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I wish I was kissing you
Instead of missing you
I need you...
1.) You have the most loving heart. Your warmth, your gentle touch that you personify without words. Melts the supports of my heart

2.) Eyes of deep blue, that ensnare me and leave me thoughtless. How they change into everglade greens, and mystical greys. They're beautiful

3.) Few laughs may be as pure as your quiet giggle. The mere sound gives me goosebumps and a funny feeling in my stomach. You're so freakin' adorable

4.)The curves of a semi-circle aren't nearly as perfect as yours. You've worked alot for the perfect body. I simply need to ask... How can you make something that's something that is already perfect better?

5.) Spontaneous, unexpected and surprising. You keep me on my feet, keep me entertained and make me enjoy every second with you. Who knows what I am to expect?!

6.) Once upon a time, there lived to fluffy bunnies, they decided to leave their little hole and go out on an adventure. A wolf came along and bit of the rabbits head and it bled to death Its so dark, and it leaves you wondering what to think. I love your dark side. It both terrifies and intrigues me

7.) You're so intellectual. I love some of the things you say and more importantly write! You have an amazing capacity for knowledge and wisdom and you use it well. It baffles me, some of the connections you make in your essays and assignments

8.) My love you illustrate a maturity that surpasses your years. Pertaining to your ability to be responsible and reliable if and when - not that I ever am - clearly am not able to be. I think you're the one looking after me. I'm the older one, who just happens to have an 8yr old inside them~

9.) You smell amazing, but no. Seriously, you are in every way, shape or form. The most amazing, star studded, picture perfect, superbly sensational girl. I could ever have met. Yes, let the alliteration flow

10.) Because you're you, and you are *mine
~ I love you in my own selfish way ~
Need I say more?
1.) I wish I could live up to everyones expectations

2.) I wish People wouldn't double standard me

3.) I wish I was more than just a mistake to you

4.) I wish You could see what I do to me,  and just what I feel

5.) I wish I wasnt subordinate. Actually held meaning

6.) I wish I hadn't ended up at the nurses office from collapsing at school from crying too much

7.) I wish I could remember how to smile

8.) I wish the broken pieces of my heart would fit back the way they were before

9.) I wish I had an ounce of intelligence that might serve me well time to time

10.) I wish you'd stop blaming me for everything and making me try to live up to (fail) your high expectations

11.) I wish I could take back the horrible things I've said and done

12.) I wish I could give you a life you deserve

13.) I wish I was with you more... closer perhaps

14.) I wish I didn't have a reason to live anymore

15.) I wish that people will read this and choose better than to judge me

16.) I wish I wasnt always afraid...
Inspired by Nicole Dawn's "16 wishes"
I'm not tired
No, not in the slightest

I'm not upset
No, just mellow

I'm not sure
No, I really don't know

I'm not smiling
No, my face is straight

I'm not empty
No, there's emptiness to me

I'm not together
No, rather I'm apart

I'm not sane
No, try insane

I'm not saying it
No, I've said enough I think

I'm not done typing*
*No, I have plenty more I could give...
This stuffed cat toy is my only sense of physical companionship right now. Even then, the more I hug it,  the more I cry. Sorry... im just down...
I now lay my head to this pillow
Curled up
In your top
With your stuffed toy
Thinking of you dearly

But you're not here...
*...Oh how I wish you were
I cant sleep...not after ive been treating you. I hope i can earn back your love. But i really need you. Want you. Why do i have to sleep alone each night?

I would rather not wake up if it's not with you...
How can I prove my worth to you,
Live up to the words in which I gave you,
If im not given the opportunity from you..?
I told you I would do this, and not do that
How can I prove i was serious if you wont allow me in?
I used to think that love
Meant doing anything to be with someone
So it would make sense after all
To do anything to get someone back

So why am I afraid to go to you?

