Time moves too slow,
I don't want it that way,
But all I just wait for,
Is a long rest day.

After all of this,
I want you to promise,
Please don't leave me,
And I want you to be honest.

I caught you many times,
Over and over,
Just don't leave me,
As failure comes closer.

I heard you say "yes",
It echoed in my mind,
As I turn around again,
It looks like you lied.

Don't turn to me,
when you want someone to talk to,
because you never knew me,
and I never knew you.

We don't have anything in common now that years have passed,
I've flown in my life, and so have I crashed.

I don't know much about you anymore, so don't come to me,
remember I'm just a stranger,
and forgetting you was all I need.

I always thought we were friends,
just say the word and I'll leave,
don't make me suffer,
in all the lies I believed.

You said we were going to be friends, best friends,
FOREVER.

But after every lie,
it just makes me want to forget,
what we've been through,
all that you've promised me,
everything you've told me.

I'm okay,
You're okay,
Nobody's okay,
*******

Self-confident, you say, is what I need to be,
But it's what that caused this catastrophe.
Open you're eyes, tell me what you see,
Whoops, you messed up, look what you did to me.

Smile, smile, smile,
It's all they want you to do,
they don't care what you feel,
they don't care what you'll do.

They just don't want your burdens,
they just dont want to understand,
lucky for me,
their carelessness I withstand.

This anxiety tries to **** me,
Time and time again,
Makes me fuss over little problems,
It keeps on whispering, "This is the end."

I try to shoo it away,
But it doesn't want to let go,
Now depression comes by,
To sing along with anxiety's deadly song.

It keeps messing with my mind,
And other people tell me to relax,
But depression gets the best of me,
My mind is starting to crack.

I always thought this was a phase,
Everyone would just go though,
But I'm sure this is different,
According to someone I knew.

It tries to drown me,
In my past of regret,
I don't want to give up,
I just don't want to yet.

"Oh no, I needed this!",
"Oh no, I forgot about that...",
Responsibility, it seems,
Is what I tend to lack.

I wasn't always like this,
I used to be very responsible,
I used to like to be a leader,
But my mistakes don't seem flammable.

I don't know the true meaning of depression,
Anxiety is mostly what I have,
But itself is enough,
To make me insane, to make me laugh.

So please leave me alone,
Please leave me to my thoughts,
But I hear my anxiety bellow,
"Just give up, you don't have a chance."

I don't know which to believe,
I just end up crying,
Sometimes I just wonder,
"What would happen if I'd start dying?"

As we walk along the corridor,
I meet you along the way,
I raise my hand to greet you,
But you don't return the same.

I remember when we used to talk,
you talked like you cared,
But now that I don't meet you,
I feel like I'm just dead.

Sometimes I realize,

That one day you'll leave me,

Leaving me cold,

Without your warm hand.

==《 ♡ 》==

Stuck clueless in this complex world,

Not knowing how to respond,

And here I am stuck clueless, once more.

… help me, my mentor…

For thine soul needs none of thy assistance.

I look in your direction,
And I catch you making eye contact.
I immediately turn away,
Embarrassed in thinking 'bout it.

==《 ¿ 》==

At least I let you know.
Now it's time to move on.
If you'll return,
then I know it wasn't in vain.

Countless of times,
You tend to ask,
"How much do you like me?",
I'm making sure this is the last.

"Count the stars, would you?",
And so you look up, not down,
"But it's so cloudy",
I say, "And I'm already out of town."

I walk along the shore,
With a jewel locket in my hand,
I saw a shining bottle,
Hidden in the sand.

I drop down on my knees,
I start digging through the the grains,
Inside the bottle, some lyrics,
Of the song of my friend in some other place.

I didn't think I'd ever get it,
My knees feeling numb,
With the freezing cold water,
This day will be blessed and loved.

I know nothing matters,
I know I won't see the light,
I'll just stand up from my seat,
And I'll give up the fight.

They try to bring me back,
Telling me not to give up,
I wonder why they're optimistic,
Their mouth I cannot shut.

I want to slap some sense into them,
We're all gonna die someday,
Why need friends?
They can't be with us anyway.

In the end,
We're all alone,
Without some company,
Everything I'll disown.

You don't know how much it hurt me,
I suppose you were misled.
I've been waiting all day to tell you,
Only to hear what you misinterpret what I said.

Pathetic, you think you knew what I meant,
You thought you saw through my smile,
What did you think of me?
Some irresponsible Middle school child?

Sorry for bothering you,
I only wasted your time,
I'm not capable of complementing
People who aren't like mine.

I fooled you once before,
I know I can't fool you again,
I know you're not stupid,
And you want this to end.

If I do this to you,
I'm just trying to make you smile,
all that I'm trying to do,
is keeping you from life's many lies,

Even though I've tricked you twice,
know this please,
please know I still care,
I'll try to keep you at ease.

It always seems like I ignore you,
It seems like I don't care.
I hate you so much,
but I know I don't at all...

I don't know what's the problem.
You did nothing wrong.
Don't let me believe anything I say.
It's just the voices in my head...

A lovely maiden,
so elegant and creative,
But with this pure dark soul,
no one will notice.

You know how to act,
Even with this soul of hate,
No one can change this,
They won't be able to compensate.

If only I've told you
How **** you are
Then maybe this friendship
Wouldn't have gone this far.

