medusa has cried
an ocean full
from her
tears

but athena's heart
played the game
to not trust
her

when she was a human
when athena's cursed
made her hairs
turn into a
snake

her blood full of powers
she never demanded

i wonder
what would have happened
if athena trusted medusa

what the story would be like?

you were standing
at the exit
but
my love–
i am too bruised and wounded
to again hope
for finding the
right path towards
a wall
which isn't
a dead end

my love
maybe you are
at the right place
but i am not
the person
whose
meant
to find
you


the
      dis      tance
between
us is too vast


accept my apologies
stop waiting–
and hold his hands
who comes to you
like a moth would find fire

i truly wished to be your fire
maybe that was just
meant to be
one-sided love

so just go away
when love
comes to you

as all i see are
dead ends–
no exit
where
you
stand

don't cry
when you hold his hand
this was meant to happen
it's okay
don't let your soul
carry the blame
which you
never deserved

you fulfilled the part of your
promise
it was me
who was weak
against all odds

what if you are not
the only one
waiting
for
love?

what if your
soulmate
has been
destined
with the
same
wait?

will you consider
the possibility
of this
what if?

he said i was the
aphrodite–
to his soul
who was deprived of love
alas i never knew
he was referring me to
the greek goddess,
aphrodite
who cheated on hephaestus
with ares,
the god of war–
but this time around
it was you who cheated on me
just because you thought
history will repeat itself,
that i will cheat on you
when i was not even the real aphrodite
you already assumed my answers
to questions you never asked–
so you decided
to become an accomplice of sin
aphrodite was a sinner
but once a sinner is never always a sinner
maybe you forgot to see
you were never hephaestus to me either
you were ares to aphrodite
who give birth to eros,
the god of love–
to express her love for you
looks like both you and me
were doomed
when it comes to the matters
of love

it's valentines day
where i can easily go on
a date
with myself
cause dating yourself
ain't a bad idea

you never visited me
while
            waiting
                             for you
i became part of the earth
as a fossils
whom you walked on

cherry blossoms
are like peace for the eyes,
if you see them once

weird things happen once
good things happen once
why everything
happens
once?

i feel suffocated
by your words
it's so easy for you to say
i love you
but can you admit
you don't mean them,
you big meanie

they said
to do what i loved
when i tried to do it
they strangled me, saying
why do this
it doesn't suit you

i came back to see
the notifications
but you left a message
which made my day

call hypnos
the Greek God of sleep
to cast me under his spell
as all i wanted was
to cherish a
goodnight
sleep.

blame is like a posion
no one wants to carry its weight
so they pass it onto you
as you're considered
a pushover
in their language

my problems are too much
how can i bother
to celebrate
new year?

not just only tell me
to stop hating my body
teach me
how to do it
saying is easy than doing

i prepare everything of
what to do
when i'm in pain
but when pain knocks
on the door
i forget every plan

self-harming your body
is not going
to end
the
pain

i hated my body
but today i realized
that hate was never emerged
from my heart
it was the insecurity of others
they sprinkled it like salt on me
to feel superior
and what a stupid soul i was
just to fit in small size
i hated my curves
like i wasn't meant to be pretty
as the standards were to small
for my double XL size

my tears formed an ocean
caused by your misfortune
but you could just see
the rain dripping
on her face

if love could say anything
it will demand
answers
from those
who used the name of love
for hurting a heart
where love bloomed

not everyone can see love
smiling in the eyes
it's a trick
given as a treat
to those who dare
to fall in love

they said look at yourself
in the mirror
and when i did
all i saw a girl
who couldn't say no
who was tired of doing
things she couldn't love
who forgot to smile when
she saw the things she liked
the reflection in mirror
was telling a story
she never thought
could be written for her
can she cry now?
she asked
but shook her head
as this society was not going
to give her the privilege
of being her true self

why we hurt and heal
in silence
like it's a must step
we all go through
to proof we are humans

if wait is not worth the
reward
then why humans
die wishing
one day
it will all get better
does that ever get better?

it was only a hug
they said–
but i had
no words
to narrate
how it's warmth
saved my bones from
breaking
d
   o
       w
            n

they answered
acceptance
will cure your fears
but my question was different
will accepting my fears
will no longer give me
anxiety
or
panic attacks
either way even the situations were
different
they outcome was the same
me drenched in fears
every night

she was a princess
who desired for a sword and horse
not a prince
who could fight her battles
when she got the
crown on her head
and same power

i like side characters
whose stories go along with
main story
despite all that
i don't won't to become a
side character
in someone's love story
before finding my one
does that make me selfish
in the world full of stories with
happy endings

i know you feel alone
but have you heard the stories
our nanny use to narrate every night of
m o o n
whose lonely on the sky
but we forget to see
how sun follows the moon
then moon repeats this pattern
in the end
so you think
was moon lonely on the sky?
God has always made a pair for everyone
you just need to either wait like a princess or be a queen
to find your the one

maybe you try
and you will reach the top
and realize you don't belong there
then it's okay to come back
to the place
where belonging was waiting
for you

the people who holds
the residency seats of this world says
everything should have a shape,
they should have their definitive boundaries
that should never be crossed
but i said to the world
don't limit my things with lines around it
they are born free—
let them stay free
as i want to go beyond your boundaries
the way i hold love
it was not bound to any shape
but society never stopped
defining my definition of love
maybe their insecurities was the reason
for forcing me to accept their decision
but i would never try to capture love
in the cage of shape
i will never dishonor love
with discrimination, with judgment
i promised love
that when it will enter my life
i will give it a authority to stay as it wants
and a true lover never back out
from their words."

i wish to see my heart
without a hole
from where all the
e m p t i n e s s
in the world
comes
and decide
to reside
in it

overthinking is like
killing yourself
with your own hands
this way you don't need
to hire a killer for yourself to die

if history  r e p e a t
itself then why they say
it happens only
once upon a time?

curiosity alone
can cause problems,
but when it mingles
with resilience
you create a different story

just to become someone
who never get hurts;
i try to become an  i m m o r t a l
who lives long,
without feeling sad
to say goodbye to those
who was once standing by his side

not every
Q u e en
asks for a King,
but Kings sure do ask for
q u e e n s!

don't label what i do as wrong,
because what you do
is what i can't
consider
r i g h t

if everything is just a memory,
tell me if i am
worthy of
that time
where you think of me
or in the end,
even when your heart
thinks of me, is really just a memory

looking up at the sky,
wishing to be a part of is
what we all dream of—
then come those
who stitch up their feathers to fly;
to prove that you can own that sky
with your efforts
rather than chillin'
if we really desired for the sky,
we had been one of those
but sadly, we can't make a difference
though it's not late

it will be a sin
if you will use someone's love for you
to forget someone's pain
left in you