You are beautiful.
Even with the bags under your eyes from your many sleepless nights.
Even with the stretchmarks on your thighs that you hate.
Even with scars you bare on your skin when you just wanted relief.
It didn't matter if you aren't the prettiest girl out there but to me, you are the most beautiful, with the most beautiful soul that is the only one that matters to me.
Even if you think yourself as crazy and odd.
Even if you only wear sweat pants and ratty t-shirt you always wore.
You are beautiful.
Never let others say that you aren't.


{E.I}

I wish
You would have not
Looked
The other way.

{E.I}

I Wish
You could
Hear what
I really want
To say.

{E.I}

As she slowly moved away from him,
Her lips parted from his,
He felt like he couldn't breathe.
He couldn't inhale the air around him,
Like she was his lifeline.
His only hope in living.
Without the air that is she,
He felt like he was drowning,
Pulled down into the depts of the water.
Like he couldn't live without her.
At that moment,
As he stared into her blue eyes,
He knew what he was going get into
And he was falling fast.

{E.I}

I fake a smile
So he won't see
The pain I feel
Within me.

{E.I}

It doesn't matter how much they push you down.
It doesn't matter how much it hurts as they hit you till bleed, with bruises and cuts all over.
It doesn't matter how painful it is to just get up on your feet and move forward.
Because,
when you reach to the end of the line;
what you wanted, what you dreamed of,
will be there waiting for you.
And
every hardships and sacrifices you've made now seems worth it.
Just don't give up,
even if the challenges you had then were unbearable.

{ E.I }

Physically, she's okay, but emotionally she's got cuts and bruises.

{ E.I }

The funny thing is that we're the same, you and I, we both don't want to be alone. But the difference is that you try to be with someone to fill that loneliness even if what you had was temporary while I, on the other hand, try to contain the emptyness to myself causing the darkness to slowly consume me.

{ E.I }

I'd rather be crazy weird than be normal for you.

{ E.I }

I couldn't forget of your warm touch on my skin.

{ E.I }

They say I don't know real hardships. But they don't know that I do know. In years from now, I'll be the only one left. I'll probably be left with my hardships alone, all by myself when you had someone to guide you through while I would have no one but myself. Do you ever had the time to ask me what I'm thinking? What I'm actually feeling? No, you didn't.
Yes, I'm still young. Yes, I don't know what you've gone through. But you didn't have the right to say that I didn't have any hardships. When I one day experience what you're gone through, it wouldn't be the same though. I probably wouldn't have the one thing you had, the two lights that guide you through the darks of the world.
And that scares me.

{E.I}

Though broken,
your smile still managed to make me fall.

{ E.I }

All I wanted was to feel loved, is that wrong?

{E.I}

But you also ruined my mascara from all your hurting.

{E.I}

You make my red lipstick smudged from all your kisses...

{E.I}

"Oh my love future husband, I'm fine, I'm okay. But I know you know that I'm only lying. The world throws every challenge at me and somehow I thought I couldn't actually take it anymore. But then, I thought of you; of how you're somewhere out there praying to Allah for me to be okay. And so, for you, I'll be strong. I'll take every single thing the world throws at me. May it be heartbreak, grief or sorrow, I'll take it, stand tall, and simply make them let me be stronger. I know that everything happens for a reason, and every journey and hardships that I faced will somehow but for sure will lead to you and your love for me.
Oh my dear, I can't wait until the day that our paths cross and you become the one to hold my heart dearly forever.
Oh my future husband, every hardship I'll face will be worth it, I'll be a better woman, for you. I know the road is long and it'll be hard to continue moving forward but I'll always remember that the end of the road, you'll be there waiting for me, when Allah wants us to finally meet, and every pain I've felt before will soothed and ease just by the presence of you next to me, and then I'll finally understand the reason why I've gone through all those hardships and trials.
Oh my darling future husband, I'll stay strong, I'll stand tall, until you're here by my side. Until then, I'll continue on moving forward and accept every trials Allah gives to me."

- { E.I }

Is like trying
to walk with
your feet cemented
to the ground.

{ E.I }

"** Books are like drugs.
They help me forget the pain of reality, even if it's only for a moment. "

- {E.I}

It was raining. It was cold. The sleeve of my shirt sticking to my skin, my flats wet and ***** from the mud and rain.

Suddenly, the rain stopped pouring down on me and a shadow loomed over me. I looked up, I saw him.

He was the one who shield me, rather than shielding himself. Held me so close, just so I wouldn't get wet. We laughed at how ridiculous we look as people stare at us. Cramped together under the small pink umbrella; our shoulders touching, our hands touched slightly.

If I knew what he had thought at that moment,
I wouldn't know what I'd do.

{ E.I }

Why do you keep shoving away those who actually care?

{ E.I }

I'm no good
I don't deserve you
because I would wish for the person you like
to have someone else,
Just so you
could finally notice me.

{ E.I }

Pictures contains millions of buried feelings and unsaid words within.

{E.I}

At the touch of his warm skin,
my heart quickens.

{ E.I }

Finally,
my fractured heart beats for
someone other than you.

{ E.I }

Have you ever have this feeling
where you feel like your heart is breaking,
while at the same time,
it's like one of your limps were torn from your body,
like walking on fire and broken glass,
like being stabbed repeatedly,
like being punched in the guts,
like being betrayed by someone you trust your life to.
It's all of those, but altogether at the same time, at the same moment.
This feeling was never instant,
but
it's long-lasting.
Do you know this feeling?
Because
it's what I'm feeling.

{ E.I }

If you ask her why she still love him,
She will answer that
she do not know.
Yes, he did more bad than good to her.
But there was something,
something about him
that kept her from forgetting him.
Maybe it's the little things he did for her.
Or,
Maybe it's just fact that
he was just as broken as she is.
She do not know.

{ E.I }

His love never really existed. It's just a heart-rending illusion.

{ E.I }

I'm drowning in this ocean where you do not exist.

{E.I}

She doesn't mind staying even if she's been left behind.

{ E.I }

Let's go back to the beginning,
to the time before there was a 'you and I',
when there's only a 'You' and an 'I',
so that there won't ever be an ending
because
"Why end something that never had a beginning?"

{ E.I }

It's weird how you can easily forget something you thought that mattered.

{ E.I }