I'm laying on my bed
That was freshly washed
The sweet fresh scent
Had me thinking of you.

The first time you were on my bed
Was the day i had washed them
Cuddling you in my bed
With your smell blended with the sheets
The smell i could fall asleep to
The one that makes me feel safe

I'm smelling my bedsheets again
But this time
Its lacking you

You told me,
You can't love me because you've lost your commitment.
But that's a lie
Because you've always been committed
Not with me,
But to your past lover.

" why did you stop smiling?"

"The reason behind my smiles,
Has already left,
Therefore,
There is nothing for me to smile again"

I finally knew why
His feelings for me has faded
The reason why
He wouldn't want me back
Why
He no longer wants me

It was because
He was able to get the one he wanted
The one he has been waiting for all this while
When I thought I could replace her,
I guess I was wrong
And now I knew why
There is no more us
But only him and her.

I was holding onto you
And I didn't want to let go
But you were holding onto someone else
And I know you didnt want to let go
So I let go of my hands
So that you could be free
With the one you wish to be with

No matter how hard I try to fix what we had.
It's already too late
The damage has been done
You can't fix what's broken



Feelings fade
And he doesn't want me back.

Do you miss me ?
Maybe, he said.

Do you miss us?
-yes.

Do we miss what we had?
-yes.

Will you give me another chance?
-No.

Someone asked me why I chose a job that ends late at night
And all I could say was,
It's alright.
It's not like i could sleep early lately.
So i don't mind working late at night.

What i did not mention was that
I was too busy crying every night before I head to bed
The reason why sleeping is so hard
I wouldnt want them to know
That the reason I was lacking sleep
Was because of a guy
Of a memory
Not because of work

My friends asked me
Who is that guy?
Is he your boyfriend?
You always go out with him?

And all I can say is.
We are just friends.

Obviously it seem like a lie
But it's the sad truth
There was nothing more between us.

My workmates asked me
Do you have a boyfriend?
Who is that guy in your phone?
He's your boyfriend right?

And it pains me to say
He's just a friend

Every single time
With tears in my eyes
With the stinging pain feeling to say it out
We were just friends
Or used to be at least.

My heart is broken,
Yet all the shattered pieces,
Love you endlessly.

Its 5am
I've been drinking
And I'm drunk
I miss you
But I don't dare to call you
I'm drunk
And there's so many things I want to tell you
But I'll just drink my feelings away

If he knows you love him
But needs time to think about it
Let him go
If he's unable to let go of his ex
You shouldn't wait on him
Because regardless of what happens
You will only be a second option to him
So let him go
Before you let yourself go

Did you know?
When you left, i lost a part of myself
Did you know,
I've been crying myself to sleep everday,
I've been regretting every moment i couldn't control my feelings,
I've been thinking about you everyday,
I've been wanting to know how you are and what you're doing
I've been losing myself a little
I've been looking at your pictures
I've been trying to let you go but its impossible
I've been trying to hate you but i only fall deeper for you.

Did you know?
A month without you
Has made me lose myself.

Maybe,
If you didn't interact with me,
We wouldn't be friends.
Maybe,
If you didn't flirt with me,
I wouldn't have fallen for you.
Maybe,
If you didn't put your arms around me,
I wouldn't made it my comfort zone.
Maybe,
If you haven't cancel our plans,
I wouldn't have ended up all sad.
Maybe,
If i could've controlled my emotions,
I wouldn't have lost you.

But i guess maybe, if i didnt meet you at all,
I wouldn't have to know how a friendship friendzone heartbreak would feel like

I told myself to let go
Because i know you're happier with her

I told myself to forget you
But i can't seem to bring myself to put you in the past

I told myself to stop loving you
But despite us no longer talking,
It is you that still fills up my heart.

I told myself that I'd be happier without you,
But that was a lie.
I was happier with you around.

I tried to keep myself busy
Occupied myself with work
Went out with friends
Yet,
Somehow,
I will always end up thinking of you.

Like a shining star
He glowed brightly in the dark
Outshining the rest

Such a small being
Having big dreams that one day
He will shine brighter

Brighter than the moon
For he had wanted to be
The one she notices