At the touch of his warm skin,
my heart quickens.

{ E.I }

It doesn't matter how much they push you down.
It doesn't matter how much it hurts as they hit you till bleed, with bruises and cuts all over.
It doesn't matter how painful it is to just get up on your feet and move forward.
Because,
when you reach to the end of the line;
what you wanted, what you dreamed of,
will be there waiting for you.
And
every hardships and sacrifices you've made now seems worth it.
Just don't give up,
even if the challenges you had then were unbearable.

{ E.I }

Why do you keep shoving away those who actually care?

{ E.I }

I seek comfort in reading ever since
You left me.

{E.I}

You are my best friend.** When you're upset, I'll be there for you to be a shoulder to cry on. When you're unhappy, I'll be there to make you laugh with my horrible singing and lame jokes. When you're heartbroken, I'll be there with a shovel to bury the heart breakers alive. Even if you're far away, I'll be there to remind you of home. When you are sick, I'll be there to take care of you even if I myself got the flu. I'll stay with you when nobody could. When you fall, I get you up. When you need someone to talk to, call me even if it's 3am on a school day. When we're 70 and forgetting, I'll be there to read you of our written journey. We'll laugh, we'll cry, take silly goofy pictures, we'll probably even fight, but that'll just make us more closer. We'll stay together till we're old and grey.

{ E.I }

Pictures contains millions of buried feelings and unsaid words within.

{E.I}

I thought if I delete you enough,
I'd finally forget.

{ E.I }

laughter sounded through the day,
smiles so bright it blinds
but as the night looms close
-- the clock closing in to 12:ooam --
the night is filled with silence
& loneliness creeps
into her heart & soul

《e.i》

If you ask her why she still love him,
She will answer that
she do not know.
Yes, he did more bad than good to her.
But there was something,
something about him
that kept her from forgetting him.
Maybe it's the little things he did for her.
Or,
Maybe it's just fact that
he was just as broken as she is.
She do not know.

{ E.I }

Darkness lurks in every corner,
He is trapped.
On his knees,
He covered his face,
Trembling like a leaf
-- as he prayed for God --
To save him from the demons
That tortures him.

{ e.i }

I can see the faint sadness in your brown eyes.

- { E.I }

"You were a siren,
A rare beauty uncompared
who beckoned the unsuspecting me -
of love, lust & happiness -
I was in a trance
Unknowingly in danger -
For I never noticed you were pulling me in,
My feet dipping in along the shore
And before I knew it,
I was drowning in the coldness -
Your blood red kisses bringing me life
that I would die without."


< e.i. >

I couldn't forget of your warm touch on my skin.

{ E.I }

I** remember how we met,
you were there sitting behind me and how I never noticed you.
You would tell me about how my childish ways caught your attention.
I remember the letters we would exchange between classes,
telling how much we adored each other.
Those late night calls and voice recordings we sent,
you would say I was beautiful even with my messy hair.
The songs you would sing,
the laughs we shared from the jokes we tell no matter how bad it was.
I remember the strolls we used to take,
and how your hand felt warm against mine.
The flowers you'd give randomly,
and that smile I adored.
This is the memories of you I remembered.

?

{ E.I }

I always thought I would never love again,
that I wouldn't love another the same way I love him.
until you caught my attention.
I don't know what it was about you,
that made me fall in love with you.
Whenever you smile,
the butterflies in my stomach comes to life.
It's like my world of monochrome finally
had colors.
With your laugh, your voice,
and the quirkiness I adore.
This feeling was different from what I felt before,
but it was a good different.
It's like I've found the thing that I didn't know I've been missing.


{ E.I }

She's not that little girl anymore.
Expectations,
Humiliations,
Condescensions,
The world
Had killed
her happiness,
her soul,
her innocence.
The body is just an empty shell,
just there for the rest of the journey.

{ e.i }

I'm drowning in this ocean where you do not exist.

{E.I}

She doesn't mind staying even if she's been left behind.

{ E.I }

I'd rather be crazy weird than be normal for you.

{ E.I }

❝ We were of differing shades in the palette of colours.
You were blue
you were as calming and tranquil as water.
I was red
I was as dangerous and wrathful as fire.
You were white
innocence, pure and good.
I was black
mysterious, and full of depth.
But funny enough,
together,
we match like the pieces of jigsaw puzzles. ❞

《 e.i 》

The funny thing is that we're the same, you and I, we both don't want to be alone. But the difference is that you try to be with someone to fill that loneliness even if what you had was temporary while I, on the other hand, try to contain the emptyness to myself causing the darkness to slowly consume me.

{ E.I }

I realize that I'm in a loveless relationship with you.

- { E.I }

Finally,
my fractured heart beats for
someone other than you.

{ E.I }

My smile is as false as the things you say.

{ E.I }

We met today at the coffee shop.
We talked, we laughed, even if it was awkward.
You told me how you still have feelings for me,
the same way I do for you.
You told me of our bittersweet past;
with the sun setting behind me, the wind breezing pass us and the sound of the waves crashing,
it was magical.
You told me that I was beautiful,
despite me only wearing a sweater and sweatpants.
It killed me how you look at me
with those twinkling eyes and the smile I love so much,
like I was the world, like I was the one you hold dear.
But you're not mine.
Not anymore,
you have another in your arms.
It was wrong, but
I wish things were different.

{E.I}

Don't expect people to be perfect
like a doll without a flaw.
Why are you expecting such things
when you're not
one without dirt as well.


《 e.i 》

The lights shine on me,
I can't seem to hide.
This is too much for me,
I can't seem to breathe.

God, save me,
Please don't go.

The walls are closing in,
There's no space for me.
This is too much for me,
I can't seem to breathe.

《 e.i 》

They say I don't know real hardships. But they don't know that I do know. In years from now, I'll be the only one left. I'll probably be left with my hardships alone, all by myself when you had someone to guide you through while I would have no one but myself. Do you ever had the time to ask me what I'm thinking? What I'm actually feeling? No, you didn't.
Yes, I'm still young. Yes, I don't know what you've gone through. But you didn't have the right to say that I didn't have any hardships. When I one day experience what you're gone through, it wouldn't be the same though. I probably wouldn't have the one thing you had, the two lights that guide you through the darks of the world.
And that scares me.

{E.I}

Though broken,
your smile still managed to make me fall.

{ E.I }

Just when I thought you're the one, you broke me.

{ E.I }

As she slowly moved away from him,
Her lips parted from his,
He felt like he couldn't breathe.
He couldn't inhale the air around him,
Like she was his lifeline.
His only hope in living.
Without the air that is she,
He felt like he was drowning,
Pulled down into the depts of the water.
Like he couldn't live without her.
At that moment,
As he stared into her blue eyes,
He knew what he was going get into
And he was falling fast.

{E.I}