You look in my eyes,
And you try to see
What is shallow
And what is deep

You don't know why
My cheeks are red
From laughing hard
Or crying in bed

I seem so cheerful
And I am
But when you're not looking
I look down again.

Who am I, truly,
You wish to know
You cannot ask me
For I would say, "No,

"I am no one
To call by name
And deserve not
Glory or fame."

I don't doubt you know
The way I feel
But when you see me
It feels more real.

My love is moonlight
Because it's not only dark,
But illumimates.

My love is music
Because it's both personal
And vulnerable.

My love is a tree
Because it grows back slowly
And slower each time.

My love is home
Because if you leave it, still
It stays there for you.

My love's a haiku
Because it has its limits
But depth speaks much more.

Close your eyes, and now you're here
The world I build around me
It exists when I am not
And I create my surroundings.

The sky is blue and sparrows sing
The sun never sets to darkness
No matter the weather without my world
Within the sunlight sparkles.

Whether a lie or fairytale
My world keeps me alive
So whenever you feel you need a break
Step on in, just close your eyes.

The world and its evil disgusted me
The dust of the earth and the grime
Acceptance of dirt and love of filth
The creatures complacent in slime

I searched for a higher existence
When I saw the ignorance around
I found there was nothing within me
They all faded without a sound

Living one moment, dead the next
This life seemed meaningless to me
But as soon as I thought I had no hope
I saw the Man on the tree

Surely the most gruesome sight of all
He hung nailed on a cross
But in his eyes I saw a gleam
That saw this as gain, not loss

Suddenly the whole earth trembled
As the man gave up his last breath
The moon rose red and sky went black
As his soul went into death

What hope could he have, this man
Who hung in agony to die?
Who could he possibly be?
What could his black death buy?

Three days I spent in thought
And in contemplation walked
Too confused to eat or sleep
So perplexed I never talked

But on the morning third
A woman ran past me and cried
I followed her as she ran to a grave
And told me, “He’s alive!”

The stone was rolled back,
The grave was bare
And the wrappings from the man’s body
All were there

I began to see that the man on the cross
Had known he would soon rise
And who but the Son of God
Has hope to live when He dies?

He must know my dilemma, for sure
I must now find this Man
For if He can rise up from the dead
He could change worlds with His hand

They give you more love than me
because they know you need the encouragement
and I'm fine all alone.

Be my hope, please do
For who am I without you?
I need you with me.

You'll never know
How close you are
To finding out
You're never far.

You said to me you'd never leave
And I honestly didn't believe you
The sad news is that you were wrong
And sometimes winning isn't fun to do.

The raven whispered
"Nevermore was an old phrase;
Forever you'll die!"

I mean nice
in the most sarcastic way
'Cause I disagree
with everything you have to say.

I like talking to people
Because other people are nice
I don't really like talking to you
Because you used to be nice,
And now you're not.  I don't know why.

But I don't feel nice when I talk to you,
I feel like I'm not being nice to you,
And I don't like that feeling.
Should I stop talking to you?

You make me think of things I have tried to forget for a long time
And I don't like thinking of things again,
Because I thought I had made a decision.
But you bring back the doubts I used to have all the time.
I lived with those doubts.  
They keep me from being happy all the time,
And I don't like that.

I don't know what there is that you can do to change things,
But if you could be nice to me, that would make me feel better about talking to you.
Then, maybe we could come to an understanding.
But I don't understand you, and you don't understand me.

I won't go through the hundreds of thoughts I've had about you,
Because you probably don't want to hear them anyway.
I just wish you were someone I'd never known,
And that I could meet you for the first time
And that we could be simple friends.
We messed that up before by being more than friends,
And now I feel like we are so much less than friends.

I wish we could be nice to each other.
I wish it wasn't my fault, or your fault, or life's fault.
I wish I knew what to do about you.
I hope you're okay, and that I am nice to you, even when I don't feel like it.
I hope you don't think unkind things about me.
I can't help it, I guess.  But I can hope.

And I hope you remember me.