If I am the romantic I used to be
What is stopping me from being by your side now?
Perhaps its the fear that all may not be as I hope
Or that I may leave more alone than before

Is this why Im afraid to be with you?
I really dont know, its late, im tired and restless. I cant get this out of my head
A* is for *anything to end this suffering
B is for broken, breaking like my fragile state
C is for careful, cautious of these eggshells
D is for disaster, destruction of what we had
E is for empty, emotionless cries in the night
F is for false, fake like the lies we tell ourselves
G is for grief, grieving not over the dead but mistakes
H is for horrible, hatred the purest of black
I is for insanity, insomnia plaguing my sleep
J is for jaded, just lacking in many emotional departments
K is for knavish, kiddish behaviour I exemplify
L is for lost, losing faith, happiness and you
M is for mistakes, monster at heart and in action
N is for nonsensical, never-ending
O is for officious, obnoxious demeanour and persona
P is for pathetic, powerless to make the right moves
Q is for quitter, quick to leave and walk away
R is for resentment, relationships aren't for men like me
T is for turmoil, turbulence beneath the wings of trouble
U is for understatement, underestimating
V is for violent, vindictive almost as if by nature
W is for wishful, waiting for something new
X is for xenodochial, but never to those who matter most
Y is for youthful, yokelish and distasteful to be around
Z is for zany, pertaining to the cause of most problems
I really don't know, in all honesty is a bashful, distasteful slur
Take it with a grain of salt, I posted it because it got alot off my chest, if you take offense, are hurt, or displeased with its existence, Alt+F4 :L
Three simple words hardly spoken
Is all thats needed to fix this
Why won't you say them...
Rest your head my child and sleep.
Dry your eyes, there’s no need to weep.
Oh! How exhausted you must be,
Come now rest my sleeping beauty.
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You know deep down I understand.
I guess I fear how much more ye can withstand.
The body needs rest and yours has been broken,
It shows in all the things you leave unspoken.
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Im sure one day you will see this and feel bad,
Know there is no need, and that in no way would I ever be mad.
I forgive you before anything even happens to occur,
I will love you forever, I am your good sir
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In the end we simply want whats best,
We want to put your aching heart to rest.
You're brain hurts, your body numb,
The people around you, no help but plagued with dumb.
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I wish I could tell you what's on my mind,
I assure you my intentions are simply kind.
Perhaps if i had courage, perhaps if I could,
I know in the end I’d’ve wished I would.
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My fear is misplaced, and I know this to be true,
All I know is that i love you...
I love you as you are, you mean the most to me,
Cause even in darkness we have the ability to see.
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You are in essence my ray of light,
I love you my dear, with all my might.
I am grateful for a wish was fulfilled,
With luck shall be more, and I will be thrilled.
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Through the tears and the sadness,
Through the anger and madness.
I will always be here, right at your side,
i would traverse the distance no matter how wide.
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Your smile is soft and pure of joy,
The sweetest and sincerest, if ever a ploy.
You are beautiful both inside and out,
Forever my dear, know this without doubt.
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Whenever you call, i shall endeavor to answer
Consider me, as a simple advancer.
You shall not, and will not ever need be alone,
I can’t describe the honor of calling you my own.
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Tomorrow is a new dawn, tomorrow is a new day,
My only wish is for things to go our way.
Its been rough, to get where we are,
We need only look back to see we've come far
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Be it now, or forever and after
I will do my best to cheer us with laughter.
You needn't fake smile, not even for me,
Know that hiding emotion is never the key.
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Feel free to do and be who you want,
I will love ye for ye, my debutante.
I hold no judgments, I love ye as ye is,
You need not listen to what anyone says.
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Take my words as they are, and all that I am,
For what others say, I haven’t a ****.
You are who you are, and it is who i love,
Upon all others, I place you above.
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I know this is cheesy, it know it is cheap,
But I hope it’ll soak up the tears that you’ve weeped.
The tone has changed, the topic diverted,
When emotion and thought is all I've exerted.
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To know I have you, is all that matters,
I wrote this in the beginning as a place to place thoughts,
Then I realized I haven't been entirely honest with my girl
In regards to how i feel, so i continued and sent this to her
To proclaim my affection and share my thoughts and emotions.

Do enjoy
You told me to be me, but me wasnt good enough

I was told to have common sense and be smart
But, I wasnt aloud to act like I knew everything

I was told to be kind and respectful
But, I was seen as a pushover and a wimp when others had a go at me

I was told to love others like I wanted to ve loved
But, people never felt how I did, I was always alone

I was told to be perfect
But, the moment I loved me, the times I felt perfect was when you broke me down and denied me

I was told to be honest and open
But, when I opened up you looked at me differently, treated me differently.

