i smell it on my hands, a smell, like clothes maybe. or a house i once belonged in. long gone and fixed up. i know i know it. maybe i’m insane. maybe i just haven’t used the downstairs bathroom in a while. it makes me nostalgic. i don’t know why. i don’t know how i know it and it’s driving me up the blue painted walls. i will tear down the coats and smash the mirror to know how i know this smell. it smells like old love that i ache to forget. people i once knew. people i once loved before they shed their skins, and i wore them as a scarf all winter. i flick the lock, the metal lock, and it washes away the smell. it is polluted with that copper penny tinge. so i hold the lock with my sleeve now.
You've heard of a 'heart of glass'. Well, mine is made of soap. Careless hands can gut it. Your fingernails will cut it. You lay upon me all your grimy guilt, Then leave me here, unrinsed, with all your filth. I numb 99% of my own pain, So the 1% can come eat me up again. I'll cover you, My Dear, in soft, safe bubbles; Neglect my own, but listen to your troubles.
The water droplets on your back glisten like diamonds. How can I not want you? Your hair is slicked back with shampoo lathered in your dark waves. How can I not desire you? You ever so carefully take the soap and cascade it down your arms and legs. What could be better than this? You look at me, Standing under the water, With my curls falling down on my shoulders. You touch my cheek, ever so gently, and You smile. What could ever compare to this moment? You pull me closer to you; You wrap your arms around me. Just you and I, under the hot water, with steam clouding in the air. (With the occasional bubble) ***** as ever, And still, I have never felt so clean.
Your lies have hurt , why do you talk sweetly to my face then turn around a spit them out with hate. Why do you pass around bad rumors like a mad note, if your trying to be funny well its a sad joke. You hurt me but I did not see it until it was too late. I cut off the chain that connected us. I bought a ticket to fly away from your negative space. Then I will rinse myself with soap so your hate might just wash right away.