Snakes and Ladders
Forever starting anew,
Seen circles of adders
Biting their tails
To the bone and through.

You got to move quick
In that place and have forethought
Forefront,
Otherwise you'll fall short
When your works not nearly done.

Beware the Ivory fangs
Flashing in the night.
Let fear butterfly into strength
And sight so you can
See which path is right.

Find a ladder
To lead away
From what made you
Madder,
Remember the feeling
Don't daunt
But it matters.

Snakes and Ladders
Beat at its own game,
You choose yours
But I threw the board
To the flame.

Seems like when
We were teens the world
Was so wide.

We could explore endless
Commons and swamps,
The world in our grasp.

When did the vice close
And the locks clasp
Closed tight.

The vision and seemingly
World defying imagination,
Got drained away by society's
Machinations.

Silky black fur,
He shined with silver flecks in the light.
Golden stray patch an inch on your paw.
How I wondered, a Black Labrador with a golden patch on his paw.

I have no recollection of your arrival.
You always was.
Spike, with the silver spikes on his black collar.

My friend when I didn't  understand what friendship was.
Maybe a tutor in compassion,
Would be what you always was.

No faith in my country,
No faith in its people,
Idiocy of indoctrination
Free minds made feeble
'Till they follow like sheeple.

It's a cage of misdirection
The information is corrupted,
The people's rage will erupt
But at each other as constructed.

It's a sickly game of monopoly,
Lock you in prison for poverty,
Can't pay your way out then you'll fester in prison,
Awaiting the day 'till some old god has risen.

Attack the unseen and prosper in glee, The vulnerable, the ones who must fight, Attach like a parasite inside raise the Fahrenheit,
They'll either **** you or you'll die by your plight, The spoils of greed & it spreads like a blight.

Persephone
The spring gardens are heavenly
The Roses blush in her presence
And are scented with her essence.

Persephone
Returning to us to quicken growth
Even the underworld can't make you morose
Life overthrows death and we embody both.

I guess the spring king has risen
Protruding from her wisdom
Growing fire everyday
Not to burn but grow and stay.

Willing death in these life making wombs
Raising up guilt like a coffin exhume,
All of the chaos don't dare to presume
All of the synthetic **** you assume.

I think we are one but divided by views
I see a six while you see the news
Resurrected from Styx and your fate I allude
But to the state and the stars you ******* collude.

I think we are one but divided by news
Media slant only shows you some views
Karmic imbalance yes the West it accrued
Born in a storm all the East children slewed.

Resurrect the Goddess & see the Summer King burn
Alive for to long his essence a concern
Abrahamic in nature foretells us our urns
Prospering marigold an infernal season turns.

No it's not simple
We stamped on our
Own spine.

We ran stampedes passed
The Line.

Now...
I couldn't tell,
I truly don't know.

If there is anything
To fight for.

Dark I know
But I pray for the day
When the sun swells
And we start again.

Oh how I lost pace

Was a stream, a river, suspended in space, I mixed with the salt and
Drifted through air.

How I lost steam,
Vapours rising higher,
But once I'm there.

I gain form again, belted to earth in a storm,
And then.

Anew, The cycle begins again.

Give me your love, life and liberties.
Give me golden awards and jewels.
You gave me your heart and on it I suffocated.
So give what's left, and I will work with it.

Empty place cold, still with lost echos.
I'd love to live and feel the rush,
Blood in my cheeks and feel the blush.
Breathe in my lungs and feel the crush.

But emptiness ensues.
So give me Life, Love And Liberty
Give me golden awards and iridescent jewels.
Give me anything to fill the void you left when you cheated.
Give me hope that it's truly me you dream about.

I just do I don't reflect
My feet are moving on cement
I want my toes to taste the sea
I want my soul to climb the tree.

I just smile but I don't mean it
Acting is within my remit
Talk so much make them believe it
Lost my soul I can't retrieve it.

I just do I don't regret
These thoughts all day I can't forget
Consumed inside I'm left alone
I paralyze... I turn to stone.

Striving for more,
I dream to have mine,
Working while sore
Looking for a simple sign.

I dream but they twist into
Nightmares:
Nightmares haunt reality.
Never ran from what scares,
But the universe is prone to brutality.

