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6.0k · Jul 2015
The Company We Keep
K R W Jul 2015
It’s been months since we last kissed
and I’ve been trying to figure out why love sounds more like an apology
than a confession when it comes from my mouth.

I came to the conclusion it’s because I have been emotionally unavailable
since I learned that no matter how much you love someone
it will not make them miss you.

I find myself surrounded by those who have left more than those who have stayed
so often they start to blur together.

You once said that loving me is like
constantly struggling to come up for air without ever being underwater,
but you didn’t notice I was suffocating under the absence of everyone
who had promised to stay.

Someone once told me “leave before they love you,
or you’ll stay until they don’t anymore.”

You were writing my name in cement and I was carving yours
in trees marked to be cut down, saying
“this is what happens when someone ruins you before you have a chance to ruin them.”

I’ve fallen in love with you more times than I can count,
and I’m not sure if that means I’ve fallen out of love just as many.

I kept showing you the way out because I wanted to see if you would leave
or find a way to lock the door.

I was too busy tearing them off their hinges
to notice you were desperately trying to bolt them shut.

I guess it’s only fitting I’m left asking the windowpanes where you went.

I think of the things I want to say to you like “it’s for the best”
and
“maybe it was never that good anyways”
but when I get the chance to say anything I know
all that will come out is I miss you, let me stay.

I’m trying not to let this bitterness leave a bad taste in my mouth
but you never saw the point of someone else’s lips on yours
unless they made your teeth shake,
and all I can ******* think about is you leaning in first for anyone but me.

The weight of your absence is so heavy
I can’t remember what it feels like to breathe without gasping.

There are a hundred different ways to say I miss you
but I’m stumbling over every single one
and I’ve realized you can only write about someone so much
before the only thing you can write about is the last time you saw them.

They say you’re only as good as the company you keep,
so I guess that’s why I haven’t been doing so well since you left me.
I didn't write this poem (I wish I did) but I just wanted to share it with you all because it is my favourite.
3.1k · Jan 2016
Overrated Relationships
K R W Jan 2016
Relationships are overrated.

I've got a boy I used to love and know who broke my heart but won't leave my mind.

Bestfriends that I can hardly stand the sight of,

And a family that doesn't know what I'm going through.

It seems to me that the relationships I have are as stable as my mind, yet they're the only ones I have.

K R W
Horribly written, but it's hard to put big words next to little minded people.

Don't get me wrong, I love my family. But boy they have no clue.
2.9k · Jan 2016
Untitled
K R W Jan 2016
I don't know what's worse;

The nightmares I dream or
The nightmares I live

K R W
2.5k · Jun 2015
The Burn Marks On Her Arms
K R W Jun 2015
Being grumpy
Comes with a price
                                                       (K R W)
1.7k · Jan 2016
It didn't work before
K R W Jan 2016
As if covering yourself in blankets
And wearing expensive mascara will protect your heart this time.

K R W
1.5k · Apr 2016
The Little Mermaid
K R W Apr 2016
"You don't need water to feel like you're drowning"
1.4k · Apr 2016
The Company We Keep
K R W Apr 2016
The weight of your absence is so heavy
I can’t remember what it feels like to breathe without gasping.
This isn't my poem. The full version is lower down, with the same title. I have chosen to repost this snippet as it is one of my favourite lines. I highly recommend that you go give it a read.
1.3k · Jan 2016
10 Word Poem
K R W Jan 2016
Millions of tears
Wont ever fit
Into a worthy poem

K R W
1.3k · Jun 2015
Past self
K R W Jun 2015
I'm mad at my past self,
For being such a ****-up.
But I'm sad for my future self
Because I'm too scared to do anything about it.
                                                       (K R W)
1.2k · Jun 2015
Grades
K R W Jun 2015
Why does a letter on a piece of paper
Have to determine what I do later
In this godforsaken ****** life?
Christ.
                                                   ­    (K R W)
1.1k · Jun 2015
Moved On
K R W Jun 2015
It's been two years since it finished.
Two years since the end.
And I'm still here.
Becoming accustomed to the masks as if they were my friend.

