Each day was a mess With no one to talk to No shoulder for my head to rest
We pass each other by Wondering when our war would end
Not a war of fire But of cold, cold ice
You smiled at me one day And I smiled back
It was a start For today
Where we finally talked And you didn't hate me
And my fears Were your fears And we had thought our friendship was gone
But it had ended The wall between us
I could finally hold your hand and say, "It was terrible being at war with you."
And you replied likewise
I talked with my friend for the first time today after a year. I thought she hated me and she thought the same. But in the end, it seems that friendship can still sail through the storm. There is still things that needs ironing out, but I hope we keep what we had lost and now found again
I am falling out of it, You cannot get my soul back. It is too late, A door that cannot be opened again, Shut tightly, I can never return back, To the time, Where we both were in, No more, Everything is gone, Surrounding looks ghastly, All empty, There is no more direction. No turning back.
I just realize that after the break up, both me and my ex can never get back together as friends after all the things we have done. We have messed each other up. Completely and our friendship as well has been tainted. That is frustrating and sad and painful BUT that is life... and reality.
How could I have been so close Yet so far away The gap in the distance is more intense than I'd actually like to say It feels like almost yesterday, where the smiles or frowns that came around Never settling in the crest we call a "face" It wasn't as fake as it was now The warmth of your smile turned the mood around Even if it was disappointing I couldn't help but try a bit harder for the sake of being friends Cause that's what they do, staying true, yes true Not saying I've caught them in a lie It just feels a little blue, on the other side I wish I could hold your hand, just to adore This, space that we once had It's not the same years later and I know things have changed Again this isn't a plead for help Just my old thoughts into an expression Takes it like the old way of written out confessions If I had to be convicted Id be in for a long sentence Like the, I broke a promise and left without saying a word, Sad how we make it seem like it was the another's fault that we're this way... Though in the end, it was selfish actions... selfish actions...selfish actions...and self-indulgence That pushed the gap and broke the space apart Id like to say sorry as a start in the right way Though I don't think that would mend the nasty tear that's been every slowly gashing We've been on the rocks thrashing about in a glass cup smashing with fruit juice and ***** I remember the sweet cheers of that kiss and the hard rocks on the bed I understand it, I do I lived in the misery of your happiness that shined through I wanted to use your opening and vent without considering what your feelings meant That this was a special event, and I wasn't just getting experience but giving it too Where sweet words never left the heart Where promises were meant to last I formally apologize, I can't take it away for what has happened But I'll keep moving forward regardless of forgiveness I don't expect to walk back into a life that I created so many problems for And I understand completely if these words cannot pierce through like a sword It's no point that way
I hurt someone close to me. I didn't consider their feelings after being so close. And it cost me a lot.
My feelings for you resonate in the rainy skies today, A storm of emotions that threaten an outburst beyond my control, And like every rain that falls upon this earth, I let out my deep anguished cries but for a while, Until its time to stop and let the sun shine and pretend to the world I'm fine instead.
i have been writing a lot recently, all about the same thing. i can't unsee your bright blue eyes or the small gap between your two front teeth, that you hate so much but i love so dear. i can't forget the words you said, and the song you named after me. those words which are now out under a different name for the rest of the world to hear. the words that used to be my favorite song became the melody i hated the most.
but, at the same time, i'll do anything to hear your voice. and no matter how mad i am, i can't stay that way forever. i see you smile once and i fall all over again. i don't think it's fair that i think about you, when i know **** well you aren't thinking of me.
i spoke to your mom recently. she said you've been doing just fine. how nice. she also mentioned how you talk about me. why talk about me instead of talking to me? i know you write about me too. she told me one of your band's new songs is about me, and i have a feeling i know which one it is. it made me cry the first time i had heard it.
i've tried moving on. i've tried singing it away. i've tried writing it away. i even tried seeing other people. but somehow, my mind always comes back to you. it's always going to be you.