I am very well aware, Of what you think about me, And how you feel. I enjoy it, I take pride in it. It gives me happiness, Along with a feeling of self-consciousness. I felt it earlier too, The difference this time is That I've grown up. We both have grown up.
I indulge in deep thoughts, It compels me to think about you. Even if I don't want to. It does give me pleasure, It might to you too, When you see me. The ecstasy; coupled with anxiety. That too doubled, If after a long time.
I might be lingering on your mind, You might be obsessed with me, But I do not know what to say, Or how to feel, Perhaps because it is new to me. Like it is to you, I believe.
05 August 2015. Found this one between some old drafts.
The master craftsman , Of this spectacular dusk, Leaves no signature!
This master craftsman, you would never meet to register your thanks accumulating each consecutive day, because none of us ever meets him. So do a thing ; keep all the accumulation of your unfathomable thanks on account of this and million other things we experience free. Look for any possible opportunity to distribute that invaluable reserve among our fellow beings!
I guess this is an open letter: wish things could have ended better;
But I guess it's whatever
I don't have a set list I'm just gonna try my best Limit it to about 4 minutes.
Got my airpods in now Tryna grind until the end of time Started with you I guess
True love ain't all about *** cross my eyes and dot the tears some wack **** coming from my mind to your ears
your touch got me ****** up touched my phone took it out and made the call couldn't control myself because of you
lost all self control; lost my soul
Lost my soul to you lost it all through you writing this helps change my views how can I get through?
push into the obscure past boundaries, past you
this one's dedicated to you
full stop. get out. pull over, don't make me shout r/drama, about to acquire clout. these words don't make sense when I'm angry.
It's better if I take a breath And relax and relax/
Writing is so therapeutic I see this pen is all i really need.
Man i got some ****** up **** in my head but i guess thats what this is meant to breed like, i got bars for days no worries, i'm okay gotta share this **** with the world one day. thanks karthik for being vulnerable shows that your heart was in trouble can't even write straight just gotta do enough scrape by; get high no lie i hope this don't die
man i wanna do so much with my life i wanna graduate from nyu stern i wanna fly to the moon i wanna be that man on the moon
Poetry is my Jam do you Slam? Chance, man -- I know that man can. Don't even gotta try he just gets hella high he learned how to fly i Wish we could fly had vivid dreams.
I wish you well. not **** Because I've been there and back Bipolar; It broke my back.
Do you hear it in these lines I write? Powerful emotion; primal thoughts of flight?
We are just chickens, you and I. Do you ever feel that -- in your mind's eye? Sometimes we feel like we can fly, others we feel like we about to die.
Thankful for this voice I've found finally feels like I'm above ground
* Being Asian is difficult I must say dare I say?
* Jazz vibes I feel alright swimming into the sky yes, I could close my eyes but that'd be detrimental to the write
Long form lines to show you I can write but who am you and who are I/ Binding two making an eye
Mitosis vibrosis nothing rhymes with mitosis
* can you hear it in the voice with which i write these primal emotions of flight do you hear me do you hear me it sounds like do re me fa so la dee
or something like that
because sometimes x y z or 1 2 3
numbers and words; their meanings occasionally escape me.
* like 1 like 2 like 3 what is this life that we; live in like what you and me are not even petals on this tree of life you and me are but atoms you and me in this life of grandiosity
minimax do you see compsci is just the start do you see the matrix maybe not.
* thoughts of paranoia plague me afflicted; like a Zombie
punctuation; time; rhythm; rhymes couples; words; emotes; I'm fine
Thanks for ******* asuking like all the ******* time.
* dawg sometimes i feel like a baby
i wish i could just close my eyes and be in peace
a scary thought, yes indeed but what i really mean is sleep
a restless mind; yes indeed
* I'm just going off right now; complete disregard for my health right now;
* i just got the best sleep of my life; i lie.
don't worry about me; i'll be fine
just go back to bed maybe get some head
jokes, don't even own my own bed a roofed hobo.
** I got rhymes all night yea, you know this **** tight lemme grab it alright ****** chicken choke this mic
it goes ******* on and on this life of ours, it's an endless song feels like an infinity **** hurts when you never belong