It's hard to think,
That I was once in a place,
Where I radiated happiness;
It was always surrounding my face.

But now I'm sat
Writing poems about you
Because words are my only connection
(It's sad but it's true)

I've tried so hard
To move on, I swear.
But being this girl?
It's getting me nowhere.

So I smile a say
'I'm fine, I've moved on'
When truly, moving on
Is what I've needed for so long.

                                                       (K R W)
962 · Apr 2016
Untitled
K R W Apr 2016
We're all just lost souls searching for that momentary distraction of happiness  

K R W
926 · Feb 2016
Help me forget
K R W Feb 2016
***** burns my throat but your name hurts my head
So I would rather black out with a hangover than stare blankly at my hands
Trying to forget what it was like to touch you
894 · Jan 2016
Idiot
K R W Jan 2016
I don't understand how one can hurt so badly
But continue to hurt themselves more

K R W
893 · Jan 2016
Untitled
K R W Jan 2016
They say that time is supposed to heal you
But after all these years
I've never felt more broken

K R W
882 · Jul 2015
Finally Made It
K R W Jul 2015
I don't know how yet
Or in what context
But all I know is that one day,
One day
I want to tell my story.
Of love, heartbreak.
Life, death and wanting both.
Trying to run away but instead getting lost in the haze that is my mind.
Finding comfort in a packet of cigarettes because they're really the only constant thing in my life right now.
Of failure, regrets.
Moving in body but static in mind.
But more importantly I want to be able to tell people of how I recovered from this never ending battle of self hate and loss of time.
I want to be able to finally say 'I wanted to end it all, because that - at the time - seemed to be like the easiest, most painless way out. But I didn't, and now I'm here, I finally made it.'
                                                       (K R W)
864 · Apr 2016
It's an endless cycle
K R W Apr 2016
Just give me a few days and you'll be out of my system again

K R W
848 · Aug 2015
Untitled
K R W Aug 2015
Having someone being your everything to them suddenly being your nothing is like the sun setting at night and never again rising in the morning.
                                                       (K R W)
826 · Jan 2016
Harry Potter
K R W Jan 2016
"No matter what tongue we speak or land we come from, our hearts beat as one."
784 · Jul 2015
December
K R W Jul 2015
Say you'll remember me
Even on your darkest days
When you feel I'm drifting away

Say you'll always love me
Whilst I've ran to some place new
Your thoughts of me never blue

Promise me you'll wait
Until I've found myself;
Til I can be 'oneself'

Promise me you will not cry
Even though I'm in pain
Don't bring yourself to shame

I promised you I'd never leave
But now I'm gone
But it's because of you that my spirit shon

I will always love you
Just try to remember
I'll be back with you, every December
                                                       (K R W)
765 · Jun 2015
Always
K R W Jun 2015
I'm always alone.
Whether I'm in a crowded room,
Surrounded by bodies of friends or family;
I am always alone.

I'm always lonely.
It doesn't matter if I've got people to talk to,
A shoulder to cry on;
I'm always lonely.

The worst thing about
Being mentally unstable
Isn't knowing you are
But having to live a life like no one else knows.
                                                       (K R W)
This isn't my best piece of writing, but this isn't my best day either.
740 · Jun 2015
Drowning
K R W Jun 2015
In movies you see there is a person, Emerged in water,
Surrounded by darkness and Captivated by the silence.
You see they're drowning,
You can hear them
Desperately
Taking their last and final breath
But are greeted by water instead of oxygen.
You know they're dying
And so do they.
But in a miraculous change of events
A hand comes down to save them
Or they're awoken from their nightmare.
This is my situation.
I'm emerged in life,
Surrounded by hate
And captivated by the sadness.
I can see I'm not getting better.
I can feel myself
Desperately looking for my happiness.  Instead I'm greeted by loneliness.
I know I'm dying,
So does everyone else.
But this is reality; not a movie.
There are no miracles.
No ones going to reach out their hand and save me,
I'm a life not worth saving.
How can I wake up from a nightmare When my life is one?
                                                      ( K R W)
738 · Jul 2015
Untitled
K R W Jul 2015
I just want
A love story
That's worth
Being told
                                                       (K R W)
K R W Apr 2016
Loving someone,
Who you know will never love you the same

