I keep it high.
I keep a laugh.
I make a smile.
I compartmentalise.

11 days into July.
Life has took a turn.
A loss,
a sudden death.
I compartmentalise.

House filled in darkness,
echoing shouts of anger.
I'm trying to compartmentalise.

I keep it low.
I keep it buried.
I make a smile.
I compartmentalise.

---

{ e.i. }

one more day
one more day,
i say waking every day.

one more day
one more day,
we'll get through today.

one more day
one last day,
we'll be okay.

< e.i. >

that fleeting feeling of fluttering butterflies
as they caught your attention
in that short moment of walking by,
in that short moment of seeing eyes
like the short moment of waves kissing land.
your thoughts momentarily filled with the "what ifs"
"what would it be like"
"how your life will be like"
Oh, what an innocent feeling that is.
those moments before knowing a person.

{ e.i }

"You were a siren,
A rare beauty uncompared
who beckoned the unsuspecting me -
of love, lust & happiness -
I was in a trance
Unknowingly in danger -
For I never noticed you were pulling me in,
My feet dipping in along the shore
And before I knew it,
I was drowning in the coldness -
Your blood red kisses bringing me life
that I would die without."


< e.i. >

❝ We were of differing shades in the palette of colours.
You were blue
you were as calming and tranquil as water.
I was red
I was as dangerous and wrathful as fire.
You were white
innocence, pure and good.
I was black
mysterious, and full of depth.
But funny enough,
together,
we match like the pieces of jigsaw puzzles. ❞

《 e.i 》

Words have edges like knives,
Sharp.
The outcomes are unseen
to the human eyes
But
the bleeding of the heart is unmissable
if perceived with empathy.


• e.i •

laughter sounded through the day,
smiles so bright it blinds
but as the night looms close
-- the clock closing in to 12:ooam --
the night is filled with silence
& loneliness creeps
into her heart & soul

《e.i》

Darkness lurks in every corner,
He is trapped.
On his knees,
He covered his face,
Trembling like a leaf
-- as he prayed for God --
To save him from the demons
That tortures him.

{ e.i }

She's not that little girl anymore.
Expectations,
Humiliations,
Condescensions,
The world
Had killed
her happiness,
her soul,
her innocence.
The body is just an empty shell,
just there for the rest of the journey.

{ e.i }

Your life is fast-paced,
Like the speed of light.
Never able to catch up.

Yet,
The beauty in you retains
Like a oil painting framed on the wall
Forever caught in the moment.

{ e.i }

Don't expect me
to succeed without failing,
to walk without falling,
to swim without drowning,
to run without tripping.
I can't do it perfectly.
Don't expect me to.

{ e.i }

I see you have walked away in short notice,
Nice to know how much I worth to you.
Just another easy target,
Another girl in the list,
Another heart to play with.
I shouldn't have let you in
in the first place,
I should have known we are just a detour off the main road.

{ e.i }

Don't expect people to be perfect
like a doll without a flaw.
Why are you expecting such things
when you're not
one without dirt as well.


《 e.i 》

Wore his hat so low,
You can't see his eyes
As one would know
The eyes are the mirrors of the soul.


《 e.i 》

The lights shine on me,
I can't seem to hide.
This is too much for me,
I can't seem to breathe.

God, save me,
Please don't go.

The walls are closing in,
There's no space for me.
This is too much for me,
I can't seem to breathe.

《 e.i 》

You don't know how I feel but that's okay.
I wasn't planning on telling you anyway 'cause right now, there's too much on our plate already.
This feeling I'm feeling now will dismiss slowly, and it'll be okay again.


{ E.I }

I seek comfort in reading ever since
You left me.

{E.I}

We met today at the coffee shop.
We talked, we laughed, even if it was awkward.
You told me how you still have feelings for me,
the same way I do for you.
You told me of our bittersweet past;
with the sun setting behind me, the wind breezing pass us and the sound of the waves crashing,
it was magical.
You told me that I was beautiful,
despite me only wearing a sweater and sweatpants.
It killed me how you look at me
with those twinkling eyes and the smile I love so much,
like I was the world, like I was the one you hold dear.
But you're not mine.
Not anymore,
you have another in your arms.
It was wrong, but
I wish things were different.

{E.I}

I always thought I would never love again,
that I wouldn't love another the same way I love him.
until you caught my attention.
I don't know what it was about you,
that made me fall in love with you.
Whenever you smile,
the butterflies in my stomach comes to life.
It's like my world of monochrome finally
had colors.
With your laugh, your voice,
and the quirkiness I adore.
This feeling was different from what I felt before,
but it was a good different.
It's like I've found the thing that I didn't know I've been missing.


{ E.I }

" You are the muse to my endless bittersweet stories, love. "

{ E.I }