Facing the race and
The race it is truly daunting,
Stood in my place
And the race is truly daunting.

But run one must and
In theirselves trust,
Resist doubts dust
Into the future ******.

Late night- drunk text then you're calling me.
"I'm moving on"- you're stuck still stalling me.
But you can't take your cake and eat it.
Or lay quietly in the grave you made.

You're stuck still trying to claw me into the mud, saw me apart and keep me from feeling whole.

You're struck still,
How I left you stuck still.
Yet I let you **** still.

I quartered my cake and have a bite nightly,
When in your arms I'm held tightly,
I forget to hate you:
I forget that I'm the body you buried beneath a grave.
I still hope: that each other, we will save.

Little Did I Know, A Lot I Could've Guessed, Guess I Should've Grown,
A Frame To Big For Stress.

Balance An Elephant On Your Shoulder,
The Darkness Grows Its Getting Colder,
Imbalance Is Outright It Can't Get Bolder,
The Machine Is Broke No Fix With Solder.

Disenchanted I Felt Stuck, The World Will Drain Away Your Luck,
All The Energy From You ******,
Bent Over A Table You'll Be ******.

Drenched In Hate You'll Swim In Styx,
From This Fire Their Is No Fix,
From This Day Your Left With Six,
A Week To Live I Hope It Fits.

A Scorched Charred Throat You'll First For Lethe,
Enchanted Waters To Make You Forget,
A Blank Canvas Will Be What's Left,
But You've Been Cursed To Hug Regret.

Summers ago I remember. All my friends were getting together to have a drink and a BBQ. I Was So Excited! The First Summer Of Secondary School That I Actually Had Friends. The First Summer To Be Spent In The Sun, Not Hiding Behind The Curtains In My Room. Not Curled Up With Misery Or Doom. I packed a bag and got bus fair, I think mum was happy that I wasn't going to be there, not in a mean way, just glad I had some plans for my day.
Enjoying Lady Gaga On The Bus, I Got To Where I Was Going, Then I Call To Confirm The Place & I'm Told I'm Not Going.

Gas Lit and lies, My plans turned to flame and then ash.
I felt gob-smacked, In a way intimately attacked.
I Felt Sick, Apple Hard Heart In My Throat, I Felt Thick, Salt Stinging Eyes Still Afloat.
I Felt Used, Toyed Like A Game and Forgotten.
I stood at that bus stop and swallowed my pain, I stood at that bus stop and waited again, I stood at that bus stop wont sink down the drain, I've held my cards close so close it's insane.
I just wanted some friends, but was left with my brain.

Sun
Moon
Spirit
& Fire.

I awaken, sliver light slivers
In slashes stark against skin.

I burn in the night
A Sun awakened by moonlight.

I am consumed completely,
Devoured deliciously,
The moon won't sustain
The sun it has awoken.

But the cycle continues
Caught in what I saught
& love how no one
"Day" is the same.

Life reminds me I'm sane
But I remember to ensure I live.

I remember to ensure I forgive,
Love and cleanse my pain.

Sun
Moon
Spirit
& Fire,

Love in myself
My health
sparked true desire.

Eased, forget -
But am I pleased.

Life is what you make -
Happiness - I found for my own sake.

Moonlight  Sunlight
Shared in duality,
Happiness -
You shape your own
World in reality.

See me and I'm
Surely sunny
Now truly bright
Only a bit dark.

Kind of like an
Endless abyss
No less.
Nevertheless
Burns again.

Light like life
Leaving behind strife
Again.

Call me Sappy
Surely happy
Up in the sky.

The light and the blues
Looking down on the trees.

Depression Grows Like A ****,
It Attacks What You Need,
Creating Feelings Of Anxiety,
Or Cavernous Spaces Sitting Quietly.

It's The Soul Crushing Pit,
Tartarus Has Nothing On It,
Beyond The Depths Of ****,
Worse Than What Was Writ.

How Like A Leaf In The Wind Did Some Flow,
Others Like Lead In A Lake They Won't Grow,
Who Didn't Grieve When The Inner Youth Died,
How Did You Know I Was Blunted Inside?

