Did you know someone's proud of you?
That someone finds you beautiful inside and out?
Did you know someone loves you for who you are?
That you don't have to feel ashamed of your scars?
Did you know that you're enough? That you're strong?
Even through the computer, I can see you crying, saying "you're wrong."
But I'm telling you these things because they're true. Even if they're not true now, they will be.
Now say it with me.
"Someone's proud of me."
"Someone finds me beautiful, inside and out."
"Someone loves me for who I am."
"I don't have to be ashamed of my scars."
"I'm enough. I'm strong."
One more thing. "It's okay to tell my story."

Did you know?
When you left, i lost a part of myself
Did you know,
I've been crying myself to sleep everday,
I've been regretting every moment i couldn't control my feelings,
I've been thinking about you everyday,
I've been wanting to know how you are and what you're doing
I've been losing myself a little
I've been looking at your pictures
I've been trying to let you go but its impossible
I've been trying to hate you but i only fall deeper for you.

Did you know?
A month without you
Has made me lose myself.

I am young..
I am young and I am Embarrassed and I am Hopeless
and I am Discouraged.
We are a torn and bruised country. Dogs and wolves with frothing mouths represent and repress the bays of mass flocks.  
I am embarrassed to be so privileged, because when drowned children wash up on our shores, we do not take to the streets in furious rage. I cannot be the only one who feels this way. It is sticky and feverish.. My palms are chronically clammy.
I cannot be the only on here who sees this and feels the yearning for justified outrage and conscious righteousness.
Do not misinterpret me. I do not want revenge.
I am young. And I am sad and I am angry.
And I am ashamed. I am ashamed for the terrible things in this world. I am ashamed that I have not done more to make it right. I am ashamed that I am perpetuating this cycle of apathy.  
I am nauseated.. when an animal gets shot at the zoo, people will remember his name and how he died.
I am angry that we do not know the names of men and women who died for our country with no thanks.. No parade. Soldiers who; bloodied bruised and broken, carried their sister's and brothers through the pit of hell and over the Devil’s rosy cheeks.  
But now, I am not as young.  And still I am seeing more and more that my rage turns to sorrow and my sorrow into hopelessness and hopelessness into indifference. It is a writhing desperate wale. It is the sound of all of the mothers who watched their children grow up only in their imaginations, and the fathers whose daughters and sons were ripped from their calloused fingers. It is a writhing desperate wale.
And still, I do not know what to do. Instead, I am weeping inside and choking on selfie sticks and Sephora perfume.

Did you know?
Everytime you smile, your eyes get a little wider and more full of life. That almost, just almost, there may even be a faint twinkle in 'em

Did you know?
The shy girl who turns on her skype video camera, even after shes been crying. The girl who tells me she looks a mess... gives me 101 reasons to fall in love with you again.

Did you know?
Every single night, I message and wish you goodnight & sweet dreams. Each night before I sleep, so to do I, tuck that toy kitty you gave to me - the one which meant so much to you - in on the otherside of the bed and kiss it goodnight. That is helps me sleep better.

Did you know?
I hear my name on a daily basis. Often too many times I feel - thank you mother - and yet its only when you say it, that it makes me smile. Its so much more personal, so much more meaning to hear you say my name. 'Tis a shame I struggle to find the right time to use yours. I do love your name.

Did you know?
"The number of stars that you can see on a clear (moonless) night in a dark area (far away from city lights) is about 2000" and despite each and everyone of them... you shine just a little bit brighter to me.

Did you know?
There are 21 letters in the english alphabet... If you take out the letters "U R A Q T"
Or that perhaps it is that there are 26 letters in the english alphabet, yet all I ever need is "I O U" my life, my love* ♥

Did you know?
Out of all the art galleries in the world, they are worth nothing, because the most beautiful work of art I've seen... is you when I wake up next to you.

Did you know?
People drool over celebrities, famous people and idols. But to me, they're worthless. Everyone gets to see them and fall in love with them. Only I get to see you and be in love with you, and only you. Love me back.

Did you know?
If I had a dollar for everytime a thought of you entered my mind, I wouldn't be sitting from my computer sending this to you. I'd be in your arms and living the rest of my life by your side.

Did you know?*
I miss you my love... I miss you so much, and I love you, so much...
Just wanted you to know that above all else. You mean the world to me. I do hope you get to see this, which I'm sure you will. I hope you don't think this is cheesy and stupid.

The Entire Egyptian Military laid down ( there's that word lay laid) their arms of weapons designed for war, when the opposing armies, had revealed they had strapped Living Cats to their shields.

Why, you wonder? Well the Cat is one mighty fine refined focal point, hell even its waste is refined and a rarity in quality of Ammonia and is closest to the Pig um, and Humans, and Pig is for only one rather jacked up reason, and the biggest reason you might want to no longer consume Pork, um, did you know that before the flood, that wiped out the entire map, with its dark wters and buildings, rocks, wait.. lets try this... see it is not the water that kills and destroys the coastline by wave or hurricane, it is the debris of all that is previously knocked into absolute helpless submission by the water of loving rage and passion. see imagine the entire map, being in a washing machine for oh, lets say 30, no no, oh hell lets call it at 40 days. and with all that debris, cars, trucks, trains, um people, roofing wood, beams, what.. im sorry, what was that? what do I mean cars trucks, trains? um, well we didnt abuse the oil as we do now, remember do not harm the oil or the wine? but we abused other elements and resonations, and had oh , far more than we do now, well, I say that in the understanding of the average bear. cause we have it all jack, yep most the vaults have been found and are now fully, well for the most part reverse engineered, um once time , and vibration, speed and stable speed of, vibe, ummm. yeah, never mind, we had some cool **** you cant even begin to imagine, and we had genetic manipulations too, and you know how it is when we have done it all, we keep going, and so we get the platypus, um and even the half human genome pig. not boar, not Hog Pig hair less pink porker pig, jack, yep, human genome. so stop eating of it. and if you think that not a good enough reason, research the worms that live beyond 800 degrees 12 hours in the meat of the flesh of the beast. and you for life. and yes I didn't know and eat and found out by seeking and stopped. oh and research the glands in their legs that excrete.

Ever notice that thick and thin start with the same three letters?