I was told to be me
But, you never wanted me to be me... you wanted me a picture perfect reflection of what you wanted
Thank you society for doing this
Even if such a thing isnt a living breathing entity, you hurt more than a single person ever could.
Im sorry I wasnt good enough for you,
Ill change if itll make you happy?
I'm sorry boo
I never meant to
Couldn't forsee this happening

Oh god what have I done?
Am I unfaithful...

Thats been on my mind this past couple of hours
I didnt mean to say what I did
Was trying to be nice and friendly
Trying to brighten their mood
I wasnt looking for love
I have you
Right?
You'll stay here right?
I'm scared...
Terrified
Petrified
Mortified

What have I done
Am I unfaithful...

I cant live with myself
Whyd i act in such a way
What's wrong with me
The voices they scream inside
Someone please help me
I've dishonored myself
My character
My partner and
my morales
The say things get easier the second or third time round,
Try telling that to by aching heart,
For which strong emotions and feelings,
Unto which my heart are bound.

Leaving something- better yet -someone behind,
Will never be easy for anyone to do.
In all honesty, in my mind right now,
Its the hardest thing you'll do in a lifetime you'll find.

I find myself a firm believer in all things fate.
I believe everything happens for a reason,
Whether we know why or not it's safe to say,
I know all 101 reasons why you're the girl I date.

So you see it pains me greatly as this do I write.
Quietly sinking back to those thoughts,
The ones that kept me up at 4am.
The ones that ask when I'll next see you in *sight!
4 days is plenty of time to spend with the love of your life, but I can't help feel coming back home that I'm missing a part of me.
I miss you Boo and I love you dearly ♡
I was always told to be myself.
Was told that people would love me,
For who I was
Not who I thought I should be

So tell me
Why isn't me good enough?
Not capable of pleasing people
Living up to their expectations.

When people tell me to be myself
That from birth I was special
I was different
I was an individual

How can I be myself
When people dont like me..?
He's so feminine, hes gay
He's so skinny, hes anorexic
He's so tall, hes a giant
He's so soft, hes a little *****
He's so kind, hes just a tool
He's so outspoken, hes an opinionated ****
He cant do anything for himself, hes such a child

Why is nothing I ever do good enough for people,
My work is returned to me once again for not being up to standard
That my own personal expression on a page, my own images inside my head written into text are not up to standard or worthy of someone else.

Can I ever be worthy enough?

How can I like me..
When others can't seem to...?
Today marks a very special*  day,
Id ask for a moment of time to  say...

You mean the utmost to  me
I hope after 365 days you've begun to  see
You're the greatest thing in my life that there could  be
Babyboo I love you less than  three!

No one has ever meant as much to me as  you
I am grateful for every little thing you  do
If what they say indeed is  true
Then sweetheart, you and me are stuck like  glue!

I know somedays we feeling like giving  in
When all else fails and our patience is wearing  thin
Just remember that loving you will never be a  sin
After all I was never a man made of  Tin!

This very day is marks the  end
But here's to another year just around the  bend
with gracious words and deepest affection do I  send
To you, the one and only, greatest  girlfriend

You are to me what are moon and  sun
Endless thoughts of you are often why thy head  run
Let us now rejoice and laugh in  fun
Till the day we're wed hub and  ***!

From there comes prosperity and eternal  life
With none other than you as my  wife
Although the road may be full of  strife
We cut through with the sharpest  knife!

So tell me now my  dear
I know our future together grows ever  near
Another lonely night is one we cannot  bear
But I will be here for you always so have no  fear.

I love you,
I love you, you know it,
I love you
*I love you, your baka the poet ♥
This I swear was plain *******, but hey
My love was always foolish love
Happy Anniversary Tiana ♥
Somedays.
I wish there was someone,
or somewhere to go.

A place to seek help.
For anything or any reason,
Without fear of anything,
or anyone.

There isn't a place,
With anonymity for those problems that are,
Less common than most,
The ones you can't say aloud.

Instead,
We are forced to suffer in silence.
Because the fears in which control us...
...are the fears of people finding out.
Just what it is we have to say, and just what's on our minds
"You either die a hero, or live long enough to see yourself become the villain"

No Prince Charming stays a knight in shining armour for long.
I saved you, but then again I didn't...