How Can I Breath When I Feel Like Its Stolen,
How Can I Stand When My Ankles Are Swollen,
Burnt Down To The Wick But I'm Never Off Sick,
I Never Break Even & I'll Never Brick.

I Should Decide If I Should Be Revived,
A Broken Part Of Me This Shell Is Derived,
Recoveries Road But I Didn't Drive.
I Woke Up But I Didn't Survive.

Chewed through your aura
Like liquorice All sorts.
I could taste the darkness
But feel the soft places in you.

I could taste light linger
In you.

You say you're plain evil,
Insane and satans reflection.
I just see a hurt human begging
For affection.

Love and direction,
Can lead a horse to water.
But you need to move
And satisfy dry lips with
A sip.

In order to breathe
And find fire in your breath,
To live you can't leave
You've got to find what's left!

The taste of you
Might leave souls blue.
But Behold - Nothing New,
In me resides the taste in you.

Don't speak on the matter
I found a batter
Spit on the ball
Dissolve into matter.

Don't hold on my hand
Or step on my tail
Loose like some sand
Your bound now to fail.

Mouth 'round my name
Your playing my game,
I brought the flame
So combust into matter.

Saying I'm ****
Your dressed in some tatters
Hum on my ****
In your face till it splatters.

Teasing Me, Pleasing Me,
Biting & Binding Me,
The Pain Isn't Blinding Me,
The Thrill It's Reminding Me.

The Love Of All This,
The ****** & Bliss,
The Rough Hands & Warm Nights,
The Soft Skin & Ripped Tights.

My Chest Is Vibrating,
The Pulse Of Us Mating,
The Moans Reverberating,
Our Love's Rehydrating.

All Of Our Pitfalls & All Of Our Highs,
Love Told The Truth Against A Tongue Full Of Lies,
I See The Love Like A Flame In Your Eyes,
I Know Our Feelings Have Doubled In Size.

The moon hung high in the sky,
I was floating on waves of affection,
You held me grounded in your arms.

My heart races with something unknown.
The sand was cool beneath my feet,
But wrapped in your arms I was warm.

The ocean sang a song to the moon,
Caught in its rhythm we danced,
We tripped, kissed and laughed at unspoken jokes.
Hearts pounding frantically for each other.

On the beach with you,
Bathed in silver light,
I let love flow through me
Healed and happy in you arms.

I Fell In Love With The Fire (.)
I Always Try But I Never Tire,
I Won't Confront The Purest Liar (.)
Sat On The Point Of A Churches Spire.

I Won't Listen To His Hate Speech (.) I Think Of Comets 'Cause I'm Out Of Reach,
He Bristles When You Question (.)
'Cause These Thistles Have No Answers.

Prickling Up But Steadily Firing Missiles Up,
Tickles My Gut Preaching Biblical Love,
These People Are Vessels That Jesus Won't Touch,
Whilst Holding Their Crosses It All To Much.

I Won't Drink The Holy Host (.)
I'll Char That Flesh Like Toast,
I Won't Feast Upon Your Doubt (.)
Because The Beast Knows I'm About.

Satanic Child So Demonically Wild,
I Set The Scene & Keep Them All Riled,
4 Sets Of Talons But I Had Them Filed,
Compared To The Devil I'm Certainly Mild.

Kids Eating Tide Pods For The Gram,
Drink A Bit Of Bleach For The Gram,
Drain A Bottle Of Liquor For Gram,
Lit In Flammable Liquids For The Gram.

Kids Addicted To Attention,
Self Worth Decided By Likes,
These Kids Need Detention,
Gone Are The Days Of Just Riding Bikes.

Gone Are The Days Of Just Being Young,
Ageing Before Time Is Like Ash On Your Tongue,
When You Finally Realise You'll Feel Like You've Been Stung,
This Image Of Reality To Which You Have Clung.

People Are Hungering To Be Adored,
Validation From People Is Just What They Hoard,
Cant Just Judge The Youth They Learnt From Those Before,
Don't Hate Share Your Truth
Watch Them All Fall In Awe.

We Can Change While We Learn,
Or Fall While Our Souls Burn,
Make Yourself Your Concern,
& From Envy You'll Turn.

