Vic: Poems

Vic May 2019

I thought I was clean,
After 5 months no drugs and alcohol.
I thought I was safe,
After six months of not hurting myself.
Guess I was wrong.
Whatever.

A poem every day.

#clean #note #49 #drugs #alcohol #suicide

Note 4: Your fingerprints on my skin

Vic Mar 2019

Note 4: Your fingerprints on my skin

Finally, at last.
I thought you'd never leave my mind.
But today, for the first time in 142 days.
I didn't woke up,
Thinking about you.
Surprisingly, I never thought this was love.
Just a stupid remedy,
For a self broken heart.
But dispite the fact I'm not thinking about you.
You still left your fingerprints on my skin.
And your voice in my ears.

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I'm writing a small poem every day, about how I feel or the world around me. This is #4

#note #4 #fingerprints #skin #love #think #142 #broken #heart #mind

Note 50: Please don't

Vic May 2019

Note 50: Please don't

Please don't spoil endgame...

A poem every day.

#note #50 #please #dont #endgame #spoilers

Note 51: Alone

Vic May 2019

Note 51: Alone

And I'm here again,
Standing alone in the hallway.
Is my company not enough for you?
Are my laughs not pure enough for you?
Am I worthless to you when I'm alone?
Do I not fulfill your expectations?
Can you please tell me what's going on?
I'll feel alone with a reason.

A poem every day

#note #51 #alone #friends #depression

Note 52: Think

Vic May 2019

Note 52: Think

I think about you so much,
You don't even know.

A poem every day.

#note #52 #think #you #love #know

Note 53: Scary

Vic May 2019

Note 53: Scary

I can be scary if I want to.
Chase you in your nightmares,
Or hide under your bed.
I can cut your throat or slide your wrists,
I can summon a demon or
I could set you on fire.
But if I really want to torture you,
I'll love you,
Until we meet again...

~~

Say hi to Satan from me

A poem every day.

#note #53 #scary #horror #me #monster

Note 543:

Vic Dec 2020

Note 543:

The world just winked at me
When the trees turned white
And the air turned blue
But my nose stayed red
You're glowing too
My breath evaporates
In a cloud of emptiness
Like the thoughts in my head
Baby, we're a mess
But the world is smiling at us

A poem every day
10/9/20

#note #543 #love #world #smile

Note 54: Kill me

Vic May 2019

Note 54: **** me

Yeet

A poem every day.

#note #54 #**** #me #yeet #depression

Note 556:

Vic Dec 2020

Note 556:

Like ink on parchment your lies flow into my ear
Speaking beautiful pretence, with such confidence
I wish I knew if it was true, yet I can't seem to find
Why you fill me with so much diffidence

A poem every day
22/9/20

#note #556 #love #boy #lies

Note 55: Leave

Vic May 2019

Note 55: Leave

You asked me to leave
So I did
I'll never get to know
If you noticed
That I left

A poem every day.

#note #55 #leave #love #notice

Note 562:

Vic Dec 2020

Note 562:

I'd light the world on fire to be with you
Which is slightly problematic
Because then we'd have nowhere to stay
Unless you'll take me to the moon someday

A poem every day
28/9/20

#note #562 #love #arson #boy

Note 565:

Vic Dec 2020

Note 565:

The world might shift
But my love for you never will

A poem every day
1/10/20

dec 21 amirite

#note #565

Note 568:

Vic Dec 2020

Note 568:

II - The High Priestess

You're filled with mystery and knowlegde
Full of spiritual love, and youth
You use your heart and not your mind
To find the answers and the truth

Yet you keep the secrets locked
Painful gossip fills the air
Your thoughts irrational and self destructive
You must learn how to share

A poem every day
4/10/20

#note #568 #tarot #tarotcards #thehighpriestess #highpriestess

Note 56: twilight

Vic May 2019

Note 56: twilight

From sunrise until twilight,
My love for you is red like your blood.
From sundown until morning light,
My love for you is black, like the leaves dried
From the rose I wanted to give you
But never did.
Oh darling,
Isn't it lovely to be in so much pain?

