to hear my poem to music, copy and paste this link:
https://soundcloud.com/outtatune-1/julys-******
Matthew Harlovic Jun 2016
A chemical imbalance
of dope and dopamine
opened a gateway to
her infernal machine
but her callous indifference
to change her routine,
only nurtured her aggression
towards maternal genes.

© Matthew Harlovic
Matthew Harlovic Feb 2016
To my bloomed beauty,
we wilted in the winter
but we won’t wither.

© Matthew Harlovic
See the poem, Bloomed Beauty for the full effect.
http://hellopoetry.com/poem/641069/bloomed-beauty/
Matthew Harlovic Jul 2016
she kissed and told
the world my secrets,
stole my strength and
gave to me weakness.

© Matthew Harlovic
Matthew Harlovic Jul 2017
i am leaving soon
so forgive me if i speak bluntly
but what are we achieving in this country?
to think, we hung the moon and stars.
i’m stung by the pungent stench of cars.
fix the carbon sink or tend to the garden.
lend a hand out to those who are starving.
Darwin would loathe our progress.
i thought old growth was both
a blessing and a curse
but things only worsen
the more we nurse them.
clip the wings of a serpent

© Matthew Harlovic
watched A Day The Earth Stood Still and was inspired
Matthew Harlovic Jan 2018
when they replaced my half-torn slip-ons with velcro, i laced up.
orange jumpsuits pushed lunch trays and sized from the waist up.

© Matthew Harlovic
Matthew Harlovic Oct 2016
you can waver with the leaves
of absence from your giving tree
but you'll outlive the doubts
you once had for me.

© Matthew Harlovic
Matthew Harlovic Nov 2014
Rick* - Are things getting better or worse between you two?
Matt - Well…things aren’t getting worse so that’s much better.
Rick - What’s so much better about it?
Matt - Everything…everyone...
Rick - In *every
way?
Matt - More or less.
Rick - Less is more, even more so.
Matt - On what terms?
Rick - Everything.
Matt - Everything seems to be getting worse.
Rick - Are you two together for the better or for the worse?
Matt - We’re together to get better, not worse.
Rick - But, who’s getting better?
Matt - We both are. But we’re still love sick.
Rick - Or are you still sick of love?
Matt - No, I really do love her.
Rick - As sick as it sounds, I’m proud of you.
                 Rick walks out of the room

© Matthew Harlovic
This is old conversation that I thought was rather poetic, more so, philosophical. Back and forth we conversed about love.
Matthew Harlovic Dec 2017
An endless darkness of eternal life!
I wanna hear the voice of consolation.
You forget all about internal strife,
dreaming a life without temptation.

© Matthew Harlovic
Matthew Harlovic Aug 2017
if life gives you limes,
squeeze the light
out of it

© Matthew Harlovic
Matthew Harlovic Jun 2016
I’ve lived, I’ve learned,
I’ve shifted through patterns.
I took a bad turn and acted like nothing mattered
but I found myself in the mix of the matter
and found I’m not limited by my lines of Saturn.

© Matthew Harlovic
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