We just grew apart,
Nowhere closer.
Why can't this friendship
Just be over?

Time to drop the past
No getting near it.
Do me a favour
And just shut it...!

You get closer and closer,
After all the things I've done,
When I've already hurt,
You and everyone.

This isn't funny,
Beause I don't get it,
Why do you protect me,
When I've always been zilch?

Don't say that I've been something,
I don't want to believe it's true,
All I wanted to be,
Is to be someone, like all of you.

I'm still here,
waiting for your reply.
It's been months, hasn't it?
This conversation's never gonna die.

Something broken, and
Something to break.

How much I cared.
I've met you only for a short time.
I'm sorry for her behavior, I'm sorry for mine.

And I don't think we'll meet anymore.
You'll move away,
I know that as a fact.
But as long as you're happy.

As long as you're with her.

Madaming taon ay nakalipas.
Madaming litrato natakpan.
Bakit hindi mo pa nakakalimutan?

You're no where in my sights!!
You said you would return,
turns out it's a lie.

You remind me of what happened,
back in those days
where you still cared for us.
Oh what a shame...

Too bad you're so "busy".
Too busy with our enemies!!
You left us too many times....
just so them you could see...

I'll shut my mouth if needed,

==《♡》==

Leave if necessary,

==《♡》==

I just want to make sure everyone's happy,

==《♡》==

Without me or not.

Please hurry and speak,
I'm already terrified,
I wont know what I'll do,
I just want to set this aside....

Please don't hurt me...
Ask questions I can answer,
It'll be useless to ask me
Questions where I have no power.

Please don't shout at me,
I'm already tired of crying,
I didn't want to come and talk,
But I'm already trying.

Ran away when they chased us.
Escaped when were caught.
And when we'll get cornered,
We'll choose to fight back!

Everyone could make you feel special,
To them, you are crucial,
To lose,
Cause you're the one they'd choose.

Don't be a fool,
This isn't some pointless duel,
It shows you how much they love you,
Anything they'd do.

So don't abandon those who care,
But life isn't fair,
Suffocate in all that isn't real,
Cause then soon they would reveal.
That you weren't anything,
The truth will sting,
You'll soon be back with them soon, don't worry,
No one right now is in a hurry.

As long as you stay put,
No one's a crook,
You're love will find you,
You'll just have to wait for a few,

MINUTES.

Fragile as glass,
You were too good to be true,
When I thought out there,
Was someone like you.

As grace as possible,
You move very quickly,
Acting like a real leader,
And the chances of failure are unlikely.

With no physical evidence,
that someone's like you,
But since you're just fiction,
I still believe this truly anew.

I dared not to repeat history,
To not repeat that life changing mistake, But different actions, same results.

I piece together this puzzle,
Oh so carefully.
From my experience in the past few months,
I've learned the things we did to fail.

But this isn't enough,
Not much information gathered.
And so, here am I walking on a similar path,
It feels like October 14th all over again.

She wrote about other people, yes,
but she never wrote for anyone else but her.
She felt alone, I must admit,
but I refuse to take responsibility.

She's on her own.

Can't everything just go back to where they belong?
Back to where nothing was ever wrong.
I've cared for too long,
now I can no longer hear your song.

I always wondered,
why I walked behind,
ever since we met this new person,
I never walked beside.

Years have passed,
and I'm still here,
when I try to find you,
you'll try to avoid me.

Seeing you with your friends,
just makes me want to cry,
finding no purpose,
I don't want to be mortified.

As long as this sun shines,
As long as this heart beats,
I have my goal set,
My back against commitment.

Grasping onto truth,
Believing in what's real,
Travelling along the sidelines,
Finding people who shares the same mind.

Leaving your lovely comments,
written in red,
seems so intimidating,
until it is read.

Lying to others,
so we don't get in trouble,
being a bad influence,
but keeps us from being rubble.

Giving your support,
so the teams will have envy,
and working together as a team,
we still winning competitions, greatly.

When I am left alone,
So my friend could be talked to,
It's alright,
I don't, and wont have a place there,
Hearing all that I don't need to know,
Cause I'm so different from her...
No need to say hello.

People are like paper,
They could be decorative,
They can have one layer,
But be highly sensitive.

You could obtain many papers,
But you could lose a few,
You might accidentally ruin them,
And they might change hue.

Someone could steal them,
Then you'd lose some more,
You wouldn't be able to get them back,
And the rest you'd just store.

This empty soul of mine,
feels nothing but hate,
I see no reason to cry,
for my emotions arrived late.

I never felt anything,
I didn't want to anyway,
because I've seen what they bring,
that they can haunt you for days.

I'm just a soulless spirit,
wandering this world,
with no ability to **** this,
I won't be saying a word.

It's worse than I imagined.
Much worse that what I thought of it before.
But you've changed. It's too late.
I've lost everything thing I could ask for.

My dearest,
My love,
I know you're nothing without me,
And so I've chosen to accept what I have.

==《♡》==

You and you're conditions,
I've learned to accept them too,
Surprises, as well,
I've decided to learn you.

==《♡》==

My dearest,
My love,
Please don't leave me,
I can't cope without feeling what you've showed.

It has been a year since we both met,
don't you remember?
Your twinkling eyes and lovely voice
is all that made it better.

I've seen you come and gone,
I then lost you to society's poison.
I'm sorry,
but our friendship's cold, hard, and frozen.