None of theses devils gave me
A ******* thing.
I repeat, Satan and his
Sisters.
Done less than bless
And give.
They take life and never forgive.


Taking more that
Who you are,
Left like a
Dot, a star.

I can shine,
But be no more.
Sold my soul,
Cursed to be his *****.

Taking strides like strikes
Till I see my devils
Penetrated by pikes.
Through their cold beating
Hearts.

Let the black blood of hell
Run like rivers across the land,
They can't never take root,
Constantly cutting and changing.

I'll shine, sing and rhyme
But be nothing more,
In a life after death
Cursed to be his *****.

Seashells roar a deafening melody
Seashells remember a blinding old memory.

The beach with the shells
The shells that lovers would carve
The beach has its tales
Tales of lovers that starved.

Unforgiving waves with rocks as sharp as knives,
Bitter winds howling as the sea fog is growling,
This line of coast has consumed many lives,
The sea swallows the sun and the night has just begun.

The darkest night for two souls stranded on the coast,
The night where the darkness whispers secrets like a ghost,
Natures truth laid bare like the naked bodies of our lovers,
The price of knowledge was admission into the afterlife. The Lovers.

I'm feeling the night,
The stars are shielded,
Behind blind like clouds.

Foxes covered in cloud like shrouds,
Barks muffled in mist
And lost to the wind.

The night and I, our tryst,
Our plight, without fear or fright.
We sing songs to the moon and rejoice in the light.

Sing songs of love - present and lost,
Bare the truth and shoulder the cost,
Live and let live (.) Live and let love (.) Live and let loss.

I am the night,
Stars shielded,
Behind blind like clouds.

I am the night,
Comfort of mystery
And threshold illusion.

The Sun Shining Fully We're Dust-Death-Dreadfully,

Sigh It Fitfully The Bully Spitefully,

Switched On The GoalPost I'm ****** Rightfully,

Righteously ******* Up I Flee Frightfully.


Butterfly Baby Still Stuck In The Womb,

Cocoon Can't Break Out Off (.) Life Caught Me To Soon,

Sense Clicks Off (.) Before You Hit Noon,

Chaos In Threads So It's Tangled The Loom.


Words Scream From Paper The Letters Spell Doom,

Written On Walls But You're Stuck In The Room.

I Call To The Heavens, Hope I Hear From The Seraphim.
Called To The Circles,
I Circle Inferno,
Fly Away From This Hell & Into Paradiso.
Scented Petrichor On The Air, Earthly Sweetness Taken There,
Birds All Sing With Not One Care,
Scales In Balance All Is Fair.
Divine Being Six Wings Spread,
A Blinding Halo On Her Head,
Guiding The Worthy From The Dead.
To Much Light For The Darkest Dread,
So Absence Stays In The Taken's Stead,
The Chosen Rise To Sink Like Lead.

On The Sand, In The Sea, Feel The Stones Against My Feet.
Waves & Foam, Crash & Pull,
In The Middle Never Full,
In The Same I Taste Defeat,
In That Way I Am A Fool.

Salt air scalding my face & sending hair into disarray,
Sun paling the blue & turning skin red,
The sands golden hues glitter in spite of my mood.
Aware of the beauty but it's grandeur is lost on me.

Radiance & Brilliance,  
The Sun Is Truly Resilient,
The Fires Flames Are Militant,
Gaia Is Truly Diligent.

Done her duty for millennia,
Now the Sun bares down on her,
Can't contain the fire is stronger,
Burns her children & We are no longer.
One world interconnected,
If one house falls we're all effected.

The Trees.
The roots,
They penetrate.

The Leaves
The branches,
To the Sky they reach.

Rooted in Gaia,
Interconnected throughout
The universe.

The Sun
The Rain
& Howling Winds.

I stand sturdy,
Seemingly ageless in
A human minds range.

Fly with the wind.

The moon hung high
And she sings songs
Sung for millennia.

We fail to hear her somber notes.

We repeat and resurrect
Past woes and lost loves,
Lose our minds in chaotic rythm.

Ashes scatter in the wind.

We lose ourselves
Only to repeat
The same actions.

Finally The Fires Spent,
The Embers Darken Into Ash,
Hints Of Smoke Left In The Sky,
The Woodland Creatures Begin To Rise.

