Your happy I’m not…
These mental fights I have fought Break me into shards I feel like I'm behind bars Do you love me I can see your glee I know its another girl It hit me and now I’m in a blur Hello are you there Its pain I can’t bare I don’t want to live like this I’ll never get your loving kiss The pain in my eyes are seen The outsiders I see are very mean I hate the hurt in my head To be honest I wish I was dead Hey I’m talking to you You act like I’m a fool I will never give up Even if I look like a lost pup Crying so much turned to blood They thickened on my cheek like mud My white dress stained red My scene looked dead I want to harm myself I don’t want any help I’m enraged with your hate But, maybe thats my fate Cut cut cut slit Punch punch punch hit Tie tie tie hang Load load load bang Dead
My title is an xxxtentacion quote!!!
I sit and I cut
Where you can’t see I love the burn Please help me
No words left
how to feel what to do I am everything normal but the thoughts in my head and the empty feeling in my stomach consume who I am
Once on high grounds
not caring about a thing now, I crave to be found and care too much about everything Once young and blind now, I want to shine but, I'm lost in my thoughts I'm trying to escape I can hear them calling so I keep falling
Happy am I to be here
Eager to make friends Learn new things Pleased to be with you My heart wonders so such Each word in this poem are lies
while the dread of peace kept you starved with wasted days.
my years with you were infinite in the moments of bliss of a kiss. with withering tears passing dry cold on dark years nights old my mind remains on the you who once was. with blade I pull back the blade to expose vein, red dopamine rivers flow from my sleeve to numb my soul. with thin brushes i paint my anguish on canvas riddled with dangers of homicide. a youthful mind trapping you in the delusion of time, and human concepts flood your mind.
I don't know
My life is upside down Blood rushing to my head Instead of circling all around I don't know what to do About the dampening sadness All I can do is stop feeling Stop caring I want to help There are so many people out there that are more important That feel like this way for a reason But not me I never want to see him again His smiling eyes His false emotions What he used me to do I want this pain to go away The suffering to end But nothing can help me now Nothing can show me light From Sadness To Suffering To Death To a final release
I cry out for help
To finally have someone care But I don't deserve that
I always give the best advice...
Never to me.
Never to keep. It all goes away
I’ve never broken down like that before
My feet went numb My head was made of stone My eyes were waves My voice was crackling like rocks My hair was draping The floor was my bed Your words were my antagonist I couldn’t breath I couldn’t believe I was breaking
Thanks Dad, Angle, emotionaly abusive teacher, Olive,