You didn't want to greet me yet,
You said it's not yet 12.
I laughed and thought,
That's so much like you.

I was alone outside our house,
Seeing those kids waiting for new year.
While, I didn't feel anything but sadness.
It was just a normal day for me not like that past where everything was so great.

I stared at my phone, it's 12 already.
I suddenly heard noises.
When I looked at those kids outside,
I suddenly got a notification.

It was you,
I smiled and thought,
You really greeted me.
You were the first one to do it that day.

Oh my sunshine,
You can be an inspiration to others.
Even when you are hurt, you smile.
Even when you choked, you smile.
Oh my sunshine,
If every people in the world are like this,
Negativity will not grow,
And positivity will glow.

I looked at all my poems and noticed that 36 out of 141 were meant for you.
I just laughed and thought I really liked you.
Right, this will be the 37th one for you.
I tried liking someone else, but it always ended up with you.
New year is coming and like last year you were the first one who greeted me,
I don't know now but I know your heart is too far away from mine.
I'm gonna cut this feelings, it won't be easy but I will because it's too unhealthy.
I'll just leave everything up to destiny.

Let's go back when I was one of the students in my class to run as my Grade  representative.
I didn't know why they chose me to run,
But I just hoped I never win.
It's an honor if you win, yeah.
But I didn't wanna take the responsibility.
When the voting ended,
I knew I wouldn't win because of my famous classmate.
And, she won.
When You came to me and whispered 3 words,
"I voted you".
I knew that I won in some way.
I never felt so happy, so I replied with 2 words,
"Thank you".
Next time I hope you whisper another 3 words,
"I love you".
So that I can reply with 4 words,
"I love you too".

Today marks as your 7th year,
We'll never stop to cheer.
BTS plus ARMY consists of seven letters,
BTS has seven members.
We cry and laugh with you.
You made us feel loved and made us accept our flaws.
When we are exhausted, we don't get tired because we have you.
We are continuing to break the walls.
So don't worry about anything,
We'll stay with you forever.
We are together bulletproof.
We Purple you.

It has been weeks since I keep seeing you,
But these days the feelings I had seemed to fade away.
Is it because I realized I can't have you?
I already accept it won't be me starting today.

Why can't you respect my decisions?
I can't always follow your instructions.
I also have my own ambitions,
Wish I could fly just like the pigeons.

Why can't you accept that this is the real me?
Maybe someday I'll change but I can't change so easily.
You love me, right?
Then you should let me live the life that I want.

You can't force me to do the things I don't want to,
You can't force me to change myself to be the person you want me to.
No matter how mad you are,
You need to Accept.
But I wish You could  Accept Me with all your heart,
Because living a life that you can't accept is **** hard.

In this wonderful season,
I'm still wishing to have a mistletoe,
Above us both and,
I hope you are taking a note.

All I need right now,
Is just a simple one thing.
All I want for Christmas is,
You.

I don't know what you have that makes me not to stop staring at you.
You have that appeal makes you attractive.
Your height and body is my ideal type.
You have that face that can be cute and ****.
Dear you, save me.
Another one is wrecking me,
Named V.

In the street full of flowers,
I saw you again.
The sound of film can be heard,
Didn't care if what I captured was blurred.

You probably didn't know when you started hurting me.
I approached you and I want to be honest with you this night.
I still wonder, wonder, beautiful story.
I still wander, wander, next story.

You were hurting too,
Now promise me,
Don't throw yourself away.
You should be your light baby.

Like the other day,
Come in front of me baby.
I want you to be your night.
In this scenery full of flowers,
Interwine our pinkies,
I want to make you mine.

First, let me ask myself.
What is in you that others don't have?
Honestly, I don't know.
Everytime others borrow something from me,
I have second thoughts.
When it comes to you, I give it immediately.
When someone messages me late at night and I feel sleepy,
I don't mind them.
But when I saw your name popped,
I immediately replied, fighting my heavy eyes.
When someone asks for food,
I'm having second thoughts too,
When it comes to you,
I don't care if there is still something left for me.
I laugh at your jokes even if they aren't funny.
I treat you differently.
Now, let me ask you.
What is in her that I don't have?

We dream about what we want to be.
We dream about who we want to be,
But everyone is scared to soar high.
We need to step forward and fly in the sky.

The brighter the light,
The darker the shadow.
The expert in anything,
Was once a beginner.

I'm always hoping you'll talk to me like before.
I'm always thinking if you're missing us more.
Everynight in my bed I'm always thinking.
Everynight in my bed I'm always imagining it's us you're holding.

