I am an undercurrent, free flowing river, whispering these secrets.

Mario is red
Sonic is blue
Please press select
And be my player two

'Wander',
                        a word for
Shadows                        like myself

Does it really matter?
Should I even bother documenting these days with poetry?
After all the love that was there drained away
and my heart began it's decay
Is anything I feel worth saying?

If              v
   the     a      e
         w              s         to                       today
                         were             come                     would                 would
                                                           ­                           you        or        you
             ­                                                                 ­              drown            drink?

---------------
Your love-
is the cliff--
I stand on;---
dangerous--
-----------------**  
but I've never       so          
                         felt       alive
                                             inside

That awful moment
When you see
The one you love
Or find his picture
And you Remember
How you gave him up
And how you never wanted to
And how he's really gone this time
But worst of all
You remember how
You broke his heart
Every day
And now you too
Are broken.

Feeling utterly
unknown and unloved today.
It gets tedious.

Freedom is the prize,
and I guess love is the cost...
walking in-between

I'd almost trade my eyes
to have a normal lifetime
unique to safer

Let the calling pull
drift with direction in mind
follow waves to purpose

Freestyle:                                My heart
                                                         Coming alive
                                                               Again,
                                                        Finally maybe
                                                             I can live

my heart is coming alive
again yes it's awake now
my old radiance                                      :Haiku

                                                 *Rhyme:                  My heart is coming alive
                                                                                 again, it's on fire,
                                                                                 finally I can maybe
                                                                                 reclaim my significant
                                                                 brand of crazy

Sentence:        My heart is coming alive again, finally maybe I can be free

Literal             I feel so good again and the future doesn't seem so scary anymore

All I want
Is love and light
  I want arms to hide in
   and lips to kiss mine

I am not alone because I
Can't make friends

I am alone because alone is safe

No one can tear the
Tender flesh of my heart
If no one is near enough
To find it

Why can't my heart
turn my insecurities into
words and phrases you'll like and relate to
so you'll give them a heart or a share and temporarily
give me a fickle reward because I'm a pointless human being
and day in day out
wish I could put my suicide into words
a literary suicide for every time
I hate my life and
wish I could go back
to being innocent before
I broke anyone
before I realized I'll have to grow up or die
before I became the
weak one
incapable of even
martyrdom.

Speed Poems
Step 1     Read someones poem
Step 2      Pick your favorite line
Step 3      Write all the thoughts you have about that, let the line guide your thoughts **Play around with it!!
Step 4        Put in the notes whose poem inspired you and the name of the poem, tag is speedpoem

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No matter how many drugstores I rob
I will never have enough Band-Aids
For what you've done to me

There comes a time
When you need to realize,
Child,
That you cannot hold
Someone's hand forever.
One day
You must pick yourself up
And face this world
With the power inside you,
Not borrowed stuff from His heart
Or from what's in that syringe.
From inside **You

Figure this may help someone today. One never knows.
Have you ever felt lost
Unsure of where to turn
Wondering which bridge to cross
And which one to burn
Pondering every decision
Like it may be your last
The inner turmoil leaving
All emotions on blast
Becoming our own enemy
We turn them inward
Swallowing it all down
We become quite disturbed
Here comes the doubt
Bringing us to our knees
Begging for someone
to hear our silent pleas
Begging in silence
As we watch the world turn
It is for one person to hear us
Our savior for which we yearn
Yet they never come
We find our own strengths
Realizing nothing more than
ourselves testing us at length
So we stand up and rise above
Ready to fight another day
Ready to cross the bridge
Or burn it either way
That first step we smile
Our journey has begun
To find ourselves in chaos
We will no longer run

Chocolate milk how can you be
So creamy, sweet, and chocolatey
I see you in my dinner glass
The perfect way to make time pass
Oh man I love you chocolate milk
You're finer than... the finest silk?

Mu chocolate milk has been removed
My parents are so hard to fool!
They saw my mostly chocolate milk
The bottom caked in choco-silt
And now my happy wants to wilt
Goodbye my tasty chocolate milk!

Roses are red,
This much is true,
Violets are violet,
NOT FREAKING BLUE!