Hell we have some great memories, fond and everlasting
Boy do we have horror to our story, saddening and dark

I was once your hero, I did and still would fight for you
Bringing you from a place of darkness and into light
Funny it should be that Im the one to put you back there

You throw up walls and shut me out
There is no way I can help what Ive done like that
But when I wasnt helping and hurt you in the first place
Why would you want me of all people inside your walls?
I so quickly, roll reverse and become the anti-me

Funny how everything I hated in others and vowed and aimed to do the opposite, are the same things in which ive become.
Said id never snap at her, I did
Said id never be upset with her, within reason I was
Said I wouldnt leave, I have
Said id do whatever i could to be there and help, but im here not

It'll never be enough to make up for really anything
Yet in saying that, I mean it with everything
I really am sorry
I love you
I forgive you always
*I want to be with you through everything no matter what
If I ever
Don't read this in pursuit of love, happiness or inspiration
I do write this for your admiration.
So I say this once, dont be disgusted nor discouraged by what you see here below
Away stricken with anger I go. . .

Id like to take a second to say ******* you and you
For its because of three yous that this anger ensues
I'd tried to endure it, I tried to be nice
I've now heard it not once but 3 x twice

If you have something to to say keep inside
Otherwise shut the **** up and strap in for a ride
I'm not keen nor willing to find another love
But hey what the hell we'll give him a shove

No other love will ever be better than hers
Dont need no more ******* saboteurs
I will do as I please, and love who I like
Pushy *** know-better-than-yous I thoroughly dislike

So I'll say it now and again and again
From all that stupid *** ******* I'd ask you to refrain
Now thanks for the pathetic waste of time
Didn't know taking back someone was such a ******* *crime
Yeah? So I dumped her cause things weren't working out. You think cause you've heard a bit about my relationship you're an expert on what it's like? Come of it. . .
I left a girl I felt I was doing no good, but you see she wasn't ready to admit it was my fault so little by little she won my heart back
But of course your overflowing ego caused you to miss that part.
Typical.
As soon as I'd left I was right where I belonged, in the comfort of my partner who I was destined to be with. Frankly shes sweeter, kinder, funnier and somehow prettier than ever
So ******* you and you for thinking we were through
Nothing can erase the pain we feel,
It's nothing in comparison to the pain we deal.
We'd much rather hold this feeling near,
So we can remember how it felt to upset those we hold dear.

There comes a time when one evaluates ones self worth,
To revise all that ones done since their birth.
We've done amazing things, but the good never outweigh the bad
No matter how much we smile, there is no hiding that we are sad.

We wear glasses to hide our tired weeping eyes,
We put on that fake smile and wear it as our disguise.
The hardest part of being strong, Is no one asks if you're okay,
We know deep down there isn't enough on this Earth that we could say.

Are  you  okay?
Till death do us part
You'll forever hold my heart
Just listen to it slowly break
From devastation in our wake
○◘○◘○
As each day goes past
Our personalities differ in contrast
We were once so enraptured
Now my soul has been captured
○◘○◘○
There is no more you and me
I refrain from any duplicity
I just gotta have you back
**Get my life back on track
As the title suggests, of all my poems, this was the only one saved as a draft.
A poem I wrote in the dark but never submitted, so here it is.
Perhaps it is not of custom to do such a thing,
But I wished to thank everyone firstly:

For 250+ likes on my poems.
Not once did I ever start posting expecting for people to take notice
But this is the beauty of Hello Poetry.
I still remember that first like and the warm fuzzy feeling you got
Hell I still get it now with every like I recieve.

Thank you for 8k views
That in itself means alot to anyone, whether it be 10 views, onto 100, 1000 and onto 10k
8000 poem views, its truly special to feel valued for what you enjoy
Or just spilling out some emotion onto a page.

