Do not let
sadness take control
your life.
Smile as big
as you can,
love with
your whole
heart, and
laugh as loud
as you can.

You often cross my mind,
not in a hateful way,
trust me,
but more of...
I'm just really wondering
how you are doing...

It's funny how
certain songs
can bring back
a sea of memories
that you didn't
even know you've
forgotten.

I feel too much and can’t help it.
I’m sorry, I ruin everything good in my life.
I hope I didn’t scare you away...

I do the
things I do
because it's nice
to feel wanted
for once in
my life,
even if it
is just for
a short time.

"Write," I whisper to myself.
"Write, keep writing, don't cry. Just write. You'll feel better."
Don't stop writing.
This is your only escape, you are only free when you write.

I **** up
anything important
to me.
Is it
because
I'm scared?
I don't
want to
lose you.
I'm sorry
for not
being what
you needed.

We're just two broken hearted people trying to make it through our messes together.

You were actually
         the first one
     to completely ignore
how I felt and I
         guess that's why
     it hurts so much.

The new trend
Seems to be
Falling in love
With your best friend.

Lately it seems
you're always
in my dreams
and that makes me
never want to sleep
because
I don'want to see you.
I don't want to see you,
even if it's only in my
dreams.
But is it really a
dream or rather
a nightmare?

It all makes sense now...
Why I have so many issues
with love...and being loved...
With men...and attention from them...
The past has been brought up a lot lately..
And it's driving me insane that...
I might just crash.

At one point
in my life
you were
the only
one I truly
trusted but,
now you are
the last one
I would ever
trust or even
utter a single
word to.

Please hold me,
Tell me everything
Is going to
Be okay,
As I sob
Into your chest.
Hold me tight,
But not too tight,
For I am fragile
And pieces of me
Are already missing...
I don't think I can
Afford to lose anymore.
Is that too much to ask?
I'm sorry.

Do not go
searching  to find home
in someone else, you
must find it in yourself
first.

I don't know...
Is it so bad to
want a friendship
you once had back?
One that you miss so much,
that your heart aches?
One that you miss so much,
you get so anxious and begin to
to cry when you're alone in
your room at night?
One that you miss so much,
that when you see them
you can't breathe and can't help
but shake?
If that's that's the case,
then call me me a
******* criminal.

Being lonely isn't so bad.
I used to despise it, but
now I crave it.

Hi, I love you.
leave me alone.
                               I love you.
                              go away.
                                                    You are loved.
                                                   Bye.
                                                                              Love you always.
                                                                             Stop.
                                                                
                                                                                            I'm never going to stop loving you.
                                                                                            Please do.
                                                  
                                                                             I' will love you forever.
                                                                            Thank you.
                                                
                                                 I love you to the moon and back.
                                                Same for you.
                          
                               I love you more than anything.
                              The feeling is mutual.

I love you.
*I love you too, I always did.

I'm dipping into my past pain
to distract myself from today's pain.

Why do I catch myself feeling this way in certain moments...
Maybe I should have let you go when everyone told me to.
I'm usually good at hiding these feelings from you and not having them show, because I just keep them aside because they DO NOT MATTER ANYMORE.
They are irrelevant. We are both moving on.
Why why why why
I thought I was done with all these ******* feelings.
****.

I often catch myself
worrying about me
                  that's how you know
                             I must be
                             ****** up.
It's okay though,
                 i'll be fine..
one day.

It's funny how I promote how it's
not good to be angry, because it really
only affects yourself,
But I do in fact get angry....
Except it's only at myself.

You were the only one I wanted to call
The only one I wanted to talk to
But I couldn't.
I had to distance myself from you.
I can't always go to you.
I have to let you go,
So you can be happy.

It's okay to ask for help
       it is more than okay
you are not weak
       you are strong.

I loved you.
Keyword:
loved.
Past tense.
I used to love
you, that is the
conclusion I have
drawn.
But just like the
love I had for you
then,
you are also no
longer apart of me.

I am becoming confused on what happened between us.
You told me you were leaving and did not want to pursue a relationship, because of it.
I was not ready for a relationship at the time anyway, so maybe it was for the best.
But you're going to be out soon... and now you don't want me,
Because apparently, "I was not about it".....

Don't pick me flowers from a garden,
give me seeds to plant my own.

My soul is drowning with sorrow and
I can't seem to swim...

To never know how to describe how you feel is so terrifying.

Time to
move on
its been
too long.
Four years
is enough.
My heart
can't take
the pain
anymore.
It's over.

Looks like that dream I had came true...
I needed you
and you could not be bothered...