desvanecerse sería más sencillo si cada esfuerzo no fuese frustrado
permanecer sería una opción si no fuese tan dispensable

You're just thinking about it and already crying, don't you?

It's like you're reading my mind
It's like I'm standing there
Next to you
You make me feel like I'm almost dying
You're my favorite left-handed creep
You're wasting my time
You're filling my life with words
Words of things I could never know
You're just ******* with my head
You're just ******* with my mind
You're just ******* with me
That's what I like best about you
I enjoy being destroyed by you
You were almost my lover
You were almost my love

y seguíamos con los ojos cerrados
sintiendo la fría brisa de diciembre
las luces a medianoche
recordándome que no estás aquí
que no estás acariciando mi cabello
y seguíamos faltándonos el respeto
por no estar juntos
por ser como somos y no permitirnos estar juntos

“es cuestión de ocasión”
dondequiera y como sea
no te dejaré ni por un segundo
pensar que la noche muere
que la luna brilla
y nosotros no estamos juntos
mirando las mismas estrellas
preguntándonos de dónde vino esto

estarás siempre
serás parte de mi
incluso estando lejos
estarás cerca de mí

the guitar is shaking
while it delivers a mellow sound
her voice is sweeter than the night before
"how'd ya make it so vulnerable?"
he asks timidly
"it's just the feeling"
maybe it's the guitar, I thought to myself

after she stopped singing
I bought her a drink
gave her a kiss
and call it a day for her
we went to sleep like the first time
we just stared at each other's eyes
listening to the night
sometimes I wish we could go back

feel my frightened skin
my voluptuous insecurities
feel my silence breaking
wave by wave
slowly turning into **this

i'll never stop thinking about you
and probably i'll never stop wanting you
for most of the times
i will forgive myself
for wanting to be so close to you
but why is it a bad thing?
why can't I be with you?
the fact that I love you and I want to be with you
doesn't mean that I hate life
they've told us
they've told us
i know we would be together
sooner if they've let me
but its a fact
i'll be dead

*and probably happier than now

embriagada por lazos de espera
la leche dulce roza mis mejillas
el olor de tu llegada contempla
contempla nuestra huida
                   [ven a buscarme
tengo tres cosas que buscar en ti
tengo tres razones para huir
la noción del tiempo se pierde
entre lámparas y té caliente
                     en la cafetería del sur]
embriagada por no querer
formulando respuestas de preguntas
que decidí olvidar
soñando entre hortensias para no dejar
de cortar

want me
as much as want you
care for me
as much as I care for you
hug me
as much as I want to hug you
kiss me
as much as I want to kiss you
talk to me
as much as I want to talk to you
just ask me how I am
cause I always do it for **you

Sigh
I can feel the emptiness killing me inside

I don't like to hear you singing my favorite songs

beautiful words
for a beautiful lover
how could I know how to stop this?
because I was in love
that's my excuse
my one and only
how could I not feel alone?
**you know we're much more than that

close your eyes
tell me what is it
don't let those crazy eyes
don't let them cry
keep looking at me
I won't step aside
don't give up on me

I wrote you a song
about all the little things you like
I wanted to take it slow
but the rush between the both of us
couldn't make it any slow

I just wish I could have known you better than this

he likes to know how to change everything
he likes to say how it's the ending
he likes to run fast and not to care
I honestly don't like the change
he makes me feel like I'm on my way
but, what way?
the way to please him
the way to need him
the way to make him
being as happy
as he can

"How can I make my poem a trend?"
I've been wondering
So I made a list

step one
Stop thinking about yourself
Stop thinking about what you want
Stop thinking about the other half of the glass
Then you will realize that it doesn't matter how far you are
It always seems to be so near

step two
Think about the trends!
Not interested about love?
Then try all of the above!

step three
I really don't know what to think

Just remember
You choose to be recognized for being part of something
Part of something you don't even like
Part of something you're just in because it's a trend
Or to be recognized for doing what you like
Even if you're bad at that you could be recognized!

*but don't stop doing things

like getting through the end of song you really enjoyed
like accidentally listening to someone's voice and thinking it's him
like a whistler on the subway
that takes you back to the moment
we first fell in love

you don't even try to see the light
you don't even try to look out
you don't want to

how does it feel
to burn your skin like this
to put your heart out
so easily
that anybody could just grab it
and take it away

maybe it doesn't feel like this
maybe I'll be there
as long as you keep your promises
and love me as my heart beats

I'd like to think you're waiting for me
I'd like to think you're missing me
I'd like to think one day you're coming back
I'd like to think you're thinking about me
I'd like to think you've always been there
I'd like to think you actually loved me

That's why I don't like to think
It keeps me away from reality
It keeps me away from you
It takes me away from myself
I'm really losing it

cringe.
*******
     *******
*******
     *******
*******


you're immature
emotionally unstable
you're ******* rude
*******
*******

I love you
but you're an *******
I love you
but this will not work this way

I'm the biggest joke of all
because I believed you were different
I believed you were smarter
I believed you were wiser

go *******
go and forget about me
go and pretend to care about another one
go and pretend to love another one
go
just ******* go

In my mind
You never left
In my mind
You're still here
In my mind
Everything's okay
In my mind
We're laying side by side
In my mind
We're not lying to ourselves
In my mind
*I'm not dead

it's eating me
destroying me
complicating me
making me wonder
"is it?"

grabbing me by the wrists
grabbing me by the hair
grabbing me by the neck
grabbing me by every piece

every nerve
every cell
every single bone
every bloodstain

it's taking over me
and I like it
I enjoy it
and I don't want to end with it

Let me be your weakness
Let me be your biggest mistake
Let me be your sensitive nerve
Let me be your weakest bone
Let me be the one who hits you against the floor
Let me be the only one who wants you to die
Let me destroy you
Let me love you
But you just have to accept
That you're me

la fricción entre las uñas y la pared
el frío al sentarme en la silla
las noches cortas de verano
sonidos agudos
pérdida de conciencia
estornudos frustrados
ausencia