So thank you,
From one writer and poet (if you will)
To another
Heres to all of us
1 view or 1 million
We share a mutual understanding
This is something I shall cherish and hold dear as an accomplishment of my own persons http://puu.sh/iGBzX/02a846707e.png
Try if I will,
Try if I might.
No matter how far I venture,
Theres no end in sight.
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Try if I will,
Try if I might.
Theres nothing left in me,
With in which I can fight.
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Try if I will,
Try if I might.
Wish there was someone here,
To save me from the fading light.
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Try if I will,
Try if I might.
No matter how loud I scream,
*Theres no one to hear my plight.
When will our hell end...
I thought I knew pain
**Then I looked at you...
Explanation:
This is no stab, no offence, no hate, no sass
My dearest girlfriend is in a dark place and I cant be there for her
I thought I was dealing with **** and people are beginning to see the toll its REALLY taking on me physically and mentally,
However day in and day out im reminded it could be so much worse
Cause I look at her, I see her suffering and her wish to end her miserable existance.
Its knowing youre not good enough to keep her happy but she wants you there, more so she wants you "here"
Why did long distance have the be the least of my worries...?
Lend me your ears and hear me out

Have you ever, just stopped where you are?
To gaze at the sky and be taken aback.
To find the beauty in every star,
Relieve the moments on our data track.
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I looked up to the sky in awe
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I found happiness in what i saw,
The beauty in the simplicity of it all.
A genuine smile crept from my jaw.
The perfection in something so small.
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I looked up to the sky in awe
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The deep blue contrasts these pure angelic clouds,
My shirt and hair flow about the breeze.
I feel alive, that darkness now no longer enshrouds,
The opportunity in this moment I am to seize.
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I look up to the sky in awe*

I feel *alive
Loved you yesterday
Love you still
**Always have... and always will
Right now things are... well... I don't know what to say...
I'm sorry I can't bring myself to face you,
I know you want me to come to your first, always...
Right now, I have faith in the idea that you'll be checking up on here...
I haven't an excuse for how I am
I'm not the man I should be
Just promise me... you'll remember thisL.
I fell in love with you
Not for how you look
But for how gorgeous you are within
Although, you sure are gorgeous on the outside too~
Try freaking gorgeous babygirl
There can be no good
Without bad

There can be no light
Without dark

There can be no happiness
Without sadness

But isnt it funny how there cant be a positive without a negative, yet the negative seems to be heavier...?
Humour me

It is better to be good, or for something to be good
That would be, well good.
So to balance out the good, there must be equal bad, right?
'cept the bad outweighs the good you see. Bad is heavier and overshadows the good.

Bad > Good

It is preferable for there to be light
Light is in a generalistic sense, a good thing.
So to balance out all the light, we must also have the dark
'cept once again, the dark overshadows the light. The darkness is worse than the light and presents itself as a heavier presence.

Dark > Light

Last but not least, oh ** **... Happiness, it is the greatest thing,
Thus it is a very good thing.
But to balance out the happiness, sadly there must be sadness, and sadness is one of the heaviest emotions because it outweighs the good, the light and the happiness by so much, the happiness is almost non-existent

Sadness > *Happiness
No matter how you look at things, there are always more negatives than positives, because when it comes down to it... the bad will always outweigh the good!
Music stars with Doe Rae Mi
~ But love ~
Starts *You and Me
You were miserable and alone
Barely holding on

Then I came into your life
And I see now its only harder

That you're more miserable just
Not as alone

I was a mistake.
You deserve better than me...
Sorry I wasnt good enough for either of us
With who I am,
That in which I've become.

Be gone
With the meaningless words
Dribbling from my mouth

Be gone
With the empty promises
Escaping with my breath

Be gone
With the anger
That plagues me, I'm a monster inside

Be gone
With my false image
I have no use for something I cannot believe in

Be gone
With me
I have no use for something that does not work as intended
No need for something that wasnt what I was told it should be
Something that holds to value or meaning to me
Give me a new self
Mould me into what it is you want
Break every piece of me and build me up again
I want to be worth you
I want to be worth me

Simply be gone
*With me
I want to run and hide, but how can I hide from myself?
There is no turning the other way and pretending its not there
I cant stand me... I cant change me... I dont want to be me...
These cuts, these bruises in time shall heal,
Nothing overrides the pain one can feel.
The scars on our hearts are harder to hide,
Nor the guilty pleasure knowing we tried.

Scars arent meant to be pretty,
They represent a life nothing but ******.
They represent our suffering and pain,
When the blade runs so shall it rain.

Dont take my words to heart,
My words arent the painful part.
Put down the blade and think this through,
There are those out there who care for you.

