Ever felt so emotionally drained that you just... can’t?
• can’t cry,
Feeling - really emotionally
From solid, continuous rings
Consistent - Chain...
He can be saved
A ship destined to sink.
Agent Sea of the massive desert,
Build a forest on the steppe...
My feeling disappears in the chain,
You'll see you until...
Physically you heal
Emotionally it takes
Time to be
We can finally talk again
And I want to see you around
But I'm just so tired
Of talking right now
And I'd rather die
Than let you down
But I'm just so tired
Of people right now
Oh my god I'm ******* tired.
“It hurt. It hurt even more because you were close to me. It hurt because I cared about what you thought and said. You mattered to me, and that created a soft spot for you. But you left me. You betrayed me. You lied with the empty words. And you pushed me every time I came close with an act of care.
Now you say I am cold and emotionally distant. But that’s what I had to do to avoid being crippled by the emotional and mental wounds and scars, for I had enough. I am not a fool anymore; I know how this goes. Because every time I open up, all it does is hurt. So now every time you hurt me, the less I cry. Every time you leave me, the quicker these tears dry. And every time you walk out, the less I love you. Because every time it happens, the less you matter to me. So I am not going to let you close to me, even though you mean the most to me and I mean the most to you; in case you leave me in the dirt. Because the truth is baby, I am just protecting my innocence, heart, mind and soul now.”
Inspired by: Sam Smith - Too Good At Goodbyes
Physically, I'm okay, emotionally I am colder than any winter.
First you gain my absolute trust
Then you get close to my friend
Next you start dating her
Finally you emotionally manipulate her.
But guess what?
She’s actually fine
Because she knows what she’s gotta do
To help herself
You talk about being newly popular
But I bet you’re a scared little girl
A scared newbie
Who tried to hurt my friend
Just because you didn’t get your way
You decide to **** talk a group
Right after you knew they almost got hurt
And you didn’t care
But you expect everyone to drop everything
And help you when you feel hurt
I’m ******* done
Done with your *******
Done with your toxicity
Done with how you act to others
Done with you
You manipulative little girl
You’re only gonna get worse
I could see that from the moment I met you
Don’t ******* come back
You won’t be welcome
What does it mean to be
My manic thoughts keep me starving for
An imagined happy
“Are you single?” They asked
Well, my heart is as open as an old wound
That reopens & bleeds & scars for
Yet closed in the sense that it shuts down
Every time it starts to feel something
As if in self defense
I guess you could say my heart was a
Twisted & distanced kind of available...
I’m not available in my mind
Because it knows better than my
The human container that’s headstrong
To it’s gullible nature
My thinking ***** knows that
Vicarious happy is not real happy
Which labels my forehead like a neon sign
I crave a validation that looks like your love
But it won’t fix me
Or provide the happiness I
Desperately need for myself
You can’t love yourself through somebody else