I go to tell you all, goodnight
I'll rise and greet the morning
But 'fore I do, I now must rest
For my soul's continued restoring.

Sometimes you sense them
In the dark places of night
But now face to face.

It isn't the long nights that I dread
It's the short ones where I lie in bed
Trying to get thoughts out of my head
Wishing I had more time to rest

Long nights of staying awake to talk
Nights of finding new ways to stalk
Going out in the moonlight to walk
Laughing and crying, those nights are best

Saying someday we'll do these things
Talk of names and talk of rings
Overwhelmed tears just one look brings
When all the emotion wells up in my chest

What matters is not what we do
Or where we go, whatever the view
The best part is just being with you
Delightfully oblivious to all of the rest

However the day comes to an end
Whatever time we've spent with friends
Even if messages won't send
Knowing you're there loving me is best.

If crush is a pumpkin pie
Then I'm just taking a tiny bite
Against my will, and it tastes sour.

If love is an ocean's eye
Then I've lived in a desert dry
With mirages I believed.

If truth is the color of the sky
Then I'm green asking why
My yellow is fading away.

Liquid nitrogen
Surrounded my warm heart, and
Froze the blood and flesh.

Writing on my phme        
makes me want to shoot myself  
in the leg. no joke.

Too much in my head
Voices, songs, condemnation
There's no room for you.

I don't want to forget
Make a mental note:
Should it be a B?
Or C, D, E, F, G?

I see you sitting there, wondering
How will you ever go on?
'Cause you can't get over that one thing
It's been with you for so long
 
You thought you could be brave enough
Thought you could stay strong
You tried but you couldn't save yourself
How did it all go so wrong?
 
I see you telling yourself to try, try
You say you're better than this
I see you break down and just cry, cry
But you don't have to do this
 
You think you're separated from My love
I tell you, nothing can do that
You think all you did is bad enough
I tell you, nothing, nothing can do that
 
Every day you wake up and say
You're going to get it right
You're going on your own strength
And it brings you down every night
 
It's getting heavier all the time
You didn't know it'd hurt this much
But you just keep saying you'll try
Even though you're giving up
 
But I see you in your pain
You can give up and know I'm here
My voice has always been saying
That I've always been near
 
You think you're separated from My love
I tell you, nothing can do that
You think all you did is bad enough
I tell you, nothing, nothing can do that
 
So when the lies tear you down
When you let them speak
Don't be afraid, I'm always around
Child, just hold onto Me
 
You think you're separated from My love
I tell you, nothing can do that
You think all you did is bad enough
I tell you, nothing, nothing can do that
 
Nothing can do that.

I'm sick and tired
Of me, me, me, all the time;
I want some of You.

I was the girl who never got angry
I never was tempted that way
But now I am angered by all that you do
And I'm definitely not okay.

I want to obey
Because I know I'll be safe
When I follow You.

AM I JUST OCD
IS THIS ONLY BOTHERING ME
SHOULDN'T POEMS HAVE A RHYME
OR AM I REALLY WRONG THIS TIME?

I'm not okay,
And that's okay
Because with You,
My future's safe.

Some people call me young
But to others, I am old.
How you see me depends
On the way my impression is sold.

O Lord, my life is short 
And my days a blink of an eye
Give me happiness and peace
So I can praise you when joy is mine

O Lord, my life is short
And my breath will soon depart
Give me trials and testing times
So I can grow and heal my heart

O Lord, my life is short
And these moments shall slip away
Give me friends to share your goodness
So I can bring them with me someday.

Not trying to impress you, I'm just trying to get by
I've been running out of breath and out of hope and out of time
And if I pass this finish line, I'll just keep moving on
Surprised that I still made it even though it took so long.

'Cause I have failed so many times that sometimes I don't try
I wrap up in my fears and thoughts and curl up tight to hide
But no matter what it is that gets me on my feet again
To go again is all that's left, so I count down from ten.

