i had to tell you..
it hurts
so that you don't do it to someone else
i don't want anybody
to go through what you put me through
i don't want you
to hurt another soul

wedding* bells
sounded good
thought you could lead
and i would follow
so you taught me how
and showed me when
and since you have left
it's time for graduation
so sign the papers
and let me pass

i'm awake this morning
with the color of your world
so i forget the world
..and write the script
magnify it's ink
then let the blot flow through
bind what we live for
and keep this salty truth
make arms for our time
..before we defend what's ours

this is the place
where i was born
small enough to crush me
it's why few know about it
we closed all the doors to strangers
and learnt from behind its walls
and called it warm
we named it home

it's familiar
to a place i faked a smile
and the first place i cried
here, i'll always be a son
oh yes, always a son
we were taught the world
but never experienced it

but the roof and the bricks
kept us from the weather
....hot and cold...
hmm the space upon my pillow
is where i learnt to whisper
all the twitches that stained my heart

you'll always be home
always
the castle daddy owns

i am not guilty
i kissed your lips
tore your robes
rubbed your skin

i am not guilty
i read your mind
spilled your lust
made you mourn

i am not guilty
beneath diamond sky
i'll crawl by again
and paste my language

let it be in the shadows of the sunset
making secrets

wooo hooo!!
hurrah
in the puddle
where we stand
forgetting raindrops
& getting lost inside your eyes

wooo hooo!!!
i'm okay
with finding warmth
tasting drips off your pink lips
& sliding fingers through your hair

sweet sound of raindrops
the skies have joined us here
kissing in the rain

i thought we were warm enough
to understand and withstand
to be concerned about breaking
especially if it's between us

me and you wrote a song
and everybody sang along
as we dressed into love
we were great, yet so young

we had power between us
a force..and a life..

i guess this is me
a story of another loner
i will burden the earth
with my weight and volume
then leave it
just the way i came
i won't cry when i leave
i'll lay in silence
and won't move
because i understand now
more than anything
there is a better world out there
where souls have no teeth to laugh at me
and blood to make me bleed
i understand now
how flesh will betray

*how messed we still play

i learnt how to burst when i lost my trust in you
i was a rose of Eden's nights
beneath a dome of dawn's star
little could i secure...
but fairly, i was pure enough to endure
till my breath became a betrayed justice
and your warmth began to heat up
became hot..a furnace of drowning relations
for all i could be is burnt if i survived
there is nothing we could save but ourselves
cause no matter how good..
it all became a severe overdose
and the poisons embraced the reactions
..so my companion is with me
they say cold  ...
but this is one who stayed by me
wrapped my heart..woke me up at night
and said hello in the morning
after impatient sailing of goodnight kisses
i learnt how to burst when i lost my trust in you

the way you live is fragrance
turning people's senses
moving people's feelings
..you stain white hearts
then bleach black souls
..oh yes
you preach clarity
sowing memories
and feeding obsessions

..don't take me
my freedom is real