reload your arms..
fighter of trend..
and the fields of blood
you could save at loss
or call at the hiss of attack
..you would have been kind
that heart of yours is fragile
woven in glass and tired reed
spoken to a careless life
...that would cease like the last note
played at the piano concert..
swift yet so sweet
stealing the sweat of emotion
and the gasp of a soul...
feeling all the oxygen flee
as life comes from embrace
..the soldiers glide

this is ******
not plastic anymore
when we washed the pretense down the sink
silence arose behind closed curtains
for guilt was a guest
serving our thirsty egos
we shouldn't have lost faith
the one season we had all year
unbelievable how we still know
we are not movie-stars
it's how we could have had it all
rolling in the deep
scribbled like the main script
with our smiles saved for the end
despite the flaming battle...
we shouldn't have lost faith
this is unfaithful

i learnt how to burst when i lost my trust in you
i was a rose of Eden's nights
beneath a dome of dawn's star
little could i secure...
but fairly, i was pure enough to endure
till my breath became a betrayed justice
and your warmth began to heat up
became hot..a furnace of drowning relations
for all i could be is burnt if i survived
there is nothing we could save but ourselves
cause no matter how good..
it all became a severe overdose
and the poisons embraced the reactions
..so my companion is with me
they say cold  ...
but this is one who stayed by me
wrapped my heart..woke me up at night
and said hello in the morning
after impatient sailing of goodnight kisses
i learnt how to burst when i lost my trust in you

i thought we were warm enough
to understand and withstand
to be concerned about breaking
especially if it's between us

me and you wrote a song
and everybody sang along
as we dressed into love
we were great, yet so young

we had power between us
a force..and a life..

fountains are white
sparkles are light
life is the brightness
of healing inside

awakening my craving
is killing my pride
i think i will follow
follow you, past the crowd*

hello..oh melanie
i'm here..reciting felony
you said return is your harmony
but i don't hear a word..tonight
this is the fool you made of me
even patience is resisting me
so my cloud..is my mystified company
these days

i had to tell you..
it hurts
so that you don't do it to someone else
i don't want anybody
to go through what you put me through
i don't want you
to hurt another soul

i guess this is me
a story of another loner
i will burden the earth
with my weight and volume
then leave it
just the way i came
i won't cry when i leave
i'll lay in silence
and won't move
because i understand now
more than anything
there is a better world out there
where souls have no teeth to laugh at me
and blood to make me bleed
i understand now
how flesh will betray

*how messed we still play

there is a substance in my heart
it screams but never dies
weighing out my pulse
and washing off the paint
of my colorful world
..i saw this all as beautiful
a while back
but now it's nothing
oh heaven,
come save me
i feel like nothing
but it will all come to pass
the angels are here
i'll go to sleep

when my mind speaks
it's loud
LOUD ENOUGH

& there is no such thing as..
silence

this is the place
where i was born
small enough to crush me
it's why few know about it
we closed all the doors to strangers
and learnt from behind its walls
and called it warm
we named it home

it's familiar
to a place i faked a smile
and the first place i cried
here, i'll always be a son
oh yes, always a son
we were taught the world
but never experienced it

but the roof and the bricks
kept us from the weather
....hot and cold...
hmm the space upon my pillow
is where i learnt to whisper
all the twitches that stained my heart

you'll always be home
always
the castle daddy owns

the way you live is fragrance
turning people's senses
moving people's feelings
..you stain white hearts
then bleach black souls
..oh yes
you preach clarity
sowing memories
and feeding obsessions

..don't take me
my freedom is real

let it be
that the liquid in your eyes
flows for me...
...when they take me away
and when i return to your arms...

the liquid in my eyes
flows for you...
as i watch you lying next to me
...it flows
when i hear those stories off your lips

darling..
you should know that tears flow
....& you're special

wooo hooo!!
hurrah
in the puddle
where we stand
forgetting raindrops
& getting lost inside your eyes

wooo hooo!!!
i'm okay
with finding warmth
tasting drips off your pink lips
& sliding fingers through your hair

sweet sound of raindrops
the skies have joined us here
kissing in the rain

the way we think
makes the way we sink
..sing to me
to cling to me

..the sounds of your promise
are inside me
the say..stay with me
and you will smile

wedding* bells
sounded good
thought you could lead
and i would follow
so you taught me how
and showed me when
and since you have left
it's time for graduation
so sign the papers
and let me pass

we have wings
they fight the wind
and call the heights
..we burn..
we burn when we collide
don't forget it all
the way i press on
and pressure up your soul
to accept my insanity
it's why i like you
with no meaning
a silent reasons

i'm awake this morning
with the color of your world
so i forget the world
..and write the script
magnify it's ink
then let the blot flow through
bind what we live for
and keep this salty truth
make arms for our time
..before we defend what's ours