A poem every day

#note #56 #twilight #love #blood #light #rose #darling #pain #depression

Note 572:

Vic Dec 2020

Note 572:

VI - The lovers

Your love is stronger than the wind
Full of rythm and harmony
But an important choice must be made
It's a choice to change your life, you must be ready

Do not be tempted by the devil
For their love is sour like an apple
Listen to your lover and yourself
Before your choices make your love ripple

A poem every day
8/10/20

#note #572 #tarot #tarotcards #lovers #thelovers

Note 57: Happy

Vic May 2019

Note 57: Happy

Hey, You wrote a happy poem!
Oh wait, nevermind.

~ You

(Credits to porpor for saying this

A poem every day.

#note #57 #happy #depression #sad #you #quote

Note 58: Self-pity

Vic May 2019

Note 58: Self-pity

Is having self-pity
So much different than lying?

A poem every day.

#note #58 #selfpity #lies

Note 59: Yup

Vic May 2019

Note 59: Yup

59 days of depression.

A poem every day.

#note #59 #yup #depression #days

Note 5: Most of my poetry isn't even poetry anymore

Vic Mar 2019

Note 5: Most of my poetry isn't even poetry anymore

Poetry tells a story.
But what if the poem,
Turns into the story?

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I'm writing a small poem every day, about how I feel or the world around me. This is #5

#note #5 #poem #poetry #story

Note 60: In, Out

Vic May 2019

Note 60: In, Out

Breathe
In
Out
You'll be okay

-

In
Out
Feeling fine

-

In
Out
Yes, I'm happy

-

In
Out
I'm not suicidal

-

In Out
We're not going faster

-

In Out
Not cutting myself tonight

-

In Out
Don't be anxious

-

Inout
Get away that knife

-

Out
Never in

A poem every day.

#note #60 #in #out #breathe #depression #anexiety #suicide #knife

Note 61: Fine

Vic May 2019

Note 61: Fine

I'm fine
I'm fine
I'm fine
Repeat

A poem every day.

#note #61 #fine #repeat #depression

Note 62: Teachers

Vic May 2019

Note 62: Teachers

Do the teachers
Dislike me as much,
As I dislike them?
It would explain their face...
; l

A poem every day.

#note #62 #teachers #dislike #face #mood

Note 63: Thank you people.

Vic May 2019

Note 63: Thank you people.

I just wanted to say a quick thank you,
To all the people out here.
For their support,
And loving poetry.
And for their understanding.
I'm really glad I can say,
That I'm a part of this "community."
I'm really grateful.
Stay Safe,
Take care,
And I'll see you all
Back there.

A poem every day.

#note #63 #thank #you #people #hellopoetry #poet

Note 64: Songs

Vic May 2019

Note 64: Songs

Do you have certain songs,
That reming you of certain people?
Just a normal song,
And suddenly you cry.
You are the song stuck in my head,
And it's a **** sad song baby.

A poem every day.

#note #64 #song #sad #depression #love #people #crush #baby

Note 65: Gone

Vic May 2019

Note 65: Gone

The evil in your life will only go,
Once all the good has left.

A poem every day.

#note #65 #gone #good #evil #life #left

Note 66: Always

Vic May 2019

Note 66: Always

Does always exist?
Or do we mean
As long as I love you?

A poem every day.

#note #66 #always #love #lies

Note 67: You'll fall

Vic May 2019

Note 67: You'll fall

It will grant you mistakes
And hurtful blisters
But it will make you wiser

A poem every day.

#note #67 #fall #mistakes #blisters #hurt #wiser #change

Note 68: English class

Vic May 2019

Note 68: English class

The teacher said:
"Today we're going to write poetry."
And my brain did:
KkwfneqweHDYXNndmnhp398475iwr73cyx feha

what is wrong with me

A poem every day.

#note #68 #english #class #poetry #teachter #finally

Note 69: Do we even?

Vic May 2019

Note 69: Do we even?

A picture paints a thousand words,
A novel tells a hundred stories.
A poem shares a million thoughts,
But what do we?

A poem every day.