Days are normal
My picture fits into the frame
perfectly with the others

My puzzle piece finds a home
along-side the others
and life goes on
passers by don't take notice
of anything odd
because days are normal

I've never known a soul
aware enough to notice
the glue on my edges
the film across my figure
the way my edges fade out some days

my image wavers if you look to long
so keep walking

you may not see
but the feeling of incongruence
discordant interference in my voice
shows your heart the truth

my days are the wrong shade of normal
time is slower here
and life goes on

Lights will flash
Tempers will stir
Beauty will dance
Days will blur
                           Until life ends.

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sofineidon'tcaresleepineverwillthat'sthed­ifferencebetweenus

Did you know
That I'd like a chance
Because scary as it sounds
I already love you
Did you know that?

Cat must you always come in
in and out
around and about
then put your cold paws on my skin?
I have always let you win
with your nosy little snout
then with a clout
you tip over the cups in that bin!

But mistress! The bin is intriguing
I'm sorry for all my trouble
and the doors can be oh so deceiving
when they shut I take tumbles
but I go on believing
you'll love me double
when I make my way back inside

Ye are not alone
Hear me, If ye will,
For I too have become one of the last of my kind
And my world falls apart
Just as thine own
And though we chase not the same Tower,
They are but one

Yes, Charyou Tree, come reap
I too have given up everything for my Tower
And if they knew,
They would demand I renounce my precious tower
But ka like the wind
Carries me forward
And I believe you understand
Why I know
I will draw
My last breath
On the path of the beam

I wish that I knew you
Better than I do
For your words like to catch me
Through and through

I read what you write
Late into the night
Until my numb feet
Put up a fight

Thanks for the shivers
Thanks for the dreams
Thanks for the poems
That induce mental screams

I'd like to say more
But I'm out of rhymes
Just please remember
Your heart has touched mine

No human emotion
Can ever be dignified enough
I will always tilt my head
Down in disgust
At my very own own words
Own feelings
And I will be repulsed
Emotions are the tools
Of
Children
I am too old to express feelings
How disgusting

to be real
for you to feel
for power
to move you
for tears
I feel weak
Vulnerable
if I could only just reach
the well of beauty the musicians do
I could believe again

I am radiant
   So do not rationalize

                         I shine like stars
                           through brilliant bubbles
                        of light and love and patience
        
                   if you rationalize me
               I become just a weak light bulb,
            struggling to illuminate
                even the smallest empty room
                      on my own

Dread is like a worm
Eating you inside
Rages like a fighting storm
There's nowhere left to hide.*

Dread is like a poison
Running through your veins
Always inescapable
It slips inside your brain*

YOU NEVER SEE IT COMING
IT'S ALWAYS AT YOUR SIDE
WAITING FOR THE DARK TO COME
TO TEAR UP YOUR INSIDES

Oh look!
Upon that rock,
  A dream does lie
   I stood in shock
    as it dashed into flight
     I watched it's silhouette
      On the setting sun
       Not long now
        'Till night will come
         Catch it
          Run
           It's not too late
            Dear child,
             You haven't a moment to wait!
              Said the sea,
               And the sand,
                And the whispering breeze
                 So I raced down the beach
                   And I chased down my dreams
                    And now I couldn't be happier

Roses are red,
Violets are blue,
I copied your exam,
*And I failed too.

Existing is tough;
why don't we all just give in,
do the trees a favor

Every person needs a fall back,
one thing, an Idea
that will never leave.
The root of your goodness
the reason for your living
Not a person, people are temporary
the fall back to make you permanent
So when they shut me out I am not hurt
I tell myself
Live the wiccan way, you don't need them
and it is okay again

Falling out of love:
Back to reality, oh
there goes gravity

He was my gravity.
Does my gravity miss me?
(I chose to let go)

The wind
The breeze
The tall tall trees
I need to put my mind at ease
I see you in my memories
                                                                  I watch you move
                                                                       I see you breathe
**If only I could touch your skin
And be with you once again
Before I start to wither away
And my belief starts to decay
My core sets itself aflame
And nothing but a soul remains

Everything went flat
                                    Heart takes on a dull tone
                                 He poured it into me
                                A connection starting with one kiss cemented it,
                                                                              the flat world I live in
                                                             How do I add the dimension?
                                                        This isn't how I remember love
                                                            What happened?