Finally The Rain Has Run,
Watering Crops For The Sun,
The Grain For Harvest In Due Time,
To Feed The Thousands For Their Climb.

Dawn Is Dawning On A New Day,
Mothers Fawning Over Babes,
Birds All Chirping In The Trees,
Dark To Light Across The Seas.

The Sun Is Climbing Up The Sky,
Wings Are Dry & We Can Fly,
The Rain Has Passed The Fires Spent,
The Work Continues We Don't Relent.

The Moment You Forget The Past,
Is When History Repeats At Last,
Circumstances Change But We Remain The Same,
If Only We'd Learn But We Don't It's A Shame.

The Way It's Rigged Up Know I'd Say It's A Scam,
They Fatten Them Up Then They Sacrifice Lambs,
They Beat Us & Eat Us But All The While Need Us.
Worshipping Satan So They All Need Jesus.

So Vile These Creatures
They Turn Into Preachers,
Have A Whole Seat In Fact
Fill Up The Bleachers,
You're Not A Leader So How Can You Teach Us.
Smoking Like Cedar So You'll Never Reach Us.

Purifying Fire For The Dogs With A Spire,
These Liars Like Money But They're Not Spiritually Higher,
They Give Out Confession Like It Is For Hire,
Morally Bankrupt See Evil Won't Tire.
Evil Recruits So Who Is The Buyer.

What
When
How,
Did I fall
Down the rabbit hole?

Rabbid
Habit
Stab it,
Amputate gangrenous
Limbs.

Song
And meaningless Hymms,
You never caught me
Before Satan bought me.

What?
I should've stopped
Before my balloon popped.
But the pressure was immense
Lost time, past tense
In the sun, was the fun
Ever intense.

Was I ever there...
I feel like thin air...

I'm A ***** That They Cuff,
Won't Introduce Me To Mami 'Cause I'm Not Enough,
Said That He Understands Me But He Has Turned Tough,
Now He's In My Spot So He Knows It Was Rough.

**** Your Apology,
Read The Situation In Reverse Chronology,
I Guess That Hate Is Inscribed In Your Pathology,
All Of The Stories But **** Your Mythology.

He Is An Author & He's Writing Fiction,
All Of His Tales Are Causing Me Friction,
My Words Are Aggressive It's Reflected In Diction,
He Just Loves *** (Yes) It's His Addiction.

Now That I'm Angry I'll Blind The Fire,
Now That I'm Grown I'll Bind My Desire,
I Wanted To Hurt You & Wanted To End You,
That's Emotional Growth From Where I Could Mend You.

Now When They Aim I Won't Defend You,
How When They Change & Try To Pretend To (.)  
Be The Same Person Not What They Descend To,
Playing The Game & Then They Offend You.

Tigers & Zebras (.) I Think You're A Snake,
Liars & Lovers (.) The Shame That They Take,
But It's Betrayal A Mood I Can't Shake,
Should've Known Better But I Loved A Flake.

You and your joy
You and your ****,
You and I
left the masses ashock.

You and your ***,
Through the garden you plow.
Trimming down tall dreams
And shredding fraying  
Seems.

Bedding already fragile teens.
I guess your just a predator.
A tiger in tall grass,
Your victims never last.

The Crows Caw,
Its A Close Call,
Hidden In A Ring Of Toadstool,
Had To Run Before The Roads Fall,
Against The Fey We Fare Small.

Gutted The Planet,
The Unseelie Planned It,
Flames Of War (.)
The Reptiles They Fanned It,
The Truth Is Much More (.)
But Who Here Is Candid.

Volcanic Eruption & Spiritual Disruption,
Cosmic Consumption & Intelligent Destruction.

The Fey With Their Way
Make The Earths Axis Sway,
The Night Takes The Day
While We Humans Pray.

The Crows They All Caw,
Mourning Shrouds All Fall,
Warning Clouds Will Not Stall,
But I'm Safe With The Toadstool.

I Remember A Mat With Roads And Buildings Printed On,
I Never Liked Toy Cars But I Liked The Mat.

I Remember Fleeting Details More Than Whole Scenes,
Fractured Spiderwebs Of Memory Singed To The Synapse.