This isnt the way, this isnt an option,
You act as though the world put you up for adoption.
Hear me now, know even I a stranger care,
Find the one thing you alone hold dear.

Repeat what it is that brings you joy,
Your life is meaningful and not some old toy.
I perhaps am not your savior this time round,
But I wish not see more blood spilt upon the ground.

We are human, we withstand an extent,
Look at yourself and see your potent'.
Let the blade go, your fists subside,
Its enough to have let it out and cried.

You are perfect
You are unique
You mean something
You deserve better
You are strong enough to go on
You are *you
These tears have since turned red
From the wounds I'm bleeding out from
I love you
Why can't you see...?

**Just how much...
Beautiful is not a word I throw around lightly
More than pretty
More than gorgeous
You are absolutely beautiful

I love your munchkin height
Think it's perfect
To hug into you in the middle of the night

I love your precious lips
Think they're perfect
To kiss you as towards you my body tips

I love your delicate figure
Think you're perfect
To **** me with your looks as babe you pulled the trigger

I love your adorable smile
Think that's simply perfect
To melt away my problems as the world dissappears for a while

I love you and you as you
Think you're perfect in each and every way
To make me fall this in love with everything you *do
Don't take it from anyone else. You're beautiful babyboo.

Would I lie to you? ♡
Roses are red,
Violets are blue
I'd give anything
Just to be next to you
~ ♥ ~
Daffodils are yellow,
Daisy's are white
I'd give my arm and leg
To have you in sight
~ ♥ ~
Cherry blossoms are pink
Carnations of green
I can no longer remember since we met last
How long it has been
~ ♥ ~
I miss you so much, this feeling for you
Its as strong as a Delphinium is blue
Some people like to think outside the box
Others
They like to remain within its walls
Choosing the security and the safty over adaptation and risk

Those who think outside of the box are creative and intelligent people who can get things done. They exploit weaknesses in problems and find smart means of resolving them.

Whilst the residents within the box tend to frown upon change. They can't problem solve efficiently, nor can they see a simple means of solution.

Me..?

Im too blind to see the box, my hand over my eyes stumbling about. The only proof I have of a box is others telling me its there. I dont know where one wall ends and another starts, four walls boxing me in... this I know for sure. I'm confined in this mental prison, unable to think outside for a radical solution and too insecure and blind to find a safe means through.

So whilst some like to think outside the box,  others like to remain inside.
I simply dont know where this box is to find out...
This was stupid, something along the lines of a metaphor or anellogy...
I dont think, cant problem solve or use common sense...so bleh
The bravest thing I've ever done
Was continuing my life
When I wanted
To *die
Quote - "Juliette Lewis"
It's been so long since I've written,
It's almost like I've forgot.
It's been so long since I was open,
It's almost like I'm not.

I really dont know how to say that,
I am not okay once more.
I really dont know how to say that,
I am not quite sure what for.

Perhaps it's because you're gone,
Perhaps the fact it's all over.
Perhaps it's because you left,
Perhaps the fact I'm a leftover.

It hurts trying to accept the that,
It really is the end.
It hurts trying to accept that,*
It really isn't "boyfriend".
It's been two months and I'm still trying to deal with the fact, the love of my life, is nothing but that, the love of, my life.... not hers...
Theres something about the way,
Something so perfect and pure,
Can simply cease to exist,
Just you left, nothing to say.
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You're free, spread your wings,
To somewhere unknown you fly,
With no direction you're lost,
Just getting over the little things.
~
Hurt by that which was once ours,
Struggling to stay above,
Each breath dissipating,
This butterfly flew with *scars.
Just trying to stay afloat
"But mum, he did it first so i did"

if he jumped off a bridge, would you follow?

"...no..."

~~

But you see
For you
I would happily

Love is living inside your heart
Forever by your side
Love is dying beside you
Forever by your side

I would follow you anywhere
You never have to be alone
Id no sooner follow you through the door
Into the grocery store
Than I would
six feet underground
Let that one sink in...
Tear my heart out
As it still beats.
Take my heart from me
As it still beats...

The aching pain
Never ceases.
The unbearable trauma
Never ceases...

If I had a choice
I'd choose death.
If you asked me
I'd choose death...