Is similar to a dream where,
You're running through an never ending hall;

It's hopeless, disappointing,
& once you've figured out the truth?

All it does is tear you apart;
Inside out.

K R W
692 · Jan 2016
Urgh
K R W Jan 2016
I just hope that all of this living will be worth something in the end

K R W
643 · Jan 2016
Untitled
K R W Jan 2016
"We accept the love we think we deserve"
623 · Jan 2016
In every sense of the word
K R W Jan 2016
If only I grew some *****,
Life would be so much easier...

K R W
610 · Jun 2015
Untitled
K R W Jun 2015
It's the small things in life
That cost so much.  
From buying a diamond ring,
To uttering 'I love you'
                                                       (K R W)
609 · Jun 2015
-
K R W Jun 2015
-
The brave may not live forever
But the cautious?
They do not live at all.
                                                       (K R W)
K R W Apr 2016
That's why I haven't told you I love you still.
I'm too scared of the outcome.
Have you moved on completely?
Are you entirely happy with her now?

These are questions I'll never get answer to because of the simple fact that I'm too frightened to tell you that after all these years,
I'm still hopelessly, irrevocably in love with you.

K R W
512 · Jun 2015
Dull
K R W Jun 2015
I work to dull the pain
But dulling the pain doesn't work.
                                                       (K R W)
504 · Apr 2016
There isn't one
K R W Apr 2016
What's the point of loving if you don't do it with all you have?

K R W
494 · Jan 2016
The Concept Of Time
K R W Jan 2016
I don't quite understand the concept of time.
It takes seconds to break and weeks to heal.
A minute to learn something about someone and a lifetime to forget.
It's a matter of months for a baby to grow a personality yet a dose of spiteful words, handed out in seconds, for that child to be destroyed.

I never understood the concept that it takes a lifetime for something so beautiful to grow, and seconds for it to be torn apart.

K R W
490 · Jul 2016
Untitled
K R W Jul 2016
The worst part about growing up is seeing everyone else with the dreams you wanted.

K R W
470 · Sep 2015
Untitled
K R W Sep 2015
I don't know what the right thing to do is,
So I guess I'm just trying all the wrong things first.
406 · Aug 2015
Don't let me waste away
K R W Aug 2015
Is it too much to ask
For someone to say
'How are you?
And how is your day?'

Because if I'm honest
That's all I need
For someone to show
That they really care about me.

Because I sit at home
Alone all day,
With these voices in my head
Wasting me away.

They're telling me to cut
'Pop some pills, you won't be sad'
And I just need the confrontation
That it's making me mad.

All I need is a shoulder to cry on
Someone to wipe away these tears,
A companion in this mess
Because I've been like this for years.

Always alone
And never with a smile.
An extroverte living like an introverte,
Lonely all the while.
                                                       (K R W)
400 · Sep 2016
Untitled
K R W Sep 2016
Your hesitation told me more than any verbal answer could've

K R W
394 · Aug 2015
Untitled
K R W Aug 2015
I scream so loud but all they hear is the sound of their own laughter.
                                                       (K R W)
384 · Jan 2016
Untitled
K R W Jan 2016
You broke my bones until there was nothing left to me.
You've taken everything else,
Why not my soul?

K R W
K R W Jun 2015
I love my family,
But I'd prefer my sanity.
                                                       (K R W)
368 · Jan 2016
Untitled
K R W Jan 2016
Out there, that's the paper.
And me?
I'm the pen.