I Wouldn't Have It Any Different,
I Wouldn't Bond These Broken Shards Of Thoughts To Form A Whole.

I Am Happily Secure With My Internal Black Hole.
I Am Hopelessly In Love With The Absence Of My Soul.
I Am Helplessly Addicted To Memories That I've Stole.

I feel like there's an accelerant in my mind,
Expression and impression crosses the border,
Compassion and pure passion hits the line,
In awe at all the chaos it's like I'm a hoarder.

Let me take a sip like pollen from a flower,
Transfer this pain into transcendental power,
Diffuse hopes fragrance and infuse my soul,
Refuse to compromise I'll aim for my goal.

Swallow the energy
Defy the enemy
Rise from the cemetery
Reflect with pure symmetry.

When I Traversed The Spirit World I Attempted To Wake The Dead.
The Dead Only Slept So On I Did Move, Moving Through The Spirit World.

When I Traversed The Spirit World I Tried To Play With The Fae.
But The Fae Only Dine On Fruit & Red Wine, They Tried To Circle Me To Dance For All Time, But The Dead All Stayed Dead So On I Did Move, Moving Through The Spirit World.

When I Traversed The Spirit World I Was Spotted By It's Demons.
They Hung In Packs, Slobbering For Snacks, Rearing Up To Attack,
But The Fae Fought Them Back, Im Not Their Kin But They Don't Relax.
On I Can Move With The Fae On My Tracks.

When I Traversed The Spirit World I Saw A Sight, A Giant Tall, Sat On Mountains Watching All. I Ask The Giant Where I Am, Death He Said Its Where I Began, To Wake The Dead & Free Those Scammed,
Like Myself Be Released From The ******.

I Was So Lost In The Spirit World.
A Sky High Tall Man, Sings Rules Of The Land, All Of The Tropics That Rise Up From Sand, All Of The Oceans He Wept From His Glands,
How The Whole World Once Fit In His Hand.

When I Was Lost In The Spirit World. The Giant Sang "Dance, Fall From Your Stance, Roll Around & Into A Trace," The Giant Screamed "Jump, You Can't Escape In A Slump, If You Feel Down Then You're In A Dump, If You Get High You Can Slip From The Clump."

The Fae Look With A Sneer, In The Distance Its Clear, They Chant In Their Voices & Point At Their Heads  " That Giants Not Here, Hear Us We're Here, We'll Give You Gear,
Readjust Your Whole Steer.

Think Of The Mother & Think On Your Fear, Pray To The Dead They're Never Not Near, Free Yourself From The Demons Their To Dumb To Care, Walk From The Veil & Fly From The Tear. "

High functioning,
But I'll function higher.
I'll leave you flat
Like a worn torn tyre.

Want to burn me,
But - Hell -
I've been the pyre.

Burn me or
Learn me,
And my doctrine.

But Loves more
Than a scene stealing *****,
Try and we try,
Loves more than tears
Without trying.

Beyond the fear
We find ourselves flying.
In the heat - we avoid flaying,
But love for more love
And that's how we're praying.

Life breeds life
A game we're playing,
Love being alike and it
Stops the world from fraying.

Miles for Smiles
Mere Pounds to Pound.
You gave away Rage
And locked me in a cage.

Locked me in a page
-my own advice- Sage.
Why I didn't listen,
Found myself missin'.

Heart gone. Heist.

My heart robbed and sold
Cheap and ***** I feel cold,
He wanted me to be mould
or be moulded for him.

He took all I had and more.
Heart stole in a Heist
I'm a *****,
Love bleeding out of my core.
Drab, grey
Life's a Chore.

It doesn't really matter,
Or have a place in reality.
But I care.

It's not substantial,
You can't see it.
I swear it's there.

It's not real to me,
But no less fake.
It makes me feel.

It's present and past,
Never could last.
But it helps me heal.

Crying would be
Cathartic
But I'd rather be rid
Of you.

Laughing would bubble insanity
So I'll sit silently
Till you leave.

I'll hold my breath and
When in the presence of death

Finally breathe.

Semblance of Balance.
Serenity and Divinty.

Cast out doubt,
Draw in might,
Cast out hate
&
Draw in light.