Ten more breaths until my heart can settle in my chest;
Nine more hours on the clock until I get to rest;
Eight times more that I can tell myself I'm not alone;
Seven more reminders of the way that I have grown;

Six more chances left to give myself the care I need;
Five more minutes off the clock that I can use to breathe;
Four good beats to count inside my steady beating heart;
Three attempts that might not fail that I just need to start;

Two things left to say before I rise up from the depths;
One more time I'll brush myself off and take one more step.

There is one I hold to,
One whose love is strong;
Strong enough to hold me
When he’s been deeply wronged.

For when I find I’m empty,
He fills me up with love,
And strength enough to carry on—
Much more than just enough.

He keeps me from despairing
For he’s never too busy for me;
His every waking hour,
He’s attentive as can be.

I know no other as righteous:
He’ll never do me wrong.
I wish I was more like him, but
The process will be long.

When no one makes me special,
When I’m selfish and want my way,
He’s patient, quiet, humbling:
He takes my breath away.

He’s not just something to hang on to
Because ‘nothing could heal this pain’:
He is the only solution,
The sun above the rain.

My faith isn’t blind, here—
It’s more than justified;
My Savior keeps me going.
To Him I owe my life.

If a picture's worth a thousand words
Then I'll send you a picture of me smiling
Because I'm speechless when I think about you.

My heart is open, speak Your truth
I’m waiting for Your word
For I know that You’re the only one
Who can heal my every hurt.

My eyes are open, show Your face
I’m waiting for Your love
For I know that You’re the only one
Who can fix my heart up.

Open me, I’m asking You:
Take and break these chains;
Flood my heart with mercy
And blind my eyes with grace.

My hands are open, take Your glory
I was stealing it all for me
But I know that You’re the only one
Who deserves my bended knee.

My mouth is open, take Your praise
I’m tired of praising my own name
For I know that You’re the only one
Who can make that claim.

Open me, I’m asking You:
Take and break these chains;
Flood my heart with mercy
And blind my eyes with grace.
Open me, I know it’s You
Who holds a hurting heart
Drown my soul in Your love
And heal my every scar.

Bad mood? Feel guilty?
Be like Christ, righteous anger
Start flipping tables.

I think I could try this
An eternity of you
With loneliness as an option
You're the better of the two.

Do you know who you are?
Or, who you are to me?
Frankly, I don't know anymore
Who you are, or seem to be.

Again and again
The ostinato repeats
It's stuck in my head.

Last night I stayed up,
Thinking I'd be fine today:
I was out of it.

Sightless poets made the future
Mute bards told of the past
Deaf musicians sing of today
The best were outcast.

Drowning in sorrows
He flounders in the depths, gone
His chance over, gone.

No one is awake
The hour is late and dark
Thinking overtakes.

When I just can't sleep at night
You are the one on my mind
As I toss and I turn, turning on the light
Can't leave these mem'ries behind.

Day in, day out
I think about
What has come,
What is done
What you said
How you won.
The less it hurts
The more it burns
The more I think
The less I've learned.

In the morning, blinds are closed
Lights just hurt my eyes today
My tested heart never knows
How my emotions are gonna play.

Day in, day out
I think about
What has come,
What is done
What you said
How you won.
The less it hurts
The more it burns
The more I think
The less I've learned.

And when I look for answers
The questions have already gone
And as my heartrate dances
I find I'm searching for the dawn.

*I know I'll learn.

Got soap in my eyes
Ow ow ow ow ow ow ow
It really hurts! Ow!

So the only pain
That I feel this late at night
Is my chapped lips. Yeah.

I'm adding paint to my 'masterpiece'
Just to make you mad
I never like the things I do
Because they're always bad.

Sun knows not my skin
Sky sees not my face or hands
I am winter's glow.

The day is coming soon:
The night will pass away;
No longer shines the moon
To guide you on your way.

Do not hide from shadows,
For light will surely come;
Eyes on where the moon goes,
You're better off than some.

Darkness cannot win this fight!
You have the strength you wish for;
And if your courage holds tonight,
You'll find what you have looked for.