#note #69 #us #picture #novel #poem #words #stories #thoughts #love

Note 6: Draft

Vic Mar 2019

Note 6: Draft

Everything I see,
Turns into ideas.
Poems, paintings,
Music, art.
My life is full,
Unfinished.
Drafts everywhere.
Surrounded by
Undone paintings.
I Sometimes
Have to,
Clean it all up.
Delete, Erase,
Rip apart.
So you can go now.
I don't need you,
You're a
Worthless idea.
It's all
Worthless
Anyway

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I'm writing a small poem every day, about how I feel or the world around me. This is #6

#note #6 #painting #poem #draft #music #art #idea #love #worthless

Note 70: Poet

Vic May 2019

Note 70: Poet

Yes, I'm a ******* poet
And I'm proud of it

A poem every day.

#note #70 #poet #proud #pride #yes

Note 71: Lost

Vic May 2019

Note 71: Lost

Even if I'm stuck on an island,
Or trapped in a maze.
Without you, oh baby,
I'd be lost anyways.

A poem every day.

#note #71 #lost #baby #maze #island #love

Note 72: Always

Vic May 2019

Note 72: Always

I've always liked the moon better than the sun.
I've always painted in black, not in colour.
I've always been a little hidden, never fully exposed.
I've always written, never said.
I've always been afraid of the monster under the bed.

A poem every day.

#note #72 #always #moon #sun #black #colour #hidden #monster #exposed

Note 73: What if?

Vic May 2019

Note 73: What if?

What if
I just
Don't
Post
Something
For
3
Months

Y eah no

A poem every day.

(Sorry but I forgot to post so this was randomly made up, it's trash but it's something.)

#note #73 #what #if #poem #3 #months #poetry

Note 74: shitpost

Vic May 2019

Note 74: shitpost

The next poems
Will be shitposts
Because I'm on vacation
Sorry

A poem every day.

#note #74 #shitpost #poem #vacation #sorry

Note 75: Love u

Vic May 2019

Note 75: Love u

To all the people reading this:
I love u
I hope you have a great day
: )

A poem every day.

#note #75 #shitpost #love #people #great #day

Note 76: Swimming pool.

Vic Jun 2019

Note 76: Swimming pool.

You see so many different people
At the swimming pool.
People with a diving mask,
Checking out girl's ***.
Children splashing water
On each other's floaties.
Mothers and fathers,
Making sure their kids are safe.
Two people swimming after each other,
Flirting with no words.
Old people swimming
From one shore to the other.
People waiting in line,
To go off the water slide.
A couple constantly making out
In front of everybody.
You see very hot people,
And very ugly ones.
Small, big,
Old or young.
All those people
Have one thing in common.
They're happy.

A poem every day.

#note #76 #swimming #pool #people #happy #kids #teens #parents

Note 77: And I oop-

Vic Jun 2019

Note 77: And I oop-

Ugh it's so hot
I'm literally suffocating
Yeet

A poem every day.

#note #77 #and #i #oop #hot #sunny #sun #weather #suffocate

Note 78: Deja-vu

Vic Jun 2019

Note 78: Deja-vu

But I don't want it
To happen again

A poem every day.

#note #78 #dejavu

Note 79: somehow

Vic Jun 2019

Note 79: somehow

Somehow,
I'm still writing

A poem every day.

#note #79 #somehow #poetry

Note 7: Six feet under.

Vic Mar 2019

Note 7: Six feet under.

Six feet under,
Down the drain.
Lie my feelings,
Is my luck.
Six feet under,
Under this dirt.
Is my hapiness,
Is my love.
Six feet under,
Or hidden anywhere.
Depression is here,
Right inside me.
Six feet under,
Where we live.
I try to
Cover this sadness.
Six feet under.
I try to hide,
Alcohol, Drugs, Cigarettes.
I'm slowly suffocating.

I write a small poem every dat, about how I feel or the world around me. This is #7

#note #7 #six #feet #under #6 #depression #suicide #alcohol #drugs

Note 80: No one

Vic Jun 2019

Note 80: No one

No one,
Has ever said,
They trusted me,
Loved me,
And cared for me.
That they've been trough it all,
And wanted to make sure I'm okay.

But you did.

Thank you so much.

#note #80 #care #trust #love #friendship #sweet #depression #support #okay

Note 81: I can't keep up

Vic Jun 2019

Note 81: I can't keep up

But I'm really trying.

A poem every day

#note #81 #trying #lies #love #depression

Note 82: Did you just?

Vic Jun 2019