K R W
366 · Feb 2017
Untitled
K R W Feb 2017
There is no pain equal to being destroyed by the one who you thought would save you

K R W
363 · Jun 2015
13
K R W Jun 2015
13
If only I could smoke away the pain,
Like I do these cigarettes
                                                       (K R W)
362 · Jun 2015
Too late
K R W Jun 2015
I'm staring at a blank page because
There are no ways to express these emotions
Towards you.

My tongue
Can't cut through and
The venom from my words can't
Make you see reason.

I guess that's what it is.

I get so frustrated
With the fact that
You aren't mine
That I turn to violence.

I want to physically and emotionally hurt you
As much as you're hurting me right now
But nothing I do or say can outweigh this pain...

So I'll flip the page,
Let my blood ooze from this pen
To tell this book everything that I
Could never tell you.

Im in love with you.

Maybe it's the old you
Because I don't really know you
But I'm in love
With what we used to have.

I'm angry with you
Because you let me let you
Slip through
My fingers.

I hate you

Because you never let me appreciate
All the things you did for me from
The way you would look at me
To the way you would touch me.

How your Nobel finger tips
Would caress me too gently like I would break
To digging your pads into my skin
As if I would slip away...

But I did.

I guess you didn't hold on tight enough.

All this time I've been blaming you
For not loving me enough when
In theory you loved me too much but
I never looked at it that way thinking that I could never be loved.

Yet now the tables have turned because
I NEED you
And you're fine in your own.

All I really need is an answer.
Why don't you love me anymore?

What I'm realising now is that it was Always you
That I would throw the blame onto always
Your heart that I would rip at

I'm sorry for being an evil *****
But I'd rather thrown the blame than face
Reality:
I'm the reason you don't love me.

My actions are what caused you to
Loose your loving grasp.
My self satisfaction
Made you leave.

I'm the only one hurting,
I'm the only one in the wrong.

I love you
But now is too late of a time
To tell you.
I'm still in love with you.
                                                      ( K R W)
349 · Jul 2017
Peak
K R W Jul 2017
Fear seeps into her lung,
Halting her breath.
A memory washes over her,
Taking her back to a territory she dare not enter.
A time were life was simple,
Where the whole world was eating out of the palm of her hand.
For had her peak slipped past her?
Had the best years of her life already stormed into her life and left without a trace?
Without her even having the chance to appreciate them?
She hoped not.
For if they had,
What would the point be in waiting around for things to never get better?

(K R W)
343 · Aug 2015
Sweet Nothings
K R W Aug 2015
I wonder,
If ever you lay in bed at night
And like me before the tears threaten to fall
You think of all the times we shared.
The good, the bad and everything inbetween.
To a time you'd say I'd make your heart melt just by unexpectedly waking through your door.
Or a moment when we'd argue over sheer nothings out of fright of losing one another.
Because I always do.
My mind is always drifting off to a place where you would whisper sweet words into my ears or where I'd be kissing the red hand mark on your face trying to take away the pain I've inflicted.
I hope you have that with her now.
Moments that aren't filled with big gestures but little ones that stay with you forever, because times like now?
I feel as though they're all that's holding me together.  
                                                     ­  (K R W)
342 · Jan 2016
Parking Tickets For Souls
K R W Jan 2016
If only our lives were like parking tickets...

"Here have mine. It's still got lots of time left on it but I don't want it anymore. You can have it now."

K R W
339 · Sep 2015
Untitled
K R W Sep 2015
Fits of laughter
Or fits of pain
The inconsistency is making me insane
                                                       (K R W)
338 · Apr 2016
It Hurts
K R W Apr 2016
I suffer
That constant feeling of pain.
Which comes from watching the person you love,
Love someone else.

K R W
328 · Jul 2015
Untitled
K R W Jul 2015
All we hear
Are songs about heartbreak,
Read poems
About heartache.
I think all we really need
Is a heart shake,
To get us out
Of this mind state
                                                       (K R W)
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