Do you honestly care
Or are you just using me for your games?
Your lies left my emotions bare
and I'm constantly put to shame
The sadness lies in me
The hatred lies in you
When will you see
The blood in dangerous hues.

I'm a compulsive liar
It's the truth
I use it to mask my anxiety
You say one thing,
I say another
We're the same, you and me
Hello lie, goodbye anxiety
Now I'm better than you,
Until you catch me.
and then it's hello anxiety
and goodbye life.

I feel like such a disgrace to you
So caught up in my human world
That even the stench of blood doesn't bother me anymore.
I'm transformed, reborn, renewed.
I'm am no longer a vampire.

Step up to a world
Step down to a man
Step over fate
and under love
Step nowhere else
Step somewhere here
or everywhere no one is.

Now is not the time to cry me a river, but be the river.
It's the time to stand strong and mighty
Making every dark thought flow through you, not on.
Your head is the river, your thoughts a current
Dragging your emotions along.
The person that owns the boat
Is the person that holds the key to your mind.

Forgetful rocks slide in my brain.
I can't remember your face
My health spirals like an off track train
Memories gone without a trace.
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You'll have to introduce yourself
Because I have forgotten you
Please don't forget me
as I start to forget you
Because the rocks have filled my brain.

I smile when I look at you
Laying fast asleep
I don't think about what I do
This sight I will always keep
•••
Before it's too late to say goodbye
I'll give you my last words
Bye for now, See you later,
Ciao.

Hear the toppling tumbling trees fall down into the mirroring water. Nature surrounds my close friend as they canoe down the raging river. They stop to look at the green forest. Yellow finches coolly and steadily chirping as their bright beautiful feathers float into the forest wind. I can imagine an alarming avalanche, as the snow mound sails down as if it were screaming at low E. scarring my close friends away. feeling the gratitude of climbing to the top of that dangerous mountain crying for accomplishment, yelling I did it.

I love the thing that hates me.
Nothing I do matters
So I will just give up.
The truth is
Right in front of you
Until you turn around.
Can you please look at me?
The look in your eyes give me chills
I hope that
One day
No one forgets me.

Dream son, dream with delight!
Dream for a future so bright!
One day you'll thank me,
Because one day you'll be me
Telling your son the same thing.

You really hit the nail on the head this time, dear
Now's the chance to never let anyone, near
It's my turn to slither inside your thoughts
You better go and perfect those knots
°•°
Please go and check you wrists
And I'll write you down, on my list
I'm the devil, I invade your dreams
And I laugh when I hear your screams.

We are the seeds of our own evil
We can choose to feed the seed until it keeps growing
Or we can choose not to feed into the evil
Because once that seed is planted
It will take more effort to rid of the evil,
Than it was to plant.

A whistle flew past my ear,
and I stay in hiding
They're almost here
I will not surrender
So I square my shoulders and fire
I fall for what seems like eternity
and count the stings
as I slowly close my eyes
ready to succumb to death
I see a figure standing in front of me,
and then I wake up.

I saw your eyes rain today,
What started as a slight drizzle
Turned into a heavy pour.

Don't worry about little old me
Don't worry about me
Don't worry if I cry
Don't worry if I dream.
~
Don't worry if the sun rises
Don't worry if it falls
Don't worry about little old me
Don't worry about me.
~
Don't worry if I'll make it
Don't worry if I don't
Don't worry about little old me
Don't worry about me.
~
I worry if you'll ever stop
I'll worry if you do
Because little old me,
Worries about you.

As I stare out my window,
I come to realize
That I'm quite sick of hate
I write, I cry
And I hate, hate, hate
That I am sick of hating hate.

This where I lie
All because I tried
Which will be on my mind
Till the day you die
-
I await your fall
And get ready to crawl
Into your vengeful dreams
-
I sit here and wait
For the upcoming date
Tick tock
Tick tock
Tick tock.
And it never came.

Goodnight, my friends
Goodbye, my friends
Wipe all those stray tears
Days have dwindled past
And now I prove your fears
Goodnight, my friends
Goodbye, my friends
I'll see you next year.

You broke my heart
And had a part
In my early grave.
Yet you stand here and wander,
In a never ending ponder
Have you come to your conclusion?
Your eyes are scared
But your face holds a scowl
As if something is haunting you.
I forgot, I'm a ghost!
And I poison your dreams!
Maybe that's why.

Sometimes I feel like I am sinking, and as I sink deeper into this black abyss, I think of you, and as I think of you, I start to change my mind, and then I start to crave. Crave for the chance to take a big gulp of air and float to the top. But I've sunk too far down to be saved.

I am what keeps you awake at night,
I am what invades your sleep,
I put your fear into a fake reality.

They say to be still
Your arms sway in defiance
With sad emotion

People surround the rain washed evidence
whilst cars pull to the side
People attired with obvious decadence
The culprits smiling with pride
Trash littered the up kept lawn
Liquid seeping out of forgotten containers
Companion’s up until the break of dawn
Neighbors labeled the complainer
The yelling of over protective loved ones
A lesson needs to be learned
to stifle a yell, Air fills your lungs
Until the next day when your returned
Remember what you have done
until next time a decision is made
Otherwise they have won
No more of the games you have played

I am not beautiful
I am just a symbol of destruction
So I beg of you,
Just put me out of my misery
and throw away the memory.
Tear me down
like you tore down my hope
throw me out in the ocean
and cut the rope.
Now say goodbye.