Let's continue our friendship and start a new.
I heard your side which we never knew.
My friend, let's cry, laugh, smile, talk like we used to.
But I know it will not go back easily.
We will be like we used to at the right moment.

There's this boy group
Which I love the most
I support them at all cost
Their faces are poetry in motion

Their eyes are beautiful
But we don't know they may be sorrowful
I laugh when they laugh
I cry when they cry

They're the first kpop group to be on billboard music awards
"Teamwork makes the dream work"their leader says
"Love yourself, love myself"

I always wonder what they're doing
Always worry how they're doing
Seeing them makes my day complete
They are my inspiration and source of happiness

Some may say it's easy to be a fangirl.
But it's also hard for us because it hurts that they don't know each one of us.

Let me hear it one more time
C'mon, it's not a crime
When I see you,
You is for Me to sue

When you say that you love me
I feel like I'm near the sea
So refreshing
And everlasting

It's you that I just need,
I love you indeed
You're my everything
My world, is your carrying

So please just don't leave me
'Cause you got the best of me
When you say that you love me
I need those words, let me hear it one more time
Tell me about forever
You'll never change whenever
You got the best of me

Why can't you see?
That it's been me
Been always there
'Cause I truly care

You always talk to her
My heart is about to tear
Why can't you understand?
That I'm the one whose giving you a hand

Why can't you notice how I feel?
Is your heart made of steel?
Yes, I know you love me
But just not the way I do to you..

But that was the past
My feelings for you last
Why do you care about me now,
When I'm already happy with another man?

My heart breaks because of you,
But how can you still be the greatest view?
It breaks because of the unfortunate thing that you don't feel the same.
Do you know what makes my heart break more?
Seeing you hurt because someone you like doesn't like you back.
It hurts a lot to see you in pain,
I need to hide these tears in the rain.

There's this girl
Who is deeply hurt
Not physically
But emotionally

She's scared of going home
She feels like she does'nt deserve to live
Her mother gets mad at her
It feels like she's turning into a monster
Her face becomes red and her eyes widened when she gets mad

I feel pity for her
She knows her mother loves her
But sometimes she doesnt feel it
She knows her mother sacrificed a lot
But her mother doesnt know she does too

She feels she's a burden

She's sorry that her mother  can't do things she  want because of her
She's sorry because she can't enjoy because of her
that she stopped working because of her
that she spent most of her money because of her
She's sorry that she was born in this world
She's sorry that she existed.

As I passed by our room
I saw her
I looked at her
I stared at her
At the mirror

You hide all the pain in the crowd.
But every step you made, you never failed to make us proud.
You never show how tired you are.
You always show how happy you are.
You pretend you're alright even if you're not.

You make us happy but we also want you to be healthy.
You say you won't exist without us,
Truth is, how can there be us without you?
We love you so much and we'll stay no matter what.
If we're together even the desert becomes the sea.

EGGS,
Why don't we go back from the start?
Where we met near the leaves.
CATTERPILLARS,
The stage when always being fed with love.
PUPA,
We started to change.
Our love was becoming mature and continued to grow.
Always afraid of being let go.
BUTTERFLIES,
You spread your wings and started to fly.
All you did was to make me cry.
Our love was full of colors,
But you flew to another flower.
Just like a life span of a butterfly,
It only lasts for two weeks,
so our Love is.

The stars you are wishing,
Cannot appear in the light you are seeing.
They appear in the darkest nights,
It is not scary but one of the most beautiful sights.
You cannot appreciate the light,
If you haven't gone through the night.
The doubtness you are hearing,
Cannot compare to the success that is coming.

Did you ever feel that even just for a day you wanna be deaf?
To not hear the promises they haven't kept.
I just wanna be numb,
Because I'm dumb.
Like I'm swallowing a gum,
That came from the bullet inside the gun

Chaosity, is what I don't want to hear.
Those words that are my making my eyes tear.
You may think I'm crazy,
But sorry, my heart is getting lazy.

I got lost in the constellation in your eyes,
It felt like I was flying in the atmosphere's oceanic skies.
You made me spin like my orbit is around  you,
In this biosphere, it has always been you.
I'm in a steady state, each day my love for you is expanding,
But I'm still me, the same way, withstanding.
When the universe started to form,
Everything was meant to happen.
We were destined to meet,
But not to be together,
Because you got lost in the constellation in the galaxy of another.

Blue is the sky
But blue is also lonely
Red is the rose
Red is happiness
White is clean
White is for hope

We have different colors
That makes up ourselves
True colors show up
To show what we really are

Everything is colorful
So as your life,
Make a smile
And enjoy colors in life.

