Maybe 10 years from today,
Maybe only 1 year away,
Or even just 1 day,
I will be able to say...

At times you seem perfect
But when you don't reply
I die inside

All I think when I see you
Is how you looked
The day I woke you up

The look of..
Let me sleep..
But its nice being with you

Where, for a second
I felt you wanted me.
Why can't that be everytime?

I saw it tonight
In all its glory
The way she looked at him
The way he looked at her
The way you never looked at me

I have no right to feel like this,
But how dare you cancel on me again,
I know we aren't together,
But it hurts when you do.

Yesterday it took me 3 hours to calm down
It was one of our best dates
As I went to sleep and I clutched my pillow
I still felt your hand in mine

This is why I never got over you...
Yet I know I shouldn't get attached
But deep down I know I love you
And we don't have long till you go

This is why, I need to leave after you do
I can't stand living in this city
When I know I will never be happy here
Not without you by my side

Problem is we can't be right now
...
Because we would hold each other back
All your dreams and mine will have to do

I would never want to hold anyone back
From achieving their true potential
Being together would do that to you
If I love you I will let you go and not fight

Although it will **** me when we are apart
I will settle for the happiest I will ever be
For the time we have left
Yet I know it will be a beautiful goodbye

The firery walls are slowly caving in
Yet I am clinging on to every last second
In my head I am holding you and just
Slow dancing in this burning room

Daily the sun goes down,
As we know it always does

When something else takes
A turn for the worst.

Although expected,
Why does it seem sometimes hurt?

I have troubled thoughts
Something and somewhere
I thought I would never be
Nor consider, from what I used to be

Somewhere along the road
I got lost I have faith but I will find my way
With enough honey JD
I will be patient and wait

I will be so insanely pleased
After all this pain and loss,
My head will once again
Be held very high

It's taken a long time
But I'm finally there.
I wanted to find another you,
But I know it's better that I don't

I know that we might happen one day,
But I am not going to wait anymore.
I can't be patient for any longer,
However I will forever adore you.

Looks like it wasn't you,
That wanted to talk to me,
It was the stuff through your nose

The daftest and strongest of all,
I wonder when you get there
...
Will you think of me?

3 of my friends said this month,
That they can't take anymore of life,
And they are considering having no more.
Just an end to everything,
To stop thinking as they are.

I haven't slept properly in 3 weeks,
Only an hour here and there,
And as usual,
My long lasting battle of impending heartbreak,
Always at the back of my head,
Which never seems to ease.

It has taken it's toll,
I am hurting but my friends can never know,
5 times today I stopped for a second,
My eyes were close to giving in,
But I know the moment I do,
I know I won't stop.
So I am trying to hold it in.

But I realise for my 3 friends,
I am the person that is always around,
I need to be...
I will always take the burden for them,
Any day and any time,
But today was tough.

For a while today
I met someone new
She was lovely
Best of all I didn't think of you

Well its taken me all day
But I have clued it all up
You lied to me
I was never the only one

Here I am with a hole
In my heart,
But it's not empty as
Tears fill what I hide inside

In this moment,
I want 3 things
And here is why

A new job,
One, I love again
Like my last but in London.

More money,
So I can see my parents on day,
With a cheque for their montage.

A relationship,
To fall in love
And not be alone anymore.

I currently stand
In a decent place and position
But being human, I always want more.

All I want to do
If I can't have you,
Is run as far away
As I can,
Across the sea

I can't cope
When my heart stops
At the thought of you,
Even worse when someone
Who looks like you

As we left
Its how I felt
No expectations
No disappointment

154 days
We waited
No expectations
Wasn't an option

It hurts that I do
When I wake up
When I'm drunk
Knowing you don't miss me too

I let it slip
The thing that hurt me most,
And that is you.
Drunk and unashamed
I see to let it out.

I don't think about you most days
But minor days I do
Then for a while,
When I'm in this mood
All I think about is you

That's exactly how I feel,
I didn't try enough the relationship before,
Maybe I tried too hard this time.

Perhaps I couldn't help myself,
When I looked into those eyes,
But I feel there's someone else.

Falling for someone hurts,
Maybe they play the game,
But mostly you are just a toy

I want to kiss you under a thousand stars
As any thing less just won't do
But above all else
I miss you

I constantly lie to myself
And say I shouldn't
Think of you the way I do

And I shouldn't fall for someone
Who doesn't deserve my love.
But I always miss you the moment I leave you

I just want to fall asleep in your arms

When you are the one,
Who builds up the expectation,
That plans your future dates,
Thinking they would love this,
When they are hundreds of miles away.

This level of expectation builds up,
When you finally go,
Does it match expectation?
Do you even notice past they smile or eyes?
Or do the nerves take over and you don't know