No more pain,
No more ache,
No more trauma,
No more me,*
That's what I need...
[9:24am] - Hello?
[9:29am] - Are you there?
~ No Reply ~
[9:34am] - ...? Are you getting these?
[9:40am] - ...
Call 1
[9:44am] - Why wont you answer..?
Call 2
Call 3
~ No Answer ~
[9:52am] - I-I'm worried..I d-don't k-know what to t-t-think...
Call 4
[9:56am] - I l-love...y-y-you....w-was it s-s-something I did...?
Call 5
[10:02am] - ...p-please...p-pick up...
Call 6... She's not picking up...
Call 7... Why can't you see...
Call 8... *It's already too late...
Some night I lay awake thinking,
Others im kept awake by these nightmares...
Without you I cannot function right
Hear me out as I utter this plight

You take care of me and play my mother,
With me to you, im like an older brother.
I forget things, and never think straight
You pull me up on the things that ive left too late

You take such good care of me, and I secretly love what you do,
Deep down inside you wish id do it for you.
I wish with all my heart to care for thee,
Look out, and to provide all I can for ye.

I know I'm a child, incapable of taking care of me,
In everything you do, it opens my eyes of how Ive come to be.
You needn't the stress of tending to my problems and flaws,
If anything problem wise I should be attending to yours.

*I am childlike
In personality
And being

I love to be mothered and am how I am, just dont tire yourself out over me
Cause when the time comes, for strength and help I'll be there for ye
In silence I suffer, drowning.
Losing the fight, falling.
~
On the surface, calm.
To everyone else, happy.
~
Beneath it all, hurting.
They know I'm lying, breaking.
~
I want you to see I'm okay, even if I'm not.
That way things'll be better, even if they're not.
~
Convince myself over and over, even if I don't believe it.
Tell myself everything will work out fine, even if I don't believe it.
~
I'm fine, no I'm not
I'm happy, no I'm not
I'm grateful, no I'm not
~
I don't accept this, yes you do
I hate you for this, no you don't
I don't blame myself**, *yes you do
*I do not know anymore, only when I think about how I am okay, do I stop feeling okay. Perhaps I need to just not think about it at all*
She says she's fine,
"But she's going insane"

She says she's feels good
"But she's in a lot of pain"

She says it's nothing
"But really it's alot"

She says she's okay
*"But really she's not"
I love you baby girl. I'm sorry things are the way they are
im sorry you feel so miserable.
I know, I always have...
You're not a very good liar...
One,
Two,
Three,
Four...
...Watch as sorrow filled tears fall upon the floor.

Five,
Six,
Seven,
Eight...
...Days like these you come to hate.

Nine,
Ten,
Eleven,
Twelve...
...It only gets worse the deeper I delve.

Twelve,
Eleven,
Ten,
Nine...
...It only ever feels like im the only one tryin'.

Eight,
Seven,
Six,
Five...
...Guess higher places, I need to strive.

Four.
Three.
Two,
One...
**...Forgive me if all I do is turn and run.
One. Two. Three. Four...
Guess it's time to close my door...
Having it
Means doing what I should have done
Along time ago
I can't bear to do it to you...
But itd be for the best...right?
Funny how "crying always helps and its good for your body and soul"
Cept, see I told you i was crying and it upset you...
You felt useless and pathetic cause you didnt know and couldnt help...
I didnt want to bother you so how could you know?
Now ive made the mistake of crying over my mistakes and then crying more now knowing I upset you...both hurt and I cry

Why do you have to blame yourself for my mistakes?

I think this would have been much better had I not cried at all
Id say not told you but I tell you everything and hide nothing

Guess we're both sleepless tonight...
Dark as night,
Cold like ice.
You've never once said,
Anything nice.
~
Fierce as flames,
A finer art.
Word like needles that,
Pierce my heart.
~
Right of way.
You left me be.
Never thought you'd break,
My heart in three.
~
Words of venom,
Said with a hiss.
Everything now I,
Begin to miss.
~
With break of dawn,
We finally see.
Just keep walking, dont,
*Come back for me.
You're done with me, and with it all.
I'm not the one who makes you happy, no one does
What even is the point in you giving me another chance, that I can ***** up? It pains me dearly to think I'm not good enough for you...
You just simply
Dont
Know
Brain is dead,
Body is dead,
Inspiration levels? Subpar
Motivation? Subpar
Myself? Subordinate
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