You are very curious about who loves you,
You always share about those crush things,
But can't you just wait till the season becomes spring?
Right, summer is our only season here.

If I tell you, would you avoid me?
If I confess, would you still talk to me?
I am a coward, I know,
I'm just scared to lose you if I do.

I knew from the start,
That I have no chances for you.
But it's March, we are getting apart,
Should I take the risk?

Two of you are battling in my heart,
Even though none of you are battling for me.
My heart was very confused,
But now I know who.
My confused heart now,
Knows what it wants.
And it's you. My bunny.
Even if I know I'll be never be your carrot.

I want to study the universe,
I love it so much that it makes me happy when I think of it.
I get curious what's happening everyday.
Yes, I want to study the universe,
But I don't want to be an astronomer,
Because the universe that I want to study is Youniverse.

Remember the time when we danced because we had to?
You chose me as your partner.
I have no right to put interpretation to it.
We had to dance for grades.

Remember during practices?
It wasn't easy for me because you weren't a good dancer.
Remember that time when you couldn't get a simple step?
I couldn't breathe that time.
You made me laugh like there is no tomorrow.

Because of that, I forgot all the pain I had just for once.
I was tired mentally and physically.
I was having a hard time.
But because of you, I forgot them all.
Especially when you interwined your hands with mine.

It is already December,
The season will be winter,
That means it will be a cold weather,
But why does it seem you're colder?
Should I just wait until summer?
You said you love me, remember?
My heart is turning into ice as you go farther.
After the storm, it became clearer,
That you won't be with me forever.

Every year,
My friends decrease.
Every year,
Some friends leave.
Every year,
I think no one will stay by my side as years go by.
Every year,
I wonder why my friends decrease while my weight doesn't.

You don't know if you'll win or not.
You don't know if you'll survive.
You're so far from being just fine,
You don't even know what your life defines.

Death says "Come with me and you'll be fine"
I reply "Why would I die before my death? Why would I **** myself when it's not yet my time."
No one can decide your death.
Not even you.
Only God can.

You need to fight that thing on your mind!
The other ones around you will not give up for you.
Your heart is closed with several locks.
For those people around you, don't just knock but help them open those locks one by one.

You don't have to fight.
You NEED to fight.
I know you're tired but you have to win.
You need to win this battle on your mind.
Don't die before your death.
Fight it. Gear up.

I don't even know who you are.
I don't even know who they are.
I don't even know what am I to them.
I don't even know what they are to me.
Lastly, I don't even know who I am.

This feeling makes me really happy.
I don't wanna wake up in reality.
Don't leave me in my dreams.
It's more than what it seems.

My surroundings became clearer.
The ocean I hear is nearer.
When I'm with you I'm in Utopia.
You are the cause of my Euphoria.

I keep on hallucinating
Why can't I just move on?
It's starting to become terrifying
That I'm still thinking of you

Take your heart back to me
I can't stop loving you even if I'm hurt
Don't leave me
Blood and tears filled up my heart

Without you I'm nothing
I'll obviously sacrifice myself for you
In this world full of mayhem

Purpose, it's a simple word.
The question is, what is yours?
Do you know your purpose?
What are you doing here on earth?
Do you just exist on earth?
Or do you live in earth?

Do you just breathe air and do nothing?
Or learn and make money for living?
Are you born just to sleep and eat?
Or born to make something productive?

You have dreams.
Do you wait it to come to you?
Or work hard for it to pursue?
So are you existing or are you living?

I'm waiting that you'll completely forget about me,
So that I can walk away freely.
I just stare at you looking so happy,
Without me.

I need your love,
Can I just feel you care even once?
Even though sometimes I'm mad at you,
Stupid me, still loving you.

The other one left us,
Are you going to leave me too?
My dear friend, just tell me
When is this going to end?

First lunch when all I think is you.
First lunch where my heart beats faster than you run.
First lunch when I didn't talk like I usually do.
First lunch where I didn't act like I usually do.
That first lunch is when I was with you.

I don't wanna see you anymore.
Just seeing your face makes me fall for you even more.
It is hurting me so bad.
It hurts more that I am the only one who suffers.
Just get out of my heart,
Before it gets too hard.

I always find your smile cute even before,
But sometimes, I just don't know who my bias is anymore.
Don't make me feel like this too.
Don't smile like that on me too.

You're not really that handsome but you are extremely cute.
You have a really nice voice like I'm listening on a flute.
I just can't get my eyes off you.
You're a dangerous man,
And your last name starts with M.