varsity jackets, badges of glory, guarantees left by old, old money. state champions' tendency to wander pass female dorms, late at night, reasons of, not far beyond her. homecoming queens, smiles permanent, eyes glassed, twisted sovereigns.
I keep hearing that in order to exist properly amongst your peers you need a strong sense of self. I think that the stains on my shirt melancholic playlist in my ears grumbling tummy and agitation with self help websites might be as good as it gets for my 20's.
and I'm tired of trying to be perfectly healthy all the time. and I think capacity for constant self awareness is a privilege.
just want to exist and not worry about how I interact with people
Sounds of a generator and somebody Shouting nearby. Reflections of Blurred lights and a Window playing television through blind slits; This is it, this is it and I shall embrace it.
Sewage surges below me and above me Orion persists. Should I take this as my glimmer of hope? Something Of a trope belonging to my tragedy? I shall embrace it.
Sitting in a cafe now, spilling Tea on books and recalling my Favourite of pages bound. A mother sings a lullaby to unpacified baby, bittersweet Melody of soft cries and Soothing voice rattle against Cutlery. Life’s ultimatum sits opposite. I shall embrace it.
Left sock right sock Shirt then pants. I throw them on the ground Then I leap towards my bed With one great bound I flick my foot to switch off the Lights because I'm scared of the monsters, Or at least, scared of what I cannot see. I don't know what's in my closet Which is why I went to particular lengths To close it so they couldn't unlock it. As I'm flying through the air I'm frozen, There is nothing there, and I know this But I'm scared of what I cannot see. 1 thing I cannot see is 2 years from now I'll be faced with 3 stages of life 4 years of high school 5 years of college And 60 years with the knowledge That those aren't monsters in that closet. But there are fears and there are problems About my future and what is blind to me So maybe I need to face my fears in order to solve em so I can live happily.
The monsters in my closet represent my fear of the unknown. The most unknown aspect of my life would be my future. 60 years of the unknown